Merthur Oneshots

Bittersweet symphony

I can't change what happened and that is exactly what makes me feel this way. I keep on listening to all the sad songs that exist. Because I need to hear some sounds that recognise the pain in me. I've tried listening to some happy songs, but that only makes me wanna curl up and cry even more. I used to relate to them for a while. I was okay. Why does grief always ruin everything? Why does grief always hit me in the face just when I start feeling better? Why can't I just live a happy life and still remember you. I don't want to forget you. And feeling this pain reminds me how important you are to me. But this pain is like no other. There is nothing I can do about this. The only thing I can try is to carry on. I want to. I believe I can.