𝗞𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘃
It's been a week since I heard yns song, a long week infact, not speaking to her, not having her at training, not having her smile around, not having her laugh echo through the room, not seeing her with a football at her feet, not having those teasing jokes with her at training, not catching eachothers eyes at training across the pitch...not getting the butterflies I usually get when I hear her or see her.
It's like she's...gone.
I rarely see her anymore, she's usually in her room or gone somewhere in her car.
She doesn't speak anymore...and what makes it worse is that I need to speak to her, to tell her how awfully I regret not picking her up when the police rang. And just how I feel in general about her.
The feeling I get when I hear her laugh, see her smile...just being her.
I mean I think everyone knows it at training, that no one smiles like they did when yn was there, how they don't laugh as much since yns gone. And I think they see it in me...
The way I don't want to really speak to anyone now, as I'm not in the mood to, my minds just thinking of yn, wondering what she's doing or is she Ok.
I don't think I can deal with 3 months of arsenal with out yn.
If I'm still here.
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We have no training today not till tomorrow morning.
I've decided I'd try speak with yn today.
But what do I say?
Well first of all, is definitely a sorry, then what?
Ugh, I'll just think of it when it comes around.
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I'm sitting by the kitchen island, eating my yogurt. Then I heard yn coming downstairs, this could be my chance.
I hear yn get to the bottom of the stairs, then walk into the sitting room. Fuck sake.
Then I hear her start making her way to the kitchen. Oh shit, I'm nervous.
Yn, comes through the kitchen door and goes to the cupboards and then to the fridge, then turning the kettle on. She leans against the counter, while on her phone, waiting for the kettle to boil.
The speaker then behind her goes off, signaling she connected her phone to it.
The song "scared to start" begins playing.
This could be my chance.
I clear my throat "er...yn?" I say
"Ya?" She says not looking at me
"Can we talk?" I ask
"About what?" She says bluntly finally pulling her eyes out of her phone to look at me.
"Er...how I'm such a bitch...how I er...feel" I whisper the last part
Yn, sighs
"Fine but let me make my tea first" she says once the kettle boils
She then takes a tea bag from the cupboard and then makes her cup if tea.
After she's made her tea she walks to the opposite side of the island from me.
"Ok, I'm here now...speak" she says sipping on her tea.
"Look, I just wanted to apologise" I say
"For what exactly?" She says knowing what I am apologise for
"The er...night you got pulled over, and I erm... didn't collect you" i say looking down at my fingers
"Mmm" she pauses
"Is that all?" She asks
"Erm...no I er..." I pause
As I pause "cinnamon girl" starts playing on the speaker
I gulp "I lik-" I stop myself from saying what I was about to say
I take a deep breath " there's things I want to say to you, but I'll just let you live" I sigh
"There's things I want to talk about but better not to give" yn speaks up
I look up at her, and notice those lyrics are starting to play on speaker. I look directly into yns eyes, which are looking directly at mine.
Yn starts walking around the island, towards me.
There's things I want to say to you, but I'll just let you live
She leans on the island directly infront of me, causing me to play with my claddagh ring, getting nervous at her standing infront of me.
There's things I want to talk about, but better not to give
I look up to face yn.
She's already looking at me.
Like if you hold me with out hurting me, you'd be the first who ever did
Yn then walks closer to me till she's directly infront of me.
"Stand up" she whispers loud enough for me to hear
I give her a confused look
"Just do as I say" she orders
I stand up, our face inches apart, I could practically feel her breath on my lips.
Yn links her lips, her yes flicker between my eyes and my lips, I couldn't help but do the same.
I could see yn leaning in slightly closing the gap between us, I follow with her.
Then our lips meet.
Only as a peck, we slightly pull away, but our foreheads resting on eachothers, and our noses touching.
She then places another peck on my lips, then another and another, then to the point our lips don't pull apart from eachothers.
Yn, cups my cheek with her hand as my hands reach behind her neck, her hands then travel to my waist, pulling me closer to her.
