NICKI:
May 17, 2022; Queens— 5:38PM
bad as i wanna keep focus, you remind me i'm imperfect and it sucks to admit. nobody put that purpose in me like you do, still. nobody get that work up out me like you do. nobody get the truth about me quite like you. you the definition of my right hand never mind ridin' backseat when you lead me.
—
"these are so beautiful" David's mom was looking through the maternity shoot pictures i had taken.
Kairi& I came over to bring her some pictures and cook but she insisted i just relax.
David and Hassan will be disappointed but i was relieved.
"thank you so much" i smiled as i sat on her couch with a full carton of ice cream to myself.
"i wanna get the pictures blown up" she suggested and i already had plans to do this for myself.
"when i go do mine ill get you some too" i told her and she smiled widely.
"that'll be great"
"i don't smell nothing" Hassan presented himself into the living room area with a few bags in his hand.
i was confused because he didn't come through the front door.
"i didn't hear the garage open" david's mom was confused
"it was already open and the door was unlocked cause yall just want somebody to come kill yall" David came in behind Hassan
"mom you cooking something?" Hassan questioned "ion smell n-"
"no she's not cooking she's relaxing" David's mom took a seat next to me. "her feet are really swollen" she came to my defense
"so what we gone eat?!" Hassan was left confused
"order pizza" David told him before coming over to the couch and sitting next to me.
"wow..all me and kairi good for is pizzas?" Hassan looked disappointed
"man order whatever yall want" he tapped my leg and signaled for me to raise it.
i lifted my right leg and stretched it across his lap.
"umm i want pasta" Kairi stood to her feet "and fries" she added
"fine" Hassan sighed and the two went into the kitchen
"picky as hell" David uttered before grabbing my foot, raising it and kissing it gently
—
"i have to go look at a house on monday" i explained to david as he drove us back home. I had no interest in driving and my feet were so swollen i wanted to just relax
"word? where at?" he had one hand on my stomach and the other on the wheel. his eyes were focused forward.
"Jersey city"
"that's cool, you found a realtor?" he took a quick glance at me and i nodded
"yeaaaah" i stretched my bottom lip "its ryan's sister" before i could even finish he was sucking his teeth
"fuck outta here" he uttered "get somebody else to do it"
"it's too last minute-"
"i'll find somebody" he shrugged
"you like being a pain in the ass?" i was irritated yet i wasn't because i knew this would happen if i told him. That and Ryan hasn't really talked much to me since LA.
but i'd just leave david to stress about finding a new realtor instead of me.
"not in that way, no" he chuckled
"boy please" i smacked his hand away.
—
DAVE:
"we finna go drop kairi off then we gone go get lined up" i waited in the car for kairi to finally be done. Nicki was cutting her ends and then i had to drop her off to her moms.
"well they need to hurry up cause our appointments in 45 minutes" Hassan looked out the window in a rush.
"well i ain't finna rush yo moms she gone cuss me out" i scoffed and relaxed in my seat
"well since we here i found a way to get rid of that guy that likes my mom" he finally relaxed as well and turned to face me in his seat.
i chuckled "wassup? what's the plan?" i asked with a smirk
"you just gotta be around you know? especially when the baby get here he not gone have time to be with her alone because you gone always be right there and my mom not just gone leave her new baby to go be with him? he not gone wanna wait cause he already been waiting these whole 9 months to date her" he rambled on and on but he was making sense.
"so just keep doing this and he gone feel a way and then my mom don't like being told what to do"
"you damn right which is why we finna sit here for as long as it takes" i joked and hassan sucked his teeth
"im serious man we gotta get this nigga gone-"
"i know and we will"
—
at this point another hour had passed and they still wasn't done. I decided to go in just to check the scenery out and see what was going on.
When i got into the living room nicki was stretched out on the couch and cradling Kairi like a baby.
i instantly sucked my teeth at the sight. Nicki looked up and she was confused "i thought you were going to get a haircut" she twisted her mouth to the side
"man i been waiting on you to finish.."
