Well, hello world/How you been?/Good to see you, my old friend/Sometimes I feel cold as steel/Broken like I'm never gonna heal/I see a light,/A little hole,/And a little girl/Well, hello world~Lady Antebellum – Hello World
We stared at each other unblinking for a while, shock and utter excitement taking over just thinking of what this means. We were speechless, a tenfold of emotions pulling us under and smothering us. Will smiled with a huge goofy grin as he cupped my face, running his thumb over my cheek, the moment beautiful.
That is until the small sharp pain that stabbed me in my lower body, the feel I knew nothing compared to what was to come but it still had me sucking in a sharp breath that instantly set everything into place and had us moving.
Will was standing in a flash at the edge of our bed as he held out his hand his body to unable stop pumping with adrenaline and fidgeting. A tidal wave of emotions washed over us; excitement and anxiety the main of the two.
“Do you want me to carry you?” Will asked, his words tumbling together in an anxious adrenaline fuelled question.
I smiled faintly shaking my head as I cupped his face and drew him near as I gave him a loving kiss, letting my lips linger until I could feel his body relax beneath me. “It’s okay, I can walk.” I murmured softly.
Will nodded “Okay,” he said breathlessly kissing the top of my head before pulling his bedside draw open and pulling out his wallet, keys and mobile and then grabbing my handbag. “The baby bag and all that is in the Ute already.” He said reassuringly, most likely for his own benefit since I already knew. We've been ready and waiting for our gem for quite some time.
I smiled faintly, rubbing my stomach soothingly; just the simplest of touches being connected to our treasure had my shoulders relaxing and a huge smile on my face. I honestly I couldn’t wait to finally be able to nurse and hold our treasure instead of nursing our ultrasound photos or giant stomach. I just couldn’t wait; my body was trembling with utter glee and excitement. Plus the added nerves and adrenaline.
I left Will in his frantic state and made my way down the stairs knowing that by the time I got down the stairs he’d be there instantly, it wouldn’t take him long to catch up to me, the waddling penguin. Especially as I was taking on the stairs.
Before I could even take the first step Will was bundling me up in his arms “Oh no you don't.” He growled in distaste making me squeal in shock and laughter, my arms curling around his neck like some fifties black and white movie.
Will rushed us down the stairs in a blur, not caring to shut off the lights in the house but having at least enough sense to shut the front door. In a rush he made his way to the car and buckling me in “Now do you feel alright? Any pain? Contractions, aren’t you meant to be having contractions?” Will fretted seemingto have completely forgotten all about the countless information and books he'd absorbed desperately, he was fretting more with this pregnancy than me.
I shook my head breathlessly “They aren’t anything closer or serious, its okay sweetie, just calm down.” I murmured squeezing his hand reassuringly.
That didn't stop him from though from crouching down and kissing my swollen belly “Now you patient you hear me little gem? Just ‘till we get to the hospital.” He murmured rubbing his hand along my stomach.
I smiled rolling my eyes and before I knew it Will was diving into the driver’s seat and we were pulling out of the driveway and racing down the drive. “Will sweetie calm down, it’s alright.” I soothed grabbing a hand of his hand twining our fingers as I rest it on my stomach.
Will squeezed my hand back “I don't know how you’re taking this so calmly darlin’, I feel as if my chest is about to explode at any second.” He said honestly, exhaling a deep breath and I squeezed his hand back.
I smiled softly kissing his hand I held “Just think, in the next twelve hours or so we’re going to have our little treasure in our arms, nothing bad is happening out of all of this.” I murmured softly, reassuringly.
Will took a deep breath “I know, you’re right. Sorry.” He murmured “I shou- Ah!” he protested quickly looking over at me, startled.
I hissed my hand strangling and crushing Will’s at the sharp pain shooting through the lower part of my body. I tried to breathe evenly through it as coached by Will and learnt from our classes, something I knew to do from movies alone though. The pain didn't last long at all since it was only the early hours. Yet feeling that first contraction suddenly set the nerves and anxiety in, I was going to give birth right now and it was going to kill.
“Did....did you call our parents?” I asked taking a deep breath as shutting my eyes as I realized I was going to need all the strength I could get.
