Amanda was sitting on the couch with Rick, looking at the plan they had made to go up against Negan and his men.
Rick was quietly rubbing Amanda's feet, "I don't feel comfortable with you going out there." Rick said softly, looking at her with worried eyes
"It wouldn't be fair if I didn't go, Rick. I'm the one who made the deal. I can't put everyone on the line and then flake out. I have to be there." Amanda said as she looked up from her notepad, locking eyes with Rick
"I know but it can't be good." Rick said as he chewed on the insides of his cheeks, "I don't want you over exerting yourself or god forbid getting hurt or lost." Rick said as he rubbed her legs
"I promise I'll stay besides you the entire time." Amanda said, offering him a smile
Rick inhaled deeply, still not convinced. He turned his head to the side, looking at Amanda with worried eyes
"I'm going, Rick. Whether you want me to or not." Amanda said finally, "I'm sorry but I refuse to make a deal like this and then sit on the sidelines."
"Okay." Rick said as he nodded, "Fine, but you don't leave my sight." Rick said as he squeezed her legs, looking at the notepad
Amanda nodded, "Okay, okay, okay." She sighed softly, standing up. She stretched, the bottom of her shirt lifting slightly
Rick wrapped his arms around her, kissing her stomach, "We still need to get you another test." He said, leaving soft kisses on her stomach, looking up at her
"Yeah." Amanda said softly as she stroked Ricks hair back, "We should start getting ready, the group wants to head out in a bit." She said, kissing his head before she walked upstairs. She changed into a pair of jeans and a long sleeve black shirt. Amanda walked downstairs, sliding on a pair of her black boots, "Babe?" Amanda called for Rick, "You ready?" She questioned
Rick walked downstairs wearing black jeans, a brown shirt and his black sherpa lined jacket. He smiled as he put his axe in his pocket, "I'm ready." He said, placing his hand on the small of her back as he led her outside. He climbed inside the RV, sitting in the drivers seat.
Amanda sat besides him, looking out the window, "Did you know Abraham and Rosita broke up?" She whispered
"What? Really?" Rick asked, leaning over, interested in the gossip
"He told Rosita 'I thought you were the last woman on earth but you're not'." Amanda whispered, "I wonder who he has eyes for now." She said
"You're such a gossip." Rick whispered
"No, Rosita told me and now I'm telling you. I'm your wife, anything anyone tells me is going directly to you." Amanda whispered
"Mmmm, small town gossip." Rick joked, kissing Amanda lovingly, "Hopefully their head is in the right place." He said as he leaned back in the seat, watching as people funneled into the RV. Once everyone was settled in, Rick drove off down the road. He placed his hand on Amanda's thigh, squeezing it gently for reassurance. After driving for 45 minutes, he pulled over, "We start off here." Rick said, "Maggie and Carol, you two patrol the area. Heath and Glenn, you two find a walker that looks like it can pass for Gregory." Rick said
Amanda stood up, tilting her head to try and crack her neck. She climbed out of the RV, holding her rifle in her hands as she looked at the fields in front of them. She walked over to one of the abandoned cars, looking inside. She glanced down at her stomach, wondering if she really was pregnant. She knew it was more likely that the test was a false positive, but she was too scared to retest.
Rick walked over to Amanda, "You feeling alright?" He asked her, a worried pitch noticeable in his voice
Amanda smiled, "yeah." She said, nodding at Rick, "You?"
"Worried about you, but fine. Heath and Glenn found a walker, we're gonna drive off towards the place." Rick said, leading her back to the RV. He guided her inside, sighing softly as he got in the drivers seat.
Amanda sat down, resting her head on the headrest as she placed a hand on her stomach, exhaling softly. She looked up as they arrived at the designated location, parking the car off to the side. She looked over at Rick with soft eyes before she nodded at him, "Now or never." She said softly before standing up.
"I love you." Rick said softly as he kissed her delicately before he leaned down and kissed her stomach.
Amanda smiled softly as she stroked his hair back, "We love you." She said before she climbed out of the RV. She tightened her belt around her waist, adjusting her holster before she stood off into the side, watching as the three men by the door spoke about Gregory's head. She crept up to the side, watching as Michonne and Daryl took out the two men. She crouched down, rushing inside of the building, between Abraham and Rick. She held her gun quietly, nodding at Abraham as he opened one of the doors. Amanda walked inside, grabbing her knife as she looked at the sleeping men. She exhaled deeply as she drove her knife into the base of his neck before looking over at Rick.
