Both Felix and Lucus were speechless and were left dumbfounded staring at the door that Jisung had just stormed out ...
" Wow ..... i mean ... ouch ...." Lucus mumbled pulling Felix out of his staring spree
" uhhh what ??? " Felix asked Lucus to repeat himself again
" he just said i am not a good kisser ... me Lucus the play boy ... gets to hear this ... god .. i should have died before i got to hear this " Lucus was shaking his head with limited possible movement that his body could currently do ..
" no lucus ... i know ji .... if he likes something .. he just feels everything else is bad ...thats him ...its nothing to do with you ..... but ...." Lucus was not sure if Felix was talking to him or himself ... so he nudged .. " in way that i can understand ?"
" you remember during the feast .. there was this puppy faced boy Jisung was following .. and kept giving you disgusted looks ...when you tried to approach him to try and pass on your flirty lines ???" Felix asked lucus tilting his head
" ummmm i guess ... that bitch who broke his heart ... ???? i dont really remember his face . but i do remember carrying a drunk Jisung home with you " Lucus remembering how sad Jisung was and how hard it was for them to carry him back home ...
" yes ... that one .. you see ... Jisung was not even in a relationship then .. but something about the whole drift made him go nuts and he almost behaved like he was going through a break up ... plus he also stopped talking to my cousin Hyunjin ... i still dont know the reason .. "
" wait wait ... wasnt hyunjin the one that broke his heart ?? he dosnt have a puppy face " Lucus asked confused
" No silly ... Jisung liked Seungmin ... but that bitch did something and move out of school ... but clearly there is more to the story than I know " Felix dropped himself on the stool next to the bed ...
" ahhhh ... "
" you know something ... dont you ??? " Felix picked his head is lightning speed
" uhhh ... i --- i --- i dont think its my place to say it ... its something i heard ... "
" just cut the crap and spill " Felix looked dead straight in to lucus's eyes
" Okay .. okay .. chill .. okay so what i know is and thought was . jisung liked Hyunjin . but during some party he saw Hyunjin sucking someone off and that broke Jisung ... "
" wait what ?????? " saying Felix was shocked was just an understatement ... " I -- I am not ready for so much of new information .... " Felix grabbed his head and pulled his hair .. " but i would know if Jisung liked Hyunjin .. and i can bet he doesnt .. it can be other way round ... but jisung liking Hyunjin .. nah ... i dont think so ... "
" I am not really sure .. this was some inside gossip .. but soon after when the new year started .. it just somehow magically all the gossip completely died .. "
" yeah .. and it was exactly after his new year start performance ... people started looking at him weirdly ... walking away when we entered ... " Felix was recalling everything that happened then after
" so you saying it wasnt only Jisung that became anti social .. basically whole school outcasted him .. thats so cruel .. " Lucus was wiping his face and sighing loudly
" He had me ... " Felix smirked proudly
" and when are you going to confess your love to him ??? "
Felix choked on his own saliva .. " wha--- what -- what are you talking about ... ??"
" Lix .. you talk too much when you are drunk .. and we have hung out many times "
Felix bundled up on the stool like a ball and hid his face out of embarrassment.... " I will never "
" Why are you so embarrassed ???? is it wrong to fall in love ??"
" yes .. if that is your best friend ... "
" bullshit ... "
" lucus ... Ji and I cant never be that ... and i for millions years never will risk my friendship with him for any of my feelings ... to me having Ji in life is the most important thing ... i may never be his boy friend .. but i cant imagine not being his friend .. " Felix spoke with his head hidden and it was sure he was tearing up ..
lucus slowly creased Felix's hand that was closest to him ... " I did not know love could be this pure and this beautiful ... "
Felix picked his head and gave a weak smile ...
" you are a good kid lix .. i am sure you will find someone that loves you more that anything in this world . " lucus gave an encouraging smile
..............................
Jisung was laying on his bed staring the ceiling ... thinking
' why did i say that ???? '
'how can i say that ..??'
a loud knocking and ringing of door bell came from his front door .. ... without any will he dragged himself out of his room and down the flight of steps to reach the front door ..
who is it .. he called .. but no answer ...
he opened the door and was surprised to see Hyunjin at that door ...