Will shook his head “I’ll call them once we’re at the hospital, don't stress, its okay it’s going to be okay, I promise.” He reassured now taking control whereas I was now the one freaking out beyond means at all the thoughts spiralling through my head at how we weren’t read when really we had been ready for months now.
"And get them to go back to the house and lock up. And swap the other cars around, we can't take our baby home in a two seater." I paused on a hiss, my teeth grinding "And once we're there I'll need to change into a hospital gown, I got your shirt drenched." I whimpered sadly, I'd stolen his largest and most strechable shirt for bed time and now it was drenched at the end with...fluid. It was ruined.
"Hey, hey darlin', it's okay. I've got it covered." he cooed soothingly, his voice so lulling that I was positive he'd be best when it came to putting our little one to bed "And as for the shirt, once we get back home with our treasure we can wash it or hell you can steal another one of my smaller ones. You've been saying you can't wait to lose the big stomach." he squeezed my hand soothingly, a little uncertain when it came to talking my weight not to mention keeping me composed and not a snivelling mess.
"You always know just what to say." I breathed, my knuckles whitening as I gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.
Before I knew it Will was pulling up at the town’s local and only hospital. Will rushed me in; the nurses called Felicity in, found me a wheelchair and prepared a room for me. All the whilst Will called up our parents and friends letting them know the baby was on the baby, none of them took the offer of visiting later in the morning, all of them hung up saying they’d be their shortly, no matter how long the labour would take.
Whilst waiting for our room to be ready Will crouched down before me rubbing my stomach and kissing random parts of my body as he cooed soothing and reassuring words to me, or helped me throughout the contractions and my breathing. The contractions grew more and more closer together and quicker as time wore on and it felt as if someone had turned my stomach into rock and was coiling itself tighter and tighter around me to the point I felt as if all my bones were about to snap. From there on in things became a frantic blur mixed and stirred in with the oncoming slaughter and strain of the pain the contractions pulled me in and under.
♥
The next nine hours was a rollercoaster ride of tears, sweat, cursing, accusation and more sweat and tears. It was the most excruciating pain I had ever experienced and it left me in a sobbing mess. Will was a saint holding my hand the entire time letting me break his bones and taking on the chin all the insults and accusation I through his way and trying to reassure me I didn’t need any more drugs or a c section.
This baby was certainly late and had dug their heels in but this labour seemed like it was going to be the quickest one in history. They wanted out, and now.
Felicity was there the entire time encouraging and complimenting, speaking of how well I was doing and how proud she was of me. Will and her both encouraging and reassuring me greatly and looking after me, not that I paid much attention because all I wanted was for this to be over with and to sleep.
It was grueling, this labour wasn’t some crazy twenty four hour one or such but nine hours was hell of enough time for me. I was screaming and crying, gasping for breath and my body was coated with blood, sweat and tears, salt attacking my taste buds.
“We’ve got the head through!” Felicity cried her face so ecstatic. I would have thought after having to deliver so many babies she’d grow tire of it, but it seemed to be the complete opposite.
I cried squeezing Will’s hand greater, the other clawing the side of the bed's railing as I tried to take a deep calming breath. “Is everything alright?” Will asked for me, his voice growing ecstatic as he reached for the now barely damp cloth and dabbing my face with it, brushing my hair from my face he kissed my temple.
“All seems alright, we’re going to only need one more big push Tanze and than bubba should be able to ease through easily.” She coached me, holding my eyes “Just one more push, you can do this, I know you can.” She reassured me, her eyes telling me how much she really did believe in me.
I nodded breathlessly sobbing some more against the pain and the grueling exhaustion within me. I wanted with every fiber in my body to just relax and let the darkness to sweep me away so I could get more strength. I knew I couldn’t though, I knew that for our baby to be safe I needed to do this here and now, no matter how much I felt as if I was going to pass out or die. I needed to do this and at the end of the day if it meant our little baby was going to be in our arms so be it. I'd do it all over again if I had to.
“Just one more darlin’, just one more.” Will cooed kissing my forehead, brushing the hair from my eyes as I nodded still catching the sob.
