"He's literally just sitting there, all on his own! You could so go and talk to him right now!"
Felix was desperately trying to convince Seungmin to talk to Sangkwan that Monday afternoon. Because, there they were, in the school library, spying on the poor boy who was just trying to do some honest physics homework.
His dark fringe covered his face as he pondered over his exercise book; eyebrows furrowed in a skeptical manner, obviously trying to work out a difficult equation.
Seungmin couldn't help but blush at how cute he looked.
God, he was whipped.
See, Seungmin was naturally gifted at physics, as a subject. It was the only one of the three sciences that he found the easiest, and he always got top marks whenever his class did practice papers. Therefore, when Felix and Seungmin overheard that Sangkwan was struggling with his physics classwork, a couple of days ago, Felix immediately had a plan.
Sangkwan had only been going to their school for a week though, so Seungmin's silly little crush had only just started to fully blossom. However, Felix and Jisung were already trying to push Seungmin to ask the guy out, because it helped them feel a little less useless about not being able to ask their crushes out.
Plus, the two friends were glad that Seungmin was finding ways to forget about Chan, because they knew it was hard for him at first. And, as his first chance at being in a relationship, Felix and Jisung just wanted their best friend to go for it.
Hence why they were trying to persuade Seungmin into helping Sangkwan with his physics homework.
Well... Felix was. Jisung was just taking this opportunity to spy on Minho, who also happened to be doing a bit of homework at the time.
They all had huge crushes on adorable guys that they just couldn't control, and Seungmin was just grateful that Changbin wasn't in the library too, otherwise he'd be left all on his own...
Felix was watching Sangkwan intensely from behind a bookshelf, with Seungmin standing tentatively at his side, trying to calm his raging nerves.
"He's so obviously stuck on that one question. This is your moment to talk to him, Seung! What are you waiting for?" Felix urged with a nudge of the shoulder.
Seungmin dug his hands into his blazer pockets, face growing hot from embarrassment. "I─I don't know if t-this is such a good idea, Lix..."
"Nonsense!" Felix whisper-shouted, covering part of his mouth with his hand. "It's a great opportunity for you to introduce yourself! Even if it's just for a minute. Go on! Make a good first impression!"
Felix lightly pushed Seungmin out into the open, causing him to stumble and partially lose his balance, which forced him to play it off by pretending to flick through some of the books in the fiction section. He was in plain sight of Sangkwan now. He had to look as normal as possible.
Felix was still closely keeping an eye on everything, and even gave urgent hand gestures to the brunette, which could be translated to say: 'hurry up and make a move already!'
But Seungmin was admittedly terrified. He didn't want to make a fool of himself and never be able to look his crush in the eye again. He just wanted to keep admiring him from a distance. A safe distance. An acceptable, not-creepy distance.
Except, in this momentary period of panic, Seungmin was absentmindedly staring at Sangkwan with a distant, unreadable expression on his face, which, in turn, caused the older to notice him and begin to question why he was being watched.
"Uh... Hello? Can I help you?"
Seungmin's eyes flew wide in realization, suddenly breaking out of his trance as his body lurched into fight or flight mode. He desperately wanted to run, and crawl back to Felix for safety, but when he turned around to plea at the latter, Felix just shook his head and pointed back at the mission subject, mouthing: "This is your chance!"
Seungmin was internally screaming.
He turned back around to face Sangkwan with a guilty look plastered on his face, although he tried hard to cover it, as he timidly shuffled over to the table he was sat at, standing before him with his hands even deeper in his pockets than before.
"Sorry if I was bothering you..." Seungmin started, looking down at the ground in embarrassment.
Sangkwan's eyebrows drew together in confusion. "It's fine, I'm just not used to being stared at, you know?"
Seungmin nodded. "Yeah, sorry... I j-just couldn't help but notice that you were sorta... struggling with your homework? And I was wondering if you needed any help..."
