It's been a day since Maddox, I guess it's ok to call him that in private, showed up. After one of the most embarrassing moments of my life I took a shower and couldn't stop thinking about everything that had happen. My Father gave the three of them a tour yesterday and came back to yell at me for disrespecting the alpha and him.
I was praying and hoping that yesterday would just go completely normal. I was supposed to stay quiet while the new Alpha walked into the pack, he'd talk to my Father a little and I'd go home only ever speaking to the alpha...well never. But that didn't happen, obviously.
I can't believe the Alpha saw me practically naked. I groan at the thought and pray I don't have to see him for at least a week, he'll probably be to busy with getting to know the pack.
It's already mid day and I've stayed in my room all day, I didn't want to be out there anyways. I lean back against my bed and sigh, it feels like I haven't run in ages and at this point I feel like I might explode. I'm getting out of here.
I slip down stairs as quiet as possible, hoping everyone is to busy to notice me. I peak around the corner to see my mom talking to my dad.
"Can you believe Everly? We're ruined" my Mother complains dramatically
"Alpha didn't say anything on the tour, we'll be fine" my Father says boredly and goes back to reading the paper
"I swear that child-..." I don't hear the rest, I slip past the stairs and head for the back door. I hear someone come down stairs so I open the door and squeeze out quickly into the fresh air. I don't take my time, I hastily run into the the woods behind my house and run as fast as I can to my usual running ground.
It's far out in the woods, I've never seen another wolf out here. It's cloudy today and calm, the pine trees sway in the wind and birds chirp in the distance. I smile as I get into the open field, small yellow wild flowers litter the grass and I smile feeling giddy just thinking about running.
I fall back in the grass and look up into the cloudy sky, black birds fly across the grey horizon. I smile closing my eyes and feeling the breeze drift past me, the grass tickling my exposed arms. I jump up and before I even realise it I change into wolf form, shredding my clothing.
I leap up and down and inwardly smile, god it feels like forever since I've shifted. I look down at my paws and legs, yup still black fur. I can't think about feeling sorry for myself or thinking I'm weak right now. I feel strong so for right now I am telling myself I'm strong. Changing feels like stretching after being cooped up in a little box, it feels like being able to scream after your lips are glued shut, it feels amazing. I sigh and run around the open field, I have to stay quiet just incase someones around but I still allow myself to let loose.
I let my claws dig into the dirt under me and race around the circular opening. God this is so great, it feels amazing to let loose like this, to not feel the pressure of my family's and the packs disgusted eyes on me. How could I feel this good, this powerful, and not be strong? Whatever, wether I'm weak or strong it doesn't effect them.
After over an hour of running and being silly I finally calm down and just when I'm about to shift back I realise something. I don't have any clothes...I shredded them. Shit. Maybe someone has a stash of clothes out here. I sniff around trying to find something to cover up with.
Finally I find a stash of clothes and figure out its actually Logan's. I feel a little weird stealing his clothes but it's the first thing I found. I quickly shift and pull the white t shirt over my head, it comes down to the top of my thighs and the only other thing is a pair of jeans. I wish he had shorts or boxers but I'll try this.
I pull up the jeans and no, they won't work. My feet are swallowed because of Logan's tall self and my petiteness and if I don't hold it up on my waist they fall. I sigh "whatever" I pull them off and fold them, placing them in the hollowed out tree
I'm only going back home and hopefully I'll slip in without being noticed. As I walk over tree limbs and into the lush grass, slipping through dense trees, I hold down the shirt so it doesn't ride up too much. I don't notice a uprooted root from one of the trees and my foot catches on it. I gasp and feel myself falling rapidly, my hands break my fall and I feel a breeze on my butt.
I wince and scurry up, pulling down the white shirt over my exposed behind. My god I can not stop embarrassing myself. I look down at my hands to see a few pebbles imbedded into my skin, a little blood coming up from the cuts. I groan and wipe it off on the T-shirt, well he won't be getting this back.
I rub my hands together, picking out the last few pebbles. I pick up a familiar scent and I quickly turn around to try and find the owner. I don't see anyone so I continue, picking up my pace. I look over my shoulder and then back again to see the last person I wanted. Alpha.
"Shit" I accidentally say out loud
I quickly hide behind a tree and hope he doesn't see me. I can't handle another embarrassing moment with him in the matter of 48 hours. I breath quietly and try to keep my heart rate down, praying he turned his wolf hearing off...but unlikely. The bark of the tree rubs annoyingly against my skin and it's rough on my hands as I clutch to it.
I hear his footsteps and I close my eyes, if he sees me in this I don't know what I'll do. His steps narrow in on me and soon I feel his warmth surround me but I'm afraid to open my eyes.
