strangled thoughts

By SophisticatedNicole

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is this all i've become? More

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By SophisticatedNicole

I was apparently very creative on 4/25/16 jeez

Fears are running out of my mind. How did they know my weaknesses? Can I stop you  from being the only way out of my constant crashing? Maybe I don't want you to die. Is what I want mean nothing to you? You don't understand that I want to keep you alive. Still not over the next step in this place. I'm giving up on myself.

You left your mark on me. I love the ease of access to the top of the mountain. Really, I thought you were the world. Even if I could have been better, you wouldn't like it. Zero stars in the pool of black we call space. I'm not special, I'll cry if I hear your name, your voice, your thoughts. Know this, sometimes the only one who listens is your demons.

               Dying to see you
Screaming for the breath of death
               Torture is with us

My body has no sense of time why can't it just sleep like a normal human should

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