The room was full with a tidal of shouts and screams, both Will and Felicity encouraging me and yelling to me to push, their words becoming a distant muffle. Than there was sole my scream as I pushed against the pain and just pushed some more. My ears protested, I could hear literally nothing against the mix of sounds and screams, until I heard the most musical sound possible.
Our baby’s cries and screams.
In that moment it was like literally everything had been lifted off my shoulders, the pain instantly going away and any other worry, doubt and even my exhausted body. My focus was solely on the musical cry of our baby.
“She’s alright!” Felicity shouted out “But just push a bit more sweetie so we can get your placenta fully out.” She coached and I complied giving it all I got since I desperately wanted to see our girl, it wasn’t much effort though and finally the pushing was finally over.
My eyes grew looking over at Will “She? We had a girl?”
He bent down and over my legs to look in between my legs, his eyes wide in utter awe “We had a girl….we have a baby girl.” He whispered his voice choking up, and when I look sure enough I could see his eyes glistening in the light. Felicity guiding his shaking hands to cut the umbilical cord of our baby, of our little girl.
I sobbed trying to see our little girl when all I could see was a whole bunch of muck between my legs that made me want to honestly gag. But the sight of our little girl covered in that muck screaming had me sobbing softly in utter relief and awe “She’s beautiful.” I blubbered like a fool as my body slumped in against Will. Felicity smiled and before I knew it our little one was getting carried away “Wait, where’s she going? Bring her back.” I sobbed in protests.
Will chuckled softly, brushing the hair from my eyes as he placed a tender kiss to the top of my head, his arms wrapping tightly around me and pulling me in tight “It’s alright darlin’, they’re just cleaning her up and making sure she's healthy.” He cooed kissing the top of my head again, this moment so intimate and beautiful.
I nodded weakly sobbing “I can’t believe we had a little girl.” I trembled curling into his arms as I looked up at Will with wide eyes.
Will looked down at me “I love you, so much.” He whispered as he leant in and tenderly kissed me, the kiss the most memorable and beautiful kiss possible. I hummed softly back in response as my weak and trembling hands rested on his cheeks.
“Now have you two decided on a name?” the nurse asked coming back as she began cleaning up so we could get ready to move to our private room.
I looked up at Will again as we shook our heads “Not yet.” Will answered.
We had a list of names but in all honesty I thought we were going to have a boy so I hadn’t thought much on girl names. I still had a whole bunch of names for girls but as I mulled over them none of them sat with me and by the looks of things Will was in agreement. None good enough for our little girl.
“That’s alright, there’s no rush.” She nurse nodded smiling as she helped clean me up and then left us be, herself working briskly and orderly, especially since we were eager to get back our little gem and have some privacy in our own room.
“I think someone wants to meet you.” Felicity sang walking towards us with a mighty grin.
My eyes opened wide, my body still slumped in against Will as he supported my fatigued body nevertheless my body turned sharply towards Felicity and my eyes began to instantly tear up again, my hands opened wide wanting our little girls in our arms. Felicity smiled at me before helping me accommodate our little babe into our arms and leaving us alone.
The sight of her in my arms had me choking up even more. I sobbed a hiccup “She’s so beautiful.” I whispered; as I tentatively reached down to touch her skin, her skin looking so fragile, like a flower’s petal. I let my finger stroke her tiny little cheeks and the touch of her skin beneath me sent me over edge and I was a blubbering mess.
Will had his arms wrapped around my own arms, cradling our little girls head gently in his own hands thumb softly stroking her forehead “She’s perfect.” He whispered his voice so smooth and silky, the both of us in awe as he kissed the top of my head, his voice choking on emotion. I looked up and sure enough there were tears, I reached up wiping at his eyes, the fact alone that Will was crying said it all.
I sighed slumping further into his arms as we held her, the both of us just looking down at her speechless, she was an angel, our beautiful little angel. No words could explain how exactly I – we – felt just now, no words could live up to this indescribable feelings of awe, devotion, low and pure happiness.
I held her tight as I nestled myself even deeper into Will’s arms, the moment perfect with the three of us wrapped up tight around one another, in a blissful silence as we just watched our little girl sleep, her skin so silky smooth and her body ever so tiny, she was so innocent and beautiful in a angelic way. It was in that moment that I realized my life revolved around her solely and I’d do anything in the slightest to bring her happiness and safety.