Rick nodded at Amanda before stabbing the other sleeping man. He led her out of the room, walking down the hallway. Rick watched as Glenn and Heath walked out of one of the room, Glenn's eyes somber and heavy. Rick offered him an encouraging nod before he walked down the hallway, peeking into every room. He looked inside one room, distracted by photos of bashed in heads.
Amanda went wide eyed as she saw a man come down the hallway. She grabbed Rick, pulling him to the side. She placed her hand on his chest as bullets flew past them, flinching when she heard the fire alarm going off.
Rick wrapped his arms around her protectively before he crouched down, shielding Amanda with his body as Michonne provided cover fire. He guided Amanda into another hallway, standing up once the coast was clear.
Amanda exhaled deeply as she stood up, looking around. She glanced down at the dead bodies by their feet, stepping over them carefully, "I'm gonna go check out the back room." Amanda said softly to Rick. She crept her way down the back room. She exhaled deeply as she opened the door, gasping as a man grabbed her.
The man covered her mouth with his hand as he forced her down the hallway, using her as almost a shield. The man dragged her down the hallway and outside of the building. He opened the entrance of the gate, pushing her outside. He herded her over to a group of people, alongside those people were Maggie and Carol, "Paula, I got another one!" The man spoke
Paula nodded at the man before she turned her attention to the three imprisoned women, "You better play your cards right." The woman snapped as she grabbed her walkie talkie
Rick was outside, "Amanda? Amanda?" He yelled before he looked down at the bald hispanic man on the ground. Rick pointed his python at him before he heard the static of the radio
"Hey, prick. Yeah, you with the python. Drop it." Paula said into the walkie talkie, "I'm here with some of your friends. You wanna say hi?" She asked, putting the walkie talkie to Amanda's face
"Rick, I'm okay. Don't do anything dangerous." Amanda said quickly
"Shut up." Paula told Amanda before giving the walkie talkie to Maggie and Carol
"What do you want?" Rick asked
"We want Primo." Paula said, "But, it'll be a little uneven. Three for One? Sweeten the deal."
"I'll let you live." Rick chuckled as he looked around
"Not much to live for, nowadays." Paula admitted
"I'll make your death quick." Rick offered, gritting his teeth angrily
"Oh, you're getting mean! We'll talk later, okay?" Paula said, turning off the walkie talking. She grabbed Amanda by the arm, "You must be his prized possession." She said, "You'll be my leveraging point." She said, dragging Amanda down the road
"Don't hurt her!" Carol begged as she stumbled behind them, "She's pregnant!"
"She doesn't look pregnant." The older woman said
"I think I'm about 2-3 months." Amanda said softly as she climbed inside of the car, sitting between Maggie and Carol
"Must be nice to be comfortable enough to have a baby." Another woman spoke, "We'll chat more about that later." She said, playing with her knife.
Paula climbed in the drivers seat, driving off towards the safe house. She hummed softly as she parked the car, climbing out to the backseat. She grabbed Carol, wrapping her wrist with duct tape before pawning her off to the older woman. She grabbed Amanda, tying her hands and passing her to a brunette woman before tying up Maggie and dragging her inside.
Amanda looked around nervously, making note of every step they take.
Paula hummed softly as she threw Maggie to the ground before she tied up her feet, "You guys take care of the other two, I wanna talk to the pregnant one." Paula said, grabbing Amanda's arm and leading her to another room.
She hummed softly as she sat Amanda down in a chair before she sat across from her, "Tell me about yourself."
"My names Amanda, I'm 28, I'm pregnant, I use to be a nurse and I'm a veteran." Amanda said, looking over at her, "I use to be a pediatric nurse."
"I was a secretary." Paula said, "I was in my bosses office when this all went down." Paula sighed, "We were trapped inside. He was weak.. He was the first person I killed. I stopped keeping track after I hit double digits. That's also about the time I stopped caring." Paula said, "How many people have you killed?" She asked
"A lot." Amanda admitted, swallowing hard
"Wow, that's odd. Why should I let you live if you're such a bad person?" Paula asked
"Because the life inside me has potential to be a good person." Amanda said softly
"That baby would be better off not being born. It's irresponsible for you to have a baby." Paula said
"It's always been irresponsible to have a baby. The world has always been shitty." Amanda said, "death is no stranger."
