CHAPTER 66
BE HAPPY...
Warning. Slightly matured content.
THIRD POV
IT was a long, long moment of peace and quiet on the living room for them. For the two, though, it was so short.
Di rin mapigilan ng mga naroon ang mamangha sa nasaksihan. Azekelle Walter was dang£rous. They never thought he could cry even just a bit. The menacing and ruthless look softened a bit for his son.
Unti-unti ang paghupa. Walang gustong mangahas na magsalita. It was another long minutes of crying and silence.
Zadkiel was still sobbing so hard that Maxella figured he had a difficulty now breathing.
Lumapit siya pagtapos ng ilang sandali at hinawakan ang likod ng anak. Hinagod iyon ng paulit-ulit.
Kinalabit ni Axell ang kapatid para ibigay ang baso ng tubig. "He should drink water."
Tinanggap niya iyun. "Zadkiel..." Marahan niyang sabi. Kinuha ang atensyon nito. At dahan-dahang inilapit ang baso ng tubig sa anak.
Maxella saw his eyes drift from her to his father. He was watching him very carefully. Pinangalahatian nito ang baso ng tubig bago iyun muling ipinasa kay Axell.
"You're sweating so much. You need to change, son. Come on."
Napatayo si Azekelle.
Maxella saw the panic on her son's gray eyes when she was about to carry him---she felt a pang of pain when she realized that he might be too scared to see his father going away.
"Hush. Your father will accompany us."
Kumbinsi niya. Ang mga mata ay nasa asawa na tumango.
"Lemme carry him."
Ito na mismo ang bumuhat sa anak.
Tumikhim si Axell.
"Kuya."
Axell patted her sister on shoulder. "Talk ya' later." He said, almost whispered.
And when Maxella looked at his eyes, directly. He can't hide the pain in his bloodshot eyes. She know why he's hurting.
Axell maybe think now that Azekelle knew the truth, Azekelle might take them away from him.
She sighed.
Sinulyapan muna niya ang mga nasa gilid na tahimik lamang na nanonood bago sumunod sa mag ama.
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MAXELLA POV
NANATILI akong walang kibo hanggang sa makapasok kami sa silid ng anak.
Nagmamadaling kumuha ako ng extra T-shirt at towel para kay Zadkiel upang makapagbihis na ito dahil pawis na pawis.
When I turned to them again, I saw Azekelle slightly combing Zadkiel hair with his fingers. They both sit on the edge of the bed.
Zadkiel was still staring at his father. It was like very curious of everything about him that he doesn't want to take his eyes away. He wants to take it all in, his father movement, expression, everything.
I frowned. Parang may sariling mundo ang dalawa. I felt invisible but I can't blame them, I know how hurt Zadkiel and Azekelle now that they meet each other.
Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako at seryoso ang mukha na lumapit rito.
Bago ko binihisan ang anak-- na di parin makapaniwala na nasa harap ang ama ay kinuha ni Azekelle ang towel mula sa akin at malambot ang titig na pinunasan si Zadkiel.
Ramdam ko ang pananabik at ang pagkalugod nito. Lalo na noong pumikit ng mariin si Zadkiel dahil ang papa niya ang nagpunas ng pawis sa leeg at likod.
I saw rivulets of tears streaming down his face as his father took care of him.
I can't help myself to smile when I felt how happy he is.
Matapos itong makapagbihis ay hinaplos ko ang buhok niya. "You two, take your time spending together. I'll just talk to your uncle."
I kissed my son's forehead and stand. Iiwan ko muna sila upang makapag usap ng sila lang at makabonding narin.
"Wife."
Sa wakas narinig ko na muling nagsalita ito. Di ko lang muna ito kinausap dahil alam kong pinaproseso pa lang nito ang lahat.
When I looked at him a while ago, he's in so much pain, too. He was breaking down but he's trying so hard to look strong. He had to look strong infront of his dear son despite his weakness and that is him.
"Hmmm?" Tinapunan ko siya ng tingin. "Feeling better?" I smiled. But it suddenly faded when he frowned. "What's the matter?"
"You will not leave this room without kissing me, too." He uttered authoritatively.
"Huh?"
"I deserve a kiss from you."
Nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko. "Infront of our son?"
I saw Zadkiel shake his head. Tumahan na ito at may sumilip na ngiti sa labi.
"It's fine. I don't mind, mama. I'll just close my eyes." His smile turned into grin.
I winched. K1-ngi-na.
"I'm waiting, Maxella."
