Desire Love Chapter 11
I walked to the table where the couple sat and I saw 2 familiar figures. It was....... Oh my gosh! It gave me the shock of my life!!!!! It was Rex and April!!! Oh god! There's so many coffee houses around this area, why must they come here?! I quickly ran back to the kitchen and chill myself down with a glass of cold water. Carrie suddenly ran to me and looked at me anxiously.
" Belle! What happened to you? You looked so pale! Are you ok? Do you want to go back?"
" Carrie, can you ask other people to serve the couple outside? I can't serve them. " I turned my head away.
" What happened? Why can't you serve them? "
" I..... " I looked into Carrie's eyes. " I had an awful past. " I turned away as my tears streamed down my face.
" Awful past? Is the couple over there involved? "
" They're not couple. The girl was my best friend and the guy was my lover, but I left them 6 months ago. "
" Is that why you lived alone by yourself now? Without your parents? " I said nothing, just nodded.
" Can tell me what happened 6 months ago? " She looked so worried. Well, she's already like my mother. She's 11 years older than me. I started to tell her EVERYTHING that happened 6 months ago.
" What?! Oh dear! Your step-sister was horrible! She really did that to you? " Carrie asked.
" Well..... " I nodded.
" Hey! I have a brilliant idea!! " She stood up and shouted.
" Huh? Brilliant idea? " I stared at her, wondering what was her 'brilliant idea'. Well, hope her 'brilliant idea' doesn't disappoint me.
" Why don't you change to casual clothes and sit behind of them? "
" For what? " I rolled my eyes.
" Well, hear out their conversation, of course my dear! " She said. " Just go, just go! Change to your casual clothes! " She asked me to meet her at table 10, which was right at the back of Rex and April. After changing, I walked to table 10 with my cap so that Rex and April couldn't see me. I past by them and sat opposite of Carrie. I was so nervous. She smiled and nodded to me. I gave her a tiny smile to show her I was KIND OF ok but nervous.
****************
Rex's P.O.V.
****************
6 months already passed, I still couldn't find Belle. Belle, how could you do that to me? We've just started our relationship and you just left me without even a goodbye. What's all this, Belle?
" I love her... " I suddenly blurted out.
" Rex.... "
" I love her so much... I just couldn't throw away the memories.. She can't throw me away, either! "
" Rex, Im her best friend.. I understand her very well.. She's not the kind of woman who throw away her true love and just hide in somewhere else. There must be something. Something must happened to her, that's why she left you.. "
****************
Belle's P.O.V.
****************
" I told Kalyn at first, I really just wanted to protect her, nothing special. But I realized I'm falling for her deeper and deeper. I just... Love the way she looks in my eyes, telling me to protect her. Every night, I hope she could come back to me. Every morning, I wish I could see her when I open my eyes.She just disappeared into thin air suddenly. The day Kalyn appeared was the day I last saw her. I love her so much, I feel so suffering now. I want to see her right now. I'm afraid that she'll never come back to me anymore. I'm afraid that I might forget how she looks like, how she smile and how she cried. Im afraid that the memories we once had, will fade away. I'm afraid to forget everything! I just.... Please... I hope she can listen to me, come back to me. " He hit his forehead with his palm. Oh my gosh! I misunderstood him. He really loves me. I wish I could run to him and hug him tightly, tell him 'I love him' and I'll never ever leave him anymore. But I can't, I will just hurt him even more. Tears streamed down my face and I could barely see what's in front of me. It just became blurred because of the tears.
" Rex.. " I whispered. " I'm sorry.. " I laid my head down on the table and cried.
" It is ok, darling. He will forgive you.. " Carrie patted my head. " Because he loves you very much. " I looked up and saw Carrie was smiling.
" I can't. I'm the worst! I hurt him! I left him! I misunderstood him! He'll never forgive me! I deserved it! " I whispered, hoping that Rex can't hear it.
