Kairus used to have points of view that I have not included here. Thank you.
KAIRUS
Faye Katherine Allister
The name of the girl I love. Siya pa rin. Mula noon at hanggang ngayon.
I wonder where she is now. Is she eating well? Is she okay?
Ang bata pa pero ang galing nang umalis at magtago! Napasimangot ako pero agad din nawala ang pagkakasimangot ko nang maalala ang dahilan kung bakit siya umalis.
Is she trying to fix herself alone?
Pero sana ayos lang siya dahil wala siyang maalala. Natigilan ako at napangiti nang mapait. Nakakalala pala siya at ako lang naman talaga ang hindi niya maalala.
Logan, who was in front, stopped talking. He smiled at us like he always did. Logan is now our adviser and has continued to stay with us. We don't really listen to what he discusses, but he continues to teach us.
"I forgot to say that we have a transferee." Logan announced.
They didn't pay attention to what he said, while I raised my eyebrow. He immediately went to the door when someone knocked.
"You're here! Come in."
A girl entered, and I saw her stop because of what she saw. I saw her slightly look around the room.
Agad na nagsalubong ang kilay ko.
"Attention!" Logan shouted, causing the others to stop what they were doing. Natigil sila pag-iingay o sa kung ano mang ginagawa nila. Napatingin sila sa babaeng nasa harapan.
"The fuck, a girl?" I heard Chase say in shock.
I saw the confusion on her face, maybe because she didn't see any other girl in this room besides her.
I heard the voices of my classmates and the words thrown at her, but she didn't seem to care about the words thrown at her.
I stared at her intently. She has an angelic face and long hair. Has fair skin, red lips, long eyelashes, and a pointed nose.
She's beautiful. Fucking beautiful.
I almost smirked when I heard how she answered Ryuu. She's brave. But my world almost stopped when I heard her name.
"Faye Katherine Allister."
Tangina.
"Is she related to the Allisters?" I heard Chase whisper, which I didn't pay attention to.
Bumaling sakin si Chase at bumulong. "Is she the girl you always tell me about? Yung bukambibig mo noon?" I didn't answer because I didn't know the answer either.
From my peripheral vision, I saw Trace and Kaulev turned towards us, maybe hearing Chase's whisper, which didn't seem like a whisper at all.
"Ah, teka, iyon ang buong pangalan ng anak nina Tito Kleyzen at Tita Fiona, diba? Yung biglang nawala? Si Faye o Erin ba?" bulong niya ulit. "Right?"
Nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa babae na ngayon naman ay sinasagot-sagot si Jake. I don't know why, but my heart beat faster while looking at her, especially when I heard her name.
But it was impossible for her to show up. If she's hiding, why didn't she even change her name?
"You don't belong here." I don't know what came into my mind. She looked in my direction when I spoke.
"So? I don't care."
"Get out. Baka ako pa mismo ang kumaladkad sayo palabas." I said seriously. I kept my voice serious and my expression cold. I don't even know why I spoke. Maybe because women are not really allowed here.
She smirked. "Walang nagtatanong."
I heard them gasp. I couldn't do anything but look at her sharply.
"What did you say?" I raised my eyebrow.
"You heard me. Hindi ka naman siguro bingi para hindi marinig ang sinabi ko, hindi ba?"
Muntik nang mag abot ang kilay ko dahil sa sinabi niya.
"Excuse me?"
"Oh, bakit? Dadaan ka?" I saw her eyebrow raised while looking at me.
"Who the hell are you? Hindi mo ba ako kilala?" Pinakita kong nauubusan na ako ng pasensya kahit ang totoo ay hindi naman.
But I have a feeling that I will really run out of patience, especially if she answers me like this. Damn it!
"Faye Katherine Allister is my name. At sa tanong mo kanina na 'Hindi mo ba ako kilala?' bago lang ako dito, kaya paano kita makikilala? Kaya obviously hindi kita kilala, common sense naman po!"
But I thought they might be different. Ibang-iba siya sa babaeng ito. Erin is not this girl. Maybe she just used Erin's name, which I know, or maybe they have different personalities, and maybe it's just a coincidence that they have the same name.
Pero bakit kabaliktaran nang sinasabi ko ang nararamdaman ko?
"Sinong nag plano non? Ang bobo naman."
I won't deny that I was a little surprised because of what she did. I looked at Zyrus and saw him standing up with a tennis ball in his hand.
Is he stupid? I knew he was going to throw the ball to her. I don't know, but something seems to be telling me to stop him. I would have stopped him, but he threw the ball in her direction.
But I didn't expect what.. F-Faye did next. Yumuko siya, and I think she was pretending to lace up her rubber shoes to avoid it.
My lips almost parted, but I kept my poker face. I secretly glared at Zyrus. What if that girl got hurt?
"Natural iiwas ako dahil binato mo ako. Kung ikaw ang binato ko at umiwas ka tapos tinanong kita kung... bakit ka umiwas?"
Zyrus was speechless after Faye said those words. He sat quietly. I also noticed how he avoided looking at her.
"Leave our section." I said coldly when I heard her question. Damn, I don't know what went through my mind because of what I said.
"Bakit ko naman gagawin 'yon?"
I stared at her, but she looked away first. Tumayo ako at lumapit sa kaniya, and put my mouth close to her ear to whisper.
"Because I said so." And then I licked her ear. But I didn't expect what she did. She slapped me at.. at tinuhod ang gitna ko!
I kept cursing in my mind while sitting and holding my thing. I looked at her sharply.
Tangina, hindi yata ako makakalakad.
"Come back here! Oh fuck! Damn it! You will pay for what you've done!"
I looked at Chase, who came to me while holding back his laughter. I looked at my other classmates who had prayed for me suddenly, so I cursed them.
"Fuck you!" I yelled at them all, and they started laughing.
Putangina, ang sakit!
"Sigurado ako na alam mo na ayaw namin sa babae. Alam mo rin na hindi ka tanggap dito. Bakit pumasok ka pa?" I asked, annoyed, as soon as she entered the room. I was annoyed by what she did, even though I knew it was my fault too.
"Sa tingin mo ba may pakialam ako? At sa tanong mo na 'Bakit pumasok ka pa?' natural papasok ako dahil nandito ako para mag aral."
I watched as they poured flour over Faye. I saw her close her eyes.
When she opened her eyes, I showed that I was satisfied with what I saw. I grinned.
"Malandi ba kamo? Grabe hiyang hiya naman ako sa mga babae mo, 'no? Hiyang hiya akong gago ka! Sa sobrang hiya ko gusto ulit kitang sampalin. Tangina mo gago mas malandi ka! Hoy Alvarez! Tandaan mo 'tong araw na 'to, ha? Sa susunod na bastusin at pagsalitaan mo ng masama ang mga kaibigan ko, 'wag sa mismong harapan ko! At siguraduhin mong hindi ko maririnig dahil baka hindi lang sampal ang abutin mo sakin. At baka sayo naman ang matuhod kong gago ka. Tabi!" She shouted and hit Dwayne on the shoulder. We watched her leave the room.
I don't know what came into my mind, and I stood up to punch Dwayne. I heard them shout my name.
"Kairus!"
I felt Chase holding me. I looked at him without emotion as his eyes narrowed as he looked at me.
I looked at Dwayne, who was looking at me in shock while holding his jaw. Sebastian and Kaulev were supporting him as he stood up.
"What happened to you?" Trace asked as he frowned.
I looked at them all and saw that they were all looking at me. I looked away and went back to my seat.
I don't even understand why I punched Dwayne. Maybe I just don't like the words he threw at Faye earlier.
Right, I simply didn't like the words he said. I just didn't like the way he said that Faye is flirty, which I found offensive. That bothers me. That's it. Nothing more, nothing else.
"Are you okay?" I slightly raised my eyebrow when I heard Trace's question to her. He was obviously worried.
"Oo naman." She even managed to smile at Trace!
"Faye, delikado ang ginawa mo..." Faye just patted Ethan on the shoulder and smiled.
What she did was really dangerous. I don't even know why I was so nervous watching her fight those bastards just to save those two.
I just watched her talk to Lenard and Lalaine, the two she saved. I almost stopped him and dragged her to the hospital when I heard that she would drive in that condition.