"i've been done for like 30 minutes but she was tired" she rubbed kairis hair out of her face.
"we missed our appointment waiting on y-"
"um you should've called? i thought yall left" she shrugged "and i wanted a seafood boil from that side of town" her bottom lip curled up
"im finna see if he can get us in still" i pulled my phone out
"yeah and get me a seafood boil before you come back" she requested as i put the phone to my ear and called Chance.
"when she wake up make sure she got all her stuff together cause i gotta drop her off tonight" i nudged my head towards kairi as the phone rung
"but she has camp tomorrow so why would you wake her up?" she frowned at the idea and she was probably right but Jo ain't give a fuck. she probably wasn't gone take her no way.
"east wassup?" Chance spoke into the phone
"my bad i missed the appointment i had some
to handle-"
"nigga i forgot yo ass was coming" he sounded shocked and i was somewhat relieved
"so it's good we come now?" i asked
"yeah my next client not coming till 10 so we good"
"im on my way" i pulled the phone from my ear and hung up
"ill see if she can stay again but if not ima just get her and take her home" i slipped my phone into my back pocket
"you want me to take her upstairs?" i asked nicki while looking down at her shook her head
"my parents are on the way ill have my dad do it" she suggested "she just went to sleep so it might wake her"
"ight, i'll get your seafood and shit"
—
Hassan and i went to get lined up at my nigga Chance crib. It didn't take him longer than 45 minutes to do the both of us and we was out to get the seafood.
"just pick her up from the camp" i suggested on the phone with Jo. I was on my way to Nicki's and she said Kairi was out. "it's over at 12"
I ain't wanna wake her up and Kairi was excited about camp that's why nicki did her hair. She washed it, blow dried it, flat ironed and cut her ends.
Tomorrow was the kids get to know each other day and they needed to take pictures for their badges to prepare for the next two weeks when they actually start.
It was short and simple, we'd drop her off at 9 and she'd get to know her age group, her counselors, and a little run down on camp.
"i'm probably gonna be sleep you can't just get her? not like you got much planned" she sounded childish like always and instead of going off i played it cool. Hassan was right here.
but if you hadn't notice Jo a little lazy when it comes to shit like this. Hell Nicki the one who found the camp and got kairi in it.
don't get me wrong she a good mom she just expects me to put in more effort and work.
"I do got stuff planned which is why she was going tonight but she sleep so all you gotta do is pick her up but if that's too much i'll have somebody else do it"
"it's not too much"
"ight" before she could say anything else i hung up.
"i ain't wanna interrupt but i think you forgot my mom extra garlic butter sauce for her crab" Hassan was looking out the window. I instantly chuckled
"since when you ain't wanna interrupt??" i asked in between laughs.
"i mean the conversation was a little intense" he shrugged with a smirk
"nah i got her extra sauce it's in the brown bag" i confirmed
"oh ok, cause you was taking the blame"
"shit what's new?"
—
"i can pick her up if you want me to" nicki was focusing on cracking her crab legs open at the kitchen counter. "i have to go by the shop and then i can go get her-"
"that's the thing it's not your responsibility so don't stress on it she said she'd do it" i dipped my boiled egg in the extra cajun seasoning butter before taking a bite. "and you supposed to be on bed rest"
"ok grouchy pants" she frowned before finally snapping her crab leg in half "and i forgot to tell you that savannah invited Hassan to their annual Lakers Basketball camp it's a weekend long type of thing but it'll be around the time i just give birth so i wont be in attendance but before i give my sisters the options to go or not did you wanna go?"
"uh..." i hesitated, it sounded nice as hell but i also knew i was gone be up under her and the baby a lot especially when she first get here so it isn't realistic.
