Next morning, I was vigorous then ever, I woke up at 7 did my yoga, had my breakfast and a low relaxing shower before my appointment, and I read my morning paper at the balcony of our room still in my bathing robe while Harry was still sleeping cluelessly
I put on a little makeup before I walked towards my closet to select an outfit, I slipped into the comfiest set of undies, and wore the elastic band that went up to the baby bump, still no clue what I was actually going to wear, I shuffled the hanging closet and frustrated enough I stood there groaning to myself, when I looked at Harry he was drooling in his sleep, I checked the time it was 8
"oh! Harold!" I shook him slowly as I mumbled his name, he frowned in his deep sleep
"It's 8:30, we're getting late to my appointment" he quickly opened his eyes and looked at me
"Good morning naked lady" he held my hand as he turned to his face that the duvet came off from shirtless body and again he closed his eyes
"Harold! You're again asleep" my voice came out a bit louder than I expected, he opened his eyes again shifting himself on his back he looked at me and we both smiled
"Come here" he tried to pull me in but instead I sat down near him, causing him to sit down
"Take a shower, I'll prepare your breakfast after getting dressed up" I said as he leaned forward before planting a soft kiss on the bridge of my nose sliding his hands behind my back, I put my head on his shoulder,
we stayed there silently, as the sadness of him leaving in two days was trying to overcome me once again, I sighed as he rubbed my back
"I have a name" he said and I pulled back and glared into his eyes, he licked his lips before smiling "Hazel"
"I love this name, and if it's a boy?" I asked and he laughed silently amusingly
"Trust me, it's a girl" he leaned his forehead against mine and we sighed in unison
"I have to get dressed, help me, what should I wear" I said annoyingly, he got up to walk towards my closet in his boxers
"Whatever you wear, suits you" Harry said stretching his arms as he shuffled the dresses and took out a purple shirt
"I can't wear whatever, this watermelon doesn't fits anywhere" I rubbed my belly and he chuckled, I walked towards him and held the dress "I can perhaps try it" I smiled at him
"If it fits" Harry stuck his tongue out to tease me
"Well I'm offended officially" I sighed as I looked at the dress
"Mommy's offended" Harry said in squeaky voice as he rubbed my belly with his large palms
"I can't even look at my feet now, it is also covering half of the floor" I mumbled and Harry embraced me laughing to himself "I feel like I'll erupt like a volcano one day" Harry bursts into laughter
"Oh! My hands...can't.. meet" Harry teased me while hugging and I slapped his chest playfully as he kisses my forehead
"Go! We're getting late" I had to practically push Harry in the bathroom I changed into the selected outfit and luckily I was satisfied, I quickly rushed downstairs to prepare breakfast for Harry, but Hoor had already managed everything keeping my doctor's schedule in her notice
"Good morning sunshine" Anne greeted Harry from where she was sitting across the dining table reading the morning paper
"Good morning Mum" Harry kissed the top of her head and took a glance at me from up and down he smiled
"Hello penguin, what you did to my wife" Harry chuckled before taking his seat
"I ate her, surprisingly enough she was yummy" I replied sarcastically as I poured mango juice for him, before taking a seat beside him
"Harry, do not call her that again, it's rude" Anne said politely sipping her morning tea she glared at him from above her glasses, Harry smiled sheepishly
"I won't" Harry said in a low voice as looked at me through corner of his eyes and I pursed my lips to control my laughter "she calls baby a watermelon, and she does the name calling herself, you can ask her" he tell on me and my mouth agape open in surprise at what he just did, and he just wiggled his brows at me before putting a forkful of omelette in his mouth
"My dear, motherhood is precious, I'm sure how you feel about the uneasiness of this phase, but live every moment of it, don't name call the baby like your husband does" Anne said sweetly and I smiled at her
"I aspire to be a mother like you" I said
"You will be a great mother, I'm sure" Anne smiled kindly at me and I blinked at Harry for his arrow didn't fire like he planned
"Let's go" Harry said wiping the corner of his mouth with napkin as he stood up
"Actually, I have to pee before we go" I laughed sheepishly as I stood up before walking away
"I'll be waiting for you in the car, my eggplant" he said teasingly and I laughed to myself at how Anne looked at him as he ran towards the main door before she says something
Arriving at doctors feels like a daily routine now, luckily Dr Andy was already there this time we didn't have to wait for him
"Just in time" Dr Andy greeted us with a smile as he was already reading my file
I was put on the ultrasound bed and I felt uneasy with the amount of gel that was on my belly, I looked through the black and white somewhat seemed like waves on the screen and didn't get a single thing, the lump was thumping on the screen and all of a sudden we heard it's heartbeat
