"Hey! Bestie! Took you 2 days to get over the wedding night, uh?" Irene jumped in front of me as soon as I got into the office.
Only she knows about me or the pregnancy though she might be thinking I get rid of the child after the wedding and I would if Rosie didn't show up. Even the thought of her tingles in my chest.
"What are you doing here?" I took off my blazer and sat back in my chair.
"What am I doing here? I'm here to know why you needed one more leave. Did something happen? Did you change your mind about abortion? Are you leaving your wife? Do you want me to arrange divorce papers? Is she not good? Did she give you a hard time?" she kept jabbering to herself so I waited until she ran out of questions.
"Are you done?" I asked after 5 mins of hearing her babbling to herself because I didn't hear shit, Rosie won't like it.
Rosie...
How even her name manager put a smile on my face?
"You're smiling? Did he com—" I cut her off.
"NO! I don't want to hear that name ever again..." I heard Rosie in my head saying. 'Don't do this or that because it's bad for me to even hear it'
She frowned, "Are.. are you okay?"
"I'm okay... actually I'm more than okay," I assured her.
"What about the abo—"
"I didn't do it..." I told her everything leaving the details of bed talks or last night's almost kiss.
She had her mouth opened in astonishment and I can't blame her since she hadn't met Rosie at the wedding because she wasn't at the wedding. She takes my place whenever I'm on leave and I handle her work when she's on leave, we barely get a holiday on the same day except at weekends.
"Oh. My. God" she expressed.
I take out my coffee cup from the drawer to make coffee but I close it hearing Rosie's voice scolding my head. In 2 days I felt like I had known her for 2 years or something, she truly changed my point of view to see my life just by caring for me and filling my heart with the desire to be loved. By her.
"I bet 4 days ago Jennie would have the same reaction..." I chuckled closing her mouth for her settling back on my chair.
"She loves you? Is she pretty? Do you like her? Of course, you do! You're freaking smiling like an idiot" she mocked raising her brows and I acknowledged maintaining my sharp face.
"She's pretty... she's.. not human, she a damn goddess of angels the only difference is... she doesn't have wings" I opened my computer system ignoring that she stared at me shockingly.
"Oh, Kim... you're whipped" she claimed.
My heart did a little dance in agreement with her remark and I wasn't even offended like I used to get whenever she said this about any of my relationships but this time it felt true.
I remember how I woke up today with her face only inches away from mine while we cuddled in sleep and our pets sleeping on the 2 corners of the bed. The image of her in the morning is captured in my head, her snuggling up to my shoulder like Kuma does and her hand on my waist holding me close. My hand covered her to make sure we would not asunder in sleep, but it still gave me goosebumps.
Irene smacked onto my head, "Come back!" She chuckled. "Are you in love with your wife?"
I was rubbing my head when I asked her question to myself, do I?
"I don't know... but it won't take long I know that" I take out the juice bottle Rosie has given to me if I crave to drink coffee.
"I must meet this girl! What has she done to you? I felt like I was talking to high school Jennie" She snatched the bottle from me.
"Hey! Not that!" I attempted to take it back but she ran around in my office.
She was behind the couch in the distance examining the bottle, "Oh... she drew a little heart here" she showed me the label.
I sighed sitting onto the couch and running my hand in my hair not able to believe how lucky I was to have her. How everything about her giving me butterflies or how she handle my mood swings like it was nothing to deal with because I'm damn sure even Irene would've slapped me for overthinking.
"Okay.... sorry, don't be sad" She sat beside me placing the bottle on my lap and hugging me from the side.
It was comforting, truly it was but It was nothing like how Rosie's hug felt like. She began to be my habit in just 3 days, she began to win me over like I wasn't the heartless person scolding the staff 6 days before the wedding.
"She's... she's so nice, Ire. She made me happier in 3 days than I ever have been in the last 3 years, you know?" I looked at her and she nodded for me to continue. "I snapped at her, I shouted at her even suggested her to file for divorce but she... she always shut me up by hugging me, and like Kuma, I hugged her back always. Even Kuma loved her as soon as she picked him up in her arms.
