A/N: Trigger warning! Mentions child abuse.
chocolates;
an abomination, a guilt trip,
a casual walk down parks,
a sneaky kiss behind fountains,
a mislead hand on pale thighs
i eat them to
keep me strong
make me remember
relearn the learned
i hate kinder joys the most
a false hope of
a happy childhood
of a bright future
plastic smiles of toys
vibrant colours on shelves, how naïve
kit kats are horrible
"have a break," it says
dad took them literally
bones snapped, bruised skin
hushed voice
"keep it a secret
for daddy"
toblerones are ferocious
it reminds me of fights
i barely won
of victories as eyes opened
to injustice
i deserve better
snickers are freedom
moved away, far from
torturous weekends
i ate to feel
better, to be
alive
be invincible
twix are annoying
shifty eyes
curious hands
"lift up your skirt."
city life is bothersome
men are disgusting,
beasts
cadburies give me hope
walnut orbs, ginger strands
loving smiles
held hands
true kiss
shivers
valrhonas make me smile
"baby, I wanna
be with you
for the rest of my life."
falling tears, butterflies
busy feet, long receipts
weddings bells
mars bars are laughter
thrown up one
winter evening
nervous test, happy screams
big belly, mad cravings
happily ever
after
and now here i am
two daughters
loving husband
crap father
happy house
can't believe i still am a
chocolate lover
maybe
i became better
maybe
life is sweeter
maybe chocolate,
dare i say,
made me
stronger :)