It's been exactly 26 and a half hours since Penelope got screamed at by Dylan, and she has not left her room.
And of course I'm just stuck in bed next to her like a lovesick fool, I only leave to go get her snacks or relieve my bladder.
She's having a hard time eating, and what I've gathered from the situation is that Dylan and Penelope NEVER argue (which is so crazy me and seb argue about 1 million tiny things a day) but it makes sense because neither Dylan nor Penelope are very confrontational people.
I look to my left to see the beautiful girl thats asleep in my arms and a I can't help but smile, I want to ask her out but I just can't.
Im not a bitch or anything I'm just nervous.
Like what if she doesn't want to go out with me? What do i have to offer her? I hate to read, hate being around people, and I'm constantly moody, she deserves so much better than me and i don't want to be the one to take her down.
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To distract Penelope from her looming sadness we have been watching one of her favourite movies, the princess diaries.
It's somewhat interesting and it's better than watching doey Gilmore or whatever her name is complain about her not so rough life.
"I think i should apologize to dylan" Penelope's voice comes out quiet and soft,
Even hearing her speak was enough to make my whole fucking week, i thrive off of the little attention she gives me.
"What the fuck? Absolutely not it's not your fucking fault" i reply to her earlier statement,
"But if i apologize we will make up faster, i mean your a nice friend to hangout with but not better then Dylan" she said in that same soft tone,
I would've liked to hear the rest of what she said but only one statement caught my ear 'nice friend'
"We are not fucking friends don't call me your friend Penelope" i said musing my dissatisfaction for the earlier term she had called me.
"O-oh I'm sorry i thought tha-" her voice cracked cutting her off she looked down disappointment lacing the beautiful features on her face.
"Fuck i didn't mean it like that pen-" i tried to rectify my statement but she stood up walking towards her door, i rushed after her a stopped her from opening the door to walk away, i know that I'm nervous but i rather surrender my unnecessary fears than have her cry.
"I meant that your more then a friend to me, like i feel things for you bigger than on a friendship scale" I quickly rush out my sentence
Her eyes widened and her cheeks blushed "oh,oh?" What the fuck? Im practically admitting my ongoing attraction and addiction to her and all she has to say is oh?
She clears her throat then says "i mean i like you too, like i think i like you a lot, i don't have much experience and I'm not very cool so I'm not exactly sure if it's me that-"
I cut her off "Im so fucking sure, your about the coolest person i fucking know, i want you for you" her face reddens again.
Her face scans my face before landing on my lips, fuck.
The way her lips slightly parted and her breathing picked up i knew she was thinking about the night that she'd kissed me, i was too.
"Can i kiss you Penelope"
She nodded before her lips collided with mine, this kiss wasn't needy or slow like the last, this kiss was passionate and full of desperation.
This kiss was me baring all that i feel for her and leaving myself vulnerable.
I am prepared to get hurt for this, I'm willing to let my heart shatter into a billion fucking pieces.
She broke the kiss first trying to catch her breath, i was enjoying the beautiful sight in-front of me, her disheveled hair and swollen plump lips, she was fucking gorgeous.
"You're so pretty" i said huffing out a big breath of air.
She blushed and smiled "you're pretty as well Xavier" i had a question looming around my brain practically itching to be answered when on cue she spoke up and said
"does this mean we are like dating now? Like of course you don't have to date me if you don't want to but you know I'm just saying like are we one of those couples now who take cute pictures and go to the bookstore together but no it's totally your choic-"
I smiled before interrupting her nervous ramblings "I want to ask you out the right way, like on a date with flowers i need it to be perfect because you Penelope levi are fucking perfect and you deserve nothing shy of all the perfection i can offer you"
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I Penelope Levi was going to be somebody's girlfriend.
I know that sounds absolutely insane but it's true, Xavier asked me out.
Well
Sorta
Kind?
Maybe??
We haven't really worked out the specifics yet but for once I'm more than happy about this element of surprise.
I must admit that I want nothing more than to share my excitement with Dylan.
I look down to see a peaceful looking Xavier asleep on my stomach, small drops of drool lingering on his perfectly sculpted jaw and a pretty pink blush spread across his face due to the lack of heat in this room.
He was so freaking beautiful.
Me: Im sorry.
Dyll bear 🐻: Me too.
Me: Guess what?
Dyll bear 🐻: I think we should move out, yk like send some time apart.
Me: Oh
Dyll bear 🐻: What were you gonna say?
Me: nothing,i love you🫶🏻
Dyll bear 🐻: Ilyt ttyl.
I left that conversation with more pain then I started it with.
I sat in bed and sobbed quietly careful not to wake Xavier up.
All the negative thoughts and emotions I have been trying to push away flood back to me, and i sit there just crying.
I'm almost startled when Xavier speaks up "pen why are you crying" he says in a groggy voice most likely due to the fact he just woke up.
I sniffle and wipe my face as best i can to make it look like I wasn't just bawling my eyes out "i'm not crying it's nothing just go back to sleep" i say in the most convincing way i possibly can.
"You're not a good liar at all" he says before searching my face for emotion.
He was so friggen pretty sleep was still written all over his face as he looked up at me.
"It's nothing really" I decided to continue on with my lie even though I've just been read like a book.
He shook his head before softly saying "please don't push me out again" desperation laced his voice and i just couldn't say no to that.
So i took out my phone and showed him the message, he carefully read each sentence before his look of focus was replaced by a more dissatisfied angry one.
"Well fuck her, we are going to find you the most amazing apartment ever" i know he was trying to cheer me up but those messages stung.
"if I'm scared? What if my neighbour is creepy? Or i get locked out of the apartment? or I'm lonely?"
"Then you call me and i will drop everything and anyone to be there"
He huffs out
"Really, you would do that for me?" I said in a questioning tone
"I would do a lot of things for you Miss Levi" the way my last name rolled if of his tongue probably got me a bit more excited than usual.
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Picture of Xavier sleeping on Penelope's stomach.
Lowkey gonna time skip and spice up the book next chapter😜😛