Then how can I not? My parents always decided for me, for my studies, for the course I should pursue, for which university I should study and liked none of them except... this one.
I thought it would be the worst decision for my life and Rosie turned it into something better." My phone interrupted me.
From Rosie (9:14 am)
-Would you like to have lunch together?
I chuckled at her text because it hadn't been an hour since we parted ways for work. I showed the message to Irene who sneered.
"I hate how much she's trying to get me used to her" I texted her back anyway that she could come with lunch.
"That's good, I guess she's what people call 'the one' I wish" She gave me a last hug before heading back to her work.
I worked. I tried to.
Mostly I spend my time staring at the clock flipping through files and I end up looking up at her profile picture which made me realize we don't really have pictures together except the wedding picture.
I had taken off my ring after the wedding thinking I would never be able to work this out or do another relationship but today I wore my ring without knowing why. Do I like her? I do know how much she makes me feel and it's something I used to feel when I had a crush in high school though the only difference is my crush is my wife.
Someone knocked on my door and I realized I spent 5 hours thinking of Rosie.
"Come in" I sighed staring at my wedding ring caressing it.
"Wow..." I abruptly look up witnessing Rosie glancing around in my office as she twirls eventually looking at me. "Your office is so sexy..." she uttered.
I laughed hearing the compliment, "Sexy? How can an office be sexy? People are supposed to be sexy" I corrected her.
"Oh, you're sexy too" she playfully expressed acting like it wasn't a big deal.
She settled herself on the couch putting the lunch on the table and there was no communication between us. I simply knew she wanted me there so I left everything on my table joining her by sitting beside her and noticing how stunning she truly looks. She playfully raised her brows smiling, it was like we knew what others said so before anyone could say we began eating lunch quietly. She talks a lot and I was dying to hear her voice or say something or crack some joke though she was too focused on her dessert.
"You're staring..." she stated without even looking.
I should feel humiliated, right?
I smiled to myself and continued eating still staring secretly, "Because I can..." I remarked her words feeling the tingles in my chest.
Instead of a sarcastic response, she blushed pocking her tongue in cheek to hold her smile which made her look adorable in this professional outfit of pants or a classic V neckline, long fitted sleeves, and a snug fit showing off her curves and clavicle too hard to overlook.
My heart was palpitating and I made it outlandish by slowly moving my hand to hers on her lap causing the spoon to slip from her hand onto the plate. I was terrified for some reason, holding her pinkie finger with mine I looked for the courage I had last night to hold her hand but I simply couldn't do more than take one step closer to her.
She darted up at me, I didn't understand but I needed her to look at me I needed her to see that I was eating vegetables I didn't like, I was getting used to holding her hand and I wanted her to focus on me.
She wiped her other hand on the grey blazer she had put aside before covering my hand with hers, "What happened? Did you overthink again? You know you don't hav—"
I moved closer kissing her lips feeling the erupting butterflies in my stomach and she tightly held onto my pinkie finger. My heart was shaken to the most in-depth the feeling was more pleasing than the first kiss.
She was taken by amazement, especially when my lips parted for more, I was nervous but by her actions she was frightened. I didn't want her to be scared or nervous I wanted her to be comfortable so I kept kissing her lips, her eyes widened though I pushed her up our pinkie fingers linked I put her hand on my shoulder and she ultimately closed her eyes.
The distance in between began to ache in my heart, I missed her. I'm freaking 28 yet I wanted her to tell me things she does at home. None of us attempted to talk knowing we both wanted this, I wanted to be closer to her I don't know if I exclusively wanted to. I pulled her close sucking onto her lips and my tongue started to sneak into her mouth tasting the coco since she was eating choco lava dessert before lunch, but she soon got into the swing of things and kissed me back enthusiastically.
She was kissing me back.
I swathed my hands around her waist and she encased her hands on my shoulder pushing my head against hers. My chest began to hurt cause the amount of pleasure, loveable, or comfort she was making me feel was too overwhelming.