"I had four girls." Paula said, "Is this your first?"
Amanda nodded, "I have step children. Carl is 15 and Judith is almost 1." Amanda smiled softly
"Wow, so you get to have your own kid and take someone else's? While we suffer?" Paula laughed, "You killed everyone in my compound. You ruined our home. This is our safe house. It's got limited supplies, we use to have gasoline and food. Now we have barely any gas and no food. Why shouldn't I kill you?" Paula asked, "You've left us homeless." Paula screamed, using the butt of her gun to hit Amanda in the face, leaving a red mark underneath her eye, "Look at you, you've got everything, don't you?" Paula hissed, "Pretty long brown hair.." She said, grabbing Amanda's long ponytail, taking her knife and cutting it so it was at her shoulders, "You've got a pretty little baby in your belly, you've got a husband who would kill for you." She said, "You've got these pretty little green eyes." Paula snarled, cupping Amanda's cheeks with her hands, pressing her thumbs underneath her eyes, digging her nails into her skin, drawing blood, "You've got a nice little smile!" Paula yelled, smacking Amanda in the jaw with her fist, letting out a scream of anger, "You have everything! Why should you live?" Paula screamed
Amanda cried out in pain, closing her eyes as blood trickled down her chin and down her cheeks, "I don't know." Amanda said, "I'm not a good person. I'm mean, I'm ruthless, I don't know. But you saw what my group is capable of. Rick is our leader and I'm his wife. If you kill me, Rick won't stop until you're six feet under." Amanda said, dipping her head down and spitting up blood, careful not to spit on Paula
Paula chewed on her lip, standing up. She grabbed the walkie talkie, "Hey, Rick?" Paula asked, "You there, asshole?"
"Yes, I'm here." Rick said
"I've got your wife here. Congrats on the baby, by the way." Paula said,
"If you touch one hair on her head, I will kill you." Rick promised
"We're well past that, I think. But, I wanna trade. Primo for Maggie, Carol and Amanda. Drive down I-22 for 6 miles, there's a building that has a sign. It says God is Dead." Paula said, "I'll meet you at the front. Alone."
"Copy, be there in 10." Rick reported back
Paula exhaled deeply as she stood up, "Stay here." She said firmly before she walked out of the room
Amanda nodded as she looked around the room. She slouched down in her seat, letting tears stream down her face. She heard the door open and she looked up, "Maggie." Amanda said happily
"Hey, baby, we're gonna get you out." Maggie said, cutting Amanda's wrists free, "We gotta escape."
"No, Maggie. We can't just let these people live." Amanda said softly, "We gotta kill them. They have gasoline, we set the building on fire."
Maggie looked at Amanda in disbelief but nodded, "okay, if you think that's best."
Amanda nodded as she crept down the hallway, looking over at Carol. She noted the two dead bodies on the floor besides Carol and she nodded, "good, good." She said, creeping down the hallway. Amanda grabbed a canister of gasoline,
dousing the floor. She dropped it before she turned, her eyes going wide as she saw Paula leap at her.
Paul screamed angrily at Amanda, "You bitch!" She said, taking out her knife and slicing Amanda across the stomach. Amanda jumped back in time so the knife didn't cut too deep, but it was enough to draw quite a bit of blood.
Amanda cried out in pain as she pushed Paula into the wall, grabbing her by her hair and bashing her head in.
"Go! Go outside!" Carol yelled at Amanda, handing her a lighter.
Amanda flipped the lighter, tossing it in the pile of gasoline. She stumbled behind Carol and Maggie, dizzy from blood loss. As they reached the door, Amanda finally collapsed, landing on her hands and knees as she gasped for air
Maggie picked up Amanda, holding her carefully, "Carol! Grab her legs!" Maggie shouted. They carried Amanda down the field, stopping when they saw Rick running over
"What happened?" Rick shouted, running faster when he noticed Amanda was being dragged. Rick picked her up, looking at her short hair and bloodied face, "No, no." Rick cried softly when he saw the gash on her stomach, "No, no." He shouted, grabbing his gun. He put a single bullet in Primos head before he carried Amanda to the RV. He climbed inside with her, holding her hand as they sped off towards Alexandria.
~*~
It had been a few days since the incident with Paula. They had borrowed an ultrasound machine from Hilltop and confirmed that Amanda was pregnant. The baby was doing well and healthy, but Amanda was weak. She had been unconscious for a few days, getting her nutrients from an IV. Rick refused to leave her side. He slept in the infirmary besides her on a cot, making sure she was taken care of.
