I don't care anymore
I don't care about my feelings for Adonis anymore..
I don't want to think about him..or him
I'm freaking tired of getting hurt..
I don't want to cry anymore..
Since Adonis doesn't love me or care for me..why should I bother about my feeling for him?..
I don't want to be emotionally attached to him anymore..
I'm done..
All the rules i made for Adonis to go to hell..
_>>>_<
I was heading back to the dinning area when I saw him running..
Jaguar??
He came to me..
"Where the fuck have you been?" He asked..
"Humm..the ladies room" I replied..
"Hmm..don't try anything funny dear Selena" he said..
"Ohh wait..you thought I was gonna run away?.."
I sighed..
"We are on a freaking island..am I gonna swim all the way back to Italy?" I asked amused..
He didn't say anything..
I scoffed..
"I didn't know..you were this dumb" I said and walked away..
He suddenly grabbed me..and pinned me to the wall..tightly..
The fuck..
"Let go of me Jaguar" I said..
"How dare you..call me dumb!" He growled..
Whoa..he is pretty angry
"Was i lying?" I asked him..amused..
He slapped me..hard
Ouchhhh..
"Who do you think you are..slapping me?!!" I shouted through greeted teeth..
I was angry too..
I mean..who the fuck is he..
He didn't say anything...
"Let go of me!" I said..struggling violently..it was of no use..
"You need a little lesson..don't you?" He said with a grin..
I scoffed
"Last warning..let go of me!" I said again..
My anger building up..
"Ohh..what is the little angel gonna do?" He asked with a sly smirk..
I internally gasped
How dare him!!
"Nobody..and trust me nobody..calls me an angel" I said..about to explode with anger
"Hmm..I thought your dear husband did" he said again..
"Yeah..except him" I said..and kneed him in his groin..hard
He let go of me..and fell to his knees..
I dusted my body and crunched to his level..
"I was starting to like you jaguar..but I guess..you are also a dickhead" I said and punched him..
And walked away..
I think I'm possessed..
First it was the barbies in the restroom..now jaguar..
What has gotten into me?
I think being a mafia boss's wife..is kicking in..
_<>>_<
I went back to the room instead..
I laid down on the soft bed..
Yepp..I knew my brain would take me back to him..
I stood up and started pacing around the room..
Since I don't care about my feelings for Adonis anymore..
I should focus on the mafia..
Why am I related to what jaguar wants?..
What did Adomis divert Dean's attention from?
I know I'm related to their mafia..both of their mafia but how??
And the biggest question is..
Why did Adonis marry me?
If only..I could walk up to him and ask him.. and he would give me a straight answer..
Sure..Adonis would do that..
And since..I'm related to the mafia..
I need to watch my own back..look out for myself..
I can't depend on the gorgeous asshole
And definitely not Dean..
I need to know how to fight for myself..in dangerous situations..
The downside is..how can I fight for myself..if I can't fight or even know how to handle a gun..
I need training..
_<>_<
After thinking and thinking of more questions that needs answers..I took a short nap..
I woke up at 6pm
The party is starting my 8pm..
I freshend up..and wore a navy blue tanktop and a black flair skirt..
Definitely not for the party..
I left the room and went to the beach..
Which was quiet..I guess everybody is preparing for the party..
I heard..the host rented out half of the resort..
Mr Strathclyde is pretty rich..
I walked near the water..so the water swept my feet every now and then..
The sun was starting to set..so it was really beautiful..
I kept on walking..
Surprisedly Dean hasn't been in sight..since this afternoon..which was good because I was able to breath..
"Can I join?" he suddenly asked beside me..
I jumped because I didn't know when he came beside me..
"Do I have a choice?" I asked him..not turning to him..
"No" his husky voice stated
"You know..I don't want to talk to you Machavelli" I said..
He didn't say anything..
And we continued walking..
This is so frustrating..
"What do you want?"I suddenly asked..turning to him
"I want you to come with me"he said..
I scoffed..
"Ohh now you want me" I said sarcastically..
"Don't be like that Selena" he said..