"Look at me" his voice shakes my inner most being and I jump at his words
I open my eyes to see him starring into my soul, he's just as handsome today as yesterday. His dark hair is messy and I have to physically hold down my hands to keep me from touching it. His molten eyes are so illuminating they make me want to look away. Something about the way he creases his brow and clicks his jaw makes everything about his even more intense. "I'm sorry Alpha" I say in a squeaky tone, my instinct to not look directly into his eyes
"What are you doing out here?" He asks in a flat tone
"Nothing, I was just going-"
"Do not lie to me" his voice goes deeper with each word that leaves his lips
I stay silent a moment "I went for a run" I say hardly above a whisper, my eyes trailing down to the ground
"Alone?" He asks, anger raising in his chest
"Yes Alpha" I nod
When he doesn't respond I hesitatingly look up at him through my lashes. His golden eyes move down my small body and my eyes move to my chest. First my bra and underwear now just a plain white T....great. I cross my arms and move to the side a little praying this shirt isn't see through "Then why are you wearing another wolves shirt?" He demands and I wince at his question
"I um....I forgot to bring a change of clothes and I shredded my other ones" I tell him honestly and a little embarrassed
"So you wore your boyfriends?" His tone changes completely from moments ago and I actually have to look at him to see if he's joking
I tilt my head "No this is my friends" the more I look up at him the smaller I feel
"Good" he says simply and I look away, ashamed "what happened?" He asks and when I peak up at him through my lashes he's looking down at my hands
"Oh, I fell" I tell him seeing the dried blood
His hands come into view and he grabs my hands with his. I pull back almost immediately "what-"
"Don't pull away from me" he demands, gold eyes turning dark "let me see" he says, this time softer. He takes a step closer to me and if it were anyone else I would have moved away but my feet are tied to the earth under me. I take a breath and the only thing I smell is him, it's better than the smell right after a thunder storm, or the smell of a fresh forest, or a blooming field of flowers. He places out his hand, waiting for mine.
I hesitantly place my hand in his, his thumb travels over my palm and I feel my breaths becoming more shallow and my heart pounding. His tough and large hands holding my small and smooth one, it feels like a perfect puzzle. "You'll live" he says and from his tone again I don't know if he's joking
But I still smile "I figured" I laugh a little and his eyes shoot up and to my lips
He clears his throat and shakes his head, moving away from me, his strong scent no longer surrounding me "please return back to your home immediately, no one can see you like this" again his tone changes and I raise an eyebrow but nod, I can't decide if I want to agree with his statement or be hurt by it
"Yes Alpha" I wait for him to walk away but he just continues to stand and stare. I inwardly curse and turn from the tree, as I walk away I feel his eyes blazing into my back. I hold the shirt down and tight, praying it hides enough of my butt.
I start to think about yesterday and cringe at the thought, my cheeks turning shades darker, giving me color in my pale face. "Alpha" I speak without realising, my eyes widen but I turn to him and continue "I um....just wanted to apologise for yesterday" I say softly
He raises an eyebrow and emotion crosses his face, a smirk grows on his beautiful full lips and I almost have to look away from how hot that is "don't" he turns away before I can say anything else, my eyes widen as my brain already starts to wonder what he meant
I walk back to my house in a blur, my mind trying to unreel and figure out our new alpha. What did he mean when he told me not to apologise for him seeing me like that? Or not wanting anyone to see me like this?
I shake my head and slip into the back door, I race up stairs before anyone sees me and step into the bathroom. While in the shower I go over the whole conversation in my head, playing out everything he could mean. I run my finger tips down my other hand remembering the feeling of his hand cuckooing mine...and how good it felt. Does he hate me? Did he really care if I was hurt or was he just doing that as an Alpha? I honestly can't tell.
I take my hands through my darkened silver strands, droplets of water still spread across my pale skin. I wipe my hand across the fogged mirror and stare at my reflection. My wet hair falls across my back and shoulders, my pouted lips look redder against my flushed face, the cut on my lip from when Victoria hit me yesterday already healed. My eyes grey like the moon sparkle like the stars. After a run I feel so much better about myself.
My eyes are ripped from the mirror and my heart is practically ripped from my chest as a pounding on the bathroom door starts "hurry up I need to get ready for dinner!" I hear my Sister yell and I tilt my head and clutch to my towel
I open the door "where are we going?" I ask she she storms past me
"No where dummy, the Alphas coming for dinner" she says already digging through her makeup bag
My eyes widen and the air leaves my lungs "he's what?" I ask out of shock
She huffs "he's coming for dinner" rolling her eyes she turns to me "whatever you do do not embarrass me or I will kill you" she snears and I walk away, into my bedroom
Shit. He's coming here? I think seeing him once today was enough for me...yet something inside my chest feels warm at the thought of being in his presents again.