N/A: Okay, so this is a request by @AnnaPark041 and her request is the picture above, It is going to be a sad one until the end. I'm going to try and make it as long as possible so I hope you like it, and please let me know what you think. I'm also always open to suggestions just message me or put it on the request page in the comments.
Also in this story, they live in LA but they are still British
TW: Self-harm, alcohol, mentions of suicide, suicide attempt
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Flashback: 2015
"H-Harry, please I'll stop I-I promise, it's just been so hard since my s-sister d-died," Louis begged, Harry's eyebrows furrowed as his neck veins became more prominent, becoming angrier. "You lied to me, you said you would stop drinking. You told me you haven't drunk in a month, I'm fucking done with this shit, Louis. I gave you multiple chances at the start, and you were doing fine, you went to therapy, I thought you stop drinking! I trusted you!"
"P-Please, H-Harry. Give me another chance, I-I promise I-I'll stop this time. Please I-I need y-your help, I-I love you," Louis cried, dropping to his knees, his body weak from sobbing, and breathing heavily. Harry shook his head, "You don't love me because if you truly did love me, you would've stopped the first time! I gave you chance after chance, I'm done, We're done!"
Harry grabbed his suitcase and started walking toward the door, Louis got up and held onto him. "P-Please don't l-leave," Harry pushed Louis off of him making the smaller fall onto his bum, "No! Goodbye Louis, do not try to contact me, we are done, for good!" he yelled before slamming the door shut behind him. "No!" Louis screamed out as he sobbed louder, he tried getting up to run after him, but he couldn't, his body was too weak from all the crying.
Louis sat against the wall as he sobbed, knees tucked to his chest, his head on his knees as he rocked gently back and forth mumbling incoherent sentences to himself.
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It was the next morning and Louis didn't want to get out of bed, he missed the smell of breakfast cooking in the kitchen as he heard Harry singing quietly to himself. After ten minutes of laying there, he finally got out of bed and went to the kitchen, grabbing all the alcohol bottles and pouring the liquid down the drain. Once all the alcohol was gone he grabbed a bottle and smashed it against the floor, he let out a sob as he grabbed another bottle smashing it.
You deserve a punishment
That thought kept running through his head as he smashed the bottles against the floor. After a few more minutes, he gave in by grabbing a piece of the sharp glass and taking it to his arm before making slice after slice on his arm, he let out a sigh, it hurt but it was a good pain that took away from the pain he felt in his heart.
2016:
"W-What? No, p-please tell me you're lying," the doctor shook his head, "I'm sorry, but I'm not lying, she fought very hard, she was a strong woman, but your mother lost her fight to cancer this morning," Louis fell to his knees, "N-No, why? Why her? they should have taken me," he cried.
The doctor, left the room to give him some privacy, Louis sobbed for what seemed like hours before leaving the hospital and going home.
Once he was home, he ran to his room grabbed a razor, and broke it apart before taking the blade out of it and cutting up his arm. "Why couldn't it have been me? I don't deserve to be here, she does,"
Flashback over:
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2022:
Louis was sitting on his couch, watching TV, and before he changed the channel, Harry's face popped up on the screen. The news channel said that Harry was going to be performing in LA, the older still hasn't talked to Harry, but he still misses him, he still loves him. He didn't know what he was doing, but he was putting his shoes on and grabbed his keys.
Once he got to the stadium, he pulled his hood over his head and walked toward the back of the building. Surprisingly to him, the security let him in after he showed them his ID, once he was in he walked around backstage quickly finding Harry's dressing room.
Louis did his knock that he would always do when he would come and say hi to Harry before the younger went on stage. After a few seconds, the door flung open and he was yanked into the small room. "What the fuck do you think you're doing here? I told you not to contact me in any way ever again!" he screamed, after the smaller did say anything, he yelled again, "Louis, answer me!"
Louis gave him a small sad smile, "I know you did, but I miss you, I've stopped drinking, I swear on my life, Harry. You can even ask Liam, Niall, and Zayn, they've helped me stop drinking, I've been alcohol-free for three and a half years. Harry please, I still love you, I want to try again, p-please I need you. You and my mum were my biggest supporters now I don't have either of you... she's died Harry, she's gone, but you're still here and I want you back in my life, please,"
Harry shook his head with a cold, emotionless face, "No, I said I was done. I'm with Olivia now, and I love her. You had multiple chances years ago, and you couldn't stop, I was done then and I'm still done now. I want you to leave and never talk to me again, I have to go on stage, goodbye Louis," He pushed past Louis and walked out of the dressing room.
Louis left the stadium in tears, he walked back to his car before starting it and driving away as quickly as he could.
He grabbed his phone and dial Harry's number, he knew the younger wouldn't pick up but he wanted to leave one last message. "Harry, I know you don't believe me but I've stopped drinking. I can't go on like this any longer. I'm done with this world, with my life. Goodbye Harry... I love you," he said before speeding up as he sobbed and took a sharp turn, crashing his car into a big tree.
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The concert was now over, and Harry returned to his dressing room, changing his clothes before grabbing his phone and unlocking it. He saw a new voicemail, from Louis' number, Harry's eyebrows furrowed but he decided to listen to the message anyway.
