I Am Catalina Abestreu.
The princess of the most powerful family. The Abestreu Clan dearest princess.
I was naive ...
Carefree..
And a spoiled brat.
Before.
I feel like the world revolves around me. So I owned it. Easy isn't it?
So what goes wrong?
Why did the world that I thought I owned wanted to destroy me so much?
Why?!
*
The more steps that I take. Feels like my whole strength was draining.
Hindi ko rin Naman masisisi Ang katawan ko. It exhausted its limit. I was kidnapped. Almost die and even found the truth to what happened twelve years ago.
The past that I couldn't escape no matter what I do.
Since destiny is already set for the both of us.
How funny because I don't believe in those destinies.
I never believe that he and I won't be happy. After All the pain. Don't we even deserve a happy ending?
Didn't he even deserve to be happy?
Didn't he already suffer enough?
When will the world take pity and let us be happy?
" Gavin." I called his name despite my throat hurting. I feel like my knees will fall out soon but I must ... ( shooked head) ... See him.
I promised him.
Whether in the past or now. My heart will belong to him.
No matter how much the world is against it.
I will fight it..
After all,
He…
My hubby….
Gavin Dremor...
was my abductor...
was my enemy...
He is the person who I hated all my life ...
He is my own choice of darkness.
My pain.
And the person that I wanted to destroy so much. Before.
Starting as a child to the age we are now. He was the person that I never wanted to be.
And now..
He became my world.
My light ...
My happiness ...
My Lover.
The time when he saved me in the past gave me hope and the opportunity to change everything.
Despite me being the person who caused his pain.
He saved me in my most painful time.
He stand beside me. No matter how much it hurts.
He believes me. No matter if it's a lie.
He will love me. No matter if I just bring pain in exchange.
I killed him so many times yet he saved me multiple times.
I am his greatest downfall. The cause behind his pain. I am the person that he should hate. The person who he should destroy but he —---
" Why saved me? When am I the cause of your pain?"
" Maybe because I love you."
He loves me in his heart who has nothing but pain.
But what I gave in exchange was nothing but pain.
Right?
I am always that cruel… To him.
And I'm also so selfish.
Once he did something wrong. I blamed him as if it was the greatest sin.
I blamed.
Hated him.
Left him.
Hurt him again and again.
When I found out that the person who killed me was him. That after he saved me and gave me hope. He was the one who shot the bullet directly in my heart.
Killing me as his deep blue eyes were looking at me so lifelessly was the greatest nightmare up until now.
I promised that I believe him but I didn't.
" I never want to see you ever again. "
" Catalina..."
" Stay away from me. You monster!"
I should believe him.
" I want to leave the Dremor Clan."
I should have never doubt him.
" Is there something wrong?"
" There's nothing. I just wake up from a dream that Gavin your not that light that save me but the darkness that consume me."
" Can we just forget? If it's hurting you. Can we just forget the past and go back to before?"
" I hate you. Can we really go back to that life before?"
Perhaps I really hurt him.
But I want to change. I am changing isn't it?
I gave my world. My everything to him.
Isn't that enough?
" Miss, Are you okay?" Isang katulong Ang lumapit sa kanya at tinulungan syang tumayo Ng matumba sya.
She tried her best to smile. " I'm okay." She answered at kahit na nahihirapan ay pilit na tumayo.
" Miss. I guess-----" I cut her sentence off and looked back. " Please... I need to see him." I smiled while my voice was begging.
" Miss, Take care." I can't help but to smile with that small gesture from one of Gavin's people. Afterall in the past they all hated me.
After I travel back in time.
I choose to change everything.
Seek revenge to the people that hurt me.
Marcos.
Annika..
Monica.
These three people who made my life a living hell.
I also meet people who help me.
The two faced Queen : Aleana.
My brother Cain.
My ate Alaeyah.
The Naive Princess:Alisha
The best knight: Zen.
The Devil Devon.
Al( The King of the killer) Tamer: Anna.
Ice Queen: Ara
With all the people that help me.
I'm no longer the old Catalina since I'm no longer alone.
But among all of them there was one person that I promised to protect with all my life.
Gavin…
It was hard gaining his trust.
It was hard escaping death.
It was hard making everyone believe that I can change.
But I don't want to give up. I don't want to repeat the same mistake I have in the past but even in pursuit of revenge.
I realized that there was one person who stayed beside me. Protect me and love me without asking something in return.
He became the person that I wanted to protect.
My source of happiness.
My world.
But it was hard. So hard.
The people around him hated me.
Who wouldn't?
When I just keep on destroying him in the past.
Afterall I am the pain that was hurting him. The person that killed him a thousand times since we were children.
But I believe that soon I will get their recognition and their trust.
The Dremor Clan is the responsibility he is shouldering and the only one who truly protects him in the midst of the pain he suffered.
In pain and happiness. We stayed together.
No matter how much it hurts.
So how come now the world ask us to stop?
Who are they to tell us?! What we should do.
Is it because from the beginning. We can't be together because I am the daughter of the family who killed his mother that I am the Abestreu dearest princess and he is the Dremor Clan master?
I don't believe...
That destiny...
I will never believe it.
" Miss. " I looked at the one that stopped me. Only to see Nez and Leo guarding Gavin's study room.
" I need to see him. * My voice was full of determination as I say those words. Nagkatinginan silang dalawa Saka sabay na umiling. " Miss, The Master have an important meeting. I'm afraid I can't allow you to go in." Magalang na sagot ni Nez.
" Will you stop me?" I asked and took a step forward.
SI Leo Naman Ang humarang. " Miss, your body is weak. Why don't you just go back to your room?" Sambit ni Leo na nakatingin sa kanya.