Pilit nitong magseryoso pero di nakatakas sa akin ang pagkislap sa mga mata nito.
"K." Tipid na sagut ko at yumuko.
Mabilis lamang na dumampi ang aking labi sa kanyang... pisngi.
Kaya napatikhim ito ng lumayo ako. "It that is?"
"What do you expect? French kiss?" I sarcastically said but almost whispered.
His lips parted. Then staring at me, amuse of what I said.
"You owe me 'that', then. Later."
My eyes widened. Ramdam kong nag init ang tenga ko nang makuha ang ibig niyang sabihin.
What the fvck. I- I owe him a--what? French kiss? Iyun ba ang ibig niyang sabihin.
Napatikhim rin ako at kinalma ang sarili. Nang sulyapan ko ang anak na inosente lamang ang tingin nito sa amin ay wala sa sariling napangisi ako.
"Well, that's not gonna happen." I said with so much confidence.
Alam kong tatabi sa akin ang anak ngayung gabi. Ibig sabihin, di lang ako ang maiiwang mag isa. Di magawa ng k1ngina ang ibinabalak niya. P- Pero, fvck, 'yun' ba talaga ang ibig niyang sabihin?
Napanguso tuloy ako ng tinaasan niya ako ng kilay pagkuwa'y humalakhak.
"I see..." He bit his lower lip.
"Shut up!"
Inis na tumalikod ako.
D*mn. Pagdating talaga sa kanya ay naging d1rty minded ako.
"Later, wife!"
May diin pang pahabol nito sa akin. Rinig ko parin ang tawa nito. Di na tenga ko ang namula, buong mukha ko na, t*ngina.
" Papa, what's do you mean 'later'? "
"Nothing, son. Your mama and I will just make a baby, LATER."
WHAT?! The fvck?
Mamaya ka sa akin, Azekelle.
...
THE cold breeze embraced my bare face and swayed my hair on the back. Humawak ako sa railing ng terrace saka tinanaw ang karagatan.
Nagkukulay kahel na ang tubig sa dagat dahil sa paglubog ng araw.
Naramdaman kong tumabi si Axell pero di ko siya nilingon.
"How does it feel? Now that everything going fine?
"Can't explain the mixed emotions I felt. Yeah, I am happy but sad at the same time."
Tumingala ako at tinitigan ang papalubog na araw. It was an orange ball na napapalibutan ng violet clouds. It was really beautiful!
"I can't deny that I am hurting seeing Zadkiel breaking down. Bilang isang ina, masakit na kita mo sa kanyang mga mata ang pangamba kung aalis na naman ba ang ama at iiwan sya.."
"Hindi yan mangyayari." Kalmadong sabi niya. "Tsk. Even that fvcker is an a$$holes, he can't abandoned the two of you. He's not like me, Milliana. And d*mn, I saw how the fvcker looked at you. Indeed. He's obviously fvcking in to you."
"Err.." Nilingon ko siya. Ginalaw ng hangin ang kanyang buhok. "How 'bout you?"
"What about me?" He arched his thick brow.
Napabuga ako ng hangin. "You looked seems fine but I know your soul lost and broke. Your heart is aching deep inside."
Kaya hindi ko magawa ang sumaya, sapagkat alam kong nasasaktan sya.
Natikom nya ang bibig. May dumaang lungkot sa maamo niyang mukha pero saglit lang iyun at nawala. "Looking them from afar was enough for me, Milliana. I can endure the pain, you don't have to worry. It's my fvcking fate anyway, bond to suffer."
I swallowed the lump of my throat. "Don't fvcking say that. We've been suffered but people deserve to be happy. Bakit hindi mo hayaan ang sariling sumaya sa piling nila?"
"It's not easy to be part of their life again. When I abandoned them, I already braced myself for the consequences. My excuses, reasons, wasn't still enough to make them stay."
"You mean, you already give up? No plan to win Felecia's heart?"
Natigilan sya. Pagkuwa'y napabuga ng hangin. "You think there's still a chance? B- But, I know that my son's hate me too. What if.."
"Before we take risk, we can't really avoid the 'what if' that turmoils in our mind." Binalik ko ang paningin sa magandang tanawin. "It's one of the reason why sometimes we afraid to take risk and to ask another chances. Ngunit ano ang mangyayari kong hayaan nating manalo ang ating takot? Regret is the best words. So, even you think there's no hope left, just keep going..."
"Milliana..."
"And you almost forgot my existence. I am here...willing to help you." I said, half-smile.
He blink, then shake his head.