Currently, Rick was half asleep holding Amanda's hand as he doze in and out of a soft sleep.
His eyes shot open when he felt Amanda squeeze his hand gently, "Amanda?" Rick asked worriedly
Amanda moaned in pain as her eyes opened, "Maggie? Carol?" She asked as she looked around. She had a massive bruise on her eye, two crescent shaped scabs under her eyes from Paula's nails and a bruise on her jaw. Amanda attempted to sit up but her eyes widened, gasping in pain
"No, no, don't. You've got stitches on your stomach." Rick said, laying her back down, "Maggie and Carol are fine." He promised
Amanda reached up, stroking her short hair. She felt the ends of her hair touch her shoulders and she cried softly, "I'm sorry, Rick. I shouldn't have gone out."
"Hey, this is not your fault." Rick said as he sat on the edge of her bed, "You saved my behind out there." Rick recalled. He rubbed her knee, "What happened?" He asked softly
"I don't know." Amanda said as tears fell, "I remember she took me to a room and was screaming at me. She was mad that I was having a baby. She was mad I have green eyes and nice teeth, she said. She said I had pretty long hair." Amanda said, "I escaped the room with Maggie and Paula caught us. She cut my stomach. I don't know how I managed to but I bashed her head into the wall. I set the building on fire. I think I ran like 10 feet before I passed out." Amanda said, crying softly
"Look at this." Rick said, holding up an ultrasound scan, "This is what you've got cooking." He said, trying to distract Amanda
"I don't wanna see." Amanda said, turning her head, "I don't deserve a baby." She whispered, "I killed Ron, I killed that little boy in Saudi Arabia.. I blew up Terminus. I killed that guy in Hilltop, I killed so many of Negans people. I've killed so many more people that I can't even recall how many. I can't have a baby. I can't." Amanda said
"Amanda, c'mon, everything you've done had good reasoning." Rick said, stroking her hair
"I can't have this baby, I don't want this baby." Amanda cried, "I don't want it." She said, "I'll taint it."
"If you're bad, then I'm worse. You are so pure, Amanda. You bring emotion into the equation, you make everyone feel happy and safe. Judith loves you. She came to see you the other day. She called you Mama." Rick smiled softly
"She did?" Amanda asked softly
Rick nodded, "Yeah, she said Mama." He promised, "This baby is gonna bring you stability. It's gonna make you whole. This baby is good." Rick promised as he rubbed her stomach. He showed her the photo again, smiling softly
"It just looks like a rock. It's little." Amanda said softly as she took the photo, examining the small blob
Rick laughed softly as he kissed Amanda's head. He stood up, walking over to the fridge and grabbing some apple juice. He poured Amanda a glass before handing it to her, "Everyone's been worried sick about you. The deal with Hilltop went great. We have ample food, plus whatever we took from Negan." Rick said, "Weapons and everything." He said, "You did good."
Amanda smiled softly, sitting up slowly. She exhaled before she took a sip of the juice, "I wanna go home. I wanna lay in bed with my husband." Amanda said softly
"You're the boss, let's go." Rick smiled as he helped Amanda stand. He kissed her temple as he gave her a minute to stretch and adjust her legs, "I can't believe you've got a little baby in your stomach."
"Yeah, Spencer's gonna be so excited." Amanda joked
Ricks face fell as he turned to look at Amanda
"You know we never had sex, I'm sorry, that was a sour joke." Amanda said as she gave a soft laugh
Rick rolled his eyes as he led her outside the infirmary, "Careful." He said, helping her down the stairs, "Are you hungry?"
"No, not really." Amanda said as she shuffled her feet behind Rick, "I just wanna sit on the porch." She said softly as she looked out into the distance, "I wanna be with my husband." She said, savoring the word. She held onto his body as she climbed up the stairs, exhaling deeply as she sat down on the rocking chair, "I feel like an old man." She said, laughing softly as she rested her hand on her stomach
Rick kissed the top of her head, looking up when he hears commotion at the gate, "what's going on?" He asked, standing besides Amanda nervously. He went wide eyed seeing Abraham, Daryl and Rosita carrying in Eugene
"Oh my god." Amanda said, getting up. She placed a hand on her stomach as she walked down the porch, "Get him to the infirmary!"