"Like how?"I asked innocently
"I already told you it was to divert his attention" he said..
"God!!..listen to yourself..you left your wife with another man to divert his attention from God knows what!"I raised my voice..
"It was important" he stated firmly..
"More important than my life?" I asked..
He didn't say anything..
"Look..Machavelli I know you don't love me or care for me..but you..you brought me into this..you endangered my life by getting married to me two years ago..you got married to me..for what? And now..I'm a pawn in a game of chess for you..I'm just a piece of your plans" I said breathless..tears starting to build up..
Goshh..I said I wasn't gonna cry anymore..because of him
He didn't say anything..
I'm so done..
"And..I just found out you were a mafia boss..like three months ago" I said..on the verge of crying..
I blinked the tears away..
"I don't think you were ever gonna tell me..if I didn't get kidanpped"i said again..
He didn't say anything..
I walked away..
"You are still coming with me" he said..
I stopped and turned to him..
"And damnn..not trying to apologise or anything..I'm not coming with you Machavelli" I said..
"So you rather stay with Dean?" He asked..
Ohh God
"You know what..no..but atleast he tells me the truth..he is funny..Full of emotions..not a cold statue you are!"I yelled back to him..
And the wind was a paid actor..because it blew my hair..adding to the tension..
"The craziest part is that..I know the cold statue is more capable of protecting me.."
He looked into the sea..
"I had emotions Selena" he said..looking back at me
"Where are they?..in heaven?" I asked sarcastically..moving closer to him..
He chuckled..
"When you run the most ruthless Mafia in the world..you have to throw all that emotions away" he said..
"You had emotions..two years ago"i said..
"Because I met the most breathtaking woman in the world" he said looking straight at me..
I looked away..
"I..I don't even care anymore" I said..
"What?" He asked..
"I don't care about my feelings for you..I don't want to know if I love you or not..I am emotionally detached from you" I said..
He nod..as if understanding
"You are still coming with me"
"That..I know..I'm coming with you either way" I said
"Good" he stated..
"But i know.. I won't let myself get hurt anymore" I said softly..
"I don't mean to hurt you Selena..knowing too much will put your life in danger" he said..
"I..I know..I know I'm not suppose to know..but try..be more sincere..cause it hurts" I said..
He didn't say anything..
We were queit for a while..
"I won't hurt you anymore" he said looking away..
I drew a heavy breath..
"That's hard..to believe" I said..
He turned to me..his eyes gorgeous..
The sun already set..there were just some yellow specks in the sky..
"My actions will show that..so you don't need to belive" he said..
I chuckled..
"And you have another woman" I said..amused..
"Another..." He started but i cut him off..
"Nope..I don't care" I said..
I looked away..to the small bar on the other side of the beach..
Where we first met..
He also looked over
"Remember?" He asked..
I gave a low chuckle..
"How can I forget..where we first met?" I asked him..
He didn't answer..
"You..things have changed..two years ago..I thought I met the man of my dreams..you emerged from the water..looking like a Greek god.. which obviously.. still look like.." I pointed out..
"Alot has changed..After all your lies..and everything.." I continued but he cut me off..
"I..." He trailed off
"There is nothing for you to say.." I said..
"Well..I can just throw everything away..and find a way to survive in this mafia world you have thrown me into.."I continued..
I sighed..brushing my hair behind my ears..
"I should go and prepare for the party.."I said..walking away..
"Don't forget you are coming with me" he said..
Ohh please..
I turned back.."I know.." I said..
"Ohh..and also..I know you love Allison..having another woman is so unnecessary" I said..
It hurts to say that..
"Who said..I love Allison?"He asked.. closing the small distance between us..
I couldn't answer
Well..who said that?
Does that mean..he doesn't love Allison?..
He came really closer to me..he bent down a little..his mouth directly at my ear..
"Don't assume anything related to me..they don't seem as it looks" he said..lowly..his lips brushing my ear..
Leaving a tingling feeling below me
Oh my God!
Am I getting aroused because this man lips just brushed my ear..
What the fuck is wrong with you Selena?