"just let them know because i dont know about leaving that soon either-"
she sucked her teeth "boy you not giving birth" she spoke in between chews "you just gone be getting on my fucking nerves"
"yeah, i ain't giving birth and yeah ima be getting on yo nerves but you gone need somebody here to take you to appointments, help handle kairi, feed y-"
"i have two parents, kairi doesn't give me issues, again i have two parents to feed me and they'll be kissing the ground i walk on during this time so i doubt i'll have to do much" she confessed with her focus on her crab
"i don't know, i need to be with my baby"
"so you gone leave Hassan alone with my sisters?? in LA?" she asked giving me something else to worry about.
Her sisters cool but they also ghetto as fuck and LA ain't no place to play.
"ight, i'm only doing it cause i know Hassan ain't gone want them up his ass and babying him" i shook my head
"it's just a weekend" she assured me but it didn't make me feel better. "you won't miss shit but maybe her first throw up" she joked
"do we gotta sign him up?"
"no" she shook her head "i already sent his name to her and now i just have to tell him"
"ight, it's good ima go"
—
After we ate we ended the night pretty late. I still had to get up and make sure Kairi got to camp, I made sure to text Jo her location so she didn't have an excuse as to why she ain't get her.
After that I had a studio session. I was locked in from the moment i dropped kairi off i was in work mode. A couple hours had went by, i might've did 2 or 3 verses for a few songs, one with chris brown, another with fab, and one for the new creed movie but i wasn't sure who else was gone be on it as of now.
"east" my producer K-Lo called me.
when i looked over at him he had my phone and was handing it to me "it was yo girl calling hella times and you know she pregnant so i answered" he explained and i nodded
"nah fasho" i grabbed my phone from him and put it up to my ear "hello?"
"uh why aren't you answering your phone?" she sounded irritated
"i was working you good tho? wassup?"
"no one came to get kairi and it's an hour after she was supposed to get picked up so they were calling you and you didn't answer so my friend just called me so i'm on my way" she explained and i sucked my teeth "i thought her mom was getting her"
"she was supposed to" i sighed "my bad i was working on some last minute shit i ain't even hear my phone" i felt bad she had to get out the bed. "i'll leave now to get her just go back home"
"it's fine i'm getting off of the freeway" she cleared her throat "do you want me to take her back with me?"
"ima meet you over there now and i'll take her" i started to get my shit together to leave.
"ok, can you bring me a brownie if you have time?" she asked and i chuckled "my mouth is watering"
"yeah, ima get you a brownie ma-ma"
soon as we got off the phone i left to go meet nicki. I made sure to get her a few brownies before i pulled up.
When i got there the parking lot was basically empty besides the few cars left from the staff. I parked next to Nicki and when i got out she rolled her window down.
"did you get my brownies?" she looked frustrated and i simply pulled two brownies out of my pocket. her face lit up at the sight
"where kairi?" i handed the brownies to her through the window as i stood on the outside of the car.
"in the car with her ghetto as mama who just came over here and cussed me out like i was the one who forgot to come pick her up" nicki was more focused on getting her brownie out of its packaging "she called me all kinds of stupid bitches as if it was my fault the people called me? like im not in the mood, my feet are swollen, my back hurts, ive had to go in there and pee like 2 times already, and these brownies are my first meal of the day" she took a huge bite out of her brownie and moaned.
"word? why you ain't eat?" i was more concerned about that.
"i just woke up!" she spoke with her mouthful "i was sleep, this the only time i get to sleep when you leave me the hell alone and i lock my door"
"you bugging" i chuckled
"why the fuck you got this bitch coming to pick up our child?" Jo came out of nowhere on the side of nicki car.
I thought they had left i ain't know they was still here.
"here she go" nicki uttered
"they couldn't reach either one of us so they called her" i explained calmly i ain't wanna bring no more attention to this situation then it needed to be.
"so why is she on the emergency contact? you have a fucking mother" she continued with her same energy
"she not on the emergency contact her friend work here and called her"
"it's not that serious especially since you couldn't come on time to get her" i didn't keep much eye contact because i wasn't trying to entertain this at all.