"Amanda, please." Rick said, moving besides her, "You're gonna bust a stitch." He said worriedly
"I'm fine, I'm in a lot better shape than Eugene." Amanda said as she walked inside the infirmary. She opened the medicine cabinet, taking some pain medicine before walking over to where they had placed Eugene, "Gunshot wound to the abdomen, what happened?"
"Some guy named Dwight. Met him on the road a while back." Daryl said, "They killed Denise." He said, "I gotta go back and get her body." He said
"No, nobody goes back out. I'm okay with Eugene being shot but not you, Daryl." Amanda said as she unbuttoned Eugene's shirt, "I need everyone but Rosita out of here." Amanda said as she applied pressure on the wound
~*~
After about two hours, Amanda limped out of the infirmary, smiling softly when she saw Rick sitting on the stairs, waiting patiently for her. She crept up besides him, "Hi, you." Amanda said as she placed her hand on his shoulder for support as she limped down the stairs
"How's he doing?" Rick asked as he helped her down before he stood up
"Fine." Amanda said with a soft smile, "He's stable, Rosita is gonna stay with him. I need to take a shower." She said as she looked up at him, "Can you join me?" Amanda asked softly
"If I ever say no to that question, I want you to take my python and shoot me." Rick said
Amanda laughed as she kissed Rick lovingly, "Let's go." She said as she limped over to the house. She smiled when she saw Judith and Carl taking a nap on the couch together. Amanda walked up the stairs, making her way to their bedroom. She exhaled deeply as she slid off her t shirt, looking the 5 stitches on her stomach. She gently touched her stomach, turning to the side
Rick kissed her shoulder gently, "Before you know it, you won't be able to see your toes." He grinned
"Gross." Amanda laughed as she looked up at him. She turned the shower on, closing the curtain as she waited for it to warm up. She unbuttoned her jeans as she slid them off slowly, along with her bra and underwear. She got into the water, closing her eyes as she felt her body relax.
Rick climbed in behind her, kissing the back of her neck carefully. He took some soap on his hand and rubbed her back, inhaling deeply when he saw bruises on her lower back and hips, "I'm so sorry." Rick said quietly as he rubbed her backside, "I should've protected you better."
"It's not anyone's fault, Rick." Amanda said as she turned around, putting some shampoo on her hands as she washed Ricks hair. She kissed him deeply as she rubbed his shoulder gently with the left over shampoo, "I love you." She said, moving out of the way so Rick could rinse off his hair
Rick pushed the water off his face as he rinsed his hair off, "I love you." He said quietly as he kissed her shoulder. He washed Amanda's hair before he helped her rinse, "C'mon." He said, turning the water off. He wrapped Amanda in a towel, guiding her out of the tub, "Go sit on the bed and I'll get you some clothes."
Amanda nodded as she limped over to the bed, sitting down on the edge. She watched as Rick grabbed her a bra and underwear and one of his button ups.
Rick knelt down on the ground in front of her and slid on her panties before helping her put her bra on. He slid the button up on her before sitting besides her and began brushing her hair, "I think short hair suits you." Rick admitted
"I don't like it very much." Amanda said quietly, "it's not too short but still." She said
"I know, I'm sorry." Rick said softly as he kissed her temple. Rick put some lotion on his hands before he rubbed her stomach gently, careful not to touch her sutures, "How're you feeling overall?" Rick asked
Amanda shrugged, "Tired." She replied, "I feel tired." She said softly as she watched Rick rub her stomach. She laid back in bed, sighing softly, "I feel useless. I feel like I should be doing something." She admitted softly
"You were literally beat up and you're pregnant. Then you helped Eugene. I'm not sure what else you're looking to do." Rick said kissing her softly as he guided her body to lay down on the bed
Amanda kissed him back softly as she laid back, resting her head on her pillow, "I know." Amanda said softly as she inhaled softly, "Tomorrow I'm gonna come up with schedules, a rotation for people to be on guard and doing foot patrol in the area." Amanda said
"There you go, that's something to do." Rick said as he kissed her head, pulling her body into his. He looked down at her toned stomach, smiling softly at the idea of her being pregnant. He closed his eyes, inhaling her scent before he dozed off
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Chapter 1 my other fanfic is up! It's gonna start off with Rick but it's gonna move over to Shane. Idk he's so sexy idc what any of y'all hoes say.