I don't know how to explain how much I... I was falling, all I understand is I had to tell her that I wanted her too but I didn't know how to so I kissed her and even if I couldn't hold my breath I wanted to keep kissing her cherry lips which tasted like chocolate.
I pulled away gazing at her and she was too shy to even look into my eyes which made me recall Jisoo's statement in my head.
"I can't believe this, she's too shy. She only pretends to be the badass but I could bet she couldn't even look into Jennie's eyes" -Jisoo
She gulped staring down and was about to unwrap her hands when I held onto her hands on my shoulder. "I'm getting butterflies too..." I admitted
It was so problematic not to roam my hand on her waist but I held my actions feeling my heart pounding harder for her, I grabbed her cheek making her look into my eyes and god.
The innocence in her eyes was killing me.
Her eyes were doe staring at me as if she didn't know what to do. Pressing our forehead I knew my heart needed her heart closer so it could beat for both of us. She closed her eyes waiting, she was waiting for me to kiss her so I did. The kiss went on... and on... and on some more, my tongue sneaked further into her mouth. How I was doing that? I don't know either.
Our hold tightened onto each other keeping the kiss going, and I was impressed because she was an exceptional kisser, we eventually pulled apart though after inhaling the breath in our lungs we continued like teenagers stealing moments at the corner of the classroom. My hands get out of reign pulling her closer and pressing our bodies and I can't help wailing at the feeling. The time has stopped, and I find myself becoming hers I wanted to be hers cause I know I will one day be hers so why not now? If I knew I would be madly in love with her then why wait for it to happen?
I caressed her waist wanting to grop her everywhere I could, wanted to kiss her forever, wanted to touch her skin, wanted to feel loved like she had promised, wanted to love her back and I wanted her to be mine too.
"Chaeyou— fuck! Sorry..."
We both pulled away as if we got caught doing something wrong only to realize we were wives. I bit my lower lip attempting to hold my embarrassment while she got up with her blazer ready to run away and I saw Lisa inside my office. She had her back facing us which was obvious she turned after witnessing us.
"Lisa..." she said as if she had forgotten about her.
I caught glimpses of her lips still wet from the kiss, her lips were swallowed and her pink lipstick was smug mixed with my red lipstick as she licked the saliva from her lips swallowing it. I mimic her action mindlessly tasting the coco on my lips that made me smile by itself. I had to take deep long breaths to calm my heart but it didn't help when I caught her staring at me... or maybe my lips I don't know which made her lick her lips. Her hand on her chest rubbing her palm on as if she was trying to erase the pain before she licked her lips once again walking to Lisa.
I witnessed my hand was only on my chest mimicking her actions and it truly helped to calm the heart instead of deep breaths.
"If you wanted to make out then you shouldn't have asked me to join you...?" Lisa still has her back facing her.
"I didn't ask you to join... you invited yourself" She rolled her eyes patting her back and Lisa turned laughing at Rosie's face pointing her index finger at Rosie's lips.
"Oh..." she teasingly gave side eyes to Rosie who rolled her eyes. "I'm truly sorry to interrupt, Jennie" she apologizes walking up to me.
Now I was a bit shy, "Uh... it's fine. You can join us.. whenever you want" I assured her though my stomach wrenched at my statement because I knew I was lying.
"So what do we have here?" she picked up Rosie's choco lava half-finished cake and dug in.
It should be okay since they were friends but shouldn't it be me to share food with my wife?
"Don't eat while you're standing..." Rosie nabbed the back of her blazer making her sit on the couch where she was sitting.
Lisa groaned glaring at her, "Does she also act like this with you, Jennie? I'm telling you she's such a sucker for perfection that it might irritate you..." she look at me.
I dart at Rosie who comes onto my other side, "She can be bossy..." I snickered.
She narrowed her eyes mouthing, 'Bossy?'
"Oh she is, she complains about work but gets angry at people for not doing it by manually so she ended up doing it again by herself... her virgin ass was aggravating until you com—" She widen her eyes acknowledging what she have revealed which was unbelievable I consider that I misheard it.
