Erick
"Hola bella." I say to Camila as I give her a big warm hug.
"Hola," she says back smiling. "Hueles muy rico."
"G-Gracias." I smile at her. I'm lowkey blushing because she said I smelled good.
"Sorry, no quise sonarme rara solo es la verdad." I say.
"No te preocupes," I tell her. "Y te acuerdas que quedamos que no te ibas a disculpar cada cinco minutos." I remind her. I hate how she always apologizes because that's how Zabdiel makes her feel, like if she needs to apologize for everything.
"Si, si me acuerdo." She says and we both sit down on the white sofa. "¿Te puedo pedir perdón por una cosa?"
"¿A ver qué es?"
"Perdón otra vez por no contestar tu llamada." She apologizes.
"Está bien."
"¿Te puedo preguntar por qué me hablaste?"
"Solo me sentía un poco mal y pues tú me ayudas en sentirme bien so por eso te hable. Perdón si te moleste." I explain myself. It's ironic how the only girl that can break my heart can also make me feel better.
"No me gusta que te sientas mal." she pouts. "¿Podemos hablar ahorita?" She suggests.
"¿Te acuerdas que el martes hable de mi abuela contigo?" I try to refresh her memory and she nods.
"La empece a extrañar mucho más de lo normal y pues me puse triste." I say.
"¿Lloraste verdad?" She knows me so well.
"Me conoces tan bien, Camila." I admit.
"Ay mi Erick." Camila embraces me in her arms causing my heartbeat to quicken. The way she's running her hands through my hair makes me want to stay like this forever.
This special moment between Camila and I doesn't last when her phone gets a text message. The way her facial expressions are changing gives it away that it's Zabdiel that messaged her.
Out of habit, I begin to bite my nails. I was opening up to Camila like I do and then the moment was ruined.
"Ay viene Zabdiel." she tells me. What a surprise. "¿Está bien eso contigo?"
I know that if I stay when Zabdiel comes, I'll be like the third wheel. Also I don't want to feel more pain.
"Yo ya me iba." I let her know.
"No quédate."
"Tengo unas cosas que hacer." I lie. It's hard to say no to her but I have to. I stand up and pat her shoulder before leaving.
I walk into one of the rooms where all of the boys and I rehearse in, most of the guys are still there.
"Por fin apareces." Joel comments.
"Es que me perdí en un bosque." I say sarcastically.
"I don't think there's forests in Miami." Joel clearly didn't understand my sarcasm.
"Que pendejo estas, estaba bromeando contigo." I tease him. Joel punches my shoulder hard, it didn't hurt me but it was still pretty hard. To mess around with him, I act like I'm mad for what he just did.
"Bro, perdón." he takes me serious.
"I'm just kidding." I say.
When Joel apologized to me, it reminded me of Camila. I don't know on what terms Camila and Zabdiel are so I wonder what's going on at the moment. What if he's disrespecting her again? I can't take the risk of not going to check on them, what if they're fighting. I won't let him treat her badly.
"Luego te miro Joel." We do our handshake and I walk out of the room. I reach the lounge room in minutes and I immediately hear Zabdiel and Camila talking. I stand just outside the room while the door is slightly opened.
"Me dieron mi birth control." I hear Camila tell Zabdiel.
"Entonces eso quiere decir que..." Zabdiel sounds excited.
"Correcto." She replies.
After her reply I don't hear them say anything else. Instead I hear loud breathing and that's when I know they're making out. I peek through the door and my heart breaks at the image of Camila in Zabdiel's arms while kissing hungrily.
"Por fin te voy a poder sentir completa." He says excitedly while her legs are wrapped around his waist. From what Zabdiel just said, that means that they've had sex before. I hate this feeling. I feel even worse when he takes her to the bathroom and I hear the door lock.
Just because these past months Camila and I have been hanging out a lot and becoming close I thought that what? She would become my girlfriend and we would make love? I really have some unrealistic dreams. Camila giving me a chance will simply never happen.
My heart is beating so fast and loud that I can hear it through my ear drums. I'm still standing in front of the open door of the lounge like an idiot.
I can't seem to move, I am shocked and heartbroken. I can hear soft moaning, probably because they're covering their mouths, and banging through the walls of the bathroom.
