"Good morning, how was your night? You didn't answer my calls last night." Napa pikit ako sa kahihiyan nang maka salubong ko sa lobby si Boss Eros at yon ang bungad n'ya sa akin. I sighed heavily and tried so much to act normally even when my heart is beating so fast. "Ah, pasensya na po kayo Boss. Naka tulugan ko po ang gawain ang dami kase," saad ko at tinaponan ito ng isang segundong tingin bago sinarado ang bibig at binibilisan ang lakad.
"Hmm, really? It must be because of me. You sleep late at night?" Hindi ko na talaga alam anong gagawin o sasabihin ko sa isang to. "Boss, now that you're back. You have to signed lots of papers on your desk and attend your pending meetings with the board and some individual personals." Saad ko, sinusubukang ibahin ang usapan.
"Are you avoiding me Miss Ruiz?" Ah! Sa tingin n'ya ba ay matitinag ako sa pa cold voice cold voice n'yang yan? Hah! Neknek nya! "No Sir, I am just telling you what you should do as I am your secretary. And I guess we have to lessen our closeness? I mean please treat me as your employee, I just noticed that you're doing the–"
"Oh, okay I get it. You don't have to explain." He scoffed and chuckled sarcastically before walking past by me. Bumuntong hininga ako at tumingin sa paligid. My heart tighten for I don't know the reason is, ngayon ang mga mata ay nakatanaw sa papalayo na n'yang bulto. Ano ba kaseng dapat kong gawin? Tama naman na ang desisyon ko ah? Dahil boss ko s'ya at empleyado nya lang ako!
Pero bakit gan'on? Iba naman ang sinisigaw ng puso ko? Why is it hurting? Argh! Sabing hindi ako madadala sa mga galaw n'yang yan eh!
Labag man sa kalooban ay lumakad na ako patungo floor nya. Mabibigat ang hakbang at halatang pilit ang ngiting isinusukli ko sa mga taong nakaka salubong. Pagka dating na pagka dating ko ay dinig ko ang malakas na boses ni Sir Eros at mukhang pinapagalitan ang kausap. "Blood what? Huh– she has her son–fuck this life! I'm ain't going." Yon lang ang narinig kong huling sinabi n'ya bago naman sumunod ang kalabog.
The rest of the day, we spend it with his board meeting and many more transactions. Nasa gilid lang ako as usual at nag s-set ng time. Pina nindigan nga n'ya talaga ang sinabi ko, ni hindi ako nito kinibo. He would only ask me to write down something or add something on his schedule pagkatapos ay parang hangin na lang ako sa tabi n'ya.
On the lunch time, I didn't saw him get out of his office. Kumain na lang din ako sa isang karenderya malapit at di na ako nag luto.
Kumain akong mag isa at wala daw si ate Ice, ang ilan namang katrabaho ay hindi na mag l-lunch sa tambak ng trabaho. Natapos akong kumain na parang diko manlang nalasahan ang mga kinain. My mind is somewhere I don't know, muntik ko pa ngang malag lag ang tray na may lamang mga pagkain sa sobrang stress.
Bumalik ako sa cubicle ko ng tahimik at ginawa ang usual na trabaho. Alas kuwatro na ng hapon at hindi pa rin s'ya lumalabas. Kadalasan ay umuuwi s'ya ng ganitong oras lalo't wala na rin naman s'ya ga anong gagawin ngayon. Bakit ba kase sya ganito? Pati sarili ko eh hindi ko na ma intindihan!
I suddenly look at his glassdoor when I heard the chains bell. I saw him in between the door. Looking irritated, bothered and confuse? And then slowly his face turn soft, his eyes gently roam around. Then he let out a harsh breath. "I–"
"Sir–" we cut each others words. I look down my nails and sighed not knowing what to say. "You can talk first." Umangat ang tingin ko dito at umiling. "A-ah eh, hindi na... Wala naman akong alam na sasabihin talaga..." Saad ko sa malumanay na boses. Naglakad ito palapit. His left hand on his pocket while the other one is on his chin. He lick his lips wet. "It was so rude act of mine, I shouldn't have do that... I'm sorry." Umiling ako.
"Ayos lang po, tama naman po ang ginawa n'yo." Tugon ko kasabay ng pag tayo ko upang pantayan s'ya, ngunit hindi pa rin kami nag level sa tangkad nitong taglay. "I'm confused. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga to? The last time, you told me that you like me–"
"Lasing ako non sir –"
"Eros for you please babe, and yes. You were drunk but you can clearly remember now?" Halo Halo na ngayon ang nararamdaman ko, I feel pressured. Nervous and scared. Hindi ko alam kung saan saan pa hahantong ang mga bagay bagay na ito.
"Sir–"
"Eros. Eros is what you're going to call me from now on. Weather you like it or not, we'll start fixing things out. You have no choice but allow me to your life. This is the very first time I felt this strange feeling." He got nearer and nearer. He craned his neck on the other side and slowly lean on me. He held both of my elbows and I wasn't sure what to do, if I'll close my eyes or stay still. I was too stunned to speak, There are sparks in his eyes.
"I feel your absence in everything I do alone, in every place I go without you. Is this love?" Malumanay ang berdeng mata nito nang sabihin ang mga katagang yon. He pulled me closer to him and his hands are on my waist now. His touches gives me goosebumps. He lean closer until I felt his lips on mine.
At first I was just standing there and feeling him, until I felt my self repeating what is he doing. His tongue exploring every sides of my mouth, he bit my tongue arguing me to do the same. Ni hindi ko namalayang nasa balikat na n'ya ang mga kamay ko. All I care about is his lips. He let go of my lips for sec to breathe, ngunit agad naman din nitong binawi ang mga labi. Ang isang kamay nito ay nasa bewang ko upang alalayan ako at ang isa naman ay nasa pisnge ko.
We're both gasping for air as we deepen our kiss. His hand on my waist travel down my butt, I put my hand on his nape, to his hair and almost pulling him. I almost let out a weird sound when he press his body more on me and I felt his bulge on my belly.
Nang pakawalan naman nito ang labi ko ay kusa ko itong hinabol. So, I was the one to cut the steamy kiss.
He chuckled playfully. Nanghihina naman ang katawan ko sa di ko alam na dahilan. I slowly open my eyes and saw the bright smile on his lips as we both gasping for air. Magka dikit ang noo at patuloy sa pag hahabol ng hininga.
"I never felt this good kissing someone. Your lips are soft and..."
"Undeniably delicious."