Stand Still, Don’t Move
Nyx POV
I sat here with the guys all around me. Tears still falling from my eyes and terrified about what was going to happen next. A hand grabbed my left one, I looked up and saw Wooyoung holding my hand, and he put something on my finger. When I pulled my hand back, it was the ring they had gotten me, their promise. I felt like I was going to cry even more looking into his warm eyes. I glanced at all of them. Sitting there looking at me with the love in their eyes, their gentle souls.
*We meant what we said to you before, and no matter how hard you try to push us away, were still going to be here* - Wooyoung
*And no more running off. You don’t have to do this alone anymore, were here to help you and protect you no matter what* - San
*We will put a stop to everything happening with your brother. And end it once and for all so you can live in peace again. If it’s with us, or if you decide you want to return home to America* - Hongjoong
*When we said that we love you, we meant that we’d love you forever* - Yeosang
Hearing their words made my heart hurt. Big gentle teddy bears, tears still falling from my eyes and my hands started to tremble
*I don’t want to be anywhere else, I want to be with you guys still. I’m sorry. I’ve also never had a normal healthy relationship and I’m scared right now*
Warm eyes tenderly looking at me, and they all put their jewelry back on me. I had no idea they had saved all of my things I left at the other house. I assumed they would have just gave it to Callie or threw it away. My heart longs to be with them. But there’s also an anger that’s growing inside of me. There’s a killer instinct being born inside me to take out my brother, the groups that hurt me and took advantage. And while I’m at it, I wouldn’t mind taking out the rest of my so called family that did nothing but treat me like a punching bag. The more I thought about it the more angry I got. And my body started vibrating, I was avoiding looking at them, but it feels like a ptsd flashback is coming on
~laying on the ground there’s blood pouring from different parts of my legs, my body is so weak. I’m trying to get up but his footsteps are getting closer and theres nothing I can do, footsteps closer and closer. His fist came flying at my face~
Black out. Engulfed in darkness. Take me away.
Jongho POV
*Oh my god what just happened, she was vibrating one second and the next it was like she was frozen and now she’s passed out. What do we do*
*Most likely PTSD, the time she was gone broke her, broke her mind and spirit, we best make sure we don’t do anything to overwhelm her. Whatever she wants to do, we’ll follow. Whatever she asks for, she gets. I just want her to start healing any way she can now that we have her back* - San
*I never want to lose her, I hope she lets us help her this time, and believes that we do really love her* - Mingi
*Let’s just let her rest now. Maybe we can go get some things for her that will cheer her up, when she’s awake again* - Jongho
*Yeah that’s actually a good idea. Lets all go, Yunho can take care of her while we’re out. We’ll pick up an assortment of take out for dinner and desserts as well too. Let’s go now* - Hongjoong
Nyx POV
| Dreams & Nightmares – walking along the beach, my feet touching the hot sand feels nice, the sound of the waves crashing against the shore. And a hand holding mine. I looked over and saw Yunho walking beside me, smiling down at me from his tall height, his warm puppy eyes, and he pulled my hand up to kiss the back of my hand. And then it changed, one of the disgusting mafia leaders was dragging me along by my hand, but my body is so exhausted that I’m practically being dragged against the sidewalk, I can feel bad scrapes forming on my legs from the concrete, he picked me up grabbing me by my shirt and threw me against the wall my head bursting with pain. My body sliding down against the wall, and he started kicking every part of my body, pulling a knife out and pressing it against my throat and I started screaming |
I jolted up screaming at the top of my lungs and felt hands on my waist and started flailing around trying to get away from whoever this is until I heard his voice
*Babe, angel eyes it’s okay, you’re with me. I’ve got you now, you’re safe* - Yunho
I looked back at him with tears flooding my eyes and pouring down my face and fell against him into his embrace. And I bawled my eyes out, sobbing so hard that my throat hurts and I can barely get enough air into my lungs. His hands caressing different parts of my body, pulling me so I was sitting in his lap and my head buried in the crook of his neck.
I must’ve cried for hours, flashbacks just kept popping into my head and it wouldn’t stop. My body has gone into such distress that I just shook so hard in his arms, and he kissed the top of my head over and over. Gently rocking me in his arms until I eventually calmed down. My throat hurts from crying, my eyes are so puffy and my body is tired. More then anything though right now I wish I didn’t have these stupid casts on. I think I still have to have it on for another week
*I’m right here with you angel eyes, and I love you, I love you so much, you mean everything to me* - Yunho
*Why, I’m so much more damaged and broken then I was before. Why do you guys still want me here. Why do you love me because I don’t understand*
*Baby shh, it’s okay. We still love you no matter what, you’re so unbelievably gorgeous, you’re personality is one of a kind and unique, your voice is like music to our ears, and the way your eyes sparkle we could look into forever. You’re the light in our lives. The light in our darkness. Forever you’re our heart. You have no idea how happy you make all of us, and how we long to be with you. That we’d do anything to see you smile. To hear you laugh. To protect you against everything bad in the world. We’ll never let you go sweetheart*
And after he said that he called for the rest of the guys and I still just stayed slumped over in his arms unsure of what to even think about what he said. A couple minutes later they all walked in, the sound of bags rustling. I looked over and saw several different containers of food, cakes and brownies, bouquets of flowers, teddy bears, and cautiously one by one they all came over to me and kissed me on my forehead and softly caressing my cheek.
*Please just promise me, you’ll never let me go. I know I’ve fucked up. And I’m so damaged now more then ever. But I know deep in my heart that this is where I want to be. With all of you. I promise to really make more of an effort so you’ll be happy to be with me*