"it was a slip up but i don't need your other bitch to come and try and play mommy-"
"somebody gotta do it" nicki chimed in rolling her eyes
"excuse me bitch?" Jo clearly heard her. i sighed
"bitch you heard me" nicki continued "cry baby ass bitch"
"you saying all that in that car-"
"bitch i'll say it to your face and you won't do shit but cry about it" nicki waved her off and picked up her phone from the cup holder
"get out the car then" Jo attempted to step to her but i pushed her back
"Jo i'll slap the fuck outta you stop playing with me"
she thought she was finna be getting buck with nicki with my baby in her? fuck that.
"you gone let this bitch talk to me like this?" Jo seemed offended and hurt by my reaction
"one she's pregnant, two you been talking crazy since you pulled up" i shrugged it off "you look crazy as fuck in this parking lot tryna make a scene"
"cry baby" nicki stuck her tongue out "nananana booboo ass little girl" she continued to taunt her.
nicki was being childish but in this situation it was warranted. That and i wasn't in the mood to be fighting with her if i said something.
"david why don't you love me?" she spoke ina mocking tone "why don't you wanna be a family" nicki continued "ugly ass girl" she stuck her tongue out again
"bitch he not gone always be here to defend you" Jo warned before turning to walk away
"im so scared" nicki scoffed
"you play too much" i told her.
"get the fuck away from my motherfucking car" she stuck her arm out the window and pushed me back "cause i should be in my bed but since you nor your raggedy ass baby momma wanted to answer the phone i'm somehow to blame and i'm getting cussed out?" she seemed irritated as she should be. "and i'm telling my sisters so you better keep the bitch in the house"
"thank you for coming to get Kairi" despite her attitude i knew she'd do it again if necessary. i leaned in and kissed her on the cheek.
she pulled her face back "let's go eat" i suggested and she sucked her teeth "what you want? some spicy?" i asked and she hesitated but nodded
"i want spicy fried rice and hot honey chicken" she licked her lips and i knew food was gone get her in a better mood.
"ight come on" i tapped her window seal and stood up completely straight to walk away.
—
we ended up at her favorite chinese food buffet style restaurant. We was wasting a little bit of time before i had to go get Hassan from his friends house and take em to the courts.
"i wish they had like cajun seasoning for the crab legs" nicki was staring past me at the section of seafood. she already had a plate full of spicy fried rice, honey hot chicken, egg rolls, chow mein, and beef & broccoli.
"you can grab some for togo and make your own" i suggested and she nodded instantly
"thats so smart dont let me forget" she picked her fork up "i also want a cake before we leave" she added
"ima make sure you get your shit" i wasn't too hungry so i didn't get nothing but some to drink.
"the baby shower is tomorrow so you have all of your stuff together?" she asked before taking her first forkful of food.
"i'm pretty sure im straight on my outfit and shit, I got kairi stuff" i cleared my throat and slouched in my seat "Hassan convinced me it's only right she have a outfit change too so she got some else comfortable to get in"
"are you doing anything for your birthday?" she held her hand over her mouth and chewed her food down.
i sucked my teeth at the idea. The baby was supposed to be born right around my birthday and after this baby shower? that is the plans.
I'm just hoping it's everything she want and more. We both kind of letting her sisters handle the communication with the party planner and i'm just sending the money.
Obviously Hassan got some say so into it so i ain't too much tripping but also i need to know where my money going.
"hell nah? the baby done fucked that up" i joked and she chuckled
"that's how i feel with Hassan, i haven't cared about a birthday since he's been here"
"yeah, it's done i could've did a big one this year but it's not like you can come cause you basically on bed rest"
"yeaaaah and im loving it so as soon as we're done im going back to my bed and sleeping all day" she smiled
"and i hope you got everything together and ready for the baby to come at your house because i don't know if ill survive at my moms house" her eyes rolled and she twirled her fork in her food "my sisters get on my nerves everyday and if i dont lock my doors they wake me up to bother the baby so just imagine when she's actually here?"