And I did nothing but roll my eyes at her in a manly way when she looked at me and when she left the cafeteria.
"I will give you a chance to choose. Aalis ka ng section namin o gagawin naming miserable ang buhay mo?"
"No. I'm not leaving this section. I will stay here," aniya. "Gagawin niyong miserable ang buhay ko? You don't have to do that, my life has been miserable for a long time. But go ahead and make my life miserable."
So brave.
"If you are sure of your decision, be ready because starting tommorow your life will be miserable. Exciting, isn't it?" Chase said while smirking.
She didn't answer Chase. I looked at Chase for a moment when he left the room.
She looked at me when I spoke. "You must choose the first option, but still you choose the second option. You made the wrong decision." I grinned and showed her that I was satisfied.
I didn't wait for her answer and left the room. When I left the room, the smirk on my lips immediately disappeared.
How can I make your life miserable if I see the girl I love in you?
"Ms. Allister?"
"Yes po?" I saw the confusion in her eyes as she looked at Logan because he called her.
"Are you related to the Allister Family?" Logan asked. I noticed her silence because of Logan's question.
Come on, answer him.
"Hindi po. Allister lang ang surname ko, pero hindi po ako related sa kanila. At baka nagkataon lang na magka-pareho kami ng surname."
I stared at her. I don't understand why there seems to be a part of me that doesn't believe what she said.
"Do you know Katherine Allister? The youngest in the Allister Family? You two have the same name and surname, the only difference is that your second name is Katherine, and you have Faye in the name but she doesn't." Muli pang sabi ni Logan pero mali siya.
You are wrong, Logan, because they both have the same name. Her name is not just Katherine; she has Faye in her name.
But I was stunned when I realized something. Is it possible? Damn!
"Yes, I know her. About the fact that we have the same name and surname, maybe just uhm coincidence? Hehehe."
I didn't pay attention to what they were saying because I was deep in thought.
I looked at Chase when he whispered to me. "I feel like she's lying."
I just nodded at what he said because I felt the same way. Nanatili akong nakatingin sa kaniya hanggang sa lumingon siya sa direksyon namin ni Chase.
"Ang lalim naman nang iniisip mo." Hindi ko binalingan si Chase na nagsalita. "Alam ko naman iniisip mo si Faye."
I looked at him because of what he said. He smirked when he got my attention, so I rolled my eyes in a manly way.
"In the past, we used to be able to immediately send out the girls who would step foot in our room, but now it doesn't seem like it anymore. And I can only think of two reasons..." he stared at me intently. I also feel that others are looking at us and listening.
"Because she's stubborn or you're having a hard time?" he added. "Tell me, Kairus. What's stopping you? It's obvious that you are bothered, and I don't know if you are serious about the plan you say."
"At sa lahat ng babaeng nasaktan natin noon para lang mapaalis sila sa Section natin, sa kaniya ka lang bukod tanging nag-aalala. Sa kaniya ka lang nahirapan." I was about to answer when he suddenly spoke again. "Don't deny it, please. We feel it. Even if you don't admit it, we feel it."
"Nanghihinala rin ako pero parang malala ka naman yata?" dagdag niya pa.
I couldn't answer and just looked away. Damn, he was telling the fucking truth! My eyes caught Logan, who was in front, and it seemed that he also heard what Chase said. Nakita ko pa ang bahagya niyang pag-iling. Muli siyang nagsalita sa harapan kahit alam niyang walang makikinig.
He only stopped talking when the door opened, so we looked at the door. Faye entered with Sebastian and Kleon.
I frowned because of what I saw. Why are they together?
I saw Ryuu stand up and yell at them. "Hoy Sebastian at Kleon na pangit at may mabahong hininga! Bakit niyo kasama 'yang babaeng 'yan?!"
"Tangina mo! Ang sabi mo?!"
"Oo nga! Anong pangit at mabahong hininga?! Gago ka ah!"
"Bakit hindi ba totoo, ha?!"
They started yelling at each other, but I didn't care because I kept looking at Faye, who also yelled back. She also argued with them, especially with Ryuu.
"That's enough, Ms. Allister and Mr. Justin."
She looked in our direction, but I just rolled my eyes at her in a manly way. I looked at her again and saw her surprised face, so I frowned and looked at what she was looking at.
I saw Chase smiling while looking at her, so I looked at Chase sharply. My fist was also slightly clenched.
I think Chase felt my gaze, so he turned to me. He looked at me confused while I was still staring at him sharply.
"What?" He asked, confused.
"Damn you, Gonzales. Stop smiling at her." I don't know why those words came out of my mouth.
His lips parted, and he blinked. I looked at him without emotion and looked away.
Damn, what the fuck is happening to me?
"Hindi niya masho-shoot 'yan! Nasa gilid siya at ang layo ng ring!" Ryuu shouted and smirked.
I frowned when she suddenly turned around while holding the ball. I shook my head, knowing what she was going to do.
"Hoy anong gagawin mo?! Isho-shoot mo 'yan habang nakatalikod?! Hindi mo kayang gawi—" Ryuu couldn't finish what he was going to say when Faye threw the ball.
My lips parted at what I saw. But I also couldn't stop grinning secretly.
"Tangina, paano niya nagawa 'yon?" Yvo suddenly said.
"Ano 'yon chamba?" I smirked.
She smirked back. "Hindi. Aminin mo nalang kasing humanga ka sa'kin."
Yes, I admire you without knowing it.
"Why should I admire you? If there is nothing wonderful to admire you," walang emosyong sabi ko. "To someone like you? Nah, never. You're nothing but a piece of shit."
I saw her fist clench. "What did you say?"
I'm sorry.
I laughed a little. "Are you deaf? Ang sabi ko—" I couldn't finish what I was going to say when she punched me, which made me back away.
I heard Ryuu's scream, so I held my bleeding nose.
"Fuck!" I felt Chase supporting me, but I knew he would laugh at me later! Tangina nalang niya talaga kung tatawanan niya ako.
But damn, she punched me so fucking hard. She was the only one who punched me like this.
I pretended that I was mad at her, even though the truth was not. I looked at her sharply.
"Oh ano?!"
"We are not done yet." I said seriously while staring at her.
"We really aren't done yet." I watched her leave the gymnasium.
I looked sharply at Chase when he secretly laughed. He bit his lip and pointed at my still bleeding nose.
I just rolled my eyes at him. Muli akong napahawak sa ilong ko. But I'm not mad. Well, not really.
"Hindi ka ba gaganti?" natatawang tanong ni Sebastian.
I shook my head. "No."
I can't and I won't.
Sa plano nga lang na sinabi ko ay hindi ko na kayang gawin. I can't do it anymore. Fuck, I don't know what's happening to me. I'm not like this.
"Wala akong crush kay Chase!"
What? I quickly turned to them when I heard that. My eyebrows meet. Tangina, ano 'yong narinig ko? Anong crush?
"May crush ka kay Chase?" Logan asked while smirking.
No!
"Wala po!" depensa niya kaya napaismid ako.
"To much defensive, Faye Katherine." I simply turned to Chase and looked at him sharply.
"Shut up. Hindi nga kasi kita crush!"
"If you don't have a crush on me, why are you blushing then?"
When she looked in my direction, I also looked at her sharply.
"Ahm S-Sir..."
"Yes, Mrs. Gonzales?" Logan replied with a smile.
Pakiramdam ko ay mas lalong nag-init ang ulo ko. The fuck, Mrs. Gonzales? No! Hindi bagay! Hindi bagay idugtog sa pangalan niya! Okay sana kung Ferrer, mas maganda pa!
I simply looked at Logan sharply, too. I licked my lips. Damn it! This is not me anymore.
I was leaning against the door while waiting for her. I rolled my eyes because she was taking too long. A while ago, others were asking me what I was doing here, while Chase was just laughing at me, but I didn't care.
I bit my lower lip when I saw her. I just looked at her as she walked towards our room.
She stopped and looked at me. I immediately looked at her sharply.
"Umaano ka diyan? Alam mo bang ang laki mong harang sa daanan ko?"
"Hindi."
"Ano bang problema mo?" she asked, annoyed.
I was about to speak when someone called her. I saw Dwayne smiling at her, and my jaw tightened when I saw him put his arm around Faye.