“She has hair.” He said softly, laughing weakly in awe. I nodded hiccupping a laugh also “She has your hair.” He murmured her hair a soft yet beautifully vibrant red as he reached down and kissed the top of her head.
“I wonder whose eyes she’ll have.” I thought out loud.
Will kissed the crown of my head “I hope she has your gorgeous eyes, than she’d be a clone of you and so beautiful.” He murmured softly.
I smiled faintly “She doesn’t look just like me, she has your nose.” I said as I traced her nose gently “But do you know what? I want her to have your eyes.” I whispered softly my gaze unmoving from our little treasure.
"I just can't believe we made something so...perfect. You, I can. But me I..." he trailed off enchanted.
“Sweetie?” I whispered softly moments later, the moment too beautiful to speak any louder.
“Mmmm?” he murmured kissing my temple causing me to smile softly.
“What are we going to name our little treasure?” I whispered softly, running the back of my finger along her soft little cheek.
Will hummed softly nestling his chin on my shoulder as he drew me closer “Do you have any names you like?” he murmured softly, reaching in to kiss my cheek for the hundredth time, his euphoria of affection making me feel ever so dizzy and cleansed. How happy I felt right now I honestly didn’t think it was possible.
I shook my head “Nothing does her justice, not even angel.” I murmured softly in all honesty, Will hummed softly in agreement. “What about you, do you have any names?” I asked softly. It was quite for a moment and I turned slightly to look at him over my shoulder “Do you?” I asked curiously.
Will met my gaze “I have….one.” he murmured softly, his eyes tender and oh so beautiful.
I smiled softly reaching up with one hand and stroking his jaw line “What is it?” I whispered reaching up and kissing his chin.
“Summer.” He whispered his gaze moving down to our little girl covered in an adorable pink thick blanket.
I smiled looking back down at our little girl “Why Summer?” I whispered, smoothing out her blanket around her and making sure it was fitted well.
“Because we conceived her in the summer, the month that we really fell in love and our past was pushed aside.” He murmured softly, his fingers smoothing out over our little girls forehead “Because she’s as beautiful and as warm as summer.” He whispered kissing my shoulder, where my hospital gown had slid over my shoulder.
I smiled softly looking back up at him “I love it.” I whispered honestly. “Summer Creed.” I murmured trying it out softly, my smile growing.
“What about her middle name?” he murmured softly kissing my forehead, leaving his lips pressed to my skin.
“Adelaide.” I whispered suddenly “I don’t know why but I like the name Adelaide.”
Will smiled “Summer Adelaide Creed.” He murmured softly, testing the name on his tongue, running his thumb along her tiny little chin “I love it, it suits our little gem.”
I smiled as I cooed down to our life; her father’s brown chocolate hue eyes peering up at us “Hey Summer, we’re your mummy and daddy and we love you so much.”
♥
“I can’t get over how tiny she is.” Jackie cooed down at Summer as she held her in her arms, finally having caught the hang of nursing our little girl. I wanted with all my might to reach out and bring her back into my arms again, but I bite my tongue.
I smiled snuggled into Will’s arms as I had literally begged him to crawl into the hospital bed with me. My back was pressed to his front, his legs on either side of me as he ran his fingers through my hair the other sitting on my stomach “I’m going to miss your swollen stomach.” He murmured softly so only I could hear with our room in the hospital being full.
It had been a couple hours and Will, Summer and I had all be relocated back to our own private room where we had spent the past couple hours alone and resting. I had rested my eyes for a while snuggled in with Will as he nursed Summer and the nurses took her away for a bit for a checkup and such.
Now the entire family clan was in here; my dad and Will’s parents than there were Adam, Amber, Grant, Gabe, Ty, Jackie and Brooke. All of them clambered into the small private hospital room – much to the nurse’s disapproval – and all took turns at cooing over and staring at Summer in wonder and awe. All of them gushed and cherished her already, Summer bringing even dad and Will’s parents to tears, Liz the worst plus my two best friends.