Sangkwan's eyebrows suddenly shot up in surprise, but he pushed his Physics book towards Seungmin, to have a look at, nonetheless. "Uh, sure. Some help would be nice." He smiled, pointing at a spot on the page. "It's that question right there. I just really don't get it."
Seungmin took this moment to look down at the question Sangkwan was working on, noticing that this was very similar to one they had done in class the other day. "Do you mind if I sit down, and we can do it together?" He then pointed at the chair next to Sangkwan, to which, thankfully, the older nodded.
"Of course! It's nice to make some friends in a new school anyway."
That caused Seungmin to blush.
"What year are you in?"
"Uh, Year Ten." Seungmin nodded. "But I was born in September, so I could be in Year Eleven if I wanted to." He joked.
Sangkwan smiled. "Ah, I'm in Year Eleven. But I was born in August, so I almost got put in Year Ten. I'm kinda wishing I was now, because then I could have you as my Physics partner." He joked back.
Seungmin's blush deepened, but he forced himself to focus on helping the older answer his question.
"Yeah, speaking of: what I find helpful is writing out the equation you need. So, if you know it, I'd just stick it at the top of the page. It also helps to underline the different measurements they've given you, so I'd go ahead and do that first." Seungmin smiled, gesturing to the page.
Sangkwan proceeded to do as he was told, and then smiled up at Seungmin when he was finished.
"What next?"
"Substitute your given measurements into the equation you've written. Do you have a calculator on you?" Seungmin asked.
Sangkwan shook his head. "Uh, no..."
"That might be why you're struggling then. Here. Borrow mine." Seungmin giggled, pulling his calculator out of his bag and gently handing it over.
This was quite nice actually. Seungmin was surprised to find that Sangkwan would be this friendly. But he didn't mind. He was glad he had gone for it.
It was after school, which was typically when most kids sat in the library to study. Seungmin should have been doing the same in that moment, but for some reason he felt more productive when he was teaching someone else, rather than studying alone.
Maybe he could make this a regular thing if he asked. Or if Sangkwan really needed it that much.
And, as the pair were sat there, getting along, answering questions and breaking into conversation every now and then, Felix was still watching from behind the bookshelf, smiling at how adorable the sight was.
Little did he know, however, that a certain someone was looming about behind his back, with his eyebrows furrowed deep in frustration, and an unwanted feeling of jealousy bubbling in his chest.
That certain someone found himself tapping on Felix's shoulder, causing the latter to spin around with a confused look on his face: "Chan?"
"Oh. Uh. Hey, Felix. Uh─who is Seungmin talking to?"
Felix folded his arms in defence, leaning to the right slightly to block Chan's view of the brunette.
"Nothing. Nothing you need to know. Listen, Chan. Haven't you hurt him enough already?"
Chan pulled a puzzled expression. "What? It was just a question!"
"Yeah. One that you don't need the info to." Felix huffed. "Now, buzz off, or I'll rip the strings off of your hoodie. You know what you did, and you know you upset him."
Chan stilled for a moment, going silent, but then he brought himself back together as he let out an unimpressed scoff. "Oh yeah? You trying to scare me, Lee? Well─fine. I'll get that info one way or another."
"Oh, really now?" Felix retorted, sarcastically, "Well, I'd like to see you try. Seungmin doesn't need you anymore and none of us like you, so I'd suggest you leave." He stuck his hands on his hip like an unimpressed mother.
Chan scoffed once again and stuck his middle finger up at the boy. Face forming a look of mockery as he turned himself around. But secretly─deep beneath his stubborn and rude surface, as he headed back over to where he had come from─his heart was breaking just a little, from the thought that:
"Seungmin doesn't need me anymore?"
He knew he was in the wrong but...
He just didn't know how to fix it.
# •°彡
Y'ALL
last friday, xdinary heroes new album came out: SO GOOD
IT IS CONSTANTLY ON REPEAT, I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT
─jen