I watched them talk in front of me until Dwayne greeted me, but I didn't answer him and just turned my back on them.
I sat down in my seat next to Chase, who was grinning. I ignored him because I was fucking irritated.
"If I were you, I would leave their section. Faye, you also won't last long in their section katulad ng ibang mga babae na sumubok. It's not that you won't be one of them because they will never accept you and when Dianne comes back, and they accept that damn woman again at ikaw? itatapon kana lang nila na parang isang basura."
I feel like punching this girl's face. I didn't like the way she poured juice on Faye. Anong karapatan niyang tapunan ang babaeng 'to? Hindi ko naman siya binigyan ng karapatan.
But somehow I'm proud because of how Faye answered her and how she defended herself from Chloe. I don't know, but it's like I'm proud.
"Shut up. She's belong with Section Knight and nothing will change." I felt their eyes on me after I said that. Even I did not expect that words would come out of my mouth that would surprise me.
"Whether you fall for her or not, I still don't fucking care. You're my best friend. Do whatever you want. Bahala ka. But only one thing won't change, it still won't change that I don't like that woman. She needs to disappear from our Section."
No. I'm wrong. In the days that passed, I completely fell for her. I didn't do the plan I was talking about, and I know they feel that.
I stopped the plan without them knowing it.
I warned Chase not to fall for Faye, and I didn't care if he fell for her, but I forgot about myself. I forgot to warn myself.
I was able to warn them, but I was not able to warn myself. So stupid. Since she came to our section, she has always been on my mind. Tangina, hindi ko alam kung paano ako nahulog sa kaniya nang ganoon lang. Nahulog ako nang hindi ko alam.
Naghihinala ako palagi sa kaniya, especially when I saw the necklace she was wearing when she became the representative of our Section.
How did she have such a necklace if it was only one? I customized that necklace just for her, so how did she get a necklace like the one I gave Erin when we were kids?
I watched her sleep peacefully. I sat on the chair next to her hospital bed and took her hand to play with it.
Tangina, galit na galit ako. I am angry with what happened to her, with Brandon, and especially with myself.
When I found out Brandon touched her, I wanted to kill someone. I want to kill Brandon for touching her.
After we took Faye to the hospital, I went back to Brandon, even though I had beaten him earlier. And I put Brandon in a coma. I don't know if what I did to him was too much because I was carried away by my anger, but I don't feel any remorse.
I just stared at her until she woke up. I saw the shock on her face when she saw me.
"A-Anong ginagawa mo rito?" she asked in shock.
"I'm sorry."
I saw that she was quiet when she heard my apology. It was obvious from her face that she did not expect what she heard from me.
"A-Ano?"
"Are you deaf? I said, I'm sorry!" My forehead was furrowed, and I pretended to look at her sharply.
"Putangina, bakit ka galit?" I saw her frown.
Parang gusto kong patahimikin ang bibig niya dahil sa lutong ng mura niya. Bakit mas malutong pa siyang magmura kesa sakin?
I sighed and looked away. "I'm not mad. I'm mad, yes. But to myself."
"Bakit ka galit sa sarili mo? Kung nags-sorry ka dahil sa nangyari, huwag kang magalala, hindi naman kita sinisisi. Wala kang kasalanan."
"No! I'm at blame. I'm sorry." I rubbed her hands. "It was a mistake for me to leave you there. Those scumbags wouldn't have taken you if I hadn't left you there, and he shouldn't have touched you."
I stood up and helped her lean on the headboard of the hospital bed, and I also put a pillow on her back so that her back wouldn't hurt and she would be comfortable leaning on it.
"Don't blame yourself for what occurred me because, as I already stated, I don't blame you. Hindi mo kasalanan, walang may kasalanan, walang dapat sisihin," she smiled at me.
"We have no control over the situation, after all. It has already taken place. Nangyari na ang nangyari. There is nothing we can do," she yawned.
Before I could speak, she spoke again.
"Apology accepted."
My lips parted slightly. I sighed and closed my eyes tightly. I immediately opened my eyes and met her eyes.
I saw how she looked at my face, but she immediately looked away. I don't know what came to my mind and pulled her neck to press our lips together. I kissed her.
I grabbed her waist and put her arms around my neck while kissing her. I bit her lip and almost smirked when her lips parted, so I slipped my tongue into her mouth. I heard her gasp.
I smiled a little when she kissed back, even though I knew she didn't know how. While kissing him, I felt like I was in heaven. Her lips are soft.
And it was my first kiss too.
I don't regret kissing her. And that night, I promised her that I would protect her as much as I could. I will not let them touch this girl again.
They will kill me first before they hurt this girl. But no, I don't plan to die; I still need to know something.
My fist immediately flew to Luther's face when I found out what he said to Faye before we arrived in their room when we were still at Riverdale University.
He called me on the phone earlier and said that I should go to his condo because Raede is also there and he also has something to say to me.
"Kairus..." Raede called me calmly.
I ignored him and kept my sharp gaze on Luther, who laughed while holding his jaw. He wiped the blood from his lips and looked at me with a smirk on his lips.
"Fuck, Luther, what if she believes what you're saying?" I looked at him with rage in my eyes.
"Chill," he grinned at me as if he had done nothing wrong. "It's up to her if she believes what I said."
I was still looking at him angrily. Putangina talaga ng lalaking 'to.
"What I told your girl was mixed with lies, but there were also some truths," he said. "Half truths, half lies. Besides, I'm just testing her."
He really loves lying.
Tinulungan ni Raede na tumayo si Luther habang matalim pa rin ang tingin ko sa kaniya.
"Testing for what?!"
He shrugged. "I don't know either. It's just my trip. Naaliw ako bigla, eh. Isa pa, wala akong magawa. Bored na bored ako."
Tangina. Eh, paano kung suntukin ko kaya ulit ang mukha niya at sabihin kong naaliw ako at wala akong magawa dahil bored na bored ako?
"At isa pa, hindi naman siguro siya nagpa-plano na puntahan ako para kausapin dahil sa mga sinabi ko sa kaniya," dagdag niya. Natawa siya nang mas lalong tumalim ang tingin ko sa kaniya. Kung hindi lang ako pinipigilan ni Raede, baka nakaratay na ang putangina 'to sa hospital.
"You really love that girl, huh," he said, looking at me intently. "Do you really love her? Or do you love her because you see Erin in her? You know, they have the same name, and they really look alike."
"Luther." Raede called threateningly, but he just grinned.
I stared at him. I thought for a moment about what he said. I realized if I really loved her or if I just loved her because I saw Erin in her...
No.
"Didn't you think that maybe you only love her because you only see Erin in her?" I looked at him without emotion, but inside me I wanted to punch him again. Damn, I know he wants to mess with my mind and feelings.
"Alam natin na nangungulila ka. Kung mahal mo siya, bakit hanggang ngayon ay nanghihinala ka pa rin sa pagkatao niya? Bakit, Kairus? Ayaw mong tanggapin na hindi siya?"
My fist clenched in anger. "Shut up, Luther."
Hindi niya pinansin ang sinabi ko at mapang-asar pang ngumiti. Muli siyang nagsalita.
Tangina talaga.
"Paano kung mali ka? Paano kung hindi siya? Paano kung hindi siya si Erin? Will you still love her?"
"I said shut up!" I shouted in rage. I angrily pulled his collar. Damn, I want to punch him again until I break his face. "Putangina, Luther, wala akong pakialam. I don't fucking care. Do you hear me? I don't fucking care. If she's not Erin, I don't care. I still love her. Nothing will change."
Padabog ko siyang binitawan. I looked away. I feel my fists shaking with anger. My jaw tightened. I calmed myself down because, fuck, I might kill Luther.
I licked my lips. I ran my fingers through my hair and bit my lower lip.
I looked at them again, emotionless.
"Whether she's Erin or not, I don't care. I still love her. I'll accept her. I love her, and that's what matters to me." I said before turning my back and walking towards the door.
Before I left his condo, I spoke again.
"There's something missing from what you told me earlier, Luther. I know you told her something else that I don't know." I said coldly. "And I know you know something I don't. I'm not going to force you to tell me."
"Huwag mo nang ituloy ang plano sa kaniya! Alam kong hindi mo naman kayang gawin at wala kang balak!" Napailing ako nang marinig ang sigaw niya nang makalabas ako.
