Chapter 9
“Rain…”
I hear her call my name in her sleep. I open my eyes to find her sleeping beside me. Her head is on my right arm, making it a pillow. Slowly I slip away my arms and try my best not to wake her up. She cried like mad yesterday. I remove strings of hairs from her face. Her eyes are swollen and she looks like a mess. I watch her for a while, feeling guilt toward her. I’ve made her cry so many times. I’ve hurt her from times to times.
“Why did you fall for me ?” I ask the sleeping beauty.
“I hope you’ll be happy, even though I’m not the one for you.” I continue.
I put the blanket on her body and kiss the side of her head before I went downstairs and grab a bowl with cold water and small towel with it. Opening the door of my room, she’s already sitting on my bed. She turns to look at me with a weak smile plastered on her face. I walk toward her and place her bowl on the side table. I soak the towel with cold water before straining it. I grab her face with my left hand and place the towel on her eyes with my right hand. I clean her face and fix her hair with my fingers. She’s looking better now. After a few minutes compress with cold towel, her swollen eyes has reduce. I grab a bottle of water from the mini fridge and open it before handing it to her. She gulped down half of it before setting it aside. I hop on the bed and open my arms wide at her. She come closer to me and pres her back against my front. I’m now hugging her from her back. I warp her on my arms and place my chin on her shoulder.
“What’s wrong ? You look like a mess.” I said softly.
“Should I tell you ?” She chuckle.
“I’m your best friend aren’t I ?” I ruffle her hair.
“Mm…”
She snuggles to me and her hands warp my arms, making my arms tightly pressing between her waist and hands. Her head is now on the crock of my neck. Her breath brush through my neck, it’s steady and calm.
“So, tell me about that bitch.”
“What ?”
“The one who made you cry.”
“She’s not a bitch.” She smile.
“What is she like then ?”
“At first, you will think she’s heartless and arrogant. She’s very cold toward stranger. But once you get to know her, she’s actually not that bad.”
“Is that so ?”
“Yep, people might not notice that she’s actually very caring. She hardly shows any affection in public. But when you’re with her, you feel warm and secure. It feels like she can protect you from anything. I fall for that side of her. But her being cold in public is also her charm. She cares a lot about her family and friends. She’s afraid to hurt someone she cares about, but she wouldn’t mind getting hurt for someone she loves. If you stick with her long enough to get to know her, she’ll be your best friend for life. Not to mention she’s very smart, beautiful, and popular.”
“You make her sound so wonderful.”
“She is.”
Without me realizing, a single tear roll down my cheek. I touch my cheek in disbelieve. She looked at me with sad eyes. Creasing my cheek gently and wiping away my tears. I scoff at myself. Thinking how cruel can I be. You have loves me very deeply and sincerely. And yet, I can’t repay your feeling toward me. Such a wonderful person like you, why did you fall for me ? It makes me wonder.
“I haven’t seen you cry in such a long time.” She touch my cheek and trace her thumb where my tears was before.
A moment of silence fall between us before she call my name with obvious worry left on her face.
“Rain ?”
“Why ?” I ask her.
“Why ?” She repeated my question with confusion plastered on her face.
“Why did you fall for me ?”
I ask the girl in front of me, hoping for an answer. She smile and grab my right hand, placing it at her chest. I look at her, confused. She put her hand on top of mine and pressing it firmly on her chest.
“Can you feel it ?”
“Feel what ?” I ask.
“My heartbeat ? Can you feel it ?”
I slowly close my eyes and feel thumps against my hand. Her heartbeat is very fast. It’s keeps on thumping like there’s no tomorrow.
“Yea…”
“It’s how it is when I’m around you.”
“It still hasn’t answered my question.”
“The thing is I just can’t help it.”
“Can’t help it ?”
“But I can’t help falling in love with you.” She sings.
“……”
“You really are clueless.”
I just nod and continue to stare at her.
“Well, you can’t choose the one who you fall for after all. It just happen I guess. And the way you treat me is not helping either.” She chuckle.
“I feel bad.”
“Don’t, I guess we weren’t meant to be after all.”
“Sorry.”
“There’s no need to be sorry. You tried after all, and it doesn’t work.”
Silence fills the room. I just continue to look at her. She grabs both of my hand and rub it with her thumbs. She then put my arms back to her waits and lean in to me.
“Hey Rain.”
“Mm ?” I said while I smelling the pleasant fragrance coming from her hair.
“Can we still do this ?”
“Snuggle ?” I ask.
“Yeah, can we ?”
“Of course we can.”
“Are going to confess to her ?”
“I don’t know. Should I ?”
“You should.”
“Not now though.”
“Why ?”
“Don’t you think she will feel guilty if she finds out that we broke off ?”
“That’s true. Start be nice to her.”
“What does that mean ? I’m nice to her.”
“Yeah right.” She scoffed.
“What ?” I said rising my eyebrow.
“Says the one who never call her by the name, you just call her by using hey, and you.”
“Ugh…” I said feeling defeated.
“Your definition of being nice to people is different from normal people definition of being nice.”
“But seriously, I’m nice to her.”
“Okay, you’re nice to her. But be nicer.”
“Fine.” I said ending the argument.
“Good, good. Now feed me, I’m hungry. Cook now.” She whines.
“Oh my God, why are you so bossy all of the sudden ?” I raise my voice by a notch.
“Sorry, I just want to try it once in a while. You know what it’s kinda nice, now I know why Ashley always does this.”
“Don’t you dare do that again.” I glare at her.
“Alright.” She chuckles.
I drag her along with me to the kitchen and make French toast for both of us and a pitcher of tea. She eat happily, I stare at her for a few moments before she stare back at me and smile widely.
“I’m fine Rain, don’t worry.” She said before continue eating.
My eyes widen when I heard her words. She really knows what I’m thinking. I take a ship of my tea while continuing watching the girl in front of me eat. I curve appear on the corner of my mouth without me noticing. I’m happy seeing her like this now.
Please don’t cry again, I hate to see you cry.
Because,
I love you.
I really love you.
As my friend.
No,
As my sister.