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Not Again...
Natsu was going through the same dream again. It always happens and there was no way to stop it. It hurt him so much.. He wishes he could switch places with her. He wishes he was the one going through the pain. He wishes he wasn't there to watch. He wishes...He wishes...
He wished too much. He should just accept the fact that it happen. But the fact that he wasn't there for her, the fact that he couldn't save her from the pain, it weighed him down and ruined his mood.
Natsu had to watch with fearful and depressed eyes, as Future Rogue's dark, evil sword pierced through her. Sadness and desperation washed over him. Natsu wasn't there for her. Her hero. Her savior. Her best friend. He wasn't there to save her and that tore a hole in his heart. Why couldn't he stop time?! Why did he trust Future Rouge so easily!? If he didn't, all of this could've been avoided.
When she fell to the ground, all his breath left him. He was stuck. He couldn't speak. He couldn't think. All he could do was watch in horror. He wanted to break down. He wanted to cry his eyes out. But he had to be strong. For her.
Suddenly all Natsu could see was black, he was surprised. This has never happened before. He usually finished the... scene. Then he woke up. Now that it had shifted, he had some faith that maybe he had finally got over the dream. But of course that was not the case.
"Natsu..." She whispered wearily. He looked around for her. Natsu whispered her name, finding her under a bright white light. She was kneeling down so you couldn't see her eyes and her hands were on her side. A wave of relief washed over him.
"Natsu..." He looked at her in confusion. When she removed her hands, my eyes widened. All he could see was a sword impaled in her side, Natsu gasped in horror. He made a motion to run to her side, but all of his body parts couldn't move.
"Natsu... why?" He was so confused. What was she talking about?
"Natsu... why didn't you save me? How could you let me get hurt!?" She cried, tears running down her face. Natsu's mind blanked. Its all his fault. He wasn't there to protect her. Now she's dying because of it.
"Natsu... I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY HERO! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT ME! HOW COULD YOU!?" She screamed. By now, Natsu was on his knees, all the guilt weighing him down. Tears threatened to spill from his eyes.
"I'm sorry..." He whispered, tears finally falling.
"I'M DYING AND ALL YOU SAY IS SORRY!"
"I'm sorry..." He repeated, choking on a sob.
"Natsu, if only you weren't such a failure, everyone would've stayed. " She spat, choking on her blood. When Natsu stayed quiet, she took it as a signal to continue.
"Igneel left you 'cause you were such a failure. Look at you! You're pathetic." She collapsed to the ground, breathing heavily.
Natsu let out a loud sob. He grabbed his hair with his hands, pulling.
"I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY!" Natsu cried, loudly. He just couldn't stop the tears. He didn't even cry this much when Gildarts kicked his ass. The tears just kept coming, blurring his vision.
"Natsu... you know..." She breathed in heavily. " I've always hated you. I was only...hanging out with you...because you let me...in the guild." Even though all her words hurt him, he couldn't help but yell her name when she became silent.
"I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY!" Natsu repeated over and over. Trying to get over the fact that she had just... in front of him. Natsu let out multiple heart-wrenching sobs, not caring any longer.
"I'm sorry..."
Natsu sprang awake from his makeshift bed. His thoughts were jumbled. All he knew was that tears was rolling down his face. He sat up and placed his knees on his chest. Letting the tears run, he sniffled loudly.
"Natzu..." Natsu looked at Happy in surprise. "Whats wrong?" Natsu continued to stare at Happy. All he wanted to do was roll up in a ball and cry himself back to sleep.
"Nightmares..." Natsu whispered. Happy patted Natsu's head, understanding. Natsu has been having nightmares for weeks now. Happy was the one to usually comfort him.
"Lucy again?" Happy asked, hesitantly. He knew that she was a sensitive subject with Natsu. Natsu tensed when I mentioned her and nodded. He covered his eyes with his hands and let out his sobs.
"I want to s-see her." Natsu mumbled, shyly.
"A-alone." He added. Happy nodded. Natsu shakily got up and wrapped a blanket around him. His body was made to be warm, but right now he felt so cold. He didn't notice it until now, but it was night. He couldn't help but wonder what time it was.
His mind felt so weak.
"I-I'm going..." he muttered. Happy nodded. Natsu staggered towards the door.
Natsu opened the door slowly and walked towards her house. He felt so nervous. He couldn't stop fidgeting with the blanket. What was he going to say to her?
~Time Skip~
He was finally in front of her house and he felt like he was gonna cry all over again. He walked up to the door and knocked. Natsu waited, fidgeting slightly. Natsu heard a loud groan and someone stomping towards the door. She opened the door loudly.
"What do yo-" Lucy stopped. Lucy took in Natsu's appearance. He had red puffy eyes, a blanket wrapped around his shoulders, and all his clothes were disheveled.
"Hey, Natsu. Is something wrong?" Lucy asked. Lucy wasn't really liking the look in his eyes.
Natsu stared at her. Maybe because of the dream. The sight of Lucy in front of him, being her cute and weird self, calmed him down. Without him noticing it, tears started to pour down his face. Lucy eyes widened in alarm.
"Whats wrong Natsu?!" Natsu let out a sob and sprang towards her. He wrapped his arms around her and rested his head on her chest.
"You're okay...You're okay." Natsu whispered quietly. Lucy was mad that he had taken this chance to put his face on her boobs, but she couldn't help but blush. She led him in and closed the door carefully.
She brought him over to the bed and sat him down. She moved a bit back to look at his face. Natsu looked up at her, his cheeks suddenly a dark red.
"Do you need water or something?" She asked. He shook his head no and grabbed her hand. He sat her down next to him. Lucy noticed that the tears were still running down his face. Before she could even think about it, she raised her hand and wiped Natsu's tears with her thumb. All Natsu did was smile softly.
"Are you gonna tell me what's wrong with you?" Lucy asked quietly, trying not to alarm or scare him off.
Natsu stared at her and smiled. He shook his head no. Lucy nodded, understanding that he will tell her when he's ready. She knew all he needed was comfort right now. She opened her arms in a silent request. Natsu grabbed her waist and together they layed down on the bed. Natsu's head on Lucy's stomach and Lucy's hand running through his pink messy hair.
Natsu hummed quietly, closing his eyes. This is what he needed. He needed to be by her side, knowing that she is safe. He wasn't going to tell her about the nightmares, yet... He didn't want to push his problems on her. But he knew he wasn't going to be able to hide it for long either. Lucy cared too much about him. He smiled.
He knew it probably wasn't a secret. Everyone practically knew. They knew the reason why he was always around Lucy. They knew the reason why he was so possessive with her. They knew the reason why he couldn't live without her.
They knew that Natsu Dragneel was in love with Lucy Heartfilia.
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