The declaring of who our godparents were to be for little Summer had even more in tears, Will and I had decided Summer’s god parents were to be Brooke and Ty, they balanced one another as godparents. What with Ty being the eccentric and crazy joker that he was and Brooke being the more so composed and gentle one, it balanced out perfectly. We reassured Gabe and Jackie – who also both balance each other out – they were going to be the next god parents. We decided on friends seeing since Grant, Adam and Amber are blood related, but our mates deserved to have something else to keep them visiting all the time, even if it was at the most inappropriate times.
Dad was soon walking over nursing Summer again as he kissed the top of my head and continued humming softly to Summer who was still snoozing, the most adorable girl on the planet. “She’s precious Tanze.” He murmured softly cooing down at our little one, his eyes still awed and bleary from the tears before. “You’re going to be the most spoilt girl going, and you’re going to kill your grandpappy here.” He cooed down at her his eyes shining.
I looked up at Will smiling, nestled in his arms still as my body was so exhausted, I had promised Will that as soon as our visitors left I’d sleep to satisfy him and his worries. Will smiled down at me and kissing the top of my head before talking to dad “She’s going to have everyone wrapped around her little fingers.” He smiled laughing lightly and rich.
Dad chuckled as I let my eyes rest a little longer curling into his side with a huge goofy grin “I think she’s going to kill some hearts, you’re going to have your hands full champ.” Dad chortled and I laughed softly feeling my body slowly unwind, with Will’s hand trailing through my hair.
“Guys,” I heard Liz whisper “I think we should head out, let Tanze here rest and get some shut eye. The poor thing looks exhausted.” She whispered softly thinking I was already asleep.
“I’m alright.” I murmured softly, my words slurring together.
Will chuckled softly “You need to sleep darlin’.” He murmured kissing my temple.
Slowly and one by one each of the people in the room came over and bid us farewell, some kissing me on the top of the head and murmuring sweet words to me. Dad bent down and kissed me on the top of my head “You have no idea how happy you’ve made me.” he whispered softly, handing Will Summer and leaving us alone in the room.
The soft sound of Summer crying slightly and shortly had my eyes opening wide and alert, Will sent me a pointed look that clearly said sleep. I shook my head “I don’t want to.” I whined.
Will leant down kissing the crown of my head “She’s going to be here when you wake up.” He murmured softly even though every inch of my body wanted to sleep another part of me didn’t, I didn’t want to miss a thing.
“Sleep darlin’, we aren’t going anywhere.”
♥
I was awoken hours or maybe even minutes later to the cries of Summer, her strangled and fearful cries shaking me awake and out of my dreamless heavy sleep. Maybe it was a mother's instinct or just that I had finally had some rest but when I awoke I was more awake and on my toes than before, attentive.
My eyes searched the room to find Will walking around the room bouncing little Summer in his arms as he sang softly to her, singing a random song he made up as he went, bouncing and rocking her gently as he walked slowly around our little room, shushing and soothing our little girl.
“Come on baby girl daddy is here, daddy’s going to protect you.” He murmured softly as she continued crying softly “Do you want to know why? 'Cause your daddy is a werewolf, and I’ll tell you a little secret.” He cooed his voice turning to a dramatic hushed whisper that I could barely hear “I may be scary to others but just between you and me I’m just a big softie.” He murmured bouncing her gently around once again.
I smiled watching them, not letting him know that I was awake, I was happy to just watch him, them. The sight of Will nursing and talking to our little girl as the early morning sun was just setting and glittering in through the window as he spoke to her, his smile only growing greater which I honestly didn’t think was possible. He looked so natural and comfortable, as if he was made to solely be the most loving father.
“Shhh it’s alright baby girl, mummy is just resting her eyes, she’s just sleeping.” He cooed softly as he rocked Summer.
My smile grew. Mummy. I was a mum; Will and I were parents to our little girl. It hadn’t sunk in until now and the realization of it took my breath away. Of the future; holiday trips, Christmas, birthdays and even the first day of school. Looking at her I didn’t want to see her grow up, I didn’t want her to grow before my eyes and vanish from my hold. I didn’t want to let go when she’d only just come into the world and stolen my heart and my breath.
