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A Father or A Abuser
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Spain stayed silent as they all go through his items even journals while Thailand and Indonesia assured him that they wont tell anything about it but Spain doesn't believe them and swore to himself one day he'll kill them even if there his friends
Thailand comes out of his small little room library filled with books and spoke out " Nothing here.. " Spain grit his teeth looking up at him " Ofcourse there isn't because im not hiding anything! " Thailand sighs as Indonesia comes back from up stairs
Thailand then goes to the kitchen and looks around while Indonesia just searches the entire living room while Spain massaged his temple clearly frustrated he was caught off guard when suddenly Indonesia picked up the sofa he was sitting on
Indonesia looked at the spot of the sofa and spoke " Nothing here either.. " Spain was even more offended and flabbergasted the fact he thinks he will be that stupid to hide it under a sofa and the fact Indonesia was this strong
" What.. how?! " Indonesia just continued on searching till many minutes passed by and Indonesia still hasn't found anything as Spain huffed " See?! nothing is here! " Spain growls as Indonesia sighs and sat down
The room fell into a comfortable silence before then Indonesia spoke up " Why? " Spain stayed silent and looks up at Indonesia who sat down tiredly, the once comfortable silence were tense
" Why what? " Indonesia forrowed his brows the room becoming so uncomfortable to be in, Spain waited so Indonesia to speak again raising a brow staring down at him while Indonesia then sighed
" What you did.. what was it for? what did you even gain now? nothing.. so why? " Spain then stood up and looked down at Indonesia " Better question, why are you still my friend if you don't believe me? "
Indonesia frowned his lips quivering as he stood up " Spain.. me and Thailand just want you to be better- " Spain snapped at Indonesia as he yelled " Better?! BETTER?! YOU THINK THIS IS FOR MAKING ME BETTER?!! IM THE INNOCENT HERE! "
Indonesia was caught off guard by his response as he thinned his lips and breathed sharply " But that's not.. what the system sa- " Spain's mind finally exploded at the last words " IM NOT A KILLER AND A BEAST YOU ALL ARE!! "
Indonesia raise his hands making a defensive gesture as after awhile he then hot closer to Spain and tried to touch him to calm him down but Spain with tears in his eyes slapped his hands away from him
" Just.. leave me alone. " Spain spoke softly and weakly as he then walk away it was all too familiar as Indonesia felt air being sucked out of his body he couldn't speak he couldn't move he couldn't do anything but watch
He watch his very own friend slowly walk away just like years ago when Philippines walked away from him not wanting to deal with him and Malaysia nor wanting to rekindle the broken friendship
It was then he heard a loud slam and the door being locked as he stood in the living room silent, Indonesia couldn't say anything nor do anything but swollow the growing lump in this dry throat
He then frowned as he slowly sat back down while Thailand came out from the kitchen holding a box as he then glance at Indonesia who looked devastated, Thailand wasn't dense he knew what happened
He looked around the room completely familiar with everything and of the last scene that Indonesia also remembered as he did too aswell, Thailand's eyes soften as he then walked towards Indonesia
He puts down the box as he then sat down on the couch with Indonesia who looked down " I found something.. I think we need to check it before actually doing anything " Thailand says patting Indonesia's back
" Do you think what Philippines said was true? " Thailand hummed raising a brow " What do you mean? what true? " Indonesia sighed looking down on the floor completely convinced of Philippine's words
" That day.. when he left the day when we tried to talk to him and waved at him he walked past us and instead hung out with the guy and the rest.. " Thailand paused as he remembered the day Philippines had enough
" Am I truly worthless? " Thailand stood silent as he looked at Indonesia blankly " No.. but I do think you guys were assholes at the time. " Indonesia frowned with a sad smile while Thailand spoke
" Im not kidding.. your my friend but I can't justify what you guys did, he protected Malaysia from the bullies but when the bullies started targeting him you guys would run away leave him to deal with himself yes.. you guy are bunch of assholes " Indonesia stayed silent at the statement he knew it was true and there was nothing to say otherwise
