It took 2 days for Anirudh Roy Choudhary to settle down himself. Well, to be precisely he wasn't settled down as a whole.
His world shook upside down the day when she had confessed. He wasn't even able to think anything properly.
On such a cold night, barefoot and without any warm clothes, he simply walked along the streets of London.
His mind was in a strange dilemma. Every word she said was echoing in his ears but he was unable to take any decision.And how does he even take that decision? He knew his firm answer. That he loves his Bondita. Very much and infinitely.
Yes, It was indeed true that his love for her is probably not the same as a man feels for his woman. But that didn't mean he don't love her.
But this is not about him..this is about her life. This is all about his Bondita.
He doesn't want Bondita to feel for him what a woman feels for her man, desires from her man because it will only hurt her.
He may not be able to respond to her desires in the way she would like to receive every time. Only he knew that how he would love to give her everything whatever she demands. But he couldn't. He couldn't as he don't love her in that way.
And he would never want to give her false consolation. This would be wrong. With both of them.
It was not that he got angry or irritated with Bondita after knowing her condition. But he was troubled by the pain she will face in near future. He couldn't love her like that. And she will always feel that Void throughout her life if she continued to love him. He can't let that happen to her.
His heart trembles at the mere thought that she will never get the same desire from her partner in return for her desires.
His Bondita? Will she keep crying like this forever? Will she always yearn? And that too for his love? No. He would never let that happen.
As long as he is alive, he will never allow such condition of his Bondita. It is his determination that he will not let tears come to his Bondita's eyes.
If he is not able to give love in return for her love, then he will adopt some other way. Before this love for him can develop further in Bondita's mind, he will end that love, he will distance himself from her.
The sooner this love fever goes away from Bondita's mind, the better it will be for her. At least she won't have to face any trouble in future.
If he has to break the chain of love that has blossomed in her heart just to see her happy, he will break it. So that she may fly into the sky with freedom and happiness
He will free her from herself just for her pressure, for her sake.
"I will break those walls of love that will imprison you and your happiness. And even if I break down in the process then so it be . I just wanna see you safe and sound.
I can't see you becoming a helpless girl begging for love in return. Like previous time. It hurts. It hurts me so much ".
And he did what he had decided. He started maintaining distance from her from that night in the hope that maybe the love she had for him would end.
He quickly finished his work from school and came home because when he reached the medical room, he found that there was no one there.
Later on enquiry, he came to know that Bondita's friend Ally had given her a ride in her father's car and had gone to drop her home.
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He was about to cross the hall and climb the stairs when he met Bondita's friends Ally and Scarlett.
Ally greeted him while Scarlett rolled her eyes in irritation. She was sure that this man infront of her must have did something idiotic with her friend.
"Sir, Bon is in her room. She is resting" informed Ally.
Anirudh just nodded with a fake smile which certainly didn't reached to his eyes. It was just a formality to greet his students cause in his heart he wanted to meet her as soon as possible.
"Ammm...Thank you for dropping her. Do you wanna have something? Juice, milk or....." he tried when Scarlett answered him rudely "No need. We came here just for our friend. I hope that what happened to her today does not happen again in the future".
His head bowed a little in guilt exactly getting her point that where she is leading to it.
Ally with frown pinched Scarlett and signed her to say 'Sorry' to their Teacher. On which Scarlett just ignored her.
"I am sorry sir from her side. She is just a little harsh" apologized Ally when Anirudh cut her with his chocked voice "No. I..It's alright...alright ".
Ally nodded while muttering "Take care...." and they bid adieu to him not before one last statement by Scarlett. "Sort out the things".
She was harsh. True. But she didn't wanted to be harsh with him. She just wanted to see her friend happy. Although she didn't interfered between them that what happened exactly between them but to some extent she guessed.
" What was your problem Scarlett? Why did you behaved so rudely with him? He is our teacher. " demanded Ally with a frown.
"Really? I didn't knew so. Thank you for informing me Miss Ally " she taunted with a smirk.
"Aahhhh, you brat" groaned Ally while settling on her seat in the car.
Scarlett chuckled and thought 'He truly loves her. I can see it through his eyes'.
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Here in the room, Anirudh settled beside her sleeping figure on the bed. She was sleeping peacefully maybe. He admired her angelic facial figure that had became a little pale.
A lone drop of tear slipped from his eye when he held her delicate fingers in his. He tried to held himself somehow but couldn't control that sob from his mouth.
"I troubled y..you a..alot. Did..Didn't I?" he sniffed while controlling himself.
He once again looked towards her and while casting his lashes continued in his horsh voice " But you tell me. Even if I did, what would I do? I am giving you temporary pain to avoid you from long term pain. And I will continue to do so".
"Whatever I am doing is for y..your..good only Bondita. Have some courage and I will fix..fix..everything" he concluded with determination in his voice.
He again looked towards her as if expecting some responce from her side too. It's been 3 days since both of them didn't talk. But it seems as if 3 centuries have passed. He misses her, her talks, her arguments, her giggles,her mischief smile, everything about her.
How far apart have they become despite living in the same house? He just wanna talk to her, wholeheartedly. But he know he can't. He have to settle up the things. But he wants her, her warmth.
He can't have his share positive vibes from her when she will be awake. This is the only time he can have his little share of happiness, his dil ka Sukoon.
Thus mustering up some courage he scooted towards her sleeping figure and held her lightly to his heart's content. She was lying on her back thus, he while scooting a little led towards her right caged her lightly with his right arm.
A smile krept on his dry lips which was indeed a real one that forced him to close his eyes in ecstatic feeling.
Precap:
"I have to use bathroom" she mumbled to herself and got off from the bed.
But as soon as she got off from her bed her gaze shifted at her Sakha babu. He was sleeping but the place where he was sleeping was wet.
Does he too started bed wetting just like the 8 year's old her? Her eyes widened with horror. Is her Sakha babu sick?
She screamed with tears in her eyes "Pati babu.....". As soon as her scream reached his ears he opened his eyes hurriedly with a jerk . But before he could register anything she lifted the blanket from his body.
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