"I highly appreciate your help and support, Milliana. But leave it to me.. It's my battle that I badly want to win. I want to prove myself that my fears can't knock me down. Gusto kong makuha ko ulit sila sa sarili kong pagsisikap kahit mahirap..."
His words made me smile even more.
"D*mn. That's my brother. Wishing you a good luck,bruh."
"Thank you." Ginulo niya ang buhok ko.
"I should be the one who say that, tsk. Thanks for everything. I can't deny that... your the best brother in the whole fvcking world."
"Sh1t. Sounds gay but I suddenly want to cry." Pinisil niya ang pisngi ko. Making me frowned. "You're really grown into a brave and amazing woman. I'm so proud of what you have become. Dati, baby ka pa na naglalaro ng barbie--"
"The fvck, kuya! I don't remember playing a d*mn barbie!" Protesta ko.
He smirked. "Syempre bata kapa kaya di mo maalala."
Masama ang tingin ko sa kanya. "Hah! Ikaw nga naglalaro noon ng toy car at water gun!"
Lumukot ang mukha niya. "I don't even remember playing that bullsh1t toys."
Ako naman ang napangisi. "Syempre bata kapa kaya di mo maalala." Panggagaya ko sa sagut nya sakin kanina.
Napahilot na lang siya sa sentido. "You're really good at ruining the moment."
I rolled my eyes. "I hate dramatics scene."
His lips moved as he tried his hardest to smile. "Come here."
He opened his arms as I moved closed to him. Saka ako niyakap ng mahigpit.
"Be happy. Seeing you happy is enough for me. Just smile, I'll be fine."
"Hmmm... I love you, kuya.."
I'm not a typical showy person and really hate the dramatic scene so I expected that he'll be stiffened of what I said and there. Voila. Natigilan sya.
"Kung sino mang mabait na kaluluwang sumapi sa katawan ng kapatid ko. Huwag ka ng lumayas."
"Tsk!" I snorted. Bumitaw ako mula sa pagkakayakap pero di mapigilan ang matawa. "Gulat ka? Tsk, tsk, minsan lang 'to kaya lubos-lubusin na."
We spent our remaining time by talking and teasing each other. Matagal tagal na rin kaming nag uusap ng matagal dahil sa mga inaasikaso.
Di na mabura ang ngiti ko sa labi hanggang sa nagpaalam na ako sa kanya at bumalik sa silid ng aking anak. Kung saan magulat ako sa madatnan.
My son playing a chess now againsts the two lunat1cs. Mag isa lamang si Zadkiel. Kalaban sina Razzer at Helman na parehong nakasimangot at parang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa.
"D*mn. Ang galing." Rinig kong pumalatak si Razzer.
"And he's only turning five years old. Am I right, little boss?"
Walang reaksyon na nag angat ng tingin si Zadkiel bago tumango.
"Yow, Lady Maxx!"
Bati ni Razzer nang maramdaman ang presensya ko.
"Where's Azekelle?"
Lumapit ako sa anak at ginulo ang buhok nito. "Hello there, baby. Enjoying defeating your godfather's eh?"
"Playing with 'em was enjoyable, mom." Walang lingon paring sagot nito.
"Indeed." Helman added.
When I looked at them again, two of 'em both grinning at me.
"Nasa silid mo si Boss, Hermosa."
"Aguyy!" Sipol ni Razzer sa sinabi ng isa.
Bahagya akong namutla pero di ko pinahalata. "Tsk. Anong ginawa nya doon?"
Sabay silang nagkibit-balikat. Pero may ngisi sa labi.
"Sabi niya lang may gagawin diumano kayo?"
"Huh?"
"Ang kyut ng reaksyon mo, Hermosa!"
Humalakhak ang dalawang m0k0ng.
K1-ngi-na.
-.-
Parang gusto ko tuloy sapakin ang dalawang 'to sa inis. Put£k.
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NAPASINGHAP na lang ako nang pagpasok ko sa silid ay may humablot agad sa akin.
And in a blink of an eye, I was roughly pinned in the nearest wall and those gray eyed looked into the depths of my very soul.
"Azekelle!"
I gasped when he kick the door closed and buried his face on my neck! Smelling my scent.
"Your smell is fvcking addicted."
Napaigtad ako nang maramdaman ang mainit niyang hininga roon.
"Stop..." I tried to push him away but he gripped my wrist even more.
Fvck. Siguradong pulang-pula na ako ngayon. Todo iwas rin ako dahil walang damit pang itaas ang g*go.