Too late. I haven't started yet, but I've stopped. And he's right—I can't do it. I also have no intention of continuing the plan because I can't.
I finally left his condo. I licked my lips and shook my head.
Damn, I just realized it now. Raede is right, the plan I'm talking about is just an excuse. Tangina, una palang talaga, hulog na hulog na ako.
When I heard about their problems, especially what Ryuu and Ethan went through.
Ryuu lied to me. I cursed myself over and over again. When I saw Faye cry, my heart was broken.
I promised myself that I would help them. I will help them get the justice they deserve. I will chase justice just for them.
And suddenly, I remembered my best friend. Ang kaibigan namin noon ni Erin, si Hiro. Si Hiro na namatay noon... o tama bang sabihin kong pinatay?
It felt like something stuck in my throat when I remembered his lifeless body. The lifeless body of my best friend.
Tangina, iniwan ako.
He also has no justice, like them. There was no justice in his death. Pareho silang dalawa ni Erin.
Erin's unconscious body also flashed in my mind, along with Hiro's lifeless body.
Every time I remember their bodies, it kills me again and again. because I know I couldn't have done anything to save them. I didn't do anything.
Hiro died, Erin disappeared, and I was left alone.
Naghihintay ako sa pagbalik nila kahit alam kong hindi na babalik si Hiro habang si Erin ay walang kasiguraduhan kung babalik pa ba o hindi na. Para akong tangang naghihintay at umaasa.
Chase wasn't there before because he was in the US, and Erin didn't know him before. He knows Erin, but he has never met her. Uwuwi lang sila nang mabalitaan ang pagkamatay ng anak ng kaibigan nila na si Hiro at ang pagkawala naman ni Erin.
Chase was the only person I could hold on to. He is always there for me. At a time when I needed someone to lean on. He saw my weak side.
"An accident occurred. The car crashed into a tree, and the driver was identified as Kin Allister."
My lips parted when I heard the news. I don't know, but I looked at her reaction.
Kuya Kin is Erin's older brother.
She stared at the TV while watching and listening to the news. I looked at her friends, Stacey, Ellaine, and Amelia. Nakalimutan kong anak din sila nang mga kaibigan ng magulang namin ni Erin at Hiro pero kahit kailan ay hindi kami nag close. Hindi kami nakakapag-usap.
And then the realization hit me.
No one knows Erin's full name or sees her face besides us. Katherine, or Erin, was the name she used. And if I remember correctly, the Allisters should have introduced her to other people, but she never showed up.
They only know about her by name.
Hiro also told me why before. She was bullied then. And I wasn't even by her side to protect her.
Hiro tells me everything that happens to Erin.
At first, I thought that maybe they really have the same name and it's just a coincidence that they look alike.
I also thought that she could hide using her full name while showing her face because no one would know.
But now I don't know anymore.
Ang daming ebidensya pero nanghinala pa rin ako. Nagbulag-bulagan ako. I want to hug her and tell her that I miss her so much.
"She's the first girl we have accepted in this section, and she became my girlfriend too..."
We decided to tell her about Dianne, but I'm sure she knows about Dianne.
Because Dianne Vejia ruined her life with her father, Dylan Vejia.
The Vejias are the family I hate the most.
I let them tell her about what happened then. But the truth is, she was never my girlfriend.
"We reign in chaos. The rulers."
When we went to the enchanted kingdom, I secretly took a picture of her. She wears a bunny headband. I bit my lip and smiled secretly.
Finally.
I posted his photo on Instagram. This is my first post. I captioned the post.
My fairy.
Fairy because her name, Faye, means Fairy.
"Hindi naman talaga naging kami ni Dianne." I laughed. "Hindi ko siya naging girlfriend. Never."
I looked at her while talking about what happened then. I explained what really happened then, even though I don't know why I'm explaining, but I feel I have to.
I have to explain.
It's all a lie. Dianne and I were never lovers. Sinakyan ko lang ang gusto niya.
Hindi ko kayang mahalin ang babaeng sumira sa buhay ng babaeng mahal ko.
I pretended that I didn't know Hiro, but even if I did, she still wouldn't recognize me. She still won't remember me.
But it's true, Dianne loves Hiro. She admitted.
"Who's that lucky girl?"
Ikaw.
"No, I'm the lucky one," sabi ko. "When I was young, I had my first love. She's not only my first love, she's also my greatest love. She has ocean blue eyes."
"Je vous aime, Faye." I gently touched her nape and kissed her. I kissed her carefully.
This was the second time I kissed her.
"I'm still waiting, Erin. I will wait however long it takes." I whispered under the kiss.
I felt my tears fall.
I don't care how long I wait for her. I'm ready to wait again, no matter how long it takes.
I will wait for her again and again.
"Yes, we used and played with her like a toy. I planned to make her fall for me, but nothing happened. We pretended to accept her. It was all planned. It's all just for show." I said coldly. "Now, tell her everything you found out."
My fist clenched because of the words that came out of my lips.
I don't know how Chloe and Klein found out because they suddenly rushed here. I even punched Klein because of my anger.
I could understand Klein, but Chloe? I don't know.
I almost froze where I was standing when she entered the room, but I tried to act as if I didn't care.
"F-Faye..." rinig kong sabi ni Ryuu. "Kani.. k-kanina ka pa riyan?"
I looked at her, emotionless. But in my mind, I apologized to her again and again.
I apologize now because I know the next words that come out of my mouth will not be good.
"Tangina, Kairus..." natawa siya. "Nahulog ako sayo! Naririnig mo ba ako? I fell for you!"
I was stunned, and my lips parted. I looked at her while she was crying in front of us.
Gustong gusto ko siyang lapitan at punasan ang mga luha niyang ako ang dahilan.
I want to hug her tightly and hold him in my arms.
We just looked at her as she told us her grievances while crying. Her tears did not stop.
I saw how it was difficult for her to speak because of the pain she was feeling. I heard her broken voice.
My chest tightened at what I saw. My fist is clenched. I am the reason she is hurting like this.
I am the reason why the girl I love is hurting.
"Loving you is a mistake."
I watched her leave while crying. I don't think I even felt any pain when Chase suddenly punched me.
"Gago! Ayan na yung matagal mong hinihintay! Ayan na si Erin! Anong nangyari ngayon?! Akala ko ba tinigil mo na yung plano?!" he shouted at me angrily.
Hindi ako sumagot. Natulala ako at napayuko. I felt my tears flow. Naramdaman kong tumahimik ang lahat. I felt their eyes on me. They just saw me crying, but I don't care.
"Kairus, hindi mo kailangan itago na mahina ka," rinig kong sabi ni Yvo.
Sunod kong narinig ang boses ni Sebastian. "Kung sinaktan mo siya dahil lang sa ayaw mong may masabi kami sayong hindi maganda dahil wala kang isang salita, nagkakamali ka."
"After all, we're still happy because you stopped the plan. You don't know how happy we are. Even if you don't say it, we feel it, Kaulev said.
"Chase told us everything, especially about Erin." I heard Trace's voice say. "Nanghihinala ka na pala sa kaniya simula ng tumapak siya rito.."
"I've seen your weak side, Kairus. When I saw your weakness, did I say something?" rinig kong sabi ni Chase pero nanatili akong nakayuko at tahimik. "Kairus.."
Nanatiling nakakuyom ang kamao ko at mariin kong pinikit ang mga mata ko dahil ramdam ko na naman ang panggigilid ng luha ko.
"Katrina, anong ginagawa mo rito?"
"M-May ibibigay lang sana akong sulat sa inyo.."
"Anong sulat? Kanino galing?"
"Kay Faye."
Agad na umaangat ang tingin ko at napatingin sa kaniya. I even saw the confusion in her eyes when she saw that Chloe and Klein were here.
Nang mapatingin siya sakin ay bahagya pa siyang napasinghap nang makita ang kalagayan ko. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kamay niyang may hawak na dalawang sulat.
She walked over to us and handed one to Chase. She looked at me and smiled slightly. She handed me one, so I stared at it before taking it. Muli akong napatitig sa papel na nasa kamay ko.