Odio a Camila, la odio con toda mis fuerzas, odio a esa descarada. Me enamore profundamente de ella, nunca tendrá idea cuanto me está doliendo este momento. ¿Como puede estar con Zabdiel después de como la trata. Se que Camila lo ama pero todavía me parte el corazón viéndolos con mis propios ojos. No se como pero me retiro.
As I'm walking down the halls ignoring the looks of random people I immediately grab my phone. I need a way to forget about Camila.
I decide to call a girl named Naby. I lost my virginity to her months ago and we had sex twice after that but that's it. She was the one who offered and well I took the opportunity. I was different at the time. I think she just wanted attention from guys that were becoming somewhat well known. She went back and forth between Jaime and I, but I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with her months ago.
Now I'm calling her to try to forget about Camila. The main reason I cut connection with her was not only because she was annoying but because Camila was on my mind 24/7.
"Naby, que onda." I say through the phone. Damn Camila really rubs off on me that I talk like her.
"Por fin te das cuenta que existo." She says.
"¿Puedo verte ahorita?" I ask getting straight to the point.
"¿Te quieres divertir?" She giggles awfully.
"Uh, si." I respond. I think it's time to move on from Camila or at least try to.
"Aquí te espero en mi casa, no hay nadie." She tells me.
"Ok." I say and hang up.
It's only four in the afternoon so it's not late. I request an uber instead of calling my mom. I feel like my mom will know something is wrong and I'll break down in front of her. Within ten minutes the uber takes me to Naby's house.
"Hola guapo." Naby greets me at her front door and invites me to come in.
I honestly don't know why I came, I already want to leave. I have no desire for the girl standing right in front of me. But what if sleeping with her actually helps?
As we're in her living room, I lean in to kiss her. I don't feel any emotion as my lips touch hers, she gladly kisses me back. I wait for my heart beat to quicken but it doesn't. I lay on top of her on her couch in an attempt to spice things up.
Camila can just look at me and my heartbeat quickens and honestly I get hard but as Naby is palming me at the moment, I have no interest in her.
I wonder how it would feel to kiss Camila, her lips would be soft of course. I wonder how it would feel to make love to her, the noises she would make as I would be on top of her. I would be the happiest just to sleep next to her. Que no daría por besarla.
"¡Dijiste Camila, estupido!" Naby calls me out.
I thought Naby would make me forget about Camila but that seems impossible. I'll try to forget Camila but not by hooking up with random girls.
"Si, si lo dije." What do I have to lose by admitting it.
"¿No te vas a disculpar?" She looks at me annoyance.
"¿Y por qué me disculparía?" I say in an obvious tone.
"Por qué llamaste por otro nombre, el nombre de otra tipa."
"Perdón, discúlpame, me he estado sintiendo muy triste. Perdón por quitarte tiempo. Adiós... Ya me retiro." I say as I'm walking to the front door of her house.
"Eres un tarado, pensé que podíamos empezar de nuevo." I hear her say but I'm already outside.
As I'm waiting for my uber ride I hope Naby doesn't come following me outside. I'm glad she doesn't because I've had enough for today.
Once home I rush as fast as I can up the stairs. Thankfully my parents don't stop me and I manage to get to my room and lock the door. I get in the shower wash away my almost hook up with Naby.
Flashbacks of Camila's legs wrapped around Zabdiel's waist while they made out flood my mind. I felt as if my heart was being torn apart and stepped on by millions of people. I want Camila so bad that it makes me feel sorry for myself, I still don't regret a single day. The warm shower and crying already got me feeling tired so I lay in my bed in search of sleep even though it's only six in the afternoon.
Surely Camila and Zabdiel got back together and I should let them be. I know how they feel about each other and they're both people I care about. I'll have to act like I'm not bothered at all from seeing them together. Out of habit I grab my phone and almost text Camila, not today Erick. I feel my eyes getting heavy from a long day and I soon fall asleep.
Va ser difícil olvidarte Camila pero sé que lo puedo lograr. De hecho tú nunca fuiste mía y me tengo que meter la idea que nunca serás.
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Playlist for this chapter:
Devuélveme Mi Corazón - CNCO ❤️
El Perdedor - Enrique Iglesias ft. Marco Antonio Solís
Inolvidable - Reik
La Descarada - Reyli Barba
Levemente - Reik
Me Duele Amarte - Reik
No Me Quiero Enamorar - Kalimba
A Puro Dolor - Son By 4
Traidora - Gente de Zona ft. Marc Anthony