" Philippines wanted you and Malaysia to finally rekindle but upon having to deal with you two arguing and dragging him down with you guys.. what did you expect when he finally cut the line? " Indonesia thought for a moment as he thinned his lips
" I just.. want things back.. I want Philippines back I hate this new him.. " Thailand just then takes the small box he was just holding before as he hummed " The person he is now is the one you guys created, you guys are the one who created than monstrous he is now "
Indonesia sighed knowing Thailand's words were true " Do you think there is still a chance? " Thailand paused and leaned on the couch closing his eyes as he thought for a moment while the room went silent
" No, not when hes full of determination not when hes like this now.. not now when it has been decades. " Thailand says sharply and truthfully while Indonesia then looks down completely ashamed
" If.. we then instead believed him when he showed the scars? would he be still the same? " Thailand scoffs at Indonesia's statement as he looked at him " We? brother whose we?? you meant you, Malaysia, Vietnam and the others? "
Indonesia cracked a small smile at Thailand's words as he then got up " Come on.. lets go back we need to play the record inside that box " Indonesia says reaching his hand for Thailand to grab as he got up which Thailand took with a smile
*FLASHBACK: Ayaw kong mamatay mag-isa*
(Style went for: Drealization)
(Context: if it makes no sense that's the point)
It was cold so cold as the wind of the midnight time blew in the house as it caused a boy's angelic outfit like and hair to sway against the wind just like the grasses outside and the leaves of the trees
It was always the same as his fingertips slid against the wooden table and build of the house as his eyes remained dull and his lips quivered upon the memories replaying all over again in his mind
He didn't know what to think upon looking up on the hanged sword of his older brother Martial, Philippines looked up on it with great anticipation ae he wondered has life truly came to his? was this truly the last?
He felt so tired as his one silky soft smooth skin were covered in burns, scars, bruises and wounds that are very much undoubtedly will heal ugly, as even his face had few scars he felt so ugly like there was no choice left for him
Days repeated of torture always happened, his father never done a thing but shouldn't a father love its children? but it was like his father sided with his older brother Martial and Del Pilar just protects him because he needs to
His own body felt sickening to just look at and he can't even face the fact this is his body the body that belonged to him the body that was deflowered, hurt and destroyed like some kind of toy by his own older brother
His white suit like outfit seemed so angelic yet sad on him it was like his own coffin outfit soon, Philippines never hesitated on something so sinful and unforgivable before as his hand slowly gripped on the sword taking it
As his hand held it and his other slid on the sword feeling its sharp metal edges, Philippines felt tears falling down his cheeks as the sword slowly traveled upper to his body till it was against his neck
Philippines took one last sharp breath before loosing himself ae slowly the sword slid to the right before then slicing his own neck as blood spilled and spurted on the walls and floor as the life from his body drained
His beautiful white cloths were now tainted red in blood as his body collapsed, the blow continue to spill as the tears from his eyes fell one last time before closing it again embracing the darkness never to awaken again as he thought
Katipunan the father of Martial the father of Del Pilar the used to be father of Philippines stood at his house entry doorframe the door being opened wide as he is filled with shock seeing his son bleeding to death
He can't believe the sight he was seeing of his very own youngest son dying before his eyes as he felt his heart drop while he seem to not get any word out of his mouth as he wondered what has he done
He ran to his son's body as he kneeled down before hugging his son's dead body as he felt himself shake and tears began to drop while his throat became dry, Katipunan then didn't hesitate carrying his son before running out to find help and save his son who was bleeding in his arms
Everyone's attention went on him as all were in horror seeing him carrying his son who was at the brink of death as he dashed to the place to get help for his son hoping not to be too late
The door slammed open as the woman inside turned her head before her eyes widening upon seeing the boy whom shes been treating for the years of her life was now bleeding in his neck that seemed endless
Katipunan laid down his son on the bed as all the workers didnt waste time and began treating the boy while Katipunan stood by with widened eyes of fear and hope that maybe his son will live maybe he still had a chance