I glance at Rosie who was pinning Lisa with her glare, if stare could kill Lisa would be dead by now. Their reaction confirmed me whatever Lisa said was true or that I hadn't misheard it.
"She doesn't know?" Lisa was horrified yet she asked Rosie didn't look elsewhere except Lisa.
"Oh my— I... no, she-... I guess... I'll have my lunch in the car..." She placed the cake down and got up. "Uh...hehe... it w-was nice to meet you, Jen—" Before she could finish her sentence Rosie launched herself to her who ran for her life and Rosie behind her.
I followed to the door of my office hearing Lisa screaming for her life, "I swear... I didn't mean it, It came out! Sorry!" she got into the lift leaving Rosie out.
"LALISA!" Rosie exclaimed taking the staircase.
"I can't believe this, she's too shy. She only pretends to be badass but I could bet she couldn't even look into Jennie's eyes"
"I get it, Jisoo..." I smiled to myself.
I repressed my smile cause I was being watched by staff however they eventually went back to work when I crossed my arms. I get back in my office pressing my back on the door touching my lips and all I see is her flushed blushing face shying away from me.
I heard my phone buzzing on the couch and the message convinced me she was too shy to face me.
From Rosie
-I'll see you at home
To Rosie
-Are you embarrassed?
From Rosie
-Hmmm
To Rosie
-Don't be
From Rosie
-I'll try
-I left a cookie box that you love a lot.
I frowned glancing around and it was the same cookie Rosie constantly ate at home though I had been stealing it for 2 days since I was bored and always hungry, I didn't know she would notice.
To Rosie
-I'm sure I left no trace of stealing your cookies
From Rosie
-You did a good job but I saw you taking it, the health-conscious Jennie Kim eating cookies means she is either sad to light up her mood or she's craving it.
I have been smiling a lot nowadays because of her and I like it.
.....................
I was startled by the voice of someone screaming as soon as I stepped into the house which caused me to run like hell to the living room. I knew it wasn't Rosie's voice but I got scared just to see her watching some series on Netflix.
"What the fuck! You scared the shit out of me, Rosie." I sat beside her on the couch and both of our pets were on her lap while she massaged their head.
"Hey! You're forbidden to say such kind of words" she remind me without taking off her eyes away from the big ass tv, and gasped looking at... girl.
I frowned at her, "What are you watching?"
She still didn't look at me, "The Vampire Diaries... it's my favourite show like it's my comfort show... I can watch it thousands of times and never get bored..." she began babbling to me without even caring if I was listening or not.
"Seems horror" I take off my blazer when Hank comes up to me resting his hand on my lap.
He was charming. I caressed his back eyeing Kuma who has been acting like a king by getting all the prince treatment from Rosie.
"Wait... you haven't watched this?" she finally looked at me with so much chastity in them like I had done a crime not to do that.
I shake my head as no.
"This is a disaster... you must watch this series if we are living together. You just have to! Let's start from the start..." She didn't give me a chance to say anything when she headed me the remote and got up still caressing Kuma's back in her arms.
"You put the first episode of season one... I'll come back with snacks. We can watch at least one episode till dinner" she instructed me.
I was too occupied staring at her legs, she was wearing shorts. I didn't know she had shorts. Which could be this short? Her legs were full on display for me, and they look so smooth to caress... the fuck! Goosebumps erupt in my body and I shiver as if feeling a sudden gust of cold. I thought she only had trousers, pants, shirts, and tops but dude, her shorts were too short giving me sinful thoughts after remembering the kiss we shared.
I paused the show waiting for her, I was still in my outfit because I didn't want to leave her sight. I glance back and my eyes instantly stare at her long legs shamelessly I want to stop I just can't and gets worse when she sits beside me hank asleep in between.
"Are you okay?" she questioned as if we didn't kiss!
My stomach wrenched, "Are we gonna pretend like we didn't kiss?" I heard my heart shriek I was nervous not understanding why the hell I was nervous.