" Belle... " She stopped. I looked up, wondering why did she stopped. " He's gone. "
" What? " I turned my back and saw the table was empty. I turned around and looked at Carrie. " I wished I could see him one more time. I just want to see him, I don't care if he doesn't see me. I want to see how is he. "
" You already knew, don't you? " Carrie stood up, placed both of her hands at her waist. " He loves you and he couldn't forget you yet you're avoiding him. You know his presence yet you didn't dare to go up and tell him you still love him. Quit being a weaker, Belle! " Carrie shouted. I took my bag and ran out from the coffee-house. I walked home alone. It was dark, I started to panicked so I ran back home. I saw Austin was leaning against my door, waiting for me.
" Austin? Why are you waiting here? It's so cold. " I exclaimed.
" I wanted to make sure you're safe. " He smiled.
" Aust...... " I stopped for a moment. " Come in, Austin. " I opened the door and led him to my living room. I switched on my heater and took a blanket for him.
" Are you still cold? "
" Not anymore. " He smiled. " Thanks. "
" No problem. " I grinned. " Coffee or tea? "
" Warm water will do. "
I walked to the kitchen and served him a cup of warm water.
" So... " I sat on my couch beside him. " I'm safe now. " I smiled.
" Ya, I know. " Suddenly, the situation become really awkward. I didn't know what to say anymore.
" Belle.... " He stared at me. He gives me a feelings that he wants to confess again. And I really can't take it anymore.
" Aust, wait.. If you want to discuss anything about us, then stop. I'm sorry, Aust. I really can't accept you. There's already someone in my heart. I'm afraid..... No one can replace him... "
" No, Belle. You're wrong. I just wanted to ask you.. Do you know who Ella likes now? " He laughed.
" You like Ella? "
" Actually.. Yes.. " He blushed. I stared at him with disbelief.
" Oh my gosh.. It was so embarrassing. I actually thought you're gonna confess to me. " I laughed.
" It is okay. " He smiled.
" Hmm..... I'm not sure who Ella likes but I can help you if you want. " I grinned.
" Really? You can? "
" Sure.. You're such a nice guy. Im pretty sure you're Ella's dream guy. " I smiled.
" Thanks so much! Ok, I will not disturb your rest then. I'll go home first. " He grinned.
" Ok, be careful on your way home. " I smiled and closed the door. I went to bed, I still couldn't forget Rex. His voice is echo-ing my mind. I just couldn't get that out of my mind! Well! Tomorrow is Saturday! I'll just spend my day on shopping and movies.
________________________
---- Saturday ----
I was awoke by the buzz of my hand phone. It was vibrating repeatedly, I got so frustrated so I picked it up.
" Hello? "
" Hey! Belle! " Ella shouted.
" Oh my gosh! I'm still sleeping you know? "
" Well, wake up then! Let's go for movies later!! " Ella sounds excited.
" Ella... I'm sorry. I might can't go. I have something to do. Sorry.. " I hung up. I lied, I just didn't want to hang out with anyone now. I just want to spend the whole day with myself.
_____________________________________________________________
I went to cinema and bought New Moon ticket. It was full. But I was able to squeeze into the crowd and bought one. I still have 1 more hour. So, I walked to the MPH and bought a book named CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET? by Sophie Kinsella. I walked and walked and walked. Suddenly, I saw Rex was walking towards my direction. I raised my eyebrows in shocked! I hurried look down and covered my face with my book. He walked passed me, I was so glad he didn't realized I was Belle. But when I turned my head around, he was staring at me in disbelief.
" Belle? " Rex asked. I quickly turned and ran away.
" Belle! Don't run! Belle! " He was chasing after me in the crowd, I wish I could just disappear! I can't ran any longer, I'll faint if I ran any longer. I slowed down my step. And finally, I stopped and sat on the bench, gasping for air. I couldn't believe I actually ran from the shopping complex to here, the park. I rested for a while and stood up because I was going to late for my movie if I don't move on but someone blocked my way.
To Be Continued~