Picking up my half done project file I walk towards Mr. Pitt's office to show him my work.
I pause in midway hearing him speaking to someone.
"Nice work, callum" I hear Mr. Pitt's voice. "It's all done by rose, sir" I hear Ivan's voice and my eyebrows hit my hairline because his work was done by him. Why did he take my name?
"Ah!! That girl has a lot of potential, I love her intelligence" Mr pitt tells ivan and a smile creeps up on my lips.
"No doubt, sir" Ivan replies.
"You kids make a good couple! " He tells ivan cheerfully with a voice that is clearly audible for people outside the room.
"Yes sir, we make a good team" Ivan replies and i wait for him to say "yes sir, there were many awkward moments between us because of this project" But he stops not continuing the sentence.
"You like her? I can convince her. You know? To like you back"
What the fuck?
"No one can ever love rose, sir" Ivan chuckles and my jaw hangs open.
No one will ever love you, filthy piece of shit!
You think you can pull boys? No!
No boy or no man will ever love you!
You will be left alone while all of your friends will have their partners!
The voices around me fade and my breathing quickens as the words said by my father booms in my ears.
I walk away from Mr. Pitt's office and enter the first room i see and realize it's the library and thank myself because it would've been very embarrassing if it were any class full of students.
Taking the last seat in the room i lay my head down and close my eyes as tears continue to fall.
The ugly memories from my past haunt me everytime I hear anyone talk about me like that.
My phone vibrates in my bag and i wipe my tears off getting up.
I unlock it to find texts from ivan.
Sour patch: where are you?
Sour patch: pitt gave some suggestions for the project.
Me: library
I put the phone away and work on my draft as I see ivan walk towards me in my peripheral vision.
"Hey" I hear him say and watch as he takes a seat beside me.
"Hi"
"So i went to mr. Pitt to talk about-
He stops in midway and i look at him to find him frowning.
" Hey-what happened? Are you crying?"
Ivan places his hand over mine and all i feel is warmth.
I remove my hand away from him and he leans away a bit, confusion evident on his face.
Anger fills in my body at the amount of fakeness this man is showing.
"Am I a horse with a horn on my head? " I ask him.
Tears burn at the back of my eyes.
"You mean.. A Unicorn? Nope" He replies popping the p and irritation flares inside my chest.
"Am I a descendent of the blobfish?" I question him aggressively and his eyes widen a bit.
" God.. No. Did you just compare yourself to the ugliest animal in the whole world? " He asks me and I laugh dryly at him.
That's what everyone treats me like.
"Then why the fuck do you think I cannot have anyone who can love me" I ask him, my tears threatening to fall.
Every single time when I trying to defend myself, I cry. That makes me look more like the culprit than that of a victim.
Pressing the heels of my palms a little too hardly in my eyes I take deep breaths trying not to look vulnerable in front of the person who already used my weakness against me once.
"God.. Rose! You heard me talking to pitt, didn't you? " Ivan asks me, his voice concerned.
Looking away from him I shake my head trying to clear out the red spots filling my vision.
Ivan's hand snakes up on my calves under the table and goosebumps erupt on my body as if on que.
"Rose, look at me. " He pleads and I pick my stuff up ready to leave.
"I didn't mean what you heard. You only heard that part that was supposed to be unheard" Ivan's failed attempts at convincing me only triggers my irritation.
"You always do things that hurt me and then justify them saying you didn't mean it" I tell him getting up and he claps his forhead with his palm sighing.
I start walking away and still hear him calling out to me.
And I'm yanked backwards and my back hits the wall. A yelp leaves my throat and a hand is slammed on my mouth.
"Cannot you just wait for a moment" Ivan asks me pressing me into the wall of the corridor where there's not a single soul that can be found.
"Mmphh" I try speaking but his hand stays firm on my mouth while my hands are pinned by him on above my head.
Ivan slowly removes his hand from my mouth,releases my hands too and waits for me speak.
"Touch me like that again and I'll not think twice to choke you" I shove him away .
"You barely reach my throat" He chuckles at me and I narrow my eyes at him.
"Go to hell" I hiss at him and turn around to walk and he stops me again.
"Rose, listen to me. For one fucking time! " He groans rolling his eyes.
"You want to know what I told him about you? " He asks me raising his eyebrows making him look even more handsome up close.
Yes.
"No. Keep it to yourself, I don't want to know" I tell him crossing my hands over my chest and he laughs again.
"I didn't tell him no one can love you, I told him you're a kind of woman, men obsess over. If you don't believe me go and ask him right now. I'm standing here" Ivan explains as if I never replied to his previous question.
You're a kind of women, men obsess over.
Butterflies dance in my stomach and warmth fills my insides on his comment.
A single tear falls from my eye and Ivan steps closer to me.
Wiping the tear away with his thumb he speaks.
"Stop thinking that I would tell anything like that about you, rose. I would never" His voice so soft, like the underside of a sharp blade.
"You never gave me a chance to believe you" I whisper and he smiles at me.
"I know.. I know. I didn't. But now I'm willing to change that between us" Ivan counters and waits for me to reply.
"I'll be waiting for you to come over" He tells me patting my shoulder twice leaving me there with a mountain of different emotions and feelings.
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