SORRY FOR THE WAIT. who am I kidding ?
Practice your patience ;)
anywayssss... This story is pretty much at it's climax,
so you know... WE R ALMOST THEREEEE :)
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Jess POV
I woke up, sweat drenching my back, my heart thumping unevenly against
my chest. I took shaky breaths, trying to calm myself down.
"It's okay." I whispered to myself. "Everything is going to be okay," I reassured myself.
I was about to climb out the bed until the phone rang loudly. I jumped, shocked, and tumbled down the bed and landed on my face, my covers twisting around my body and tied around my leg.
I huffed my hair out of my eyes, and I steadied myself up, hopping to the phone, still tangled.
"Hello?" I spoke, breathless from the minute excersize. I needed to lay off of the ice cream.
"Is this Ms. Jess?" a gruff voice spoke from the other line.
I froze, scared, wondering who it was.
"Y-yes," I stuttered, scared if it was murderers still after me.
"Dont be alarmed this is the police," he said, pausing for my response.
I let out a sigh of relief, and I looked in the mirror. Dark bags, crazy wild eyes, flushed cheeks, and frizzy curls sticking up everywhere.
"ma'am?" the police said, snapping me out of my analysis.
"Yes sorry?"
"We wanted to ask you about the murder that was attempting to take place, to see if the information is a fit."
"Of course," I said, closing my eyes, pinching my nose bridge.
" I take it that your parents died?" he said bluntly.
I took a deep breath, squeezing my eyes tighter. I can't be in denial anymorez. They were dead. They weren't ever coming back. I needed to stop pretending my life is perfect, because it's shattered.
"Yes," I whispered, fighting the tears in my eyes.
"Do you know those two people?"
"No," I said, confused.
"They were working in your parents line of company."
"Oh."
"Yes, and since they were put in a high position, they were thinking that once the death occured they would take over the fine and wealthy establishment," he explained professionally.
"Ohh, but I inherit all the money coming from all of that don't I?" I questioned
"Yes, the income goes into your bank account, which your aunt has been sworn into responsibility for," he
explained.
"So those two were trying to kill me for the money?" i asked, disgusted people were that greedy.
"That isn't the point Jessica, the point is that they also killed your parents."
silence. Acceptance. I let it soak in, sadness filling me rather than anger.
"Thank you for the information," I said, feeling pathetic.
"They are locked in prison, and certainly to not be let out," he said kindly.
"Thank you," I said, feeling somewhat content.
This was life. It wasn't meant to be easy. I have to stop being soft, and relying on everyone and placing
my trust in them, because they all have different intentions.
I walked over to my couch, the blanket on the floor, and I curled up in a ball, feeling vulnerable.
I took a shaky breath, and that moment Hana walked in, her eyes filled with concern.
"Sweety are you okay?"
"Yes, why?"
"You're pale.."
"Sorry," I shrugged.
"Wanna go and get Chase a gift like you said yesterday?" she asked kindly, her eyes analytical.
"Yea let's go," I said, feeling somewhat excited that I can get him a gift.
"But first lemme take a shower," I Said, sniffing my hair.
We entered the mall, and I instantly went to Hallmark, picking up a card meant for best friends, and it had
two little puppies, one with a crown on her head, the other with a jester hat, as they snuggled close together. I walked around the rest of the store, picking up a huge teddy bear, because that's what Chase is to me. My Teddy bear. It was holding a heart saying, "Idiot had me scared there," and underneath it, "Feel better." I payed it all up, and felt excited, imagining his expression.
I walked into Macy's remembering that Chase needed some new clothes, since I'm always wearing them, and he just seems happy with the eight shirts he has.
I would die if I was in his position. I walked around, knowing he liked polo shirts. I picked colors I think
goes best for him. Blues, blacks, and navy blue. Maybe you didn't notice, but I really like how he looks when he has dark shirts. It goes nice with his skin. I got some jeans, he only has three. I realize whenever we go to the mall, it's always just me buying stuff. I had bought him so many things, I had three bags of clothes just for him.