"yeah, my moms came over yesterday to finish-"
"you seriously got your mom working?" she narrowed her eyes at me.
i threw my hands up in defense "ay, she came over on that hype i ain't call her but she insist on organizing and getting the room ready"
"because you should've been doing it"
"i would've been doing that but im at your moms house everyday doing it for you" i chuckled and watched her play in her food.
"uh because you don't want me to pay people to do it-"
"nah, i just don't want him doing shit for my daughter" i scoffed and she blankly stared at me before dropping her fork
"what's the difference between him doing it and another nigga doing it? as long as it gets done" her neck rolled at me
"he just wanna be around and shit that's the difference and he need to stop being arou-"
"whatever i don't care anymore" she waved me off "dont upset me right now" she picked her fork back up.
"yeah just feed my baby and shut up" i told her and she gave me a stank look
"its always your baby" she sized me before taking a bite.
"you damn right cause you was finna kill her to go be with ryan" i smirked knowing it would piss her off and get her started
her entire facial expression seemed to change and her words started to fumble with the food in her mouth
"bitch you got me fucked up" she finally expressed with her hand over her mouth "i never was going to kill her because of him if anything it was because of you and the embarrassment, and heartbreak you put me through"
"a nigga fuck up one time and you tryna kill my baby and shit" i shook my head
"shut up"
"ill never do it again-"
"you'll never get the chance to" she smiled with her lips
"exactly cause it's just me and you forever" i grabbed her wrist and raised her hand to my lips before kissing the back of it
"that's not what i meant" she watched me with hooded eyes
"its either that or every nigga you think you gone fuck with gone die" i shrugged and released her hand
"and you'll eventually go to jail"
"man shut the fuck up" i ignored her smart remark. she was just talking
"im scared for tomorrow but" she paused in reference to the baby shower "im glad we aren't the ones stressing about it"
"nah for real, i ain't even really thought about it"
"same, it wasn't until my sisters came over last night and made me try my dress on" she licked her lips before taking another bite
"you like it?"
she nodded slowly and chewed her food down.
"good, hopefully it's still gone fit and shit" i joked before cracking up
she simply gave me the finger
"anyways since we're on the topic" she sighed and twirled her fork in her plate. her eyes slowly looked up at me "maybe you were kind of right?" she uttered
i screwed my face up i didn't know where this was going.
"about ryan" she uttered and once i figured out what she was getting at i sucked my teeth
"yeah, that nigga tried to fuck you in LA huh? and that's why when i see him im shooting him in his face"
"woah woah woah" her hands went up "aint nobody try to fuck nobody for one"
"but we talked and he just wasn't making sense like he assumed you'd be out of the picture when the baby got here and that i wouldn't share my location with you when i move and it was starting to click a little" she explained and i shook my head. bout time she was starting to realize shit for what it was.
"he only think that way cause you play mind games" i shrugged and she sucked her teeth
"how?" her arms went into a tight fold across her chest
"for starters you think you can tell a nigga aw we just friends when his first attempt to ever approach you was to get at you ina sexual way?? then when you do say you just friends you calling him every chance you get? when you need favors, niggas count them favors" i explained and she sighed with an eye roll.