" Hyunjin ... why -- why are you here ???? "
" Not even a hello ... "
" I mean .. Hi . but .. "
" haha .. i was just kidding ... can i come in ... "
" yes .. of course .. sorry ... " when Hyunjin was about to walk in Jisung pulled his hand and made his spin out of the door .. " what are you doing ... " Hyunjin asked wobbling trying to find his balance ..
" Its .. its not safe Hyunjin .. please leave ... " Jisung said avoiding eye contact and standing in between the door so that Hyunjin wont come in
" ahh .. your lover boy ... i know .. i know ... i am a bit scared too .. haha .. but .. i really need to talk to you .. i dont mind sitting on the porch too .... " which made Jisung feel very bad
" I -- I am very sorry ... "
" hey ... hey ... stop feeling bad .. i just feel so blessed that you care about me " Hyunjin said while sitting on the porch and tapping the place next to him indicating Jisung to sit down
Jisung slowly sat down feeling terrible ...
" Jisungieee .... you remember i confessed to you some days back .. " Hyunjin looked at jisung but jisung just looked away feeling ashamed for ghosting him after he confessed
" hey .. hey .. I know what situation you are in right now .. and i dont even blame your stalker slash lover boy going crazy over you .... if i had that much courage .. i might have done those things as well for my love ... "
Jisung looked at Hyunjin confused .. " hurting other in the name of love is not justifiable .. its pure madness .. I dont see love anywhere ... "
" everyone is different in their ways of showing feelings ... maybe they would be okay once they get rid of that insecurity of loosing you ... "
" Why are you talking his side and talking ??? " Jisung was getting a bit angry
" ayy oo ... I was just telling ... relax " ... jisung just rolled his eyes and shook his head disapproving everything that hyunjin has just told
" Jisungiee ... I .. i came here to say goodbye ... "
" what .. " Jisung quickly looked at hyunjin and looking at his face just hoping that he tells it was some sort of a April fools joke in September
"i decided to go with my mom .. i felt like i need to stay away from this place for a while .. and if i am in the country and can reach you easily .. i probably would end up doing that .. " hyunjin said with a bitter sweet smile
" Hyunjin ... " Jisung whispered ... " you -- you ... cant leave everything ... i am .. for me ... i -- you ... you cant ... please ... dont do this to me hyunjin .. i already feel so burdened " a single tear of pure guilt rolled down over Jisungs chubby quokka cheeks ..
Hyunjin leaned closer and wiped the tears away from Jisung's face and stayed closer for few seconds observing his face and smiled ... " never ... never ever say or think like that ... i fell in love with you with hopes that you might someday accept me .. but that happening is just hopes its never mandatory ... because i fell for you doesn't mean you have to fall for me as well .. right ..??.... these are feelings ... not rules ... "
" but ... " Jisung tried to speak .. but Hyunjin shut him up by pecking his lips quickly... " Sorry .. i know i dont have any rights to do this .. but I just .... good bye Jisungeee .. I love you forever ... and someday when i can accept that fact that you cant be mine in this life .. i might as well return back to my childhood friend"
Jisung was stunned to make any reactions and he saw Hyunjin on his feet ready to leave ..
" And Jisungee ... it might seem like i am doing all this because you did not accept my feelings .. but trust me the schools i will be next enrolling to has best dance training ... so it will help me move on and get myself distracted ... so please .. please dont blame yourself for anything .. " hyunjin said trying to easy the troubled expression off Jisung's face
Smiling Hyunjin started to walk away .. but Jisung got up and stopped him .. " hey .. but i never gave you my answer .. how did you know i would say no .. "
" I know i look dumb .. but i am not blind jisungee . your eyes never looked at me the way i wanted it to ... " hyunjin said sounding discouraged
" I am sorry ... I really am .... " Jisung opened his arms for Hyunjin for a hug ... Hyunjin without missing a beat engulfed Jisung in his arms tightly.. his heart was crying from the pain of separation but he was happy that he got his friend back ...
" I am your friend .. always ... and we never will ghost each other hereafter ..... okay .. and you will come back ....." Jisung tried speak while being squeezed by Hyunjin ..
" promise ... " Hyunjin broke the hug and kissed Jisungs forehead ... " Byeeee Jisungee "
" Bye Hyunjineee ... "
That was a wrap to Hyunsung......
Andddddd.. i am sorry for being so irregular posting updates for this book .. i am a real pickle situation and my mind keeps wandering off .... i hope this is still making sense ... Sorry if it doesn't ..