His plump, soft lips on mine felt like heaven. My hands tangled in his dyed-blonde hair, legs wrapped around his waist, with his hands resting on my hips. The way he kisses with such passion made me wish this moment never ended. Too soon we had to pull away for air, both breathing hard. I rested my forehead on his, just looking into his eyes.
He gently kissed me again before breathing out, "I love you Alexa.” I giggled in response and kissed him before saying, "I love you more Niall." He brought his lips to my ear and whispered," Not possible." In that moment I realized, I was truly in love with Niall Horan and he was truly in love with me. He was the one for me and he was all mine and vice-versa.
He looked back into my eyes with the most serious expression on his face. I searched his eyes as he did the same for me, but for some reason they were unreadable for me.
"What’s wrong?" I asked.
He hesitated before answering. "I’m no good for you." he said, dead serious.
"That's not true Niall. You’re the best thing for me. I want you... I need you." I said starting to get worried.
"No, Alexa. I’m no good for you and you’re no good for me," he said, his eyes the darkest they've ever been.
"What do you mean, Niall?" the tears were building at the edge of my eyes.
"I mean we can't be together anymore. We can't happen." I was in utter shock.
"Why are you doing this?" I ask releasing the first tears.
"God, Alexa, stop!" Niall said pushing me off his lap and standing up," You're so damn emotional! I mean can't you just accept that I don't want you anymore?!" Niall screamed.
"What has gotten into you? Where is all this coming from? Before you flipped out we were perfect. You had just told me you loved me."
"I was lying! I tried to let you down easy, but you had to go cry like the baby you are! I’m done, Alexa! We’re over!" he screamed at the top of his lungs. He pushed me to the side and made his way for the door. I sat there in disbelief. He grabbed his jacket and put on his sunglasses. He reached for the door knob and I swear I heard him say, "I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it." But it didn’t matter. He walked right out the door, out of my life, never to return again.
LLLLLLLLLLLLLL
Red. Warm. Blood.
That was the last thing I remember. It was everywhere, covering everything. Niall’s body, laying in my arms, not moving. Hunter calling, but I can barely hear him. Men invade the basement prying me off of Niall, but surprisingly I didn’t fight back. I let my eyes fall. What was weird was that darkness didn’t take over… it was bright white, peaceful, and I liked it.
******
There he was. My prince! He had the biggest smile on his face. I ran and jumped into his arms. We kissed and it was unimaginably perfect.
“I love you! Ok! I love you, Niall! You can’t leave me! I need you!” I pleaded, while tearing up.
“Shhhh… Baby I’m not going anywhere. I love you more than anything.” His sweetness and confirmation brought tears of joy to my eyes.
He looked into my eyes and started to sing.
“Well if we had the words in times like these
We wouldn't have to stare
We'd both know what to say
And how to pray the things to do to save the day
Some will call it sacrifice
They'll look at this and never see
The beauty or how much it means
The blood that runs inside of me”
He was perfect. Like an Angel. I absolutely loved this song, but I loved it a lot more when I heard him sing it.
“I know you understand
That there's no map for this, no plan
And the way we say goodbye
Is not that way that anyone would do
Like a wave out on the ocean
I will always come right back to you
Like we blinked
Not a moment is gone
We'll pick up where we left off”
Though I loved the song I was wondering why he picked this one to sing.
“It's like the world is draped in a camouflage
And sometimes never what it seems
Everyone's got different things
They hide behind or try to be
But the things I carry with me
All remind me who I am
When so much of me is not with me
What matters most is what I leave
Behind for you to keep
Yeah, so smile when you think of me”
“Niall? What’s going on?” He didn’t answer, just kept singing.
“And though the way we say goodbye
Is not that way that anyone would do
Like a wave out on the ocean
I will always come right back to you
Like we blinked
And not a moment is gone
Yeah we'll pick up where we left off
Oooh, Oh
Oh the way we say goodbye
Is not the way that anyone would do
Like a wave out on the ocean
I will always come right back to you
Nothing changed, nothing fades, nothing lost
And we pick up where we left off.
Oooh, No, Oh, No, Oooh, Oooh”
“Niall, why’d you sing that song?” I asked really confused
“Because we will pick up where we left off soon enough. But not right now. You need to wake up and carry on. Think of me when you smile. Live your life. Don’t worry about me. I won’t be gone for too long.”
“What are you talking about? What’s going on? I’m not leaving you!”
“You have to wake up, Alexa.”
“No! I’m not leaving, Niall!” I screamed letting the tears role out as I clutched onto him for dear life.
“Wake up. Wake up. Wake-“his voice disappeared and now it was all black.
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I wake up in so much pain. I’m laying comfortably in a comfy bed though. I try to open my eyes, but my eyelids just feel too heavy. It smells of cleaning supplies, wherever I am. I hear a beeping noise in the background with another distinct sound… sobbing. Why is someone crying? Where am I? Suddenly, I feel a slight squeeze on my left hand. It kind of hurts, but not a lot. Why is someone holding my hand? I also feel a slight pinch in my right arm. It stings before it feels normal again. My curiosity is getting the better of me, so I fight my eyelids. I crack my eyes open before immediately shutting them. The lighting is extremely bright, it’s unbearable. I groan in pain. I feel a headache coming on.
“Alexa? Alexa?” a familiar voice asks, breaking at the end.
“Hunter? Where am I? What’s-” I couldn’t even finish the sentence before breaking out into a major coughing fit. My mouth and throat were so dry. Soon something was brought up to my lips and water poured out. I gulped it down. Why was I so dehydrated?
“Alexa, everything’s ok. You’re in the hospital. You were brought after the attack. You’re fine now.” Hunter explains.
“How long have I been here?” I asked as the memories of that night flooded back.
“3 weeks,” he answered.
“What about Niall? How is he? Where is he?” I asked opening my eyes and looking around. The room wasn’t all that bad, but Niall wasn’t here with me.
“Ummm, Alexa, maybe you should get some sleep. I’ll go get the doctor.” Hunter said loosening his grip on my hand, but I tightened mine before his grasp was gone completely.
“Where’s Niall, Hunter? Is he ok?” I gave him my pleading eyes and he looked back sorrowfully. Then I remembered that monster that put us in that situation.
“Where’s Jake? He’s dead Right? I killed him right?” I asked for confirmation.
“Alexa you really need-“
“HUNTER ANSWER MY DAMN QUESTIONS!” I screamed in frustration.
He shook his head. “Niall’s not responding. He’s not doing well at all. The doctors are doing everything they can but they don’t think he’ll make it.” He said not looking me in the eye. My grip loosened. “And they never found Jake. When they reached you guys downstairs in the basement… it was only you two… Jake wasn’t there and neither was his body.” My grips let go completely. I looked at Hunter as he finally made eye contact with me. The tears in his eyes made it worse. I couldn’t believe this. Everything’s gone. Everything’s broken. Everything’s doomed. The darkness took over again and I didn’t fight it.
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