His breath hitting my neck..he was so close..
He drew back..his beautiful eyes..looking straight into my eyes..
We were really close..
I swore we would have kissed..of my brain didn't give me a knock on the head..
I stepped back..
"No..no huh..you can't seduce me" I said backing away..
He grinned..
"Why do you feel that way?..because I wasn't trying" he said amused..
"I..." someone called my name..
We looked over to the person..and it was Dean..
Ohh please..
He came over to us
"Selena!..what are you doing here?"He asked eyeing Adonis..
"I..erm" I started..I looked over to Adonis..who just stood there..emotionless..
"I..." I started again but Adonis cut me off..
"She is with her husband Luciano"He said firmly..
"Her husband?..the one that left her with another man?..that husband?"He asked mockingly..
"We have straightened that out" Adonis stated..
"We did?..you only told me...." I trailed off
Thank God..I was able to read the room..
If I had finished what I was saying..Dean would have found out Adonis's plan..
I guess if I were to choose between Adonis's mafia and Dean's mafia..I would choose Adonis's..
I'm obviously biased..considering Adonis is my husband..
And..I also don't like Dean's vibe or anything..
"What?"Dean asked..
"Erm..it's a personal matter"i replied..
"Per...personal matter?!!" He said exparated..
"Look..Selena..whatever he told you is a lie..who leaves his wife like that?!" He said trying to get through me..
I think he thinks..we are back together..
"Calm down Dean..we are not back together" I said looking at him..
"Ohh..yeah I knew that" he replied casually..
No..you didn't..you didn't dude..
"I shouldn't worry..since I'm soon going to make you mine" he said..holding my hand placing a kiss on it..
"Right?" He asked..
"Ermm.."
"We are on the way..a kiss is just a start..we already kissed" he said..with a smirk..looking at Adonis..
Oh no..
I looked at Adonis..I could have swore I saw an emotion pass through that face of his..
What was it?..anger..jealousy..pain?
He looked straight at me..
"I see" he stated and turned to leave..
I stared at his back departing..
I had the urge to follow him..and explain everything..that it was a terrible mistake..
But..why should I?
He has kissed alot of woman too e.g Allison and the new woman..
But I just feel like..I have hurt him..
I have done something terrible..
I turned to Dean..who was grinning ear to ear..
"Why..why did you tell him we kissed?..which was obviously a mistake.." He cut me off
"Was it a mistake?" He asked..his eyes turning dark..
He closed the small distance between us..and held my arm..tightly..
"Was it?" He pressed tighter..
"You are hurting me Dean" I said wincing in pain..
He snapped out of it..
"Ohh..yeah..right" he said..and released me
I rubbed my arm..
That will also leave a bruise..
"The party will start in 30 minutes..you should go get ready" he said..and left..
I stood there..
Oh my God..
Remember when I used to ask myself if Dean could be a psychopath?..
I was right..he is
Was Adonis hurt?
I want to know badly..
But I shouldn't care..
I turned my head to the direction Adonis went to..brushed my ear behind my ears and left too..
_>>>_>
My outfit for the party was placed on the bed..it looked cute..
I washed my face..and applied a little makeup..
A nude eyebrow..a mascara..a light pink blush..and a dark caramel lipstick..
I honestly look hot..
Only my face..
And the dress..made me hotter
It was soo cute..yet hot..
I wore a thin gold necklace..a round earrings..a gold bracelet..and the cloth was complimented with a white flower..which was to be placed behind my ear according to Hawaiian culture..
I didn't know which ear to place it..right or left?
I just placed it behind my right ear..
It looks cute..
I looked at myself..one more time in the mirror and left the room..
Dean was already waiting for me outside..
He was in a white short..white sneakers and..ohh come on..
His shirt was made out of the material of my dress..
Is he seriously..making us wear matching cloths..like some sort of couple??
Yepp..definitely a psychopath..
_<>>_<>_
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Author's note::
Hey guys!!
So..basically in Hawaiian culture..if a woman wears a flower behind her left ear it means..she is in a relationship..
But right ear..means she is single..