I looked at them lifelessly and shove them away. They both look at me in shock.
Who wouldn't? How could a woman like me shove them away so easily?
But I don't have time for this.
" I'm sorry. I just really wanted to see him." Paumanhin nya sa mga ito at binuksan Ang pintuan.
She hated the world.
She felt that the word betrayed her.
She only sees darkness in this world.
But
Everything changes.
The moment that I love him.
The moment I realize that perhaps its not the world I hate. It was me because I couldn't see the light in it.
With him. I not only see it but treasure it.
But because of that.
I feel.
scared.
afraid.
anxious.
That no matter how much I fight.
It will be impossible for the both of us to be together.
*
As soon as I enter the room. His deep blue eyes, which seemed to hold nothing in this world directly, looked at me as my hand was grasping the necklace in my neck.
I believe that the necklace is one of the reasons why I travel back in time.
It might be stupid for me to say but I believe it has power.
The image it showed me was all about Gavin. His suffering behind the cold appearance he showed with others.
At first I was glad since I can share the burden in his heart but I also realize that all of that suffering was because he loved me.
It was painful but I'm thankful.
It's selfish right?
For him to endure all of its suffering just because he loves me.
For him to endure just because he is the Dremor Clan Master.
For him to endure because he can't hurt me.
But that thankfulness began to scare me.
The moment I see myself dying in Gavin's hand. I feel terrified that it will lead only us into a tragedy
I thought it was over when the necklace didn't show me any more scenes.
But why suddenly? Now?
Why suddenly when we were suffering from the truth? It will work again showing me.
How I killed the person that I love the most in my own hands?
Why?
Why?
Why?!!!!!!!
" Catalina." Mahinang pagtawag ni Gavin sa pangalan ko but that simple calling from him. Finally let my tears fall na kanina ko pa pinipigilan.
" Hubby." I run towards his direction. I don't care kung sino man Ang nasa kwarto.
I hug him tightly. " What's wrong?" He asked as his right hand was gently patting my head.
My whole body was trembling.
I'm so afraid that the scene from the necklace wasn't a lie.
That sooner the both of us will point each gun at each other like what happened on the island.
But this time. With our identity revealed.
This time. Killing each other with our hands.
" I had nightmares." I said between the sobs. I felt Gavin stop patting my head. Its feels like my sentence made him stop. " I'm scared. Hubby." But my second word made him hug me tightly again.
" Its Okay. Everything will be over soon." He whispered in my ear. Its feels like music that calmed me down.
" Then what you promised me last night. You'll do that right?" I looked at him begging.
Let's leave Gavin far away from this place. Far away from the Dremor and Abestreu Clan.
" I just need to do something first and we'll leave after that." Gavin smiled as if reassuring her that everything will be alright.
" What do you need to do?"
" My brother has something that he ordered me to do. " Gavin looked at some direction kaya sinundan nya Ang tingin nito.
Hindi ko maiwasan Ang magulat kung sino Ang taong nasa harapan Namin.
Afterall his dark blue eyes became my nightmare a few days ago.
" Brother?" I feel into confusion because Gavin don't have a brother. " When did you have a brother?" I asked as my eyes is fixated on the man who tell me the truth that i never wanted to know.
" He's my older brother. He's always been in Russia with father so you don't see him." Bumalik Ang tingin ko Kay Gavin dahil sa paliwanag nya.
I know that he won't lie but a brother? Is he adopted but his deep blue eyes aren't that a trademark of the Dremor Clan?
I never met him in my past life and Gavin doesn't have a brother. I'm certain. So who the hell is this man?
" Then why don't you introduce me to him. Hubby."
" In this awkward position?" Gavin asked as his eyes were fixated on me. I tried to smile even with the tears still in my face. " We don't need to adjust. It's the people who were looking." Pasarang na sambit ko.
" Brother. She is my wife. Catalina." Pakilala ni Gavin sa kanya. Isang kakaibang ngiti naman Ang lumitaw sa labi Ng binata nasa harapan nila. " Wife? What a word. Isn't she the daughter of our enemy." His voice was mild but the word he is hinting says otherwise.
" Hyung, enough."
He just smirked as a response to Gavin word.
" Wife. He is my brother. Russin Dremor."
" Russin Alter?" Hindi makapaniwala na bigkas ko sa pangalan nito. I can't believe who this man is.
He's dangerous.
" Is there something wrong?" Puno Ng pag aalala na tanong ni Gavin Ng mapahawak ako sa ulo ko. " I'm fine hubby." Agarang sagot ko para Hindi ito mag alala.
I gaze at the man In Front of us again." Nice to meet you." Sambit nya. He just nodded in response.
I can't believe that I will meet this man In this life.
How can he be Gavin's brother?
This bloodthirsty bastard is a Dremor Clan member?
" By the way hubby. What important thing you must do?" Pag iiba nya Ng usapan. She must not have connections with russin or it will be really impossible for her to be with Gavin.
This man is just too dangerous.
" I have some business in Venezuela."
" What?" I can't help but to raise my voice in shock. " What country?" Tanong nya.
" In Venezuela." Ulit na sagot ni Gavin.
Hindi makapaniwala na tumingin ako Kay Russin. He now have a dangerous smile shown in his face.
" I come with you to Venezuela."
Venezuela is known as the worst country. The place of crime. The World Population Review, which tracks crime in various forms, including corruption, assassinations/contract killings, drug trafficking, kidnapping, and money laundering ranked Venezuela on top. The country's crime index was 83.76.
But that was not the problem.
Because ccording to my past memories.
Gavin in Venezuela will face his death again that will turn him into a Vegetable state.
All of the members of the Dremor Clan that came with him in that country were wiped out. Killed to be exact.
That exactly means one thing.
Danger......