Then "haunted" starts playing on the speaker
"This song couldn't be any better at timing" I think to myself
I feel yn bite my bottom lip slightly, cause my to whimper, making my lips part.
It's where we go
It's where we'll be
I know if I'm on to you, I'm on to you
On to you, you must be on to me
I feel yn smirk against my lips. She knows what she's doing.
My haunted lungs
Ghost in the sheets
I know if I'm haunting you, you must be haunting me
Yn then slips her tongue into my mouth, exploring inside. Then our tongues meet and swirl around together.
My wicked tongue
Where will it be?
I know if I'm onto you, I'm on to you
On to you, I'm on to you
On to you, you must be on to me
Yn then puts her hands behind my thighs. Then parts our kiss
"Jump" she says before connecting our lips again
I do as she says.
Yn has her hands at the back of thighs, while I'm in her arms.
She then places me on the island counter.
The cold counter, making contact with my skin causing me to whimper.
You want me?
I walk down the hallway
Yn then stands between my legs
You're lucky
The bedroom's my runway
Slap me!
I wrap my legs round her waist pulling her closer to me
I'm pinned to the doorway
Kiss, bite
Yns lips makes their way down my neck. Making my bite my lip, stopping me from letting out any noise, of pleasure.
Then begins sucking on my neck, causing me to grunt in pleasure.
My haunted lungs
Ghost in the sheets
I know if I'm haunting you, you must be haunting me
Yn places her hands on my thighs, moving them further up every second.
My wicked tongue
Where will it be
I know if I'm onto you, you must be onto me
She then takes her mouth away from my neck
"I should be mad at you right now" she says closing her eyes
"But it's hard when you turning me on right now" she slightly bites her lip throwing her head back.
It's what we see
I know if I'm haunting you, you must be haunting me
I pull her back by her neck, connecting our lips, before I break it and begin, travelling down her neck.
It's where we go
It's where we'll
I start sucking yns, sweet spot on her neck.
I know if I'm onto you, I'm onto you
Onto you, I'm onto you
While I'm still working on yns neck she picks me up from the island, making her way towards the sitting room. Putting me back on my feet when we reach the sitting room door.
I slowly push her back making her walk backwards into the room, till the back of her legs hit the couch, cause her to fall onto the couch.
I then start to straddle her, connecting my lips with her again, our tongues dancing around with eachother.
She adjusts me on her lap, by my waist.
She then puts her hands on either side of my waist rocking me back and forth.
I pull at the hem of her shirt, asking for me to take it off
She then lifts her hands up allowing me to take of her shirt. Leaving her in her sports bra and shorts.
"Eyes up here" yn smirks before connecting our lips again
Yn, then pulls at my top, I raise my arms, allowing her to take it off. Once she ripped it off me she throws it somewhere in the room, on the floor.
She rocks me back and forth on her lap, while I start kissing her shoulder blades, then down to her chest, then back up to her neck.
Leaving a trail of red marks.
I place my hands on yns abs as she works on my neck, I place my hands lower towards her waist band.
I start playing with her waist band as she gnaws at my jaw.
She then pulls away for a breath of air. Looking into my eyes, out of breath. I peck her lips. Then she smashes her lips onto mine, causing me to moan into her mouth.
My hands still playing at her waist band, as we make out. I then push my hands underneath her shorts. Causing yn to whimper as my cold hands make contact with her skin.
Yn places her hand onto my ass pulling me closer and more ontop of her, I take my hands out her short and place them at the back of the couch. She then makes my rock back and forth on her lap again, I pull away from the kiss making me moan as her lap brushes against where I want to feel her.
She starts moving her hips up and down, while I move back and forth on her lap, causing me to continue to moan slightly.
"Enough of this yn" I say
"I don't understand?" She says with a confused look
"Please, yn" I breath out
"I need words, katie" she smirks catching on to what I ment
"Please, yn, please" I beg
"Words" she smirks
"Just fuck me already yn" I beg
Yn doesn't waste anytime, because she picks me up and makes her way to the bedroom.
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