"Ang alam ko aalis siya pero hindi ko alam kung saan siya pupunta," aniya at napabuntong hininga. "Nagulat ako nang tawagan niya ako at gusto niyang makipagkita sakin kanina.."
Muli siyang nagsalita. "Hindi ko alam kung ngayon ko ba dapat ibigay 'yan pero pakiramdam ko ay ngayon ko dapat ibigay 'yan lalo na't parang nagkakagulo kayo ngayon..."
"Thank you, Katrina." Narinig kong mahinang sabi ni Chase.
Tumango lang si Katrina at nagpaalam na aalis na. Saglit pa niyang sinulyapan si Ethan at sina Chloe bago tuluyang umalis.
Hunghangs,
Nakakainis kayo, alam niyo 'yon? Inis na ako sa inyo simula nang pumasok ako sa Section niyo. Kung asarin at laitin niyo ba naman ako, sinong hindi maiinis? Pero hindi ko akalain na tatagal ako na kasama kayo. At first, being with you was a nightmare. Sino ba naman kasi ang matutuwa sa mga pinaggagawa niyo saking mga tarantado kayo? And I want to punch you one by one for that. Pero ang bangungot pala na inaakala ko ay magugustuhan ko. This was the only nightmare I liked and enjoyed. Weird, isn't it? Who is stupid enough to like a nightmare? It's just me.
I looked at Chase, who was now reading the letter he was holding while the others were just listening. I even heard someone laugh when they heard what was written.
Meeting all of you is one of the things I never expected, but I will cherish it for the rest of my life, until death. I will cherish all of the days and months that we spend together, especially the memories that we have built together. I am happy because I met all of you and spent time with you. You don't know how much you all made me happy.
I'm also happy because you accepted me even though we know that you don't really accept girls in your section. Even though accepting me was part of your plan, I'm still happy, but at least you all accepted me, right? Kahit pagpapanggap lang.
How could she be happy when she knew our plan? How could she appreciate us even though she knows everything?
And yeah, I knew your plan all along. Hindi kasi kayo nag-i-ingat kaya narinig at nalaman ko. Aminin ko man o hindi, nasaktan ako. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ako nasaktan, e, wala naman akong pakialam sa inyo noon. Isa pa, hindi ko pa kayo masyadong kilala. At sa susunod na magpa-plano kayo ulit, doon kayo sa soundproof ang kwarto. Siguraduhin niyong hindi na kayo maririnig, mga gago.
I don't know, but I smiled slightly. I even heard a slight laugh from Chase, who was reading.
I forgot all my problems because of you all. It's like the pain I was carrying in my chest disappeared. Parang nawala na yung mabigat na dala-dala ko sa dibdib ko noon pa man. But it still can't change the fact that you all hurt me every day as I rebuild myself and find the pieces of my broken self. But you know what's funny? Somehow, you all saved me from drowning. It's funny because I know all of you will hurt me, but I still thought that at least somehow you all saved me.
Anyway, I'm sure, as you read this, you all know who I am. And yeah, I'm Faye Katherine Allister, better known as Katherine and Erin Allister. You are right; I am one of the heirs of the Allisters. I'm sorry if I hid my identity while I knew you well, or so I thought. And I promised that I would stay with all of you, right? I also promised that I wouldn't leave your side, but I feel like I won't be able to keep my promise. I have to go back to my family. I have to face my past. My hiding will do nothing.
Napaawang ang mga labi ko sa narinig lalo na nang umaamin siya sa pamamagitan ng sulat. Natulala ako.
She herself admitted. All this time, she was by my side! My suspicions were correct, but I was not satisfied.
I know it's Erin, but I just can't believe that she herself admitted who she is. She confirmed it.
I felt their eyes on me. I ran my fingers through my hair angrily. Tangina, sobrang tanga mo!
Regarding your plan, it's fine. I understand. Don't worry about me, I'm not mad. Maybe I'm disappointed, but I can never be angry with you. Sometimes everything you do to me feels real and not part of your plan. At first, maybe yes, but as time went on and I got to know all of you, nawala sa isip ko ang plano niyo. I let you be close to me dahil gusto ko at hindi dahil sa gusto kong sakyan ang plano niyo. I want you to always remember that I was happy to meet you all. You are always in my heart. And it is impossible to lose you all from my heart because, in my heart, you will always have a special place. No matter how stupid and annoying you are, I still love you all. I never thought that I would feel the friendship that I want to experience with you too. Thank you for coming into my life. I can't explain how I feel, and you don't know how grateful I am. All our memories will always be in my heart. Thank you.
Faye Katherine Allister
We were all silent. No one tried to speak. Until we hear the sobs of Ethan and Ryuu
I looked at them.
"B-Babalik siya.." wala sa sariling sabi ni Ryuu. "N-Nangako siya sakin, eh."
"O-Oo nga." Tumango si Ethan habang humihikbi pa rin.
I looked at them one by one. May mga nakayuko, tahimik lang, nakatulala, at tahimik na umiiyak. Lahat sila nasasaktan.
I didn't trust them.I was a coward. And now they are hurting because of me. I hurt them with my wrong decision.
"I'm sorry..."
But my apology is not enough. That is never enough.
I saw how they smiled bitterly.
"It's funny that she thought we saved her from drowning, but no, we drowned her again." Kaulev's tears flowed.
"We hurt her while she was busy building and looking for the pieces that were broken in herself." I heard Chase say.
Pagkatapos non ay wala nang nagsalita sa amin. I looked at the letter in my hand. I opened it slowly and read it with my eyes.
Kairus,
Simula nang pumasok ako sa Section Knight, puro matatalim na tingin ang natanggap ko mula sayo. Lagi salubong ang mga kilay mo at laging nakakunot ang noo mo na para bang may malaking kasalanan ang mundo sayo. Iniisip ko dati kung saan ka ba pinaglihi ng nanay mo pero naisip ko na baka pinaglihi ka sa sama nang loob. Being with you is also like a nightmare. It's like I'm having a nightmare every time you look at me sharply, as if I've done something wrong to you. Ewan ko ba sayo, hindi ko alam bakit ka ganiyan. Nakakainis ka.
But in the days and months that passed, I got used to it. Thank you for saving me from Brandon. You don't know how grateful I am to all of you, especially you. I'm happy to meet you, even though you always look at me sharply. But do you know that sometimes I wonder if I've known you before? I feel like you are familiar to me. When we were in the hospital and you hugged me, I felt safe in your arms. I feel like no one will try to hurt me because I'm with you. I found solace in your arms. I feel like I'm home, Kairus. At that time, I just wanted you to hold me in your arms. I want to be caged in your arms because, in your arms, I feel safe. I have peace.
And with that, I know. I fell for you. You didn't do anything, so how did you make me fall in love with you just like that? Nahirapan akong aminin dahil natakot ako lalo na nang maalala ko ang plano ninyo. Wala kang kailangan gawin para pa-ibigin ako dahil kahit wala kang gawin, hawak mo na ang puso ko. Pinipilit ko pa rin na si Chase at Trace ang crush ko para lang mapagtakpan ang nararamdaman ko sayo. I just laughed at my stupidity because I already knew your plan, but I still fell for you. You didn't do anything, but here I am, you made me fall in love with you. And yes, you succeeded. You succeeded in making me fall in love with you, just like you planned. You should be happy, Kairus. Congratulations.
Your plan hurts me so much. Whether I admit it or not, I'm hurt. But I thank you because you accepted me even though it was part of your plan. It's fine with me. The important thing is that you all accepted me. Hindi ko na uulitin kung sino ako, ha? Makibasa ka na lang sa kanila. Alam kong nahahabaan ka na sa sinasabi ko pero wala akong pakialam. Ako ang nagsulat kaya ako ang masusunod. I want you to tell them to take care of themselves. And you too, take care of yourself while I'm gone. Hindi ko alam kung babalik ako pero isa lang ang masisigurado ko, mananatili kayo sa puso ko.
I will carry our memories until my death. I will miss your sharp eyes on me. Thank you for accepting me. Thank you for everything. Mahal ko kayo, mahal kita.
Faye Katherine Allister
My tears flowed and fell on the paper I was holding. I smiled a little because of some words I read that I know will stay in my heart.
She will also remain in my heart. I will also cherish our memories and carry them to my death.
I smiled in pain. She loves me, and I love her, too, but I hurt her just to stand by my wrong decision.
