August 26, 2014 6:47 p.m
Luke and I are just friends now. Nothing more sadly, because I miss him. Not just him but what we had or were, whatever that was. But we hang out almost every day, and now sleep in different beds or rooms to stop the temptations which I hate. I just want to cuddle him.
Brittany doesn't even seem to try anymore like the way she was acting right before she moved away. Always caught up in her phone and never me because she's so worried that she'll miss out on something with her friends.
Currently I was getting ready for a family dinner. By family I meant family. My mother, brother, sister, stepbrother, stepsister, stepmother, and my father. I'm not sure what made them want to do it but here I was.
I was getting nervous and anxiety was filling me by the minute. Luckily Luke said he'd join in, which I was thankful for. He always seems to manage a way to be here for me.
I love him.
"Ashton! Luke is here," my mom called from down the stairs as I hurried and tried to tie my tie but couldn't do it.
"Just a second!" I called as I undid it and attempted to tie it again until a chuckle from behind me interrupted me.
"Need help?" Luke smiled as I embarrassedly nodded, turning about, to face him.
As he stepped closely, I leaned against my dresser as he leaned a little against me, slowly tying the tie into a perfect tie and patting my chest.
"Perfect," he whispered starring at me as I gave a weak grin and nodded and cleared my throat.
"We should leave now," I said as he stared at me amused, smiling for what reason to be exact, I don't know.
He reached his hand up to my curly swoop and brushed his fingers against it as I glanced down at my fingers as he took his index and middle finger to lift my chin up, coming in closer to me, as I sighed.
"Luke, come on," I said shoving his hand away from me not wanting to cave in to him we've done good so far.
"What Ashton? Can I not just look at you?"
I rolled my eyes shoving him as I shoved my phone in my pocket. Of course he could look at me but lord knows what will happen with him looking this attractive dressed up wearing a maroon tie.
"Come on, i'm driving," he said as I nodded as he let me go first and we all went out, Lauren riding with luke and I and Harry with my mom so we wouldn't have to be crowded.
The ride there was nice and comforting. We kept the radio off the entire time and talked non stop until we arrived at my fathers. I felt so anxious and worried. My mother and father haven't sat down at a dinner with each other since I was a lot younger. Since Lauren was a little girl.
Luke pulled my hand back before we walked inside, stopping me seeing how nervous I was. I sighed running a hand through my hair.
"I'll meet you guys in there," I told my mother as they went in and shut the door.
"You okay, Ash?"
I nodded swallowing, "Yeah," I reassured nervously, "Just nervous I guess."
He reassured me by giving a soft smile before leaning in and kissing my forehead as I felt instantly okay but frowned. I felt like smiling but I had to force myself to hold it back.
"Why'd you do that?"
"Just to help you with nerves. I'm being a good friend," he said as I nodded and walked inside and greeted my family. After hugging everyone I saw my little sister Max who looked overly excited and ran to me and hugged me tightly.
"Hey my little princess," I signed to her slowly, as she smiled and waved her hand at me then Luke who looked at me surprised. I've been learning a bit of sign language for her.
"I didn't know she couldn't hear," he commented and I shrugged holding her in my arms.
"Yeah. Maybe I can show you some signs so you can talk to her too?" I offered and he smiled and nodded as we all took a seat in the kitchen.
Then dinner was really nice actually. Everyone talked and it might have actually been a little bit loud if I would say. Not obnoxious loud just a having a good time loud. Lauren and Harry got along perfectly fine with the others and my mom and stepmom was hitting it off nicely too. And I was shocked to see my father and mom keep a conversation going. How could she even possible look at him as if he never hurt her? But i'm glad everything is going good.
Dinner was already ate, but we stayed for pie, still continuing on the conversation. Luke and I talked a lot with the boys too. They seem to love each other and Harry even wanted to stay. Mom said she had to discuss it with my father which of course that would be a yes.
"Ashton," luke called out, "Mind showing me the bathroom?"
I nodded sneaking off since no one seem to notice too busy laughing as I led him to the upstairs bathroom. I waited on the outside patiently for him not wanting to walk back alone. Once he opened the door we made eye contact and couldn't help but smile.
"So the dinner isn't as bad as you imagined it," he commented leaning against the sink making me sigh and nod my head smiling.
"Yeah it's actually going pretty well. Maybe too well," I chuckled as he did too.
After a quiet moment Luke grabbed my arm, pulling me into the bathroom and shutting the door, making me give him a confused expression not knowing exactly why he was doing so.
"Luke, what are you—"
I was cut off by his lips on mine, pushing me against the closed door as his hand cupped my right cheek, holding the sweet kiss out before pulling away and panting. He pressed his forehead against mine and sighed.
"I couldn't do it anymore," he said looking into my eyes, "Just you; i've missed you. I've missed us. And I couldn't resist you dressed up this nice," he shook his head making me let out a giggle and nod.
"I've missed us too. Honestly you're all i've been thinking about," I said placing my palms against his chest, fiddling with his tie as his arms were wrapped around my waist.
He smiled and shook his head as I smiled and pulled him back to me by his tie and pressing my lips against his soft plump ones that I've grown addicted too. As the kiss began getting heated I allowed for his tongue to slide into my mouth as my hands tangled with his blonde hair as I tilted my head back as he pulled me over breaking the kiss as he sat on the sink and I didn't waste time connecting my lips back to his, before pulling away and began kissing down his neck and slowly untied his tie and unbuttoned his top buttons, leaving a trail of wet kisses down his chest, and sucked harshly all over, leaving dark bruises to his light skin.
"Ash..." He moaned quietly as I palmed him through his pants as he whimpered tugging my hair. I couldn't help but to smirk and continued to kiss down his bare skin until his shirt stopped me from his buttons.
He hopped down and sat me on the sink, smirking as he leaned back in, and shoved his tongue into my mouth as he began to palm me. Something he's never done before. I'd do it to him, but didn't allow him to do it to me. Not because I didn't want him to, but I was afraid he'd see my cuts. Stopping his hand leaving it to rest on my area as I pouted into the kiss, placing my hand over his and motioned for his hand to rub me again as he smirked into the kiss. His hands found my belt, unbuckling it and unzipping my pants as he pulled away, tugging my pants. He only tugged enough for him to pull my member out, making me relax and squirm as he began to pump me.
I moaned quietly, trying to stay silent as best as I could. After all I'm at a family dinner and currently getting a hand job in my fathers bathroom. As I felt myself cum, my tense body relax into his motions as he sighed, grunting a bit as I caught my breath and wiped the glistening sweat on my forehead and looked up at him as he smiled.
"Thanks," I murmured as he nodded and began washing his hands as I hopped down and fixed my pants before buckling my buckle again.
"Go ahead and go on out there, so they don't get any ideas. I'll be there in a minute," he said and I nodded about to walk away but stopped abruptly and turned and gave him a quick kiss before heading back to the table.
"We're almost ready to go," my mother told me and I nodded as we all got up saying our goodbyes.
Luke came back out, hugging my stepmother and shaking hands with my father. I went to pick max up, giving her a kiss on the cheek before signing goodbye and that I would see her tomorrow when I pick up Harry.