This morning was very productive and weird as it was a productive one. I woke up naturally pretty early, got ready, worked out and ate breakfast. After that I read a book in my room and had even finished it. I had nothing else to do and I felt like reading a new book but I don't have any anymore, so to the bookstore it is I guess. I have a book or books in mind I should check out and see which one I want to read first or even just get all of them but maximum of three, I could push four books but I think one or two should be enough as I am not much a reader but once I have nothing to do reading seems like a great way to spend my time, especially if the weather is bad and I am all alone.
I got ready to leave, my aunt was working in the house and I told her where I was heading, she did offer to give me a ride but I refused and just told her I wanted to take a walk with music flooding my ears. I walked down the street to the bus stop. I wasn't rushing. Although I really should have as my earliest bus was about to leave and the next one was in half an hour. I realized it and started to run which was a bad decision as it was not to check the bus arrival times. My luck vanished even further away as I was running, I wasn't looking and I collided with a person, thankfully whoever it was did not let me land on the ground and held my forearm sturdy. I was a goner with the bus.
"I am so sorry I wasn't looking. I am running late to my bus." I knew how stupid it sounded to run to the bus stop and talk both it in such rich side of the neighborhoods. He didn't laugh or commented on it. He looked handsome and young, perhaps my age even.
"No need to apologise, I was standing in the way of the path. I know this seems weird but I could offer you a ride to your destination since you will miss your bus." He offer and indeed it was a strange offer as we were just stranger but a feeling in me told me to trust him and I accepted his offer. He walked to the house nearby we were standing walked to the garage of it and pulled up with a fancy looking car, the house was bigger than ours for sure. I sat in the front next to him, I told him the address of the bookshop and he typed the address to his phone which led us to the place. Apparently he also wanted to head a similar way and even asked me if after my books hoping and his trip we could meet in a nearby cafe which I again had agreed to. at first I really had no idea why I was agreeing to all of this but then it daunted on me, the way I was nervous round him, the way my heart beat faster and why I liked him so much, I got a crush on him, the first person ever I had one and it was him and I haven't even learned his name nor he has my own. The coffee date, no, not a date, I'll ask him.
The bookshop was a new looking one. Once I got in I knew which sections to look thought. I found my first book I wanted to buy and it was the one I was truly looking for, then found two more but chose between the two and settled on one, two books were bought, I had a bit more time before our meet time, so I aimlessly looked around the other books and had thought of which ones I would buy next if that next time will come. I might read the two books for the rest of the year or at least half of it for sure. The time almost has come to the time we agreed on and I left the bookstore and walked to the other side of the street to the coffee shop. I even spotted his car which surprisingly I had remembered.
I got inside the place and I saw him sitting in a corner, I walked up to him and sat down opposite of him.
"Hey."
"Hello."
"We should order something, shouldn't we?" I asked. He nodded and we both went to the barista to get our orders in, we got back to the seats to wait for our coffees.
"I haven't introduced myself properly. My name is Camila Lopez."
"How rude of me too. I am Samuel Rodriguez."
We chatted just for a bit before we had to take our coffees and we got back to talking. I learned he goes to the same school I will be attending. At least I'll know someone, my crush. I did tell him I moved here recently although never specified why and he never questioned me on the reasons. Samuel slightly mentioned about his parents as I did with my guardians, never specify who they really are to me. I don't feel comfortable to detail more of my life for now. His family was rich. He looked so confident, while I felt so much out fo his league already. Slightly afraid what his status is in school, especially since he mentioned he plays in the school's football team. He is very likely to be popular. Did I really just fell for a popular kid? Funny. He definitely doesn't like me back. I am too plain. I am sure he has many girls walking behind him and trying to get his attention.
Thought he does seem like a very nice person. I am glad he is nice to me. Doesn't question much about my past and I tell him as much as I feel like I can, he might as well be very curious for more but never pressures for it to be squeezed out of me. We talked for longer. About random things that crossed our minds. We finished our drinks and we still presumed our meet up for longer. I did text my aunt that I would be longer out of the house, I just mentioned I was getting a coffee which wasn't entirely a lie though.
