Episode-38
Edward’s
POV:
Same
evening,
I
am sitting in my penthouse, holding my glass of whisky. I am really mad… Anger….
isn’t it smaller word to describe what I feel right now… I am angry on my Amber….
No… not Amber, she said she don’t want me call her that. I should call her
Miss. Amber since she called me by my last name… she called me ‘Mr. Rae’
I thought I could talk to her, I don’t know
what was I excepting, but I was clearly not ready have her cold eyes and sharp
words. She made me angry, she showed me my place… I care for her so much and
that teenage girl made me look down on myself…. but I have to admit I shouldn’t
have pulled out Masson’s topic in front of her like that, now I know she will
be more angry…. what right I do have on her? I just worry about her too much.
I gulped the rest of the drink and poured some
more. Amber, stop this already. I was happy when you were around me smiling,
laughing, whining. My Amber, you are making me angry.
I said to myself, “she is a teenager… it’s
normal… let’s talk to her later… she needs to tell me why she is behaving like
this and left my place… I should give her time…”
My phone rang and I annoyed by the sound, I
looked at the time it’s 11:34, it’s nighttime. I saw Aunt Linda’s call, I
answered it.
I said, “Yes?”
Aunt Linda said, “Edward…
Miss. Amber is in her workshop and she refuses to eat…”
I asked being confused, “What?”
Aunt Linda explained, “Edward, Miss came
home in the afternoon, she straight went to her workshop…. When I checked on
her she was crying… but she asked me leave her alone.. it’s been hours she is
still inside and refusing to come out… she threw the food plate out of the room
and closed the door again… I don’t know what should I do?”
My grip got tighter around the glass, she is
angry and throwing tantrum like a 5 year old. I gulped and said, “leave her
alone…. If she needs space let her alone, if she wants to starve let her, she
will eat when her stomach will force her… let her be alone, maybe she is not in
mind to eat or sleep… let’s give her space…”
I heard Aunt Linda sigh through the phone,
she said, “you are right, that kid went through a lot… we should understand
sometimes she needs her own little peace… I hope she will deal with, why is god
doing this to sweet child like her?.. anyways, I will look after her… sorry to
disturb you..” she ended the call.
I looked at the glass of whisky in my hand
and said, “she is angry about today… she needs time….”
Amber’s POV:
I threw
the paint can on the wall in frustration, I remember him with her….. Edward and
Olivia… they look perfect together…. Really perfect… am I third wheel….
He showed me his kindness, and he is doing
his job at last… and I took it for something else… am I this desperate for
attention, this desperate to have a person who will love me.
My phone rang it’s early in the morning, I
checked it. Masson texted me about college…. I just replied him, ‘I can’t
come…’
I have no mood to go anywhere. I heard the
maids bang the door, “Miss…. are you ok?.. I heard a voice… Miss..”
I sigh, and took my brush and continue to
paint on mom’s panting, it’s almost done. I don’t know how I managed to do
it. after an hours, I took a deep breath
looking at the painting. I smiled in tears, it’s her… my mom…
My hands and dress are stained in pain but I
don’t care, I pulled my hair in bun and went to the other canvas, it’s much
smaller but enough to incorporate my sadness, and keep me distracted.
I went to the computer in the same room,
and searched for some inspiration. After few more hours I was done with the
idea…. Now I am going to pull it on a canvas.
Edward’s POV:
I
am irritated at every single thing today… this is sick… why am I this affected
by a teenage girls random behavior?
The office time is about to end, I answered
the call since it’s Aunt Linda. I said, “Hello..”
Aunt Linda said in worry, “Mr. Edward, I know
you said, we should give her some space… but Miss. Amber hasn’t come out of the
work shop since last night, it’s been more than 24 hours…. I am so worried
about her…..”
I furrowed as I am trying to think what
happened that she is suddenly doing all this. I said, “ok… I will be there…
prepare some food for her…”
I massaged my forehead thinking, what
happened to my Amber all of a sudden?
I went to the mansion, I saw Aunt Linda in
worry, I grabbed the key from her, if Amber refuses to open the door, then we
have other ways.
As I unlocked the door, I saw her panting,
her hands are covered in pain… I noticed her mother’s painting is complete… she
is doing something else.
She looked at me then diverted herself to
the painting, I said as I am losing the patience, “Amber… what are you doing?...”
She was ignoring me, I hate when she does
this. I almost screamed, “look at yourself…. What are you doing?!!... you are making
Aunt Linda worried why are you locking yourself again and again..” I saw her throwing the brush down and walking
passing me out of the room.
What the f*ck she thinks she is?.... no one
dare to ignore me like this…
But I stayed silent, right now I want her to
eat, and anyways getting angry will make things difficult. I waited for her in
the living room, I really angry… really no one ever disrespected me the way she
did….
After 20 minutes I saw her walking down
stairs, she stopped for a moment after seeing me, she was suspecting that I
will leave. I scoffed internally on her thoughts.
She walked to the kitchen, I was excepting
she would be talking to me, I walked behind her… this is it… I am losing it.
she can’t act like a brat…
I heard Aunt Linda, “Miss….. Please be
seated, I will bring food.”
I heard Amber, “No need I will make
something for myself….”
She said, “Just move away…” I saw her
grabbing random things from the fridge and making a sandwich. I asked, “Amber,
leave it… eat what Aunt Linda has cooked for you.”
