TRIGGER WARNING!!! SUCIDE!!!!
"Stupid town. Stupid dally. Stupid parents."
I mutter to myself harshly, fed up with everything maybe I should skip town no one will miss me.
My whole body aching my ribs feel like a knife is being twisted inside. He was angry angrier than ever ma set him off just before I stepped inside and he targeted me. My whole body black and blue pretty sure my ribs are broken.
I make it to the lot and bend down to one of the trees and dig up the gun dally hid for emergencies. I kick the stump of the tree as hard as I could. I cry out and point the gun to my head. I punch my thigh overwhelmed with everything.
I almost pull the trigger right here but I hear tires screeching. I hurry off to the woods no one will come looking for me this far not even dally.
My stomach sinks remembering dallys gonna be looking for me. Well I hope he would maybe not anymore since he roughed me up the day before yesterday.
He was out of his mind way to high he was screaming at me pushing me around and gave me a nasty bruise on my side that is now replaced with a even more nasty brusie
He even broke it off with me shoot he probably don't even wanna see me anymore wouldn't hold it against him. He was always ashamed of me he would look at chick's when we were out. Wouldn't bat an eye to me when we were out. Nothing.
More anger bubbling up I make it to the abandoned chicken coop and crawl inside and pull my knees up gasping loudly from the pain in my ribs
I sob into my knees everything's turned to shit. No one wants to see me not even ponyboy I yelled at him last night I got overwhelmed from all his nagging about dally and I screamed at him. Two, darry, and Soda took his side and were mad at me. I left the second they started lecturing me.
I load the gun my hands shaking so bad I almost dropped it.
I grip the handle and lift my head up I stare at the gun and choke on my sobs
Imagines of me and dally sharing a milkshake at the empty dingo.
It feels like someone's squeezing my heart the tears bluring my eyesight
I'm gonna miss dally. The gang. Tulsa. Hell even the socs. I ain't ready to die but I'm ready to disappear
I could just kick it and run away but someone will find me but if I do it this way they have no choice but to leave me behind
I point the gun to my face my hearts beating so fast my whole body shakin from the adrenaline
Is this really how im gonna end? I thought I was gonna get out of town with dally just like how he had promised. I should've known dally never keeps his promises. And I should've known a greaser like me wasn't gonna leave this God forsaken town.
I close my eyes and feel the cold gun in my mouth I whimper. Flashbacks of the gang n' I laughing having a good time. I try and block them out but dallys face pops up
The long conversation we had in bed when he held me with care. Soon turn into dally screaming at me and pushing me up against the wall my stomach lurches and I pull the trigger
Nothing gold can stay.