entry sixteen
"I can't sleep at night when you are on my mind'
I am in bed, regretting about everything that happened when we talked. I really wish we talked for more than three hours.
Why? During those three hours, I talked about myself for at least thirty minutes, as the rest was you talking.
The only time I talked was at the restaurant, before we left to walk around the dark streets.
You talked about how your manager was setting up a plan with your music videos, but he didn't go in very detail. You just knew that all the music videos had to be in a series, and in those videos, there will be hints for the deep message.
That's all I remember you talking about. My mind focused only on one thing- telling you how long I was going to live. As I am writing this, tear drops are spilling over this page.
I've been crying less lately, as if I cannot produce more tears. I really
wish we could spend a day, a week, a month, or even a whole damn year together. I just miss your cheeky smile, your genuine laugh, your smell, your kisses, and your hugs.
"I'm trying to keep it together, but i'm falling apart"
I didn't say this last night, but I truly love you and I hope there will be a next time when I tell you before it is too late.
an;
Song- We Belong Together by Mariah Carey *the original queen*