Yeah okay I know I said I needed 5 comments on the last chapter, but I couldnt wait any longer. Dedicated to isabel151 because other than HaileyHoran119, she pushed me. Kind of. Here ya gooo!!!
((((Louis Pov)))))
I jolted awake from the nightmare I just had. I was sweating like mad, my hair sticking to my face, my chest heaving, my heart beating 120mph, and feeling really exhausted. I thought back to the dream...
(Dream)
I was in the woods, desperately looking for Niall. Suddenly I heard a branch break and I got scared. I started running, slowly at first, but when I heard footsteps coming faster and faster each time they hit the ground, I took off like a bullet. I was running for about 5 minutes when I grew tired. My legs gave out and as I hit the ground, I heard machanic laughter.
Wait. Id recognize that laugh anywhere. Niall?
"Hello there, love," he said, sarcasm dripping from his words.
"N-Ni? W-wha-what a-re you d-do-doing?" I asked, shaking like crazy.
"Dont call me that," he snapped. "Only my friends can call me that."
"I thought I was y-your b-boy-boyfriend?" I asked, slightly confused?
He cackled. "Boyfriend? What would ever make you think I like you? Let alone want to go out with you. Youre worthless, a waste of space. No one loves you. Hell, you dont even love yourself. And I think you should put yourself to an end."
"What d-do you m-mean?" I asked, immensly frightened at this point.
He looked me dead in the eye and whispered, "Kill yourself."
To my shock, I nodded. He gave me a knife and I stabbed myself in the chest. I screamed bloody murder, but we were so far deep into the woods that I dont think anyone would hear me.
...
The next part of the dream, I was a ghost in my house, watching as my parents read "my" suicide not. But I didnt write it. I floated down to where my mum was and read it along with her.
"Dear mum and dad,
I had to do it. I HAD to end my lfie. I couldnt take being invisible anymore. All the pain you guys put me through was too unbearbale. No one ever paid me any attention, not even the girls. Not even any animals I walked by did! So, I took the task of killing myself into my own hands before anyone else did. I didnt plan this, honestly. It just...happened. I bet you wont even care. Im sorry, I really am. But Im just not happy. I mean you guys didnt even notice my signs of depression, which made me even more angry. I hated you for it. But now Im lonely and cold without any kinds of love, even from myself. Thats right. I hate myself. I guess thats why I killed myself. Tell the girls I love them. Since the twins are probably too young to remember me, dont tell them I existed, okay? And mum, dont cry. Take care of her for me, okay dad? I love you.
Love,
Louis William Tomlinson.'
I was crying as I left my parents room. I went down the hallway and say Lottie walking in the opposite direction. She saw me, surprisingly, but my parents didnt?
"Louis," she whispered, tears running down her face like rapids.
"Hey, sis," I said, smiling weakly. "I love you. Dont ever forget that. Ill see you sometime okay?"
"Dont keave me, Lou!" She shouted.
"Im sorry, but I have to," I whispered, my voice cracking. I floated to her and kissed her forehead. I wiped her cheeks and said, "Be strong, be kind, be brave. Never forget me and I wont forget you."
With that, I started leaving. I heard her running tou our parents room. She started yelling, "Mum! Dad! I just saw Louis!"
"What?" I heard my dad say.
"Dont joke around with this shit!" My mum yelled.
"Im not," I heard her voice crack.
"Louis!" They all yelled.
(End of dream)
I started thinking. What did this dream mean? Did it mean that Niall doesnt really love me? Or he'll leave me soon? Or he'll make me kill myself?
"Louis? Are you okay?" A soft Irish accent filled my ears.
"What?" I asked, my voice hoarse.
"Youre crying," he said, walking to me.
"I-Its nothing," I insisted, flinching when he touched me.
"Was it a bad dream?" I nodded. "Tell me about it?"
I hesiatated. Should I tell him? I decided to.
And so I told him. Everything from the woods to me waking up. And he didnt like it. Not one bit.
(((((Niall POV)))))
What? I never imagined Louis was capable of dreaming something like this. It just didnt seem possible. It was a horrible dream, though. And judging by the look on his face, I think he thinks I would actually do that to him. But I wouldnt.
After he was done, he cried. And cried. And cried. All day. And I sat there, holding him to my chest, whisper-singing songs I wrote about him.
Around 6, Simon stopped by to tell us we had a couple hours until the show started. Oh shit. Its Wednesday, isnt it? Its already the 3rd week, and we're singing Nobody Knows by P!nk. Such an insperational song, if you ask me.
I sighed and said we'd be down in a few. Once he left, it took a while to get Louis to cooperate with me. He didnt want to go and perform, but he didnt want to get us disqualified either. He finally agreed and we went downstairs, where we headed to where the magic happens.
(One minute before the show)
"Ready guys?" Zayn asks with a huge grin on his face.
We all nodded enthusiastically, although Louis' seemed forced. I squeezed his hand in reassurance. He smiled weakly as we walked out.
Liam:
'Nobody knows,
Nobody knows but me,
That I sometimes cry.
If I coukd pretend that Im asleep,
As my tears start to fall,
I peak out from behind these walls.
I think nobody knows.
Nobody knows,
No...'
When we were done singing, the crowd went wild. I smiled as I looked to Louis, who looked like he was having the time of his life.
As if he felt me looking at him, he turned his head and met my eyes. I walked over to him and hugged him.
Everything was fine until I heard someone use a megaphone to yell out the word I hated most.
"FAGGOTS!!!"
It was as if my world was crushed when I saw tears prick in Louis' eyes. He gave me a look that said "Sorry" and ran off the stage. I looked into the crowd and glared. I was fuming. The whole crowd shut up as I began to speak.
"Now. Im going to need whoever shouted that word to come up here. Just for a second."
I heard Simons protests, but I silenced him.
What seemed like forever later, the guy was finally up here.
"What do you have against gays?" I asked, seriously curious.
"Theyre not natural."
"If gays werent natural then why do they have a prostate?" I questioned.
"A what?"
"Whats wrong with falling in love?"
"Um nothi-"
"Can you help who you fall in live with?"
"Not exactl-"
"Do you love lise?"
"Ye-"
"Are you gay?"
"Yes," he immidiately said.
"Well, since youre a gay, picking on gays, because they are gay, and love big, fat, gayness, you deserve this."
And I punched him.
Hard.
A/N: Damn Niall!
I know I said Daisy and Phoebe are too young to remember Lou. They were 6, if I remember correctly, wnen he was on TXF. So theyre going to be 4 in this, but everyone elses age stays the same.
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