"Godd*mm1t. How I miss your smell..especially down there.."
T- T*ngina?
He nuzzled my ear, making me gasped.
My breath hitched and I feel my knees trembled because of the sensation I felt.
Napamura ako ng wala sa oras ng muling dumampi ang labi nya sa leeg ko.
"D- D*mn you..." I groaned when he starting kissing the most sensitive part of my neck.
Yes. D*mn him for making me feel like this. Shi1t. Can't deny the fact that I missed him too.
"Hmmm?" ungot niya. Mariin na tumitig sa akin.
Di parin ako makahinga ng maluwag dahil sa sobrang lapit ng aming mukha. I could feel the warmth if his breath. It's intoxicating, I can't get enough.
"Tell me. Do you miss me,too ?"
Tanong niya, bumaba ang paningin sa labi ko.
Napalunok ako at nagbaba rin ng tingin sa labi niya saka umiling. "H£ll, no." I lied.
Umangat ang gilid ng labi niya, hindi parin inalis ang paningin sa akin. "You sure?" He licked his lower lips. "Tell me the truth, woman." Tinaasan pa niya ako ng kilay.
Muli akong napalunok ngunit hindi nakasagot.
"Don't make me wait, Maxella."
Pinalobo ko ang bibig ko at kunot noong pumikit. Narinig ko ang halakhak niya dahilan para mag mulat ako at makasalubong ulit ang tingin niya.
"I'm going to kiss you." Halos pabulong na anas niya.
Umawang sa gulat ang aking labi at natulos sa paglapit niya. Di na ako nakaprotesta ng sakupin niya ang aking labi. Sa halip ay wala sa sariling napapikit nalang ako ng tuluyang magdaop ang labi naming dalawa na naghahatid ng kakaibang sensasyong namuo sa aking kaloob-looban.
Naramdaman ko ang unti-unting pagluwag ng pagkakahawak niya sa magkabila kong pulupulsuhan hanggang sa siya na ang bumitaw upang sakupin ang mukha ko para itinangala sa paraang komportable sya.
Walang kahirap-hirap niyang inangkin ang mga labi ko at banayad na hinal1kan.
Mas lalong bumilis ang tibok ng aking puso nang mula sa marahan ay naging marahas ang halik namin sa isa't isa na para bang sabik na sabik.
I encircled my arms around his nape and kissed him back.
Walang kahirap hirap niya akong binuhat. Ni di mabigyan ng pagkakataong magulat.
Second later, I found myself sitting on his lap as he kissed me with a harshness that swifly transformed into a hungry caress. His fingers tangled in my loosend hair, fiercing holding me still.
He nuzzled my ear again, hot breath sizzling against the cool flesh at my hairline, and did something indescribable with his tongue. I gritted my teeth,upamg mapigilan ang mapadaing.
But when he kissed me again, first on the lips, and then on my forehead, my eyelids, my nose and my chin. No sooner had I recognized the utterly erot1c nature of the caresses than he surprised me. His tongue swept down the angle of my jaw, from earlobe to chin. It was if he were sampling me before beginning his feast a promise of more to come.
"Fvck. Stop me now." His breathing ragged.
Mariin na ipinikit ko ang mga mata at sa isip ay napamura muli.
Why the h£ll I can't push him away? And instead of stopping myself, I even kissed him back with the d*mn same feroc1ty.
Sa bawat pagkagat niya sa labi ko ay nahihila ko ang buhok niya. Bumaba ang haplos niya na nagbibigay ng kakaibang pakiramdam at nagpapainit sa katawan naming magkalapat.
Every touch of his hand ay para ako sinisilaban. His finger on my waist is tickling but it even sent me millions of volts. I nipped and bit his lip too and that's when I heard his m0an.
"Maxella.."
Pareho kaming naghahabol ng hininga nang ito na mismo ang pumutol sa malalim na halik.
Napakagat na lang ako sa labi at napasubsob sa balikat niya ng bumalik ulit ako sa katinuan.
Nilamon ako ng hiya. And my eyes widened and shivered when I d*mn felt how he's hard he was now. And I- I'm...
Argg! K1-ngi-na. Kailangan ko na talagang linisin ang utak ko at umalis mula sa kanyang kandungan pero nakakapanghina. "A- Azekelle.."
Ramdam kong mas lalong humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa bewang ko. At ang mabilis na tibok sa kanyang puso.
"You have no idea how hard stopping myself to claim you right here..right now.." He said in a husky whisper that made me shiver. "I want you.. but I have to wait 'till the right time comes. I want our 'first night' be memorable..." Makahulugang saad niya.
