I could go into depth about how I love you
But still loathe why I did that
Does it make sense?
I do love you, I swear I do, but the amount of hatred I've for you.... I don't know how to explain it.
I'll take a bullet for you
I would even kill for you
I will hate whoever does you wrong
But I'll not, cause I love you?
My mind is just.. a mess
I don't know how to express it
You've confused me once again
Do you love me? Or do you wish I was never born?
Weren't you supposed to be my home?
A safe place where i would always rest?
A place protected from evil of world??
Protect me even from .. you??
I did realise the monster everyone was hiding
Starting from you
And those aren't the real monsters mentioned in books
But the hidden evil you silently cook
Makes me think
Of world without you
Or different you
And I come to conclusion,
I love you
I swear I do
I loathe you
I swear I do