And that makes me a coward.
Umiling ako at ngumiti sa kaniya. "You don't deserve the hurtful words I threw at you. You don't deserve the pain I caused you."
I knelt in front of her while looking at her. While looking at her, I remembered again what she told about what happened to her and Hiro while they were in the hands of the Vejias.
My jaw clenched in anger, as I remembered that Dylan almost raped her, if Hiro hadn't com. I felt like killing someone, especially when I found out that he killed my best friend, Hiro, right in front of her.
Hiro died in Faye's arms.
"I can still wait, Faye Katherine. I still can." I said. "I waited for you even though there was no certainty."
Kung kailangan ko ulit maghintay, gagawin ko. Wala akong pakialam kung gaano pa katagal ulit.
"Don't ever put your dirty palm on my woman's face, Dianne." Mariin kong sabi at pabalag na binitawan ang braso niya.
She had no right to hurt this girl. Mas lalo lang nilang dinadagdagan ang mga kasalanan nila sakin.
Siguraduhin kong pagbabayarin ko sila kasama ang mga nang-bully sa kaniya. Pagsasamahin ko silang lahat.
"Hurting her means messing with me."
"Kairus! Kairus! Tumatawag si Faye!" sigaw ni Ryuu. "Sagutin mo, dali! Ang bagal!"
I looked at my phone and it was ringing. I didn't even notice it because I wasn't myself.
I immediately picked up my phone and answered the caller. I also put it on the speaker, so they could hear it. I saw the excitement in their eyes.
"What? N-No! I won't leave you here!"
But the excitement in their eyes disappeared when we heard something different. May iba ba siyang kausap?
"Run, Faye Katherine." It was Chase's voice. We looked at each other. "Ask for help. Puntahan mo si Kairus."
Nangunot ang noo. Bakit magkasama silang dalawa? Pero natigilan ako nang marinig ko ang iyak ni Faye.
"Please run and don't look back."
I clenched my fist when I heard a rustling sound from the other line. Fuck them!
I immediately got up and ran to get to the parking lot to get my car. I felt them following me.
"Puta, may dugo!"
I turned to Zyrus when he yelled when we got to the parking lot. They were all looking at the blood-stained walls and floor. I approached them and saw, what Kaulev was holding.
It's a phone.
Kaulev looked at me seriously and handed me the phone, which I immediately took.
"That's Faye's phone." Trace said suddenly.
"Tanginang 'yan, huwag mong sabihing kinidnap sila?!" Galit na sabi ni Jake.
"Mukhang ganoon na nga.." sabi ni Yvo.
"Amputa, may CCTV nga, sinira naman nila!" Inis na sabi ni Kleon.
Humigpit ang hawak ko sa phone at muling napatingin sa dugo. Umigting ang panga ko sa galit.
"What?! My son was kidnapped?!"
"Oh my gods." Tita Fiona said, as she cried.
"Chad, yung anak ko!"
We went here to the mansion of the Allisters and told them what happened. They immediately took action and tracked their location.
Tangina, hindi ako mapakali. Kanina pa akong kating-kati hanapin sila at umalis kung hindi lang nila ako pinipigilan. Napatingin ako sa buong Section Knight na kasama ko at tahimik lang na nakatingin sa kanila. Dalawang araw na kami rito.
I saw the anger in their eyes, especially in Tito Kleyzen’s eyes. His eyes were full of rage. He seems ready to kill.
"Tangina, binantayan ko nalang si Erin." Galit na napahilamos sa mukha si Grant.
We turned to the new arrivals at the same time. There are five of them, two women and three men. There are only five of them, but you can feel, how powerful and dangerous they are.
They are really intimidating.
"Daddy..." Grant and the two Friedrichs with him stood up.
Yes, the Friedrichs. I haven't seen their whole clan yet, but you know, they are powerful and you will be really afraid of their presence, so what if their whole clan shows up? I might not be able to handle their presence when they all get together.
"Kuya.." Tumayo rin si Tita Fiona at sinalubong sila kasama si Tito Kleyzen na bakas pa rin ang galit sa mukha.
"Hindi pa rin nadadala si Dylan?" natawa ang isang lalaking Friedrich. "Tangina talaga non, ang haba talaga ng buhay."
The woman next to him laughed elegantly. "Darling, that man has no fear in our family."
"Or he’s scared, but he just doesn’t let us see it." The woman next to Tita Faye’s brother shook her head. "That man has been a jerk ever since. I think he really wants to die."
"Anyway, Friedrich’s men are ready." Tita Fiona’s brother said seriously. "We will take care of the Vejias' properties, especially their company."
"Then we will find those who bullied Erin before.."
"Let them face the wrath of the Allisters and Friedrichs."
"Gustong gusto kong lumuhod ang angkan nila," ramdam ko ang pangigigil na saad ng babae.
"Tangina, nakakatakot sila.." rinig kong mahinang sabi ni Sebastian.
"Ang hirap naman huminga rito," dagdag na saad ni Yvo.
"Ang bigat nang presensya nila.." bulong din ni Kiel.
"Let me.." Their attention went to me. Nakita ko ang mga panlalaki ng mga mata ng Section Knight sakin dahil sa pagsasalita.
Mahina akong siniko ni Kaulev. "What the hell are you doing?"
"What do you mean, young man?" Tita Fiona’s brother asked seriously. All their eyes were on me.
"Oh, a Ferrer.." The woman smiled at me.
"Leave the Vejias and those who bullied Erin to me." Walang emosyon sabi ko.
"Kairus, anak.." Nakita ko ang pag-aalala ng magulang ko sakin lalo na ang Mama ko habang si Papa ay nakatitig lang sakin.
They just stared at me, so I knelt down and their jaws dropped, as they looked at me. But the Friedrichs and Tito Kleyzen only looked at me seriously.
"I hurt her too much," I began. "I hurt Erin because of my wrong decision, that I want to stand by.“
I saw the confusion in their eyes, so I said everything from the beginning. They just stared at me while listening to what I was saying. Sinabi ko lahat, kung paano siya dumating sa Section namin, kung paano ako nanghinala sa katauhan niya, kung paano ako nagplano, at kung paano ko siya saktan.
"I apologize for what I did.." I looked at his parents and older brother.
Natahimik sila.
I bravely looked at them. "Ito lang ang alam ko para makabawi kaya pakiusap, hayaan niyo ako.."
"Even then, I wanted to retaliate. Let me take revenge for them. I want Hiro and Faye to have justice." I added and clenched my fists. "Please leave them to me..."
Nagkatinginan sila at napaawang ang mga labi.
"Then, we'll leave it to you. Just call us when you need help."
My eyes are full of rage. I ran to her when I saw her fall down the stairs when she was shot.
Fuck!
Tears came to my eyes when I saw her head hit the rock when she rolled down. Mabilis akong bumaba at lumapit sa kaniya.
I gently held her and lifted her carefully. I held her in my arms while her blood continued to flow. I feel my hands trembling.
"D-Don't close your eyes, hmm? I'll take you to the hospital," my voice broke. Patuloy sa pagtulo ang luha ko. "I will avenge you. I will destroy them. I will destroy everyone who hurt you, Faye Katherine. All of them."
I saw her tears fall.
"Kairus, ano ba! Hindi ka pwedeng pumasok sa loob!"
"She needs me, Ma.." my tears flowed. My mother hugged me tightly. Narinig ko ang hikbi niya. "Let me in... I'm begging you.."
I heard Tita Fiona’s sobs while sitting on the chair in the hospital where we brought Faye.
Naramdaman kong nagsidatingan na sila pero nanatili akong nakatulala habang nakatingin sa kwarto kung saan siya pinasok. Hinihintay ko ang Doctor na lumabas.
Days passed and she was fine, but I didn't show up. I will only visit her when she is asleep.
I can't believe Dianne testified against her father. She admits everything. Dylan was quickly imprisoned because Tito Kleyzen immediately brought him to court. He reopened the case about Hiro's death back then.
Also, there were women who approached the Allisters, who were victims of Dylan. He has also been removed from being mayor. Idadag pang, nagbebenta rin ang hayop na 'yon ng mga illegal na beauty products.
I even watched Tito Kleyzen become a beast in the court. The rage in his eyes did not disappear, even when he was still in court.
