As I walked out I started walking towards the royal garden I didn't feel like going home just yet
I sighed as I sat on a bench processing everything that just happened
It wasn't long till I burst out into tears I was scared I wasn't used to this it was hard being hated although I got it often It was hard because I couldn't be myself in my past life and I couldn't now it's the same thing over and over I just want peace I thought that I could do this but I guess not
Why was I always alone why was I always hated why do I always have to pretend why can't I be happy why did I have to die like that why was I alive why why why
it was quiet out with the sound of the fountain splashing and the water sparkling with the full moon out it was dark the moon and stars shone ever so brightly making it a dark blue sky it was truly beautiful the silence was a comfort in it's own way
These photos don't look exactly what I mean but I mean it looks majestical so just imagine of something fairy tale like
I started hugging my knees covering my face between my knees sobbing I wanted to let it all out it helped but it didn't help enough
Soon I'll leave the whirlindins family and go off with whatever saving lewis has plus my annulment money I asked for 100k and if I were to break off ties with my family I would ask for 80k I believe that would be enough for me to go live in a small town and sell crops and live a peaceful life that's all I want
I looked up to stare at the moon my cheeks stained with evidence of me crying my slightly red puffy teary eyes I sniffled as tears still continued to pour I was just sad
I sat there laying my head on my knees closing my eyes everything made me exhausted not to mention the crying
"Regretting it?"
I heard from my left side
I fluttered my eyes open although I didn't want to
There he sat
Clytius
"No.. not at all" I say drowsy
He had his head leaning on his left arm with a slight smile on his face staring at me
"Hmm.. really?"
I hum in response trying not to close my eyes
"Then why were you violently crying your eyes out?"
"I believe it doesn't concern you" I say sternly staring at his with no expression I was too tired to express anything I was just irritated and wanted to sleep
"Is that so" He stares at me locking eyes
I stare back
He lets out a small laugh
He was attractive but too bad
"if you're here to annoy me then leave it worked i'm annoyed so please leave" I say lifting my head up from my knees
" what if I don't want to what if I want to continue"
"Don't you hate me?"
"mhm"
"really.. fine you're on your own" I stand up my legs a little wobbly from sitting for a while about to walk away before I take another step Clytius grabs my wrist stopping me from moving forward
"argh what now" I tilt my head looking back at the blonde
He still had his head on his left arm which was supported by the bench's arm rest while his right hand was holding my wrist
"You really put a show on back there I thought you wouldn't be able to leave me you were always following me like a stalker and out of no where you want a annulment and now you wanna leave wouldn't I be suspicious what if you hurt flora Hm?.."
Was he being serious like cmon you're really..
I tried snatching my wrist away but he wouldn't budge
"I won't touch your precious flora now let go" I say glancing at my wrist and his hand looking back at him
He got up and stared down at me our faces inches away
I look away to avoid our faces colliding
"And how would I know that"
ARGHH Seriously " I don't care how you would know that guess you'll never know "I glare back at him
"I wouldn't play that game if I were you" He said menacingly
"Believe you're the last person I would like to play a game with"
He scoffed pulling my wrist forward resulting in us being even closer
"It's really strange how all of a sudden you don't like me it's really believable I don't know what you're trying to get at and do but it's not gonna work"
"well then good I don't want your attention anymore I just lost interest so now that we both don't want anything to do with each other let go"
I sighed as I sat on a bench processing everything that just happened
It wasn't long till I burst out into tears I was scared I wasn't used to this it was hard being hated although I got it often It was hard because I couldn't be myself in my past life and I couldn't now it's the same thing over and over I just want peace I thought that I could do this but I guess not
Why was I always alone why was I always hated why do I always have to pretend why can't I be happy why did I have to die like that why was I alive why why why
it was quiet out with the sound of the fountain splashing and the water sparkling with the full moon out it was dark the moon and stars shone ever so brightly making it a dark blue sky it was truly beautiful the silence was a comfort in it's own way
I started hugging my knees covering my face between my knees sobbing I wanted to let it all out it helped but it didn't help enough
Soon I'll leave the whirlindins family and go off with whatever saving lewis has plus my annulment money I asked for 100k and if I were to break off ties with my family I would ask for 80k I believe that would be enough for me to go live in a small town and sell crops and live a peaceful life that's all I want
I looked up to stare at the moon my cheeks stained with evidence of me crying my slightly red puffy teary eyes I sniffled as tears still continued to pour I was just sad
I sat there laying my head on my knees closing my eyes everything made me exhausted not to mention the crying
"Regretting it?"
