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Ayanokoji POV
It was the second day and the exam was going well enough, I was just done with a reading session with Hiyori.
I walked around the ship, walking back my room with Hirata, yukimura and Kouenji as I see Karuizawa, our VIP walking back into a room with three girls from class D
A concerning situation to say the least, I make my way towards her as I hide behind a corner, I hear some words
"What did you do with Rika?" A girl asked as Karuizawa responded in a hushed and scared tone
"I.... Accidentally bumped into her" she explained as I hear a thump, a bring out my phone and duck. Recording from the corner with my camera barely visible on the bottom
"Don't lie to me bitch! Just because you all are getting to the top doesn't mean you can do whatever the fuck you want to!" A girl screamed as she yanked Karuizawa's hair, yea no I'm not looking at this
I walk out with my phone in my hand as the four girls are in shock including Karuizawa
"Are you guys seriously doing this? She bumped into your friend and that's it, it isn't that deep. Bullying is taken super seriously, get the hell out of here." I say blankly as the girls run the hell away, leaving Karuizawa frozen as she simply sighs after a few moments of silence
"Thanks..... for the save" she said slowly as I nodded
"It's cool dude, no need to stress it over" I said in my normal monotonous voice as she looked at me strangely
"Why're you talking like that?" She asked in utter confusion as I tilted my head
"I thought Gyaru's talked like that" I told her as she simply blinked and then responded
"No.... We just talk like normal people.... Because we are normal people" she explained as I could only respond with
"Oh." Google sensei lied to me.
At my response she let out a huff of a laugh as I sigh at my own mistake
"So, wanna tell me what's wrong? What happened there?" I asked her as she sighed
"I bumped into their friend..... and they reacted like that" she said as I shook my head
"I got that, I meant why you froze up..... that looked like a traumatic response" I say as she froze at the mention
I have seen those many-a times back at my former place of education, how.... It affected many others.
I also knew especially well that stuff like that didn't go away easily and it stuck in one way or another for life.....
Perhaps it was why I had to let go of Yuki.... I was a constant reminder of her time back at the room of white
But it's best not to ponder of that
"I..... I'd rather not talk about it?" She said as I nodded
"That's alright, I reckon you talked about it with Hirata so I'm not worried about you not having anyone you can trust, the fake dating doesn't really help you though" I told her as she looked at me in shock
"How'd..... I am not even gonna question it, you're just Sherlock Holmes without a sense of humour" she said as I shrugged
"I have humour, it's just that you can't understand it" I told her as she gained an tick mark on her forehead
"If everyone doesn't get it, it isn't funny" she said with her fist balled as I shrugged
"Maybe you're the only one dumb enough to not get it, I've even made Horikita laugh" I said blankly as she looks at me in disbelief
"Bull-shit!" She says as I shook my head
"Nope, it's real-shit." I say in the same tone she did as she looked me in the eyes and then proceeded to laugh
"Ah.... I suppose you can make people laugh... even with that sad sense of humour" she said with a cheeky smile as I shrugged
"Perhaps I don't need to crack jokes to make people smile, I am just naturally this good" I fake bragged as snickered
"Well..... it's something alright" she said as I nodded
"Well I can understand you not wanting to talk about it but I do reckon you take this one advice..... stop cling to others and relying on them for protection" I told her as she looked at me with a confused look
"What....." she simply said as I continued
"You make your worth very much centred about those around you, I reckon you stand up on your own for once and make your own path.... Then maybe you'll be able to walk one where you won't have any regrets.... But those are just my words. It's upto you to apply them or not" I explain to her as she stared at me dumbfounded
"What do you mean..... I know I am a leech but.... I can't do what you said...." She trailed off slowly as I shook my head
"Remember Karuizawa Kei. You mustn't need to be alone to stand alone, take help to get on your own to feet and walk the road ahead on your own. You'll fall down. Hard. But there will be people to pick you back up, so don't give up or give into despair. I will see you later then, goodbye" I said as I exited the place where I only hear a faint voice from Karuizawa
"Thank you....." I heard a soft voice as I left
I made my way to the library once again, not knowing what to do as I spot Hiyori reading alone once again, her expression quite blank, I made my way toward her as I asked
"Hiyori? What's up?" I asked while tilting my head as she looked at me in surprise
"K-Kiyotaka!? when did you get here?" she asked as I shrugged
"I just got here, everything ok?" I asked her as she nodded and just said
"Nothing..... I was just thinking to say the least" she said with a small smile that seemed to be for reassuring me instead of her
I felt worried, why did she need the feel to reassure me?
"Is everything truly ok? I am here for you" I told her as she shook her head and denied any such possibility
Well.... if she didn't wish to tell me then that is completely fine, I can't force her to tell me afterall
"Alright then, I am here for you so feel free" I said as I picked up a random book and began reading, very slowly at that.