Maraming kaso ang sinampa sa kaniya at balita ko ay nagsampa rin ng kaso ang mga Friedrich pero hindi ko alam kung bakit. Nagsampa rin ng kaso ang mga Vardeleon kay Dylan kasama ang mga Mendoza na kumuha sa anak nila.
While Tito Kleyzen was handling the case of the Vejias, and I was handling the search for those who bullied Faye before, with the help of the Friedrichs. While I will take care of the properties of the Vejias.
They said, I can, because I am a Ferrer and an heir. My father just let me.
I have also included the search for Ryuu’s father, the people who kidnapped him, and the person who raped his mother.
They were all found because of the number of connections we had. Panahon na para pagbayarin ang mga kasalanan nila.
And in less than two weeks, justice has been served.
I punished those who bullied Faye before. I punished everyone who hurt her.
As for Vejia, I took everything from them. I took all their property, even the mansions and businesses they take care of. I destroyed their Empire.
I take them down. I have nothing left of them. I just watch them beg me, but I don't care. I feel no pity for them.
Am I too much? But I feel no conscience. Sinira ko sila kung paano nila sinira ang babaeng mahal ko.
Tutal kulang pa nga iyon dahil sa buhay ng kaibigan ko ang kinuha nila sakin.
"Sigurado ka bang sa France mo ipagpapatuloy ang pag-aaral mo?" tanong ni Mama sakin.
Tipid akong ngumiti at tumango. Buo na ang desisyon ko. Sa France ko ipagpapatuloy ang pag-aaral ko.
"Paano siya?"
I looked at my mother. "I won't tell her and I hope you don't tell her about my flight either."
"Ano?! Aalis ka?!" sigaw sakin ni Ryuu. "Hoy, aba!"
"Yes."
"Paano si Faye? Iiwan mo?"
"Hindi ko siya iiwan. Mag-aaral lang ako." I answered.
"May chance ka na Chase! Pagkakataon mo na!" Humalakhak si Kleon. Napatigil siya at napatingin siya kay Sebastian. Hinampas niya ito sa likod kaya sinamaan niya ito nang tingin. "Ikaw rin pala! Hoy, ikaw rin Trace!"
I looked at him sharply. Natigil siya at umaktong sinira ang bibig.
"Hayop ka! Pwede mong sabihin 'yan nang hindi hinahampas ang likod ko!"
"May pagkakataon na ako?" malokong tanong ni Chase.
"Subukan mo." May pagbabantang sabi ko.
Narinig ko ang tawa nila. Nagsalita si Zyrus. "Pre, subukan mo raw."
"Bakod na!" Kiel shouted and smirked at me.
Today is my flight and before I go to the airport, I visit Hiro's grave.
"Take care of her for me.." I caressed his tombstone and smiled. "I'm going to France and when I come back, I'll have fulfilled your dream. I'll be an engineer for you."
I immediately stood up and left with a small smile on my face.
"Take care of her for me." I looked at them one by one. "Please update me wherever you go, when you are with her. Also send me a picture of her. Always ask, if she is okay or not. Remind her to eat at the right time."
Jacob scratched the back of his neck. "Paulit-ulit ka. Umalis ka na nga." Mahina pa niya akong tinulak kaya sinamaan ko siya nang tingin.
"Oo na, Kairus. Kabisado na naman 'yang sinasabi mo. Nung isang araw mo pa sinasabi 'yan," natatawang sabi ni Dwayne.
"Oo nga. Hindi na nga matanggal sa isip ko yung mga sinasabi ni Kairus," si Kio.
"Balik ka kaagad," ngisi ni Ashton. "May tatlo pang natitira rito.."
"Hindi naman sa pinag-o-overthink kita pero baka pagbalik mo, hindi na ikaw." Inis kong tiningnan si Kiel.
"Pwede namang huwag ka na bumalik," dagdag naman ni Ryuu. "Update ka na lang namin kapag hindi na ikaw."
"Bakit niyo ginaganiyan si Papi Kairus? Baka mamamatay 'yan kaka-overthink." Nagtaas baba ng kilay si Ethan habang kumakain.
Biglang sumingit si Kleon. "Tama! Saka baka hindi na umalis 'yan!"
"Aalis nalang pinag-o-overthink niyo pa." Sebastian smirked at me. "Pero update ka na lang talaga namin kapag may bago na. Ako mismo mag-u-update sayo kapag ako na."
Nagtawanan silang lahat dahil sa sinabi ni Sebastian. Maraming napapatingin sa gawi namin dahil sa kanila.
"Delusional amputa!" Humalakhak si Kleon.
"Kuya, paano nga kapag umuwi ka, e, hindi na ikaw?" Nagtawanan sila sa tanong ni Axl.
Tumawa si Zyrus. "Hoy, baka umiyak 'yang Ferrer na 'yan."
"Kapag hindi na ikaw, paano ka na?" malokong tanong ni Yvo.
"Kawawa ka naman," dugtong ni Dwayne.
Nagsalita si James. "Hindi siya nagsasalita, nag-o-overthink na yata.
I looked at Chase, Kaulev, and Trace, who just grinning at me, so I rolled my eyes in a manly way.
I looked at them sharply. Damn, I feel like punching their faces. I want to leave them a black eye before leaving. Remembrance lang.
"Take care of yourself there. Call us, when you are in France." My mother hugged me while my father just patted my shoulder.
I ruffled Adam’s hair and just looked at Axl, who was smiling at me.
"Ingat!" sigaw nila.
Sa kaniya lang ako hindi nagpaalam. Kahit gusto kong magpaalam at sumilay sa kaniya ay hindi ko kaya. Kapag nakita ko siya, hindi na ako makaka-alis.
I want to be better for her. I want to be deserving for her when I come back. Babawi ako sa kaniya pagbalik ko.
I sighed and ruffled my hair because of the tiredness I felt. I studied here in France for several years.
It wasn't easy because I was alone. I studied law and engineering. I don't know, how I coped. I looked at my phone to check the time and my lockscreen appeared. It was her.
Damn, I miss her already. Has she eaten well? Is she okay?
I open my phone and press the gallery. I clicked on an album full of her photos. She has her own album in my gallery.
Sa tuwing pagod ako, lagi kong tinitingnan ang mga litrato niya. Sa pagtingin lang sa litrato niya, nawawala na agad ang pagod ko.
The other pictures are from my friends. They send it to me, wenn they are with Faye. They keep me updated. While the other photos are from her social media accounts.
She's been posting her photos and I'm happy about that. I am not active on my Social Media Accounts. But I made a dump-account. My dump-account is what I did to stalk her.
Only my friends and family know about my dump-account. They chat me on my dump account. I have also changed my phone number, that only they know.
Tinatawagan naman nila ako lalo na ang pamilya ko at kinakamusta ang kalagayan ko rito lalo na't mag-isa lang ako. Sa tagal ko sa France, nagkaroon ako ng mga kakilala.
Minsan napapaisip ako kung naaalala na niya ba ako. Wala namang kaso sakin kung hindi niya ako maaalala ulit, ayos lang. I'm ready to make memories with her again. I'll make sure she never forgets that again.
She did not totally forget our memories then. Let's say, she forgot me and our memories, but her heart didn't.
Tangina, gusto ko nang umuwi.
"Pupunta ka bang reunion?" Chase asked on the other line.
"Yes." Walang ganang sagot ko habang nakaupo sa swivel chair ko.
I heard his laugh. "She misses you."
Napaayos naman ako. "Tell her, I miss her too."
"Ikaw na magsabi, hindi naman ako utusan," he complained. "Gagawin mo pa akong alila."
Napasinghap at napairap ako. Fuck him! "I will go home next week. I will only finish what I need to finish."
In recent years, I have graduated like them. I came back from the Philippines to watch their graduation.
They didn't know that because I didn't say anything. I watched them from afar, especially her. I'm happy because they did.
Pinanood ko kung paano sila sabitan ng mga medalya at kung paano nila kunin ang diploma na pinaghirapan nila. They graduated with Latin honors. I am so proud of them. I'm so proud of her.
They all fulfilled the dreams they wanted and I am happy about that. Their hard work paid off.