I don't get nervous! People are the one who gets nervous under my gaze and I felt sick. I might lose my shit if she didn't respond to me. She smiled from her pretty mouth which can be an obsession and I'll be the addictive one.
"Why would we pretend we didn't kiss? I'm okay..." she answered.
Her cold reply was not doing any good to me, "That's it? Are you okay? You let me kiss you because I'm your wife? Yo—" She chuckled interrupting me.
"Don't you get it, Jennie? I'm still processing, still feeling my heart thumping painfully whenever I look at you. We kissed, and we kept kissing until Lisa came." She proclaimed turning to me.
She sighed, "Let me rephrase it for you... I'm still getting these butterflies I have never felt but only read or write about. My heart is shaking like... do you know you how things are inside me? My heart kept beating crazily I kept smiling, I felt like I was going insane or I was dreaming I knew I was being.... Weird but god, I need to watch something to get my mind off it or I'll go mad for sure."
I rub my mouth to hide my smile because I can't subdue how she made me feel or how my heart keeps beating for her to talk about me to me.
"So... Lisa was right? Yo—" she cut me off massaging her temple and hiding her face away.
"Shut up! She's crazy... I almost did it but..." she eyed me so I curled back my lips trying my best to suppress my smile.
"But?" I raised my brows.
"It's not like I didn't try I had a girlfriend once... my first and last girlfriend. We were so close to having... you know..." she shuddered and I nodded listening to her.
"But Lisa busted us, and the next day I found out she was cheating on me with some guy. I decided I would never waste my time over something which doesn't mean anything...Do you even know?" she started.
Whenever she says 'Do you even know?' means she going to tell me something which would totally gonna make my heart thump insanely.
I nodded tipping my head for her to continue.
"I scored 98 out of 100 because of this stupid relationship... and then after graduation, I got.. busy" She was gesturing from her hands to make me understand as if she had to attempt to make me believe her because I just knew. "... you know... career and all and then boom I was 26... funny uh?" she rolled her eyes at herself discreetly.
I nodded pretending like I understood her when all I wanted to was laugh at her adorable doe eyes.
"98 is not bad..." I still remember I scored 45 once.
"I ranked 2nd for the first time in my life because I was sad I got cheated on so I cut off relationships and anyone to distract me to build my career... it's not a big deal..." she yanked her hands aggressively. "... Sex isn't so important..." she stopped glaring at me.
"Don't you dare to laugh at me..." she warned me.
That was it I burst out laughing not because she hadn't ever had sex, I laughed because the way she explained things was so adorable. Her hands gesture, her doe eyes giving me side eyes or the way she tells a story I could see it in her eyes.
"And... Do you even know?" I clutch her shirt on her stomach pulling her closer. "You're so adorable...." I leaned in caressing my cheek with hers to feel how hot my cheeks were against her cold cheeks.
I heard her gasp while our hearts beat in scan maniacally when I kissed her cheek, it was not a quick kiss I stayed at my place turning my face to see her eyes squeezed, her jaw tightened and how our heartbeats could be heard in this hall. I licked my lips to place another kiss not pulling away I kissed again.
And again,
And again,
And again,
And again.
Until I earn a smile from her. She smiles widely, her bunny smile though she still has her eyes closed.
She breath laboriously clutched onto the couch edges,
"You—You're... damn you."
I chuckled against her cheek biting my lower lip before my hand moved up between her chest to seize her shirt to keep her from falling back. She was like a crazy lover boy who finally got to kiss her crush and I was the one crush who secretly liked her too.
"You're getting butterflies, Rosie?" I asked, enjoying how downy her cheeks were against my lips. Her cheek was the most soothing thing about her.
She pushed me back out of nowhere causing me, to hit my head on the arm of the couch. I witnessed her breathing heavily as she got up roaming around in front of me while punching her chest.
"Oh god! Oh god! Oh FUCKING god!" She rubbed her chest forcing a button to be unbuttoned but I guess she didn't notice. "Calm down... calm down, calm fuck down Park!" she talked to herself.
