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Sorry I haven't been updating much, I'm trying my best to get better grades this year with it being my senior year after my junior year which had a dip after switching schools. I also have a lot of presentations and college applications to do so yeah, gonna be a little busy getting through it all and finals in 3 weeks. Like bro imagine colleges seeing that I had an 88 and 91 in pre-calc last year but then see a 98 for calc (98 for now, still got another test and then final for first semester)
Some recent good news: I got accepted into a university I want to go to!!!!!!
Denki's POV
My eyes slowly open to end up being blinded by a bright white light. I groan in pain from all the light hitting me and when I look over I'm met with Shinsou's beautiful purple eyes staring at me.
"Denki..." I hear him whisper.
I look around and realize that I'm in the hospital and look back into Shinsou's eyes. Pain spreads through my heart as I reply, "I'm still alive..." As soon as those words leave my mouth I see Shinou's eyes widen in shock. I feel my shoulders getting grabbed and hear a mantra of no(s) coming from him.
"Please Denki, never do anything like that again. I can't live without you, you're my only real friend and I care about you so so much. I don't care if the whole world is against you but I swear on my life that I will protect you to the fullest from now on, even if it costs my life."
My heart skips a beat and I finally feel a little warmth inside be after hearing his words. I want to trust Shinsou's words so much but deep down inside I really have doubts and I'm not sure if I'd be able to live even if I had him on my side. One thing I knew for sure is that my life is definitely going to take a drastic turn from this point and it is going to be for the worst. I can already imagine everyones' thoughts back in the dorms about how pathetic and weak I am for trying to kill myself. They're all probably thinking of how much of a failure I am for not even being able to die properly. A brilliant idea then pops into my head.
"Uhm Shinsou, I'm a little thirsty, do you mind getting me some water?"
"Of course not Denki, I'll be right back don't move too much" Shinsou replies gently as he leaves the room.
Self Harm Warning (skip to next bolded area)
I look around the room for any object that I can use when I spot a small blade. I slowly get off the bed and walk towards the table to grab it and go back to my original spot. It took a lot of energy and I almost tripped but at least I successfully did it. I hid the blade under the covers in case Shinsou comes back in suddenly. I look at my arms and decide that this would be the second best option, and that I could die properly. I slide the blade against my arm and watched in awe as the blood started slowly dripping out and down my arms. I was so fascinated by it and enjoyed the feeling that I couldn't hold back and continued cutting my wrists until my whole left arm was covered in blood. At some point I might have been too focused on my blood dripping out because the next thing I heard was the sound of a glass breaking. My head shot up to see Shinsou standing there with shattered glass and water around his feet. Shit, I really messed up didn't I? The only person who cares about me so much is going to leave me, and I'll be all alone again. I should just end this quickly so I don't have to deal with it. I raise the blade up slightly ready to stab myself with it until a strong hand grips onto me, not allowing me to bring the blade closer. I look up to see Shinsou on the verge of crying as he pulls and takes the blade out of my hand and throws it far across the room.
End of Self-harm
"DENKI WHY?! AM I NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU? AM I SO USELESS THAT I CAN'T EVEN PROTECT YOU AND THAT YOU DISREGARD EVERYTHING I SAID JUST A WHILE AGO? AM I JUST A WORTHLESS PERSON IN YOUR EYES?! Please tell me Denki, I'm serious I can't live like this. If something like this happens again...I'm sorry but I'll be killing myself too..." Shinsou screams out desperately until he sobs silently and he whispers the last part.
My heart stops for a second at the thought of Shinsou dying. I suddenly start bawling loudly as I speak, "I'm sorry Shinsou. I'll try not to kill myself again but please don't die. I need you, please please please please" I started begging Shinsou not to leave as I slowly feel the world becoming darker. Oh, wait I forgot about my arms. Suddenly the world goes all black once again.
Shinsou's POV
Denki is crying for me to not leave him and I hug him tightly, then suddenly his cries stop. I look over and I realize he is falling unconscious. Fuck, I forgot to call the nurses, how stupid can I be? I quickly rush over and press the button calling for a nurse and telling everything that just happened.
Less than a minute later nurses rush in and start tending to Denki and trying to stop his blood loss. I get pushed out of the room which I wasn't happy about, but still hoped that Denki would be alright.
Few Hours Later
It's been a few hours I got kicked out of the room and none of the nurses have came out of the room. I was started to get really nervous and started pacing around. Then I heard the door open and some nurses come out. I run over to them and ask about Denki.
"He lost a significant amount if blood but we got him into a stable condition for now. When he wakes up he shouldn't move too much and rest as much as he can. We'll probably have him stay here for another week to monitor him and then doing a psychological evaluation. I nod and rush into the room and sit down beside him, holding his hand.
I open my eyes and realize I've fallen asleep and now it's dark outside. I look up and see lightning eyes staring at me. Startled, I fall backwards and hit the ground hard. Ouch, that really hurt, stupid floor.
"Denki!" I get back up quickly and hug him tightly. "Don't even think about making up any excuses because I won't leave your side for any reason. If you ever need anything I'll have the nurses get it for you" I sternly say. Denki nods slowly and buries his face into my chest. This was such a warm feeling,
I never want to let go of him. That thought got interrupted when I heard someone clear their throat. I turn my head around to see Aizawa standing there. Come on dad, really?
I sigh and break away from the hug as dad comes inside and goes near Denki. "Kid, please don't ever do that again. There are people that care for you so much and can't live without you. Once you are ready to be released I'm going to be setting up meetings with Hound Dog so you can talk to him about anything on your mind. Just please don't resort to something like this again. Just, if you get these thoughts come to Shinsou or me because we will always be ready to help you."
As dad finished I nodded, "Yeah Denki, text me anytime you feel down and I'll be there before you know it." I look at Denki and see him smile slightly and nod. I smile softly, hopefully he'll actually come talk to me whenever he needs to.
I suddenly remember about the rest of the class back at the dorms, I wonder if they finally understand what they did to Denki. I hope they end up suffering much more in the future, I can't believe they threw him aside as soon as false accusations were thrown at him. It doesn't matter though, I won't let them do anything until they redeem themselves.
"S-shinsou?!" Denki squeals. I look at Denki and when I feel his cheek that is when I finally registered that our faces were touching. Shit, I accidentally rubbed my cheek against his because I wanted to give him love. I immediately pull back and slap myself.
"I'm so sorry Denki, I'm sorry I didn't mean to, I didn't even kno-" I apologize as I slam my head against the nearest wall.
"No, don't hit yourself!" Denki yells out softly. I stop hitting my head and look over at him, blushing intensely.
"It's okay...I didn't mind it..." Denki whispered out as his cheeks become red lightly. I stare into his eyes and feel my body act on its own as I run to hug Denki.
"I'm not letting go" I grumble as I hug him more, making sure not to hurt him anywhere. I hear Denki giggle softly and it makes my heart flutter.
We stay in that position for what seems like hours until the door opens with the class waiting outside.
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