I left the store, and walked into his favorite sport store. I barely go here, I don't even know half the things here. I saw these cleats that I knew that he was eyeing, and I got his shoe size and bought it for him,
along with some soccer shorts since I know his are worn out. I feel so happy buying him all this stuff, I went around seeing if I can buy him anything else. Eventually I met up with Hana, and her eyes widened as soon as she saw all my
bags for him.
"Jess," she groaned, "please tell me that wasn't with your money."
I stayed silent, and I heard her sigh deeply.
"How much?" she asked cautiously.
"You might not want to hear that," I said, grinning sheepishly.
She let out another groan, before leading me out to her car.
She dropped me off home, and followed me inside.
"Still think imma kill myself?" I asked, feeling the trust level.
"Jess, I don't want to think that, but I can't get over the fact that if I was a
SECOND, one second off, you would be gone. I mean, how can I cope with that?"
I looked at the floor, feeling quite immature.
"But again, i wanna see Chase's reaction," she said happily.
I groaned, feeling scared, and started wrapping presents in boxes for him
It took around a long hour to finish wrapping all the gifts I got him.
I sighed happily, before Hana called.
"JESS, Chase is done the surgery, and he woke up, do you wanna see him?"
my heart skipped a few beats, my breathing becoming shortened, and I was nervous at the thought of
seeing him. I washed my face, and put some makeup on, trying to look pretty. I did my hair, trying to tame the frizz, and when I looked decent, I threw on some skinny jeans and a tank top, and picked up the teddy bear and my card and ran down the steps the rest of the
presents will be when he comes back. Hana saw my excitement, and she gave me a sweet smile, before she opened the door and drove us to the hospital.
As soon as we arrived I didn't waste any time.
I ran to the entrance, and went up to the lady
"I came to see Chase," I said, breathless from pure joy.
She looked down, and gave me a fake smile.
"Room 146," she said.
I gave her a fake smile back and ran to the room.
The nurse was outside, scribbling something on a wad of paper, before making me stop.
"I can't let you in unless you are related to him," she said, her face caring less.
"Really?"
"Yup."
"Go and ask him that."
"It isn't up to him."
That moment Hana walked up behind me, her look of pure hatred on her face.
"Listen, I'm his mother," she said menacingly.
The nurse took a step back, and opened the door for her.
"Wait here Jess," she told me.
The nurse scurried off, and Hana went inside, but I mean, since when do
I ever follow rules?
I waited for an impatient minute, and then flung the door, noting how Hana and Chase's heads' whipped towards me.
Hana looked at me, shaking her head, an amused smile on her eyes, and Chase's eyes lit up.
I ran over to his bed, and softly slipped in, and buried my face in his neck.
"Jess," Chase whispered softly.
I looked up and met his gorgeous eyes, which seemed like a liquidy light brown today.
I kissed his cheek and he glanced at Hana, before she understood and left.
I stayed glued to his side, his lips lightly tracing my neck, up and down, softly.
"You're alive," I murmured, not believing how lucky I was.
"Do you think I'd give up without trying?" he whispered huskily.
I shook my head softly.
"So whaddya got there," he said nudging me for the gift bag.
I took the huge Teddy out first, and his eyes were filled with amusement.
He read the heart the bear was holding and he gave a
chuckle, before taking an arm and wrapping it around my waist.
"How are you feeling?"
"Better now that you came. I woke up around twenty minutes ago and asked about you,"
he whispered, sucking on my neck. I melted softly into his touch, my heart rate picking up.
"So, I had you scared huh?" he whispered playfully.
"You had no idea," I murmured.
He lightly laughed and placed the Teddy bear on his nightstand.
I gave him the card I bought him, and he instantly cracked a smile as soon as
he saw the puppies. He leaned over and kissed my cheek, his eyes so happy and filled with
unknown emotions.
"Are you sore?" I asked
"All over, but i'm pretty pissed at my leg," he said irritated.
"Why?"
"Im going to be on crutches as soon as I'm off, and it's gonna take a while."
"At least you're okay," I said, way too happy to let him being on crutches dissapoint me.
"I won't play soccer the rest of the season," he said, a sour face plastered on.
I gave a light laugh and kissed his nose.