She abruptly turned to me pointing her index finger at me, "YOU! You're forbidden to do that! You know how crazy you made me yet you pull that stunt on me! I wasn't ready! My heart...
oh... Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!"
Her reaction shook me too deeply.
I was getting a strange feeling in my stomach so badly that I had to mimic her action on my chest to because I was the one who kissed her. Kissing her cheek gave me more butterflies than kissing her lips, I don't do cheek kisses and now I did it I never felt more alive. She added 5 more years to my life by reacting this way.
She doesn't know but she did something to me, something I can't explain in words. She did something to me.
After like 5 minutes of ambling in the hall she came back to sit beside me. She took a deep breath before looking at me, "Now... I'm ready..."
I widened my eyes at her because now I was taken by amazement that I got up to run to the room though she pulled me back by my wrist. This time our bodies were skimming, I felt the heat radiating from her body and my throat went dry. I wanted to kiss her but suddenly I wasn't ready I was frightened, I was terrified that my heart would come out of my mouth.
Our gaze met and her eyes leaned onto my lips. She licked her lips, moisturising them as our noses brushed I clutched her collar from the back and other hand holding hers on the couch. Our chests pulsating and she backed up to look into my eyes.
She pulled away, "Your eyes are so pretty"
She hid her face in her palms, I burst out laughing holding my stomach.
"Your eyes are pretty too..." I uncover her face by holding her hands and turning her to me.
She was pouting, "Your eyes are... damn,"
"What do I do with you? You're so adorable I can't even scold you" I kissed both of her hands and knuckles shooing Kuma from her lap who barked at me so I glared at him.
I leaned on her lap looking up at her, "Is this okay?"
She smiled nodding I took her hand intertwining our fingers and placing our locked hands on my chest close to my heart. Taking big steps with her would truly make our hearts burst out which means we should first get comfortable to be each other touch instead of feeling that we are going wild or our skin is on fire.
"So what are we watching? I could use distraction unless... you want me to jump on you..." I smirked and she rolled her eyes resuming the episode. "...No pressure," I remarked to her.
She chuckled kissing our intertwined hand, "Don't use my lines... and we are watching Vampire Dairies because I love it"
Kuma barked at us from a distance.
"Shut it! You've been having a lot of fun, now it's my time" I turn sideways to watch the episode placing her free hand in my hair for her to massage like she does with Kuma or Hunk.
"Your time, uh?" she drove her long fingers in my hair pushing me to bemoan.
"Hmmm..." I smiled keeping our hands loose to my heart.
It was mostly her who was focused on the show while I was focused on memorizing her expressions. She had a big smile on her face while watching the series and kept talking about her favourite character in the first season babbling and I simply hummed in response.
"Aren't you smiling too much?" I noticed she kept smiling whenever a blonde girl appeared on the screen or demonised one of the main characters.
"No! Caroline is my fav—no, one my favourite, and only she's the one who truly made this drama look like a high school drama. She is so nice..."
"She's a bitch..."
She glared at me, "Wait... till next season she's one of the best characters" She pulled her hand back rolling her eyes.
Is some fictional character so important to her that she takes her hand back?
"Okay... I get it" I intertwine our hands back.
I suddenly realised when was the last time I was being this ridiculous. Or since when do I do this holding hand thing, I was thinking of unlocking our grasp but I felt cold so I held her it was nice.
We only watched two episodes till she made me dinner and Kuma or Hunk followed getting in bed with us. We were side by side and she was cuddling up with our pets which was truly adorable I heard her rattling about Vampire dairies or how she didn't like Elena but Caroline until she fell asleep with our pets snuggling up to her, especially Kuma.
That traitor was taking too much advantage of Rosie's kindness.
"Enough..." I placed him on the edge of the bed when he was sleeping.
Rosie held my hand in her sleep in between us so I slept placing her hand against my cheek. We were in the same bed, now why it's intimidating? I wasn't this nervous yesterday.
Good night............ vote