I heard from my left side
I fluttered my eyes open although I didn't want to
There he sat
Clytius
"No.. not at all" I say drowsy
He had his head leaning on his left arm with a slight smile on his face staring at me
"Hmm.. really?"
I hum in response trying not to close my eyes
"Then why were you violently crying your eyes out?"
"I believe it doesn't concern you" I say sternly staring at his with no expression I was too tired to express anything I was just irritated and wanted to sleep
"Is that so" He stares at me locking eyes
I stare back
He lets out a small laugh
He was attractive but too bad
"if you're here to annoy me then leave it worked i'm annoyed so please leave" I say lifting my head up from my knees
" what if I don't want to what if I want to continue"
"Don't you hate me?"
"mhm"
"really.. fine you're on your own" I stand up my legs a little wobbly from sitting for a while about to walk away before I take another step Clytius grabs my wrist stopping me from moving forward
"argh what now" I tilt my head looking back at the blonde
He still had his head on his left arm which was supported by the bench's arm rest while his right hand was holding my wrist
"You really put a show on back there I thought you wouldn't be able to leave me you were always following me like a stalker and out of no where you want a annulment and now you wanna leave wouldn't I be suspicious what if you hurt flora Hm?.."
Was he being serious like cmon you're really..
I tried snatching my wrist away but he wouldn't budge
"I won't touch your precious flora now let go" I say glancing at my wrist and his hand looking back at him
He got up and stared down at me our faces inches away
I look away to avoid our faces colliding
"And how would I know that"
ARGHH Seriously " I don't care how you would know that guess you'll never know "I glare back at him
"I wouldn't play that game if I were you" He said menacingly
"Believe you're the last person I would like to play a game with"
He scoffed pulling my wrist forward resulting in us being even closer
"It's really strange how all of a sudden you don't like me it's really believable I don't know what you're trying to get at and do but it's not gonna work"
"well then good I don't want your attention anymore I just lost interest so now that we both don't want anything to do with each other let go"
"hah.." he looked down and then looked back up locking eyes once again
he was silent still locking eyes with me his eyes started to soften as the following words came out "why.." he was silent for another second "why.. were you crying"
"I believe that isn't your business me crying doesn't concern you or has anything to do with you" I say looking away
He let out a soft grunt before turning my head strongly with his left hand while the other was holding strongly onto my wrist
"ouch!.." I say "my wrist it hurts let go.." I say looking down
"I'll let you go if you tell me"
Damn he's nosy " FINE If you're THAT interested in my life I'll tell you I WAS crying because I Was tired and that's all"
"Haha.. hah.. you really think I'll believe that you cried because you were tired?" he looked at me annoyed
"It happens" I say annoyed as well
"Well lets say you're tired why were you tired then"
"Lets say I don't want to tell you" I say smiling in the most fake way ever
"Lets say I'll hold you here until you do" He says with the same fake smile
SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY?! CMON
"OK Whatever You know how draining nobles are especially when you're the talk of the subject and not in a good way" I say honestly drained at that point
He didn't look like he believed me but then looked at me and nodded his head slowly finally letting go of my wrist
"I See so you really don't like me anymore?"
I Nod my head and then start to walk away leaving him behind
Looking at my hand that had hand marks in a bright red I sigh in defeat
I asked one of the guards to call my coach men and get the carriage ready when I got back the maids set up a bath for me to bathe and after I went to bed tired as hell even more tired after Cyril kept pressing me why my wrist was so red I told him I almost fell and someone caught me he didn't believe me but after reassuring him for a good 30 minutes I was finally able to go to bed it was a good sleep I was happy that I at least had a few nice people around me and 1 person who cared It was a long night
"..."