“Look,” Will gasped dramatically once again, my eyes instantly flying up to meet his wide mocking eyes, acting absolutely stunned “mummy is awake.” He cooed as he smiled wide at me.
“Hey.” I murmured softly sitting up straighter in bed or at least trying. Apparently, according to Felicity, I’m going to be feeling awfully sore and stiff for quite some time and am going to need the help of Will and my family members and friends.
Will smiling broadly walked over kissing the top of my head “Hello darlin’, are you feeling better?” he asked softly.
I nodded smiling “Much better.” I whispered softly reaching in to share another tender kiss.
Will smiled brushing the hair from my eyes “Baby girl here has been crying for you.”
I smiled bigger holding out my arms wide and excitedly, eager for our little one. Carefully and with a smile of his own he helped me adjust Summer in my arms and than sat on the edge of the bed beside me, I scooted over giving him some more space as he sat on the bed with me, side by side.
I rocked Summer in my arms as I cooed to her “Hey there my little gem, how are you? Were you keeping daddy up?” I sang softly, bouncing her softly in my arms.
Will smiled wrapping his arms around me “One of the nurses, Sarah I think, said we’re going to have to try feeding her again soon.” He murmured softly, stroking our little girl’s cheeks softly and slowly.
I hummed softly in acknowledgment, planting a loving kiss to our little girl’s forehead as she calmed down. “I missed you too my little treasure.” I whispered against her tiny forehead “And mummy loves you so much, don’t you forget that.”
Will leant in and kissed my temple, I sighed softly as my head tilted into his touch “Will?” I murmured softly, he hummed back in response “Thank you so much.” I whispered “You’ve given me everything I’ve ever wanted and healed all my scars and made me the happiest girl alive, I never knew I could love so much. And that’s thanks to you, I love you so much.” I whispered, turning my face closer into him.
Will planted millions of little butterfly kisses along my face making me giggle and scrunch my nose up only for his smile to grow. Will sighed happily “Do you want to know the main reason why I thought of the name Summer?” he asked softly.
I turned curling tighter into his hold, being cautious of Summer as she snoozed “Why’s that?” I asked him curiously loving the sparkle of utter happiness in his eyes. It made me so proud knowing that I had made him this happy and I loved seeing him this happy, not seeing the loathing in his eyes about himself or that faint glimmer of doubt.
Finally I pieced it all together as a soft gasp passed my lips “You don’t see yourself as a monster anymore.” I murmured softly piecing it together.
Will smiled softly with a nod “I’ve been happy – or so I thought – my entire life, and as corny as it sounds there’s always been something missing, like this festering gaping hole. Then you walked in and you honestly healed me, and I finally understood what it truly meant to be happy.” He said softly, holding my eyes the entire time as I looked up at him unblinking from his chest, my eyes welling with tears at his beautiful words “You’ve made me so happy darlin’, you honestly have no idea. And this summer, having you become my soon to be wife and watching you carry our little girl and now seeing her in your arms and making my dreams of a perfect happy family real and beyond possible it's just….” He trailed off struggling for words as he ran his hands through his hair “Seeing our baby girl, as soon as I laid my eyes on her I realized that for me to be able to help create and father such wonderand something just so….beautiful….what monster can create such beauty?” he murmured softly kissing my forehead.
I smiled softly kissing his shirt where his heart laid below “I love you.” I whispered “Forever and always.”
“I love you too, I love the both of my girls so, so much.” He murmured his voice so rough with utter seriousness, his voice so intimate, honest and full of loving emotion, making my heart flutter.
“You know, they always say to love someone else you have to learn to love yourself first.” I whispered as I curled my little family close into my body, holding them tight and never letting them go “But that isn’t it.” I whispered shaking my head “Love is about saving each other from your fears and healing those scars and just making them feel alive.” I whispered honestly.
Will smiled lovingly, the back of his hand stroking my cheek causing my breath to hitch “You saved me darlin’.” He whispered his eyes blazing with intensity.
“We saved each other.”
________________________
Click the external for my Facebook page
So you guys know my drill; vote, comment and tell me what you think and maybe give me a fan, yeah? Do it, I dare you ;) ♥
-------------------------------------
All Rights Reserved
Copyrighted Material ©
-------------------------------------