"Huh?" Nagsalubong ang kilay ko dahil sa pagtataka. Nagtatanong ang mga matang nag angat ng tingin upang salubungin ang matiim niyang titig. "W- What do you mean by that?"
"It a secret, wife." May ngisi sa labing sagot niya na ikinainis ko. I even saw a glint of naughtiness on his gray eyes while staring at me.
Put£k.
"Tsk! May pasecret-secret ka pang nalalaman! Ano nga yon?"
He chuckled making me irritates even more. Hinaplos niya ang pisngi ko at halos panawan ng malay ng patakan niya ulit ng maliit na halik ang labi ko.
"Darling, you know how I loved thrill. So forgive me, milady. I can't tell you."
Sa inis ay nahampas ko tuloy sya. Di maiwasang madiin ang sarili sa kanya.
Nahigit ko ang hininga. He stilled. Mariin na lang siyang napapikit at umigti ang panga.
"S- Stay still... Don't fvcking move.." His eyes burn and held my waist tighter. Ang isa niyang magaspang na kamay ay muling gumapang ng marahan sa likod na ikinalunok ko. "W- Wag mong sagarin ang aking pasensya..."
"Azekelle!"
Napatili na lang ako ng mabilis na nagpalit ang aming posisyon at marahas na ibinagsak ako sa malambot na kama.
He's just chuckled as he rolled me beneath him. He held himself above me, gazing into my fiercing eyes. "Let's stay like this. I miss this..." He murmured and caressed my cheek gently.
Bahagya ko siyang itinulak. "G*go. Ang bigat mo kaya." I hissed, looked away when I saw how his muscles and biceps flexed. He's not even wearing his T-shirt for d*mn sake! Half-nak£d ang k1ngina.
Malamig ang silid dahil sa aircon subalit naiinitan ako at pinagpawisan.
Ngumuso siya upang maitago ang ngiti. Itinukod niya ang magkabilang siko upang hindi ako mabigatan sa kanyang katawang nakadagan sa akin.
"Comfortable?"
Not really. But I nodded.
Bigla na lang sumeryoso ang mukha niya. "I'm sorry..he cried because of me."
Umangat ang isang kamay ko upang hawiin ang hibla nang kanyang buhok na nasa kanyang noo. "You cried too.. See? Told you, he'll surely accept you without hesitation."
Pumungay ang mata niya at sumubsob sa balikat ko. I runned my fingers through his hair and savour the moment.
"D*mn. I'm speechless. I don't know what to say."
"Uh-uh?"
"Hmm..."
Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na hininga.
"Hey. What was that?"
"I wish she was here."
"Shh.. you said, that even our little angel's rest and peace, she still here.. in our heart, remember?"
I smiled and nodded.
"Let's visit their grave..together.." Tukoy ko sa mga yumaong magulang namin at anak.
He hid his smiled through pursing his lips. "Together.."
"And wait... If I'm not mistaken. Next week, is Razzer and Ryrine's wedding day, right? So it's means, Felecia with my nephew--Felexel and Wyx's girlfriend are planning to coming back here just to attend their friends wedding...?"
"Nah.. I don't think so."
"May I know why Felecia decided flew away to the other country?"
"Maybe, to forget that motherfvcker?" Flat na tonong sagot niya.
"Watch your mouth. He's still my brother, after all, Azekelle Walter." I gritted my teeth.
He frowned. "Should I call him m0r0n, then?"
"Tsk." I shook my head.
"Your lips tempting. Can I kiss you again?" He licked his lower lip.
Nag iwas ako ng tingin at bahagya siyang itinulak.
"Umalis ka na nga dyan. G*go. Baka maabutan tayo ng anak mo sa ganitong posisyon."
"I locked the door, wife." I can sense a smile creeping in his lips.
"Eh?"
"H£ll yeah." He assured me as he move closer to reach mine.
But before anything happen, someone's interrupt.
"Darn!"
"Lady Maxx, Lady Boss! I'm with little---holy sh1t!"
"Mom, Dad? What are you two doing?"
Napamura na lang si Azekelle ng maitulak ko sya ng malakas.
Pumula na lang ang pisngi ko ng balingan ng tingin si Razzer na laglag ang panga samantalang nagtataka naman ang rumehistro sa mukha ni Zadkiel.
"P1ste ka.." Nasambit ko na lang.
K1-ng1-na. 'Locked door' pala 'ha.
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