I was always hopeful. Maybe some day I wouldn't be so fat and ugly. Maybe I'd someday get a miracle and everyone would actually like me, maybe if I just was skinny. Maybe then I'd get my friends to like me again.
I felt I needed to be skinny to be loved. And in the back of my own mind, I loved myself the most when I was skinny. The desire to be skinny was the beginning of my new life. I thought I'd end up more happy than I was before. And I kinda did.
I just wanted to feel loved, is that so hard to understand?
- Livia Bellemonte 10.10.2022