I helped you out of a broken place
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I returned home after my encounter with Vince feeling low and disheveled. I entered the house peeling my soaking coat from my body and removing my damp shoes.
" Oh hey you're back " Nikki says standing in the hallway with Decker on his hip.
" Yeah...sorry I got delayed at Sharises " Nikki still doesn't know what happened between us and I wanna keep it that way.
" Hey no worries, I actually have been dying to tell you the good news...we picked a guy for the band ! " He exclaims in excitement.
The image of Vince flashes through my mind.
" Oh yeah...that's great honey " I fake smile walking into the kitchen.
" Are you not gonna ask who ? " He says following behind me.
I turn to him and raise my eyebrows.
" John...you know the guy with the big curly hair" I don't remember.
" Oh yeah he was good...I liked him " I lie not remembering.
" Yeah we are so stoked we have so many new ideas man it's gonna be great " He smiles walking away again.
I huff, why? I'm not entirely sure.
Lately I find it hard to get excited or just genuinely feel happy. I thought that it was just postpartum depression but now...i think i may be depressed.
Which makes me frustrated, i've nothing to be depressed about....I'm healthy, have a loving husband and two gorgeous kids, a roof over my head and food in the fridge.
I don't understand.
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I wake up to the sounds of Decker crying, I jolt up in the bed looking around but he's not in his cradle and Nikki isn't in the bed.
I jog downstairs without even looking at the clock. Nikki stands in the kitchen eating and apple holding Decker in his arms as the television blasts through the kitchen.
" What time is it " I ask rubbing my eyes.
" seven thirty and time for me to go to work " he says kissing Decker on the forehead and handing him to me as I still stand half asleep.
" Work...but you never mentio- " My eyes following him as he grabs his coat and bass.
" Yes I did you just clearly weren't listening to me...you know you've been off in your own little world lately " He says standing in front of me before pecking my lips and running out the door.
I stand there confused.
" Oh by the way you need to collect Gunner from school today... bye love you " He quickly says before jumping in his car and dashing out the drive.
I huff closing the door. I walk back through the house placing Decker in his play matt and switching the tv to some cartoons.
I make my way to the sink and stare out the window.
An uncertain feeling washes over me like a wave dragging me further into the ocean.
I look around at the messy kitchen, dirty dishes, half eaten food scattered all over the counter tops.
I feel dizzy.
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" Come on you it's time to see your big brother " I say grabbing Decker from his chair and walking towards the school.
I enter walking down the hallway towards his classroom. I stop noticing him standing there in his red raincoat with a look on his face as his teacher talks to him.
I furrow my eyebrows.
I quickly knock on the door letting myself in.
" Oh Mrs.Sixx... " Is all she says.
" Hello " I say as Gunner runs up to me and grabs onto my leg.
" Is there something wrong " I ask sensing an uneasy feeling.
" Well I was just hoping it would be Mr. Sixx here as there is something I need to speak to him about" She says rubbing her palms together.
" Well he's not here, can't you just tell me "
" Well...this is an issue that needs to be brought up with a parent " she says.
That stung, it was like I was punched in the gut.
" I am his parent...one of his parents " I say sternly.
" And if there is an issue about my child I would like to know about it " I puff my chest out.
She looks around clearly uncomfortable.
" Well it seems that Gunner hasn't been very kind to some of the other students " she says.
I feel Gunners grip on my leg tighten and I move Decker to sit on my hip.
" Are you sure...that doesn't sound like him at all... " I say confused.
He's a sweet kid.
" A few parents have reported it to me and I have to bring this issue to surface, bullying isn't tolerated here " She says earning more confidence.
" I'm sure there is some sort of misunderstanding" I say.
" Even if there was it's still something that needs to be fixed, I suggest you and Mr.Sixx...and the rest of your family... have a conversation about this "
I narrow my eyes at her...that bitch. I swallow my pride and try not to live up to the crude Sixx name and embarrass Gunner any further.
" Come on Gunner " I say grabbing his little hand.
We make our way back to the car in silence, I strap the kids in and sit behind the wheel for a moment.
" I'm sorry Sophia " I hear Gunners little timid voice.
I turn back to look at the young boy, his eyes green and sparkling with sadness.
" Don't be sorry baby " I say smiling at him.
I start the car making my way home. I decide not to say anything to him yet without speaking the Nikki first.
After all that's his dad.
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Okay so I lied about finishing this story!!
Also I had my Mötley Crüe show last week and got to interact with Nikki, I didn't want him so see me freak out so I waited until his back was turned. lol I love him sm
Guess that gave me the inspiration to keep going with the story. Thank you to everyone who has read and left comments I really appreciate all of you x