Y/n's pov
After I shouted in pain in agony, I saw everything crumble down around me.
[Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac...]
'Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up!'
I started hyperventilating, putting a hand on my chest 'Myself is too... I need to calm me or we-'
"Ara Ara~ Aren't you just such a beautiful mess right now, liebe?"
I tried to get up but for some reason, my legs wouldn't allow me.
Vil chuckled "After all, I think I'll just keep you~ Since you're meine liebe!"
He grabbed me by the collar before connecting our lips.
He pushed me back down as I coughed and tried to catch my breath. "I'll be right back once I reduce those tubers to silence~"
He flew away and I cursed myself "If I'm so strong then why is I so weak?"
Tic-Tac.
"I can't take this anymore." I left the body.
I started breathing more heavily as I started crying. The tears were black. It's not ink, it's dark blood because of our negative emotions.
"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. You and I are the same person but I can't..."
I sighed "While we are the same person and share the same personality, you're the one who went through all the trauma. I just appeared when you got your time powers and even then, I could only just watch not feel."
I sobbed "I... I just need time-"
"Take all the time you need, we control it after all." I grinned "Then we can go back." I turned back into a shadow.
...
I've always been different, I just couldn't fit in... Well, I'm not human to begin with, that's for sure.
Nobody ever really loved me, they just loved what I had to offer. I don't think I've ever felt this feeling called love. I just needed distractions, distractions that come in the form of work.
Maybe that's because I've never loved anybody else that I love and depend of my fans like that. I just feel like I'm so alone without it but I love to perform and I want to win.
I can't let anybody f*ck me over! I can't let anybody hurt me!
They all see profit in me and if I take a break, I will disappear for them and not be important nor relevant anymore; I will be easily replaced...
I'm not really a person for them. I'm just a money bag.
And sometimes, I'm just a problem.
I don't want to be a burden because of my emotions. I don't want to seem infantile because I don't like to lose but I've never lost in my whole life!
I spent all my life to work hard and be on top and now nobody beats me, nobody can defeat me, nobody can even try!
Ha ha ha ha... God? God, you're on my side, right? Why else would you have given me this much power? I was destined to be the best indefinitely, wasn't I?
Right... I'm like a god basically. I can do anything. But I'm a wasted life with a wasted soul and I didn't know what to do with this power you entrusted me with...
That's when you helped me again, huh? In a world full of banal people, you gave me a way to go elsewhere and learn what my true mission was...
Helping everybody.
Of course, it is the duty of the strong to protect the weak. Yes, since I'm the strongest, it is my duty to protect everyone.
In my world, I will be a celebrity that fight for good causes and help people in distress.
Even though you need some help yourself?
And I will travel into other dimensions to help everyone out.
What if you get attached to them?
I'm lucky to be so unlikeable so nobody ever misses me. Hm. Me? What if I'm sad? What if I miss them? What if my heart hurts so much that I want to claw at it? It doesn't matter~ I don't matter. As long as everyone is okay then everything will be alright.
Huh? Them? Yeah, I love them but-
End of the story.
But-
I said End Of The Story!
...
You're in love, idiot. Just suck it up and move on.
Ha ha ha... No. It... It just can't be. I'm-
Pan and poly. How long are you planning to continue and hide it.
...People are bad. They will hurt me and themselves if-
The people in your world that you know. But you connected deeply with the ones here and fell in love. Admit it.
...It will go away.
No it won't. The harder you try to repress it, the harder you're falling.
Hah. Me, of all people, falling in love. Ha ha. Never thought it would happen.
So you admit it?
Yes, I admit. I am in love.
Good. Now-
Doesn't mean I'll accept it though.
B*tch, are you stupid?
B*tch, I am you. Don't insult yourself!
You called yourself a b*tch too.
So what? I am stupid b sometimes.
Don't push me!
You're pushing me.
Okay. Stop arguing with yourself.
We both need to stop.
Then recognize that you are doing the worst choice.
No.
Why do you want to hurt yourself so much?
I shouldn't have to justify what I do.
Remember, you are talking to yourself right now. I know everything about you even your internal conflicts.
You know what? I am conflicted, I am conflicted and we won't get in conformity so let's just stop and save-
our loves.
...the kids.
Whatever I say.
Whatever you say.
...
I made a truce with I.
"I still feel weak..." I tried to get up but was too shaky.
I appeared back in front of me "That's because he kissed you. While you can fuel energy through a kiss, his sent negative emotions and dark energy through your body. That explains the dark blood tears."
I wiped my eyes as I huffed.
I held a hand out for me "Let's save that celebrity that shares the same sorrow as us."
"I see we have an equal understanding."
I took my hand as purple light surrounded us and we were one again.