Our good time was wrapping up and he did offer to take me back to his place so I could walk back to my house on my own. I of course had agreed. The drive was too fats for my liking. We exchanged our social media profiles and on one app we were able to text and even call if we wanted to. I was off to my guardians's house. The walk seemed longer and I guess it just how you feel when you have to go after meeting and chatting with someone you know or like, like a friend or something. He is the first one I actually had interacted more and we had exchanged socials as well so it has to mean something. We could be just friends, like him more than that but I won't say anything about it until maybe school. I need to find out about him in school, is he going to be acting differently with me at school and outside of the walls of it? I hope not. I hope I will get somewhat welcomed there.
Though all my thinking I reached the house and stepped inside. Showed my aunt my purchases and never once mentioned Samuel. I will tell them about him someday. I walked up to my room, place the books on the shelf and laid down on the bed and took out my phone out of my pocket and looked at his social media, one of his profiles. His photos looked amazing, he looked very good in them and most of all in his beach photos, he in swimwear. He got abs! Quite defined ones at that. I looked into his photos like a stalker, no he gave me his accounts names, so I am not stalking him, just simply looking through his rich adventures, good photos and his very handsome face and body. Gosh I feel like a thirteen year old girl who has her first true celebrity crush.
I had to get my phone out of my eyes and I took a shower to take my mind of off him. Uncle had arrived sometime later and we all had dinner, it was takeout food but from a good restaurant as they told me and the food was delivered to our doorstep and it tasted great. No complaints here. I again said nothing about him. Once I got to my room I noticed a notification had popped up on my phone, it was a text in one of the medias.
Samuel: Hey. I hope you had a good day today. I would like to meet up someday again. Obviously in school as well.
Camila: Hi. I would love to. So we are like friends?
Samuel: Yeah. I would like o be your friend very much.
Camila: I'm glad.
Samuel: Next week I will be out of town and the next next week will be the last one before school, so we could meet one day. What do you say?
Camila: Sounds good to me.
Samuel: Great. Maybe in a Wednesday if you have nothing going on that day?
Camila: I think I am free that day.
Samuel: Let's settle on Wednesday if something text. We might text even before our meet.
Camila: Of course.
Samuel: Good night, Camila. Sweet dreams.
Camila: Good night and sweet dreams to you too.
I laid in my bed and looked at the ceiling, trying to process the conversation. Two weeks and school will start. How fast does the time run? It left like almost yesterday the summer time had begun. I was smiling and I had not much of any ideas as to why or maybe I do. Only one word. Samuel. I promised myself not to get too hurt with my first love and I am afraid it can happen with him. But what if everything works out? Not likely as my life seems to be good one second and another it is all crashing down and the next it is seemingly fine. My life is a mess and to add another thing that could either be good or bad without knowing anything is scary. I might have to have a flake with aunt about this because I am confused and I have no idea what to do.
I should sleep. Or not. This can't be another sleepless night, I can't afford it. Maybe another talk with them about this, I don't want to but if this continues I have to. They might have noticed already. I am not good for them, I am a disappointment and what if in school I will do bad and they will kick me out and what will then my guardians think of me? They will hate.
Tears dropped to my face and I felt like a panic was rising in me, my heart was beating way too fast. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I somehow made it to the bathroom and drank some water to hopefully help me. I walked to my room and opened my window fully. I tired to breathe and calm down as I was instructed by the therapist I had back home after the incident. The room felt like it was spinning around me, I felt dizzy and weak. No. Am I dying? The can't be true? Can't it? Dropped to the ground.
Uncle rushed into the room and immediately sat me up and I felt my consciousness come back, my aunts worried eyes were the first thing my eyes were able to detect. I started to cry into my uncle's shoulder. I felt so bad that they had to witness this. Eventually I calmed down and they left me in the room to sleep. This time I slept the night fully without any interruption.