Lost Star~Ateez OT8

Riptide

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Rhea POV
I laid back down, the guys laying down around me all curling up around each other, a big cuddle party. Hongjoong on my right and Mingi on my left. Both of them resting a hand on my stomach, I am so content right now. It’s still eating away at me that Wooyoung isn’t in here too. My chest still hurting. My head still tender, I hate how sleepy I am. But I know it’s just my body healing itself. One step at a time.
I felt myself slowly drifting off, hearing someone get up from the bed and the light switch turning off, and he took his spot on the bed again
Pulling me further down, further away, dreams and nightmares

| Dreams and Nightmares - I was looking out the window at this gorgeous sunset feeling butterflies in my stomach, my heart so warm seeing this beautiful sight. Everything changed, I was walking through the zoo looking at all the animals … suddenly I was running towards the entrance I can’t move my feet fast enough, I’m scared he’s going to find me. I tried to pull out my phone from my bag but ended up dropping it on the ground. Quickly scooping it up, I turned around to see if he was behind me. What the hell. Wooyoung is standing there looking at me with that weird look again, tears forming in his eyes and I yelled at him
*YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. I TRUSTED YOU*
Running out the front door. The sky is black with clouds here and there, that stars shining so beautiful.
A hand around my throat squeezing hard, the tip of a knife where my wound is |
I gasped myself away feeling my wound first and then my neck. I wish I would stop having weird fucking nightmares
I looked around me to see them all sleeping peacefully. Hongjoong asleep beside me, I looked over at Mingi seeing his eyes open, softly brushing his thumb against my bottom lip
*It’s okay princess, come here*
I’m not exactly sure what came over me, I fully laid on his body feeling him cover us up, I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly and started sobbing into him, my body trembling so much.
Flashes in my head. Mingi holding me tight against his body, but I’m sitting on a couch in a place I’ve never been before, I pulled him into me tighter and sobbed, closing my eyes
It just made me cry even more. I wish I could remember so these brief flashes stop happening. His hand gently rubbed my back and he kissed the top of my head every now and then
*Mingi I’m so scared right now* gasping my words, my throat beginning to hurt
*Why princess, talk to me, what’s going on babe?*
*I was having a nice dream, I saw the most beautiful sunset. And then it changed and I was at this zoo, and I was running so fast, I was terrified and turned around and saw Wooyoung standing there with a weird look on his face and his eyes watering up. I yelled at him. I said you fucking asshole, I trusted you. And ran out the door to see the night sky, and then a hand was squeezing my throat and I could feel the tip of a blade poking against my scar*
*Aw princess it’s okay now, I’m sorry you had such an awful nightmare. Listen to the sound of my heart beat and just try to breathe okay, I’ve got you*
I listened to what he said, I laid my head on his chest listening to the sound of his heart, beating faster then normal and tried to get my breathing under control
I didn’t know this, but I guess some of the guys had heard me telling Mingi about my nightmare, rage growing bigger inside of them towards Wooyoung. Because he didn’t tell them the full story. And now they know part of what happened from my point of view
*Mingi are you okay? Your heart is beating faster then it should be*
*I’m good princess, it just makes me so happy to be laying with you like this and to be honest I’m a little nervous right now* he chuckled slightly
*Why are you nervous?*
*You make me nervous Rhea, my heart is beating faster because of you. I care about you so much and you’re so drop dead gorgeous. I just want to make you happy and keep you safe*
*Oh, um. That’s really adorable Mingi, I feel so safe being like this in your arms, I don’t want to move. I just want you to keep holding me*
His arms tightened around me and he kissed the top of my head. Sleep. All I do is sleep now. My head still hurting. Listening to his heart, I fell asleep laying on him. Scared I might have another nightmare

San POV
The rage is filling up inside me. Hearing her talk about the nightmare she had. No doubt that part with Wooyoung had actually happened. I’m so pissed off with him. He’s been staying away from her because he still feels guilty and he’s ashamed of himself. She’s going to start asking again why he isn’t hanging out too. And none of us has the heart to tell her about the day she went out with him. If it’s possible. I hope she gets back all of her memories except for that day with Wooyoung. She sobbed so hard while Mingi held her that day at Stray Kids house. Seeing her in so much pain broke me. And there wasn’t anything I could really do to take it away from her
I waited a little longer before I sat up and looked around, Mingi and Rhea in a deep slumber, same with Hongjoong, Yeosang and Seonghwa. But I saw Jongho and Yunhos eyes open. I got up quietly and left the room. Going down the stairs quietly so the stairs wouldn’t creak, but it did anyway. I got to the landing and decided to go into the kitchen to get some water. Footsteps soon followed behind me and Yunho and Jongho were standing there too
*I heard her, I heard her telling her nightmare to Mingi* - Yunho
*I did too. It’s completely ripping my heart in half. She was in so much pain that day, enough to the point where she ran away and were now in this situation, hoping she gets her memories back* - Jongho
*I hope she does get her memories back. Everything except for that day with Wooyoung. I have to really fight back the urge to punch him in the face, I’m still so angry about it. He broke her heart*

Wooyoung POV
I’m sitting in the car yet again. Listening to the same sad songs and crying. The look on her face replays in my head over and over again, her yelling at me is all I can hear sometimes. I’m such a fucking idiot. I fucked it all up. And now we’re not sure when or if she’ll get her memories back. I’ve been keeping my distance with her, it’s better this way. Maybe then I won’t hurt her again, she can be happy with the rest of them. It’s better this way. Better for her. This feeling won’t go away though. I long to be with her, to hold her close to me, to look into those beautiful brown eyes and run my hands through her soft long black hair, to have her in my arms. It’s killing me inside. It’s driving me insane. Why did I have to fuck it all up, what’s wrong with me.
~buzz buzz~
My phone lit up on the passenger seat, I picked it up and saw that I had a message from Rhea
*Hey Wooyoung, I’m sorry if I’ve done something to upset you, or if I did something to you before I lost my memory I deeply apologize. I hope you’re doing okay, hope you can forgive me. I’d love to see you okay ❤️*
I started crying even harder, she’s so gentle and kind. She’s apologizing to me when she’s done nothing wrong.
Damn it all, I need to pull myself together. I double checked my eyes aren’t puffy in the rear view mirror. Getting out of the car and locking the doors. I walked back up to the front door and went inside, taking my shoes off and putting them in the closet beside the door.
I can’t wait anymore. I need to see her