"anyways he made it clear he thought when i dropped the baby we was gone be going out and on dates" she sighed deeply "i wish i could go on dates" her eyes rolled
"you bugging, i take you out every time you ask"
"and you be tripping on me and i ignore the shit" i added and her eyes fluttered
"your supposed to" she nonchalantly shrugged "i don't feel bad for you because this is what you wanted"
"yeah, we got another month left?"
her face screwed up and she mugged me "18 years" she chewed her food down "you think my attitude bad? i just know this little girl gone run you and give you hell"
"not my little princess" she pointed her fork at me
"that's exactly how she gone do it she gone be spoiled and you gone let her do whatever she want"
"that's how it go" i didn't see a problem "she gone get whatever she want"
"poor thing" her eyes rolled
"now that we got that nigga out the picture when can i be your boyfriend again?"
she took a long deep breath before i could even finish saying what i wanted
"im deadass you playing me like some random nigga"
"no, i'm playing you like a cheater" she picked her water up and took a sip. i shook my head and sighed
"im just tryna come back home"
"ain't you been home?" she squinted her eyes with a soft smirk "you've been closer than anybody who's ever cheated on me and i think we're cool" she shrugged
"cause this real love unlike yo other phony ass relationships and i ain't giving up."
"truthfully despite my mood swings caused by this baby i've actually forgiven you and i've moved on" she confessed with a shoulder shrug "i just give you a hard time because i can"
"so what we doing man?" i was annoyed she thought shit was a game.
"whatever it is i want to do" she sized me "i don't gotta jump because you say so"
"yeah you do"
"shut up, before you ruin a good thing david" she spoke in a sarcastic tone. "you know we're in a relationship-"
"no the fuck i don't"
"i'm not fucking nobody else-"
"because you can't" i scrunched my face up
"i can...i actually can" she scoffed
my face turned cold and harsh "but im not..."
"you probably are tho" her eyes rolled "thats why you think the way you do"
"nah i ain't" i shook my head "i been in the dog house for too long i ain't doing shit that's finna keep me in it"
"ok so why do you need me to tell you we're together?"
"because i plan my life around us and what we doing moving forward so it'd be nice to know if we in this together or if we done and moving on"
"so you want me to tell you the obvious?"
"nah i want you to stop playing games" i folded my arms
"ok" she dropped her fork on the plate "no more mixed signals"
"i still feel like you playing th-"
"nigga don't piss me off" she warned with threatening eyes. "one i don't even remember you letting me break up with you and im not playing i'm being serious it's not like you gone let me move on anyways"
"you just talking like you gone be mature when we know you aren't?" her eyes rolled "look how you act with Ryan-"
"and i was right tho..the nigga wanna fuck you"
"alright david i get it"
"good" i watched her pick her fork back up.
—
when she finished eating i followed her to the crib then i had to go pick Hassan up from his friends house and we was gone run a round at the courts.
"Wassup" soon as he got in and closed the door we dapped each other up
"none, you have fun?" i asked and he nodded while pulling his seatbelt on
"yeah, we played the game whole night"
"you got everything you need for tomorrow?" i asked not knowing if he was completely straight
"yeah, hair done, i got my fits and my shoes i think im good" he nodded "ima need some money tho" he smirked
"nigga for what?" i was taken back but kept my focus on the road. everything was gone be paid for and if not i was gone be in attendance as well as his moms.
"i need to be 4 pockets full" he joked causing me to crack up
"corny ass little nigga" i shook my head "and you got a shoe box full of money" i reminded him and he sighed
"and the reason it's full is because i get the money from you and my mom"
"thats the least of yo worries, we gotta make sure everything go smoothly tomorrow-"
"thats not your job to worry i got this!" he remind me and held his hands up. "you chill out"
"word?" he nodded "so if we show up and shit crazy i'm blaming you"
"that's cool i can't get in too much trouble" he shrugged nonchalantly "its gone be nice tho i already got pictures of the venue and how the pre setup look"
"let me see-"
"no" he cut me off and shook his head "heck no"
"remember this" i took a quick glance at him and he had a smirk on his face
"i will"
—
another filler chapter until the baby shower
do you think Jo is intimidated by nicki's role in Kairis life?
should she be mad about nicki showing up and not david?
was it good nicki told david about the conversation she had with ryan? did she hold a bit out?
was she sending mixed signals to Ryan?
do you think she was playing with david to make him suffer?
did he deserve it?
vote & comment please 🩷