His clothes tainted in red from the blood of his own son began make his stomach feel curling as his lips quivered knowing he is apart of this fault
He felt sickened He felt like throwing up as he took a step back, he wish to hold his son one last time of this were truly his last day but upon the workers trying to save Philippines that surrounded him stopped Katipunan from doing so
As he watched his son at his might be soon death bed being operated, Perla's words began to repeat and echo in his head after years of the memory being forgotten in his mind
" Kung ang araw man na dumating kung kailan ako ay mamatay na maaga, mahalin mo ang anak natin kung hindi ako ay titigilan kita na i-mahal "
Now here he is watching his own son being operated whose throat was slit open just like when they found perla's burned body with a slit opened throat as he felt like reliving the memory
His hand clutch on his throat as another worker then began to push him out saying he has to get out now, his hand reached out for Philippines to maybe wake up and perhaps this was all just a dream
But who he was kidding? this is reality, everything is real, everything is fine and he couldn't accept seeing his son at such a state caused not only by his own older brother and his father who did do anything when he should've stepped in
He watch as his vision began to seemingly deceive him as he no longer saw Philippines for a second moment but his wife Perla who was burned and throat slit open
Perhaps this was karma? has his years of blindness of what is done to his son has finally came running back to him to punch him in the guts? was it really so late?
Pa--?..
How could he even do this to his own son, watching him get deflowered by his own older brother right infront of hiw very own eyes and just watched his son cry out for his mercy to help him
P---!..
How could he ever even turn a blind eye on his own son? he felt his heart ache as he realize all his mistakes, how could he even turn his back to his very own dear son who begged and cried for his help
Pap-!
He pushed them all off as he tried to run to hug his son but upon being knocked down by many workers he had not stand a chance, he can't let him die! not alone! not so... uncared and unloved at all
PAPA!
" Sunshine's Bloodline DNA inheritance was.. interesting "
" Papa? " a little boy peeked out as he watched his father write kn his journal before pausing and putting down the pen as his father look at him " Ano anak?.. " Katipunan says smiling at his youngest son
" Papa! laro natin ang Taguan Papel ulit?! " the boy brightly spoke up as Katipunan smiled at his son softly " Ah? nag karoon ka ba nanaman panaginip ng iyong sarili? " Katipunan says kneeling down at his son
" Oh really how so? "
" Opo papa! gusto mo malaman pa? " the boy says brightly as Katipunan kneeled down to listen as even if he couldn't understand nor piece it together he always listens to it no matter what
" Cry out Cry! spin around the ball like an endless clock! " the boy brightly spoke as Katipunan took a paper and wrote it down listening to his son who continued to speak
" I mean the fact his great grandpa could get pregnant but needs some steps is quite surprising, the fact that also his bloodline generation also has a curse makes me more surprised "
" With this perticular one I gain nothing but without it I loose everything?.. " the boy says trying to Remmeber from the dream as his father Katipunan hummed and listened writing it down for his son as he smiled at his son sweetly by how cute it was
" I am in agony as with that thing I may gain nothing but it pushes me further! " the boy brightly says as he remembered the part very well as Katipunan hummed with a smile that faded abit after hearing the word 'Agony'
" Tell me about it "
" I don't like the rain but with him around I stand in the rain soaked as I watch the human flower wither away and he were " Katipunan smiled as he kept writing, it reminded him of his father who'd to the same when he had visions
" Yun lang po papa! " the child says looking up at it's father who ruffled his hair " Wonderful Philip! " Philippines looked up at his father brightly as he may have only understood abit English he still knew many common words
" His generation bloodline never had a person that never killed someone atleast once "
" How do you know Spain? "
" I saw him that night, the night he went mad, the night he lost himself, the night which he refuse to believe was done by him, the night when he killed them all "
Author Note: 9 23,1,14,14,1 13,1,11,5 19,16,9,3,25 19,3,5,14,3 2,21,20 13,25 6,1,13,9,12,25 11,14,15,23,19 1,2,15,21,20 13,25 2,15,15,11
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