I said, “Amber, you are going to listen..”
I saw her letting a annoyed exhale. She walked to the dining table and sat
there with a annoyed pout. I internally smirked. Aunt Linda got to serve her
food.
Aunt Linda asked me, “Edward… be seated, I
will serve..” I just simply said, “No.. I am not that hungry…. Can you leave us
alone…”
Aunt Linda left, Amber kept eating like I
don’t exist. I sat beside her and asked, “What happened, Amber? Why are you
acting like this?.... you can tell me, whatever the problem is I will try to
bring a solution.”
She took spoon full of rice and shoved in her
mouth avoiding taking. I smiled as I saw her chubby cheeks motioned as she
chew. She noticed it and looked down eating.
I said, “you should eat slowly.. no one is
stealing your food….” I moved her messy hairs away from her face, tucking them
behind her ears.
She stopped eating and said, “Stop touching
me… I am not a kid, that you need to do these things….”
I furrowed the way she talked to me, I said,
“then tell me, why you moved here again suddenly? why are acting like this?
this is not you, Amber…”
She said looking in my eyes straight, “You
don’t know me… do you?.... this is me, I am acting like the way I should. I do not need you to bug me on the
time I eat, I sleep, in my personal life I don’t want you to control it… Dad
didn’t said you to do all of this, he didn’t even cared about me or he won’t
have killed my mom… neither you care for me, this is your job… so do it as a
job…”
What is she saying?... but whatever it is,
makes me angrier.
I said, “I do care… and I am responsible for
your health and wellbeing…. You cannot talk to me like this…”
She said in instant, “Edward… be honest…. If
dad didn’t asked you to look after me… will it be same as now?”
I instantly said, “yes.. I would… I won’t let
a 17 year old all alone in this…” she gulped.
Amber said, “Edward, this is a lie…. You
won’t mind to look at me… it’s your job to visit me once a week so do it, but
at least don’t interfere in my life too much, I don’t like people telling me
everything I have to do… I managed to live alone before and I can now… I am not
weak… just don’t show me your face when you have your own priorities….”
I grabbed her hand in anger and said, “Amber,
enough!... you are being unreasonable… what is your problem?!!!”
She flinched and said in tears, “You!!.. you
are my problem..” she rushed to her room before I could speak further. Did I
scare her off? She is trying to distance herself from me.
Amber’s
POV:
I banged
the door as I am frustrated, why he keeps showing up?.. can’t he understand I
am trying to be away from him? I hate it…
I rolled on the bed frustrated, I was
thinking about him as I hugged my pillow. Every time I see him, I remember
how I saw him with Olivia. I shouldn’t
pull him any close, I don’t want to be a house breaker… I can’t come in between
a happy relationship… actually I don’t even matter, he love her, he never
really looked at me as if I was a women… I am just a burden… a burden from
which he will be free soon.
Next month is my 18th birthday,
then just two more years, then he is free… he will move out with her somewhere
and live a normal life….. I should free him. I wiped my tears with a resolution.
Edwards
POV:
I am still in
the mansion, right now I am standing in the garden looking at this fountain. I
don’t know what is going on. Is this a phase of her? she is a teenager… of
course she will behave rebellion… especially after living such a hard life….
but I can’t just let her live on her
own, I feel she won’t be safe….
I felt someone behind me, I turned to see
Aunt Linda. I turned back to the fountain. Aunt Linda stood beside me, she
said, “You know… sometimes kids get like this… they refuse to listen because
they don’t know what is good for them… I think Miss. is going through that
time…”
I nodded, I said, “but she should be little
more mature, at least tell me what is wrong…. Instead of shutting herself off,
bursting out… I hate when people ignore my questions…”
Aunt Linda said, “We can just wait till
storms inside her heart cool down… she will tell everything, I guess she is
feeling lonely. I found her sleeping hugging Madam’s picture right now..” I
guess so.
I asked, “she is sleeping…”
Aunt Linda said, “Yes, I took some juice for
her since she didn’t eat much… but she was sleeping.” I sigh. My phone rang,
Aunt Linda gave me privacy excusing herself.
I answered the called, “Yes, Olivia..”
Olivia said, “Edward… where are you? the
Party is in 1 hour, we have to head to it… it’s important..” I have a party to
attend, meet some professional people. I want to take Amber but I guess she is
not ready for it… but she should be, she is the new successor at last.
I said, “I will be there… keep my suit
ready.” I ended the call.
I walked in the mansion, and went to her soon
upstairs. I hesitantly open the door, I saw her sleeping under the cover. I
couldn’t help but smile. She really is a Amber.
I caressed her head, I whispered, “I wish
you could tell me why are you like this?.... I really don’t want to be seen me as
your problem my Amber…. Please lets return the way we were few days ago..”
I miss all of that… she came like a ray of
light in my dark and deep world. I got out of the room, closing the door. Yes,
I know we both are in the darkness, she has some of her problems… and I have
mine, I felt lonely and left behind every time I saw myself in the mirror. Like
a man has everything but still is nothing, I had no one to smile with, no one
to share meals with, no one to care for, no one to be happy with.… weird to
express but it’s my reality. But this little thing came like a glowing sun in
my life, now that she is deflecting slightly it’s suddenly too dark here… I
hate it more than before.