"School ends in two months, I think you'll be okay by then," I
guessed.
"Maybe," he said, unconvinced.
At that moment, Hana walked in, and I had a sick feeling she's gonna tell Chase
that I had temporarily went suicidal.
"Jess, can Chase and I talk?"
I gulped and nervously walked out. My legs felt like they were going to give out.
After around ten minutes, the nurse came rushing into his room.
"Why is your heart rate that high?" she asked cautiously.
"I just told him something that's all," Hana said. The nurse gave her a foul expression
before walking off.
Hana walked out of the room, and kept the door open. I took a deep breath
and walked in, before Hana muttering "Good luck," under her breath.
I went back into the bed, where Chase's eyes were
murderous and really pissed off.
"Okay before you yell at me," I started.
"You were gonna kill yourself?" he asked, not facing me, his voice quiet.
I knew he was holding back his anger, but I couldn't help it. I buried my face into
his back, feeling the teats making their way. God, how many times in two days am I going to cry?
I'm shocked I didn't go blind.
"I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking," I whispered, hating how I felt I was going to throw up. "I just thought
that you were gone."
"And even if I was gone, why would you do that?" he said, anger now evident in his tone.
"Because I can't live without you, you know that," I whispered in a hoarse voice.
"Jess, I had given up my life FOR YOU, and YOU WOULD JUST TOSS IT AWAY LIKE THAT?!"
he said, yelling the last part.
I let the tears flow freely, and I didn't respond, his back was still towards me.
He heard my sniffling, and he instantly turned his face towards me. I shamefully met his eyes, and all traces of anger were gone. He craddled me into his chest, and I watched as my tears landed on his hospital sheets. "Jess," he whispered. "Don't you dare ever throw your life like that, I don't care if I was
dead, don't let it ever cross your mind." he said sternly.
I whimpered softly, wanting him to see my perspective.
"Chase, if I was dead, what would you do," I said defendingly, looking into his eyes, my voice cracking.
His eyes turned a light shade darker, before he looked away.
"That's different," he said.
"No it's not."
"Yes it is,"
"No."
"Yes."
"Chase," I sighed defeated.
"Okay fine I see where you're going."
"Chase, I swear if I knew that you were alive I wouldn't have thought of it,
I just can't imagine my life without you, and knowing that I caused it," I gulped
"You didn't cause it," he said looking up at me.
"Yes I did, they were after me. If I was dead, or never existed you wouldn't have been through that."
"Dont think like that!!! I went after them for YOU."
"And besides," he continued, "Hana has a point when she says she was lucky she caught you."
"Do you know How much pain I would be in if I found out you were gone?" he said softly.
"Do you know how much pain I was in when I thought you were gone?" I whispered.
"Hana gave me a brief idea," he said.
I wanted to tell him how I felt. I didn't want to lose that precious second chance. I needed him to at least know. But that courageous thought shrunk as I thought he has a lot on his plate.
He's going to be on crutches, he just found out I was going to kill myself, now
I'll tell him I love him? I'll give us some time. After he graduates. That's when he needs to know how much he means to me so he won't have the freedom to be with college skanks. My stomach felt some pain as I thought about that.
He was fiddling with my hair, and I snuggled into him.
The doctor came in the room, and explained what's going to happen to Chase.
"You need to stay here for a few days, just so we can make sure you're okay, and then
once you're released you will be on crutches. It will take some time, don't put any strain and your
muscles might heal faster. No sports, no running, avoid physical activity. I will write up a doctor note that
you are to give to your gym teacher," he said, sounding like he had memorized all this before.
Chase grit his teeth, I knew he was pretty pissed, but I couldn't have been happier
I nodded eagerly, promising that Chase will never get hurt again. The doctor left the room, and I softly started kissing his neck. He gave a happy sigh and looked up at me with twinkling eyes.
"I'm happy I'm not dead," he said, kissing my soft spot on my neck. Damn, how'd he find it. I guess he realized it by the light moan I gave. A mischievous grin came over his face. " I definetly know where I'm going to give you hickies from now on." I gave a light blush, and he gave a soft chuckle.
