The 9 of them were cuddled together while watching a horror movie that Minho picked out because he just loved seeing us suffer. The whole time I couldn't focus. I kept looking seungmin hoping he was looking at me but he never was. I was so heart broken I felt sick to my stomach. Everything seemed to be so suffocating and unbearable. I excused myself to bathroom and I got a few stares but I made it to the bathroom anyways.
The minute I locked the door I started crying. I don't know why I just did. Maybe it was because I'm fat, I should loose weight. Maybe It was because I'm ugly, I should start putting on makeup. Maybe it was because I talk too much. Maybe it was because my clothes aren't trendy. Maybe it was because I was heartbroken over someone that would never love me if I continue to be me. It hurt but I needed to change so he could want me. Ill start tomorrow! When I left the bathroom the movie was over and it looked like everyone was already in bed so I made my way to the kitchen. I grabbed a glass and filled it with some water and a laxative.
I swallowed the pill and drank some of my water and zoned out. I was interrupted by someone walking in the kitchen. I looked up and saw seungmin..
"..." I wanted to say something but I couldn't do I tried again
"Why?" I finally spit out
"Why what?" He said annoyed and confused
"You know what never mind" I said noticing he was already annoyed.
"Tch, whatever" he mumbled
"Why are you out he anyways?" He asked
"I- uhm just getting some water" I said as I shoved the laxative box in my pocket
"..." he went quiet
"Okay" he said and walked away
I sighed in relief and made my way to my room.
-2 months later-
-Y/n now and before-
-what she used to weigh
-what she weighs now
-what she used to have as makeup
(Chapstick)
-what she has as makeup now
(Full face)
-what she used to wear
-what she wears now
It's been 2 months and the boys have been sharing y/n nicely and y/n has been getting close to them as well.
It's been 2 months since y/ns plan started and she's been living off of water, protein bars, laxatives (not very many) and 2-3 workouts a day and days she doesn't work out she goes to the studio with Felix to dance.
-y/ns pov-
Sadly today I couldn't go dancing with Felix because he was on a trip to the beach with jeogin for album cover ideas. So today I was dancing with hyunjin. I got dressed and went down stairs to wait for him.
Within seconds he was here and I eagerly hopped into his car.
"Hey princess" he said laughing
"Hey jinnie!" I said
We struck up a conversation on the way there and it was nice to finally talk to each other without the chaos of the house.
When we arrived we warmed up and got ready. I helped him choreograph a dance for lalapalooza. After that he wanted to teach me a dance that the boys would be performing in about 2 weeks.
By the end of the lesson I was exhausted and so was Hyunjin.
Hyunjin was sitting on the dance floor and scooted closer to me so that we could cuddle. As soon as he wrapped his arms around me he realized it felt like he was hugging himself because his arms wrapped around me the full way.
"Y/n" he said concerned
"Yeah?" I said
"Have you been eating? And you've been dressing differently and you've been wearing makeup more too!" He said worried
"I'm fine" i said but he didn't believe it
"No y/n your not, it felt like I was hugging air, your gonna be il if you don't eat soon" he said
"I'm fine and I have been eating" I said which was half a lie
"Y/n 2 FUCKING PROTEIN BARS A DAY ARE NOT MEALS" he yelled frustrated
"WHY THE HELL DO YOU CARE, HUH?" I yelled back
"BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO BE WELL" he shouted
"I AM WELL, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND AND STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME AND WORRY ABOUT YOUSELF FOR ONCE" I screamed
"FINE I DONT GIVE A FUCK, STARVE YOURSELF U DONT CARE" he said and with that we ran out to his car and drove away
I sat there and cried harder then I ever had before. Great job y/n now another one hates you! I called everyone to see if someone could get me but they were all busy, the only one I didn't call was seungmin.
I started walking and I slipped on a rock and hurt my ankle so I had to limp the rest of the way. I started crying because of the pain I was in and it was extremely cold and of course it started raining and I had no jacket.
I was 20 miles away from the house and I couldn't walk anymore so I had to call him.
Calling minnie
"What do you want" he said angrily
"P-please come g-get me" I said in between sobs
"Where are you!?" He said no concerned
"I-I don't know I'm l-lost" I said sobbing harder than before
"Can you describe what's around, and stay on the phone with me" he demanded as he got in his car
"There's a grocery store a-and a soba noodle restaurant" I said and seungmin knew actually where I was
"I'm on the way" he said
Soon he was parked in front of me and I got in the car hanging my head down low.
"How did this happen?" He asked
"I was dancing with Hyunjin and we got into a fight and he drove off and no one could come get me so I tried walking and I slipped and hurt my ankle" I said not proud
"Why didn't you call me sooner?" He asked
"I- uhm thought my phone died" I said lying
"Oh.. okay anyways we're here" he said as we both got out of the car
I started limping but suddenly I was swiftly picked up bridle style and carried into the house.
"HWANG HYUNJIN!" Seungmin yelled angrily as he carefully laid me on the couch
Hyunjin came downstairs confused until he say me on the couch soaked, mascara running down my dance and a bloody ankle.
"O-oh my god" Hyunjin froze
"Yeah, you wanna tell me what the FUCK YOU DID!?" He shouted this time louder gaining the attention of the other members that were home
Soon the other members piled in trying to figure out what was going on.
Seungmin and hyunjin were in a full on screaming match and chan had to stop it somehow.
"BOTH OF YOU STOP IT RIGHT FUCKING NOW" Chan said which made everyone go silent and scared
"What the fuck happened to y/n" he said pointing to me who who was icing my ankle
"And why the fuck are you two screaming" he said and sighed again
"I want both of you in my room now and I want Minho to help y/n clean up her ankle" every went in there places and Minho went off to grab a first aid kit and bandages from the bathroom.
Soon enough Minho was done and my ankle was wrapped up. I bid farewell to him and went up to my room to shower.
As soon as I was done I put on some pink silk pajamas and headed to bed for the night.