"Anxiety" | Namjin (Editing)

By jinmademelikepink

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Social anxiety is the fear of being judged and evaluated negatively by other people, leading to feelings of i... More

Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Final Part 1
Final part 2
Special Chapter

Chapter 15

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"Sorry for the interruption, we have a ver important breaking news to deliver you. The former CEO of Kim's Corp. was found dead along with his wife on their house, we have no suspects of who committed the crime at the moment but neighbors said they saw a black van outside their house, if you have information of what could've happened please contact us on the number down below, this is Jung Hyun Nim with Kbc news, good afternoon."

Did I heard that right? My father? I thought falling on my knees.
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{Jin}

I was just staring at the floor not knowing what to do, Namjoon and his mother kept calling me but I was just shocked, I didn't know what to do. I did not felt happy and at the same time I did not felt as sad as I thought I would feel.

"Jin!!" Namjoon kneeled in front of me making me look at him.

"Hey, everything's gonna be okay I promise baby."
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We were all in the living room waiting for Mr. Kim to get home, 10 o'clock and no phone calls or anything about him, Mrs. Kim tried calling him but nothing.

It was 11 o'clock and I wanted to see the news to know if the discovered something about the death of my parents, surprisingly I haven't even let out a single tear fall out from my eyes.

When I turned on the tv the same reporter from this afternoon was talking.

"The murderer of the Kim family has declared himself responsible of the case, the police said they received a letter by a man named Kim Nam Hyun, who was years ago CEO of the company the victims were, it was said that they were very close to eachother, and what netizens find even more weird it's that he just disappeared.
The police are looking for him, if you have information about this case please contact us on the number you'll see on the screen, this has been Kbc news."

Mrs. Kim stood up abruptly from her seat grabbing her phone calling someone, while Namjoon just looked at me, his eyes showed rage, disbelief sadness and fear all together at the same time. Tears were threatening to fall and I didn't know what to do, he just kept looking at me and he hit the table that was placed infront of us.

"Did your family and you planned this?!? Tell me you fucking bastard!!!" He grabbed me by the collar while I was just crying and Mrs. Kim came to stop him.

"No Namjoon, come to your senses baby!!! You know it's not his fault!" She said sobbing.

"Dad's not capable of doing something like that and you know it! Get out of my house!!! You liar!!"

"Jin, dear please don't!! You'll be in danger!"

And like that I stormed out of the house running, I don't know where but I'll just let my feet take me wherever they want me to.

"Life is so tiring, I don't think I should honestly keep living anymore, would Namjoon miss me? He must hate me so much right now, should I go to the same place my father and mother are?" All these thoughts invaded me as I got into a bridge, down the bridge there was a huge bridge.

I was looking at it thinking if I should jump, then I make the first step and put a foot over getting up, when I was about to put another foot someone took me by my arms pulling me with an incredible force, I closed my eyes not wanting to know who was the person but his scent told me everything.

"ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY??!? What the hell do you think you're doing?!"

"Leave me alone please, I'm sorry!!!" I said sobbing and trying to get away from his grip but only failed.

"I'm the one who's supposed to be sorry!! I lost it awhile ago! But please don't do this to me!" He said also crying out and my heart broke even worse.

"Please stay away from a person like me."

"No" he said hugging me tight in his arms.
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On that night we got home and I decided to not take away my life but instead get to know what happened, Namjoon is now sleeping and I'm sitting at the living room watching the news.

"If you want to know what happened, please come to this location, there I will tell you everything, please bring your phone in case something happens." I got a text from an unknown number and I wanted to ignore what it says but I just can't sit and let life do its "work" I have to find out the truth.

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When I got to the location I found a neighborhood and quickly texted:

"Where are you?"

"Next to the small house to your left."

When I looked to my left I saw a boy around my age and he waved at me, he was with other boy also around my age, the motioned me to go to them so I did.

"Hey, my name's V and he's my husband Jungkook, your Kim Seok Hyun's son right?" (Wtf with that names but anyways xD).

"Yeah, and please don't hit me or anything I have nothing to do with him please." I said looking down and they laughed.

"We won't, I just wanted to tell you that we're "working" for him, kid your parents are not dead and that man that was the "culprit" is not the one, the reason I'm telling you this is that your father many years ago did the same to my now deceased parents, and I want everyone to know what he's been doing all this years."

"What should I do?" I said, at this point I don't know how I haven't gotten an Anxiety attack when I felt like I was going to have a mental breakdown.

"I know this is crazy, but if you come to live with us we can do it, this might take even a few years but we can do this, so what do you say?"

"B-but I have someone that's my couple right now."

"Well, that's for you to decide. When you make up your mind give me a call and if you decide to come to us we will welcome you with open arms." He said and smiled giving me a presentation card with his number on it.
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Should I do this? I know Namjoon will hate me forever but I need to do this for him and his family. But what if those guys are bad guys? They work for my father anyways.

My mind was full of thoughts and I can to a conclusion that I had to do this so when I got to Namjoon's home I took out a paper and a pen and started writing a letter.

"Hey, it's me Jin. I know that you probably will hate me even more for doing this to you but I have to, I can't stand the fact your mother and you are suffering so much because of me and my family. I'm really sorry, and I promise you Namjoon that I'll be back for you, so please would you wait for me? I love you so much you have no idea, I promise I'll take vengeance.

I love you,
Jin." Tears were leaving my eyes uncontrollably to the point where they looked like waterfalls, I placed the letter on the dining table and left the house with nothing but my phone.

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This chapter was shit ik Im sorry please don't kill me.

Love u :*

Btw!!

Is it me or he looks like baekhyun?! I mean it could be me bc I'm almost blind but... Damn son!!!

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