"you don't know how much I miss you," I whispered softly.
He started tracing the length of my neck with his lips, memorizing every single part of it, while I gave a shaky sigh, wanting my heart to stop beating loudly.
"Did you sleep," he asked, concerned.
I shook my head and gave him a sorrowful smile.
"Well now what? I still have a couple of days here." I smoothed out his wrinkle lines on his forehead.
"There's a bed here, dont think I'm going anywhere," I muttered under my breath.
"When I first woke up, I asked where you were, the doctor looked at me confused. That freaked me out and I thought you were gone too," he choked up.
I looked up at him through my lashes, and started stroking his arms.
"But then when I described you, the nurse reminded him that 'it was the girl that kept crying'" he said, imitating a high pitched voice. I gave a laugh, runningy fingers through his hair.
"Did you kick ***?"
"Believe it."
Hana walked in, a smile on her lips as she saw me cuddling into Chase, and my fingers in his hair.
"How was his reaction?" she said smirking
"Not bad," I said with a smirk of my own. Hana's eyes held confusion as she glanced at Chase.
"I'll rant when we're home, I just don't want her anymore miserable, you said she cried a bit didn't you?" Chase asked, kissing my forehead. Hana smiled at the light kiss.
"You two are so cute and meant for each other, I don't know what you're waiting for."
At the same moment Chase and I both blushed, the heat flooding to our cheeks.
"And cried a bit for you? That girl cried a river until there was nothing left in her," Hana continued.
Chase's eyes widened, and he looked at me for confirmation. I blushed even harder and I looked at the white blankets, wishing the earth would swallow me.
Hana started giggling. "She cried for at least five hours straight. Lord knows how much water that girl has
in her."
Chase tilted my chin up, "It's okay, if I was in your position I'd do the same."
"Well I'll leave the lovebirds alone and let you two catch up on sleep. I know Jess didn't get any."
I wrapped my arms around him, making sure I didn't hurt him.
"Sore?" he whispered
I had forgotten how sore I was, I didn't realize that I was aching.
"I'm okay," I lied.
"Liar," he said, kissing my soft spot again. I let out a light sigh.
"I didn't sleep though," I said.
"Well let's catch up on it," he responded happily.
He lifted his arms up and let me curl into his sides before his arms wrapped around my stomach and I layed my head on his chest.
"Love you Jess," he muttered into my hair
"Love you too," I whispered, the bottom of my stomach feeling empty and hating how I was a coward and scared to tell him.
CHASE POV (FINALLY AHHHH)
I looked down and saw my angel. The one I had taken two bullets for. I felt so happy that she wasn't in my position. I held her close to me, inhaling her sugary scent. I couldn't help it, I had almost lost her. The thought scared the crap out of me. She almost killed herself. I still couldn't believe that. When mom told me that, I was so enraged, I could feel myself shaking. But when she explained it, I was really happy mom caught her. If Jess was dead I'm pretty sure I'd have the same reaction as her.
I leaned down and pecked her lips softly, marveling at how pouty and red they were. They were small, bur full too. I ran my fingers softly against it, and watched as she snuggled into me even more. When I was with Jess, all I cared about was her. It was always her, and I was stupid for trying to pull off best
friends. I mean, how much can I last with her? I loved her, no question about it. She meant everything to me. And I know I mean a lot to her too, but, does she feel the same way?
She's always giving me on and off signals, so when I have high hopes, it comes crashing down.
And I let my mind wander about other things, like college. Being a senior, I already applied, and got scholarships for them about soccer. Of course Im positive I'd turn it down since it was in California. I applied to New York, knowing there was no way I'd last living in the City that never sleeps, so I'd be back in Pennsylvania each day for Jess. I applied here too, I was still waiting for that response.
It was a good college,
and did have several careers, and Hana says whatever makes me happy, as long as it's successful.
I slowly felt my eyelids drooping, letting my fingers wrap around Jess's hair, and drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
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Goal: upload tommorrowwww. Sorry if it's short, but like I said,
THIS STORY IS AT THE CLIMAX... so idk how many chapters till it's done, but hopefully
will be done by end of this month...
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