Nang araw na binuksan ang hospital niya ay muli akong umuwi kahit alam kong marami akong ginagawa. I was there, watching her.
She couldn't even see me, but I was there. I supported her from afar and so did others.
I am proud of my doctor... my girlfriend.
Habang ako ay nagpatayo ng kumpanya na suportado naman ng pamilya ko. I still hold the Ferrer Corporation, but I intend to pass it on to Axl because I have a company that I need to focus on.
I am also a full-fledged engineer and lawyer. I made my promise.
I made a lot of mistakes and failures while I was studying. But I accepted all my mistakes and failures.
Instead of being afraid of mistakes and failures, I embrace them.
Akala ko nga dati ay mamatay na ako pero hindi pwede dahl may babalikan at pakakasalan pa ako. I did everything to start over.
"Welcome back, Kuya!"
Sinalubong ako ng yakap ni Mama habang si Papa naman ay maliit na ngumiti sakin.
"Ano ba itatawag ko sayo? Engineer? Attorney? CEO?" natatawang tanong ni Axl at nagtaas baba ng kilay.
Natawa sina Mama. I just smirked at him. Sila lang ang sumundo sakin at hindi na ako nagpasundo sa mga kaibigan ko.
I stayed at the mansion for a while to be with them before saying goodbye to leave, because today was the reunion they were talking about.
Sumakay ako sa Bugatti ko. It's a Bugatti La Voiture Noire. I honked my horn twice to signal my departure before driving away.
I rested my left elbow on the bottom of the front door and placed a finger on my lips while my right hand held the steering wheel.
Bahagya kong binasa ang ibabang labi ko bago ko niliko ang kotse kung nasaan ang restaurant na pagmamay-ari ni Ethan.
Faie Fidem Restaurant
Napangisi ako. Ethan named the restaurant after Faye. The meaning of Faie is fairy like the meaning of Faye’s name. The spelling is different, but the pronunciation and meaning are the same. While Fidem means faith, trust, confidence.
"Yes! Nandito na si Engineer na may halong Lawyer at CEO!" sigaw ni Kleon pagkapasok ko sa loob ng restaurant.
"Parang gusto ko ng one million," rinig kong sabi ni Kiel.
"Kairus, dapat may regalo ka sa kasal ko!" sigaw ni Ashton.
Lumapit sakin si Chase nang nakangisi kaya napairap ako. Tinapik niya ako sa balikat.
"Welcome back!"
"Tss." Hindi sila ang gusto kong makita!
They introduced their girlfriends to me. I just nodded to them because I was waiting for someone. Kanina pa ako patingin tingin sa pinto habang sila ay nagkakagulo.
Ang tagal.
Nakuha lang ni Ryuu ang atensyon ko nang marinig na kausap niya sa kabilang linya si Faye Katherine. May ilang nakantingin sakin at pangisi-ngisi kaya matalim ko silang tiningnan at inirapan.
I just stared at her, since she arrived. I could barely move my food because I was just staring at her. She didn't even notice me when she came and now she still doesn't notice me, even though she saw me.
Hindi niya ako pinapansin. Kanina pa ako naghihintay na bigyan niya ako ng atensyon.
She was obviously avoiding me. I took a deep breath. I even saw them holding back their laughter.
"May girlfriend ka?"
"Yeah. I have.." I answered while looking directly into her eyes. "She's a doctor."
Nataranta ako nang makita siyang umiiyak at napakagat labi ako nang nagmadali siyang lumabas. Shit!
I immediately stood up and chased her. I didn't pay attention to what they were saying, even though I wanted to punch them in the face one by one!
I pulled her and hugged her. Damn, I've been wanting to do this for a while. I wanted to hug her since she arrived.
"But I only want you. You're the only doctor I want to marry."
I saw, how she was stunned because of what I said. I even saw her blush.
There are many doctors, but only one caught my attention. Se is really the only doctor I want to marry. She is the only one I love.
It hurt me to see her cry. I am the reason for her crying again. Damn it.
I hugged her again and she cried in my chest. I gently stroked her hair. I started to explain everything to her. I told her my reasons.
"I remember you, Kairus." Gulat akong napatitig sa kaniya. "All the memories of the three of us... memories of the two of us. Kung paano mo ako kwentuhan sa hospital habang ako ay hindi kita maalala. Lahat nang iyon ay naaalala ko na, Kairus."
"S-Since when?" Tumulo ang luha ko.
She remembers me. She remembered all our memories! This is what I've been waiting for.
I couldn't stop myself from shedding tears while looking at her. I waited a long time for her to remember me.
I cut him off and immediately kissed her deeply. I wrapped my arms around her waist. I kiss her gently. I bit her lip and put my tongue in her mouth. I heard her gasp because of what I did.
I broke away from the kiss and pressed our foreheads together.
She doesn't know, how grateful and happy I am. My heart is full of happiness.
Kahit naaalala na niya ako ay gagawa pa rin ako ng mga memorya na kasama siya.
"I will never leave you again."
"Dapat lang."
"Papakasalan na kita."
Mahina niya akong hinampas sa braso. "Ligawan mo muna ako!"
"I'm just joking. But seriously, I will marry you someday, but for now..." I quickly kissed her on the lips and hugged her again. "I'll court you, baby."
I will make sure this girl will be mine.
I finally came home to my real home. And my real definition of home is her.
I'm not alone anymore, because I'm with her. I hold her in my arms and I have no intention of letting her go again.
I will not repeat the mistake I made before.
"Hiro is happy now. He is at peace."
Faye and I both visited Hiro’s grave. The two of us were holding hands while looking at Hiro’s tombstone with a smile. This is the first time we visited him together.
"You made Hiro’s dream come true," she looked at me. "Why did you become a lawyer?"
I smiled at her. Hinalikan ko ang kamay niya. "Because of you two. I promised then, that I would become a lawyer."
I didn't really have any dreams before; just being the heir of Ferrer and becoming a CEO is fine with me. I never thought that becoming a lawyer and an engineer would enter my mind.
But when all that happened, everything changed.
At that time, I realized what my dream was to be. I want to be a lawyer. I promised myself that I would become a lawyer someday. I want to be the voice of the voiceless. I will be their voice.
And when Hiro died, his dream stuck in my mind. He wanted to be an engineer when he grew up, but suddenly his dream was cut off like a bubble when he died.
His dream of becoming an engineer will never come true. So I also promised myself that I would make his dream come true. I will be an engineer just for my best friend.
At ito lang ang naiisip kong magagawa ko sa kaniya bukod sa pagprotekta kay Faye. Even though I wasn't by his side, at least I did what he wanted. I fulfilled his dream.
"Before he died, he said that when we meet, I will tell you that you will always be his best friend," she hugged me tightly. "Nung una ay nagtataka ako sa sinabi niya dahil hindi nga kita maalala nang panahon 'yon kaya pasensya na kung ngayon ko lang nasabi niya."
I smiled. Even though he was dying, he still remembered me. He will still be my best friend.
I lifted Faye's face and kissed her gently. She kissed me back.
Humiwalay lang kami sa halik nang biglang humangin ng malamig at malakas. We both looked at each other and laughed. Muli kaming napatingin sa puntod niya.
I promise to protect this girl for life. I won't let her get hurt and cry again, especially if I'm the reason.
And if I had to do what Hiro did, I would. I am ready to die for her, just to protect her.
"I love you, baby.." I whispered lovingly. "I love you so much. Thank you for coming back."
"I love you too," ngumiti siya sakin at hinimas ang mukha ko. Tumulo ang luha niya. "Thank you for loving me."
Damn it, I've never felt so happy and contented. Siya lang ang mahahalin ko at pangangakuan sa harap ng altar at ng diyos.
I will take her to church right now. I will marry her immediately. But even if I wanted to, I couldn't. This girl deserves to be courted.
Gusto ko muna siyang paghirapan bago ko siya tuluyang makuha.. bago tuluyang maging akin. She deserves anything in this world.
I can't imagine myself being happy with anyone but her. I promised to love only her. I love this girl more than my life. I love this girl beyond words.
I will never let her go again—not now, not tomorrow, and not forever. We will stay by each other's sides.
And if I have to wait again, I will. I will make sure that she falls and comes back to me.
I will wait again and again just for this girl. Just for Faye Katherine Allister.
Always.