Me and Hiyori sat in silence for a few minutes as she asked
"Kiyotaka, what would you feel if you were to date someone?" she asked me as I raised an eyebrow at her question
I had thought about it a little before, I mainly wish to discover what it felt to be normal and feeling love was obviously a part of it, you could say I was chasing the emotion even
"I would feel happy if someone was interested in me and wanted to give me a shot" I said my mind's thoughts as she looked at me in confusion before she asked me
"Give you a shot? wouldn't it be the other way around?" she asked as I shrugged
"Mutual consensus seems to be the status quo of relationships, one that is important. I wouldn't want to give a shot to someone if they won't give one to me if that makes sense" I said as she shook her head
"Not what I meant! I was referring to how basically anyone in the school would be happy to give you one! I mean... you're you!" she said as I nodded slowly, not fully understanding
"Well... ok?" I said slowly with a questioning tone as she sighed at my response
"Nevermind...."she said with a long breath as I looked at her and asked
"What about you, what would you feel if you were to date someone?" I asked as she thought and quickly said
"Well they would have to love books!" she said with a happy smile as I thought to myself
'a given really'
"Someone calm would be nice! I love duos where one is calm and the other is energetic!" she said with a happy voice as she continued to talk as we slowly made conversation
looking at her go off happily, talking about herself or her just asking anything to me, seeing her makes me happy and I cant help but feel warm when she is with me
I wish to ask a question to myself, do I love Hiyori? and if yes, then is it wrong? she has been amazing to me, helped me feel a lot more in just the past few days and not only that, made me discover new things about myself
but I am also unsure, this is a new feeling I would hate to have her suffer due to my uncertainty. Regardless, I wish to see her be happy
Soon enough she asked me something
"Kiyotaka! what do you think of me?" she asked me as I said my honest thought
"You are a nice person to be around, someone I feel happy with" I said as she looked at me with a stare into my eyes, as if she was trying to hide her own feelings
"I see, well that's nice. I feel the same with you!" she said with enthusiasm that felt off but I just couldn't understand how some women felt at times, I just let it go.
"Well thanks a lot for the compliment, I appreciate it"I flatly said as she stared at me with a smile
Hiyori stared at me for a bit before she once again opened her mouth
"Do you like anyone Kiyotaka?" She said as I got chills, that question felt a little personal and I wasn't sure what to say
What am I supposed to say? No and play it off? Should I say her name? Should I do anything? I am conflicted and confused
She makes me happy but this isn't right, it's too fast, it's too sudden. I know of cases where humans tend to get together on short notices due to a sudden and really close attachment but even then
This isn't rational, I am not being rational. If I was back in the whiteroom, I'd be laughed at and called insane for even harbouring such thoughts
"Yea you." I said without even understanding I had said something, as if words flowed before my brain waves did
Hiyori looked at me with wide eyes as she gave me a large smile and said
"I like you to! Let's read all the books we want together ok?" She said as I just shook my head
I need to get grounded again, my head isn't well.
"Hiyori I like you but I feel like we should wait and see where we go before we think of actually dating" I told her as she thought for a second and nodded
"Yeah! I can understand that! We can take our time don't worry!" She said happily as I nodded,happy that she understood
She took out a thermos from her bag as she poured both of us some tea, something I appreciated
"Here! Have some! Let's toast to our mutual likeness of eachother?" She said as I shrugged
"Sure, why not" I said as we toasted and drank the glasses of tea, as we both opened our books and began to read
"Also leave your phone on the table! I'll do the same! You always get messages from Kushida or your class and it always disturbs even if the phone is on silent!" She explained as I sighed and nodded, heeding her demands as I laid my phone on the table
It was sometime later that Hiyori began the conversation again
"So Kiyotaka...... why do you even like me? You are surrounded by so many beautiful girls, how am I even noticeable?" She asked, making herself look vulnerable, it seems to be a trick to get attention
"Well.... Calling you less beautiful than any other girl would be a crime. And other than that, you are just someone who makes me happy simply by being present and accompanying me, I feel comfortable with you despite us only having known eachother for a bit" I told her as she warmly smiled and nodded before she said something
"I need to go use the washroom! I'll be back!" She said as she grabbed her phone and left in a hurry
After a few minutes of her leaving, I noticed that she had taken my phone instead of hers, that was a weird mistake
After a few more minutes, she came back as she told me
"Ah Kiyotaka! I am so sorry for taking your phone, I didn't realise it was yours in a rush!" She said as I nodded, understanding that mistakes happen
We continued to read for an hour or so before she said
"Well I should go now! I need to rest up for tomorrow and I plan on sleep early! Take care Kiyotaka!" She said as I nodded and told her
"Take care Hiyori, I wish you the best" I told her with as much emotion as I could muster as she left
I had decided to leave the room as well and I made my way across the ship, it was barely night and I could see the starry sky.
I wondered what future the stars hold for me and Hiyori, thankfully I am sure it's a great o-
'The VIP of the Rabbit Group has been found'
........
what.
how.