"There you can see your little girl" Dr Andy pointed at the screen I didn't get a thing on the screen but somehow I believed him that it's a girl, I covered my face as I was about to burst into tears, Harry held my shoulders as his eyes welled up
"But! I'm afraid, you're not taking good care of yourself, she's not growing at the normal rate" Dr Andy took his seat and my heart sunk at his words
"What do you mean?" I asked, Harry held me close, and I tried to absorb what he was explaining about how delay in the growth of fetus results in more complications and can maybe lead to long term abnormalities such as renal failures or permanent brain damage to the baby, and also how I should take care of my diet to maintain normal blood pressure, stress is bad for baby, and how to keep the normal intake of minerals, including more medications, I couldn't hear him anymore, I just looked at the ultrasound shot on the screen and I felt like something was taken away from me, she was still there but I felt like I lost her
After the appointment I waited for Harry in car, parked opposite to the exit of hospital, while he was collecting more prescribed medications from pharmacy. I looked at a couple who seemed like they just had a baby, they were holding balloons, I smiled at the woman sitting on the wheelchair as she was holding a baby wrapped in sheets in her hands, they greeted the nurses happily as they hopped inside the car and drove away, I looked myself in the rear view mirror and held back my tears as I took in a deep breath before Harry opened the door to the drivers seat with the bag of medicines in his hands
he sat down silently and looked at me, we stayed quiet in the parking lot and didn't go anywhere, maybe it was our thing to feel what we were going through. I turned my body towards him and looked at him as he stared at the hospital building in front, I stretched out my hand to caress his cheek, he looked at me and sighed
"There's hope, but I'm definitely not going now" Harry said as he covered my hand in his giant palm
"Mr Styles, I know there's hope, and I know I can do it" I said sternly as he kissed my palm and smiled through teary eyes
"I can't, I just can't leave you now" he was disheartened
"I'd hate to lose as a mother, but I would certainly not lose myself as a wife here, I can't be selfish" I said holding back my tears, "I promise you, I'd take good care of our Hazel"
"I believe in you" Harry said as he leaned in forward and kissed me slightly before driving, and somehow I was relieved that I could convince the stubborn baby daddy, but deep down I knew how much I wanted to hold him and not let go
"Um! Cupcake" I squealed as we were driving past the café, Harry parked the car and we went through the storm of paps to the café. Harry sat down on the corner table as I walked to the counter and looked at the menu behind the counter lady eagerly
"Hi mam what's your order" she greeted me with a delightful smile and was still looking at the menu voraciously
"Hi! Do you guys make custom cupcakes?" I tapped the counter annoyingly, her smile was starting to get a little weary
"Yes mam! Take your time" she said as she was wrapping up a cupcake in a paper bag, along with the coffee, that j eyed on greedily "order for Rayyan" she called the name reading at the coffee cup and I froze there for a couple of seconds, a guy in a hoodie came from behind me holding a gigantic camera in his one hand, the ones that blind you when you try to walk past by, he was familiarly tall as I couldn't helped myself but observe him when he put the money on the counter and held the bag in his hand I noticed a very strange tattoo covering his fingers, he turned around and gazed into my eyes taking me by surprise as if he knew I was observing him
Rayyan
I recognized him, I recognized those same dark pair of eyes which appear in my nightmares more often then ever, he stopped and squinted his eyes at me as he smirked, I was at loss of words and I can sense my every goosebump arising in terror, I watched him leave and when I looked at Harry he was on his phone, he certainly didn't see him
"Mam! Can I take your order now?" The counter lady asked politely and I came to my senses and looked at the menu once again
"I'd love triple salted caramel cupcakes, lemon cupcakes along with the extra lavender frosting, and red velvets" I just read three rows of the menu, not in my right mind to customize my order and honestly I felt like my craving literally died seeing my worst nightmare in flesh
"Each two, to go" I added and I looked at Harry who peeked at me through his phone screen as he smiled at me and I returned one, there's no way I'm telling him who I just ran into, it took me a lot to convince him to go, I can't just scare him off by telling that hungry lion is on the loose again, I didn't realize he completed his prison sentence, maybe because I almost completely forgot about him.
That moment I just hoped that he doesn't causes any harm to me or the baby. Letting something happen to baby is the last thing on my mind.