"Harry, I know you don't believe me but I've stopped drinking. I can't go on like this any longer. I'm done with this world, with my life. Goodbye Harry... I love you,"
Harry heard sobbing and the screeching of tires before he heard a loud crash, after that, the line went dead. Olivia came in and saw the complete terror on his face, "Babe, what's wrong?" a tear slipped down his cheek, "I just made a terrible mistake, I need to go," Olivia grabbed his hand. "I'm coming with you," Harry shook his head and dropped her hand, "No, I'm sorry to do this but I need to be honest with you. I never loved you, I only started dating you to get my mind off of Louis. Olivia, I'm sorry but it's over,"
Harry left the dressing room and ran out to his car before he started driving to the nearest hospital, as he continued to drive he found Louis' car that was crashed into a tree. Harry let out a sob, "Please don't let it be too late," he whispered as he started driving faster. Once he made it to the hospital, he killed the engine, got out of the car, and ran into the hospital.
"I'm looking for Louis Tomlinson," he told the nurse out of breath at the front desk, "Who is he to you?" Harry sighed, "My boyfriend," he lied. She nodded, "He's in the OR right now but he should be out soon, would you like me to show you to the OR's waiting room?" Harry nodded.
Once he was in the waiting room, he started silently crying, "Please, please, please be okay, Lou," he murmured with his head in his hands.
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After waiting about thirty minutes, a doctor came through the door, "Mr. Styles?" he asked, Harry quickly stood up and walked over to the doctor. "Is he okay?!" Harry asked with tears in his eyes, the doctor nodded, "Yes, his surgery went great, and now he's waking up. Would you like to see him?" Harry nodded frantically and the doctor turned and waved at the younger to follow.
Once the doctor opened the door and let Harry in, he left to give them some privacy. Harry felt like he couldn't breathe as he looked over Louis' body, his bruised face, a cast on his leg with a metal rod sticking out of the side. Harry sat down in the chair next to the bed before gently brushing his finger over the back of Louis' hand.
Louis ever so slightly turned his head as he slowly fluttered his eyes, looking through his eyelashes. He let out a sob when he realized the person sitting next to him was Harry, the taller stood up and leaned over the bed as he hugged the smaller tight. Louis was trembling as he hugged Harry back, more sobs came out of his mouth while tears streamed down his face.
"H-H-Harry?" it was so soft and quiet, but Harry heard him, "I'm here, I'm right here," Louis cried more as Harry pulled away from the hug to sit down. "No, d-don't l-leave, please," Louis cried out, Harry's heart was breaking more and more every second. He grabbed the smaller's hand in his as he sat back down, lacing their fingers together, "I'm not leaving, Lou. I promise I'm staying right here,"
"H-Harry, I need y-you p-please, I-I still love you, I can't l-live w-without y-you anymore, I don't want to be here anymore if you're n-not w-with me in s-some sort of w-way," Louis cried, Harry, squeezed his hand gently. "Lou, baby, I'm sorry for hurting you, I fucked up big time, I can't believe I hurt you so bad that I made you want to kill yourself," Louis cried more when he heard the word "Baby" come out of Harry's mouth.
"Harry, if-if you don't want to be with me anymore, t-that's f-fine, I know how much you l-love O-Olivia, but I at least wa-want you in my l-life, I need you h-here with m-me," Louis told him as he continued to sob, Harry stood up again, leaning over the bed, "Lou, I never stopped loving you, and I never loved Olivia. I just lied to myself, saying that I loved her when I didn't. I love you, Louis so, so much, and I am so, so, so sorry for everything that I put you through,"
Louis cried as he pulled Harry closer, the younger cupped his cheek as he pressed their foreheads together, "I love you," he whispered before connecting his lips to the older's. Louis couldn't help but sob as Harry kissed him, he's missed this feeling, he missed everything, he missed Harry. Louis pulled him impossibly closer, not wanting to let go of the man he just got back in his life.
Harry pulled away after a minute and kissed his forehead, his cheek, his nose, and his temple. Louis gently put his hand on Harry's cheek, and that's when the younger finally saw the scars on Louis' arms out of the corner of his eyes. He grabbed his hand and turned his arm, "Baby," he whispered breathlessly, "I-I'm sorry, I-I j-just didn't know w-what else to d-do. I n-needed a distraction,"
Harry kissed each scar on the smaller's arm, "Baby, I'm going to help you through this like you did with me," Louis nodded. Harry kissed him softly, "I'm so happy you're okay, I'm so, so sorry, I made you feel like this," Louis pulled him closer, "I'm just happy to have you back in my life, Hazza," Harry sat back down in the chair holding his hand as he softly sang to him.
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"Are you ready to go home?" the doctor asked, Louis nodded, he's been in the hospital for a week now and he was ready to go home. The doctor locked the wheelchair in place, Harry picked him up and sat him in it before pushing him out of the room, and down the hall.
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Harry took Louis to his place since it didn't have stairs, once they were inside Harry carried him to his room and laid the older on the bed. Harry laid down next to him, "Hazza?" Harry looked at him, "Yes, princess?" Louis blushed, he missed Harry calling him princess, "I love you," Harry kissed his temple, "I love you too,"
Louis cuddled closer to the taller, "I miss this, cuddling with you. I wish this could last forever," Harry smiled, "I miss this too, I'm sorry for leaving you how I did, you were going through so much when your sister died. I should have been more patient with you, I should have been more supportive of you. I'm sorry about you're mum, she was an amazing person," Louis sniffled, "I miss them, I wish they were still here with me,"
Harry kissed his head, "I'm sure they're watching over you right now, love," Louis smiled softly, "You think so?" Harry nodded, "I know so," Louis kissed his neck sweetly.
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"Hazzy, it hurts," he pouts, "What hurts, love?" he asked as he brushed his hair out of his face, "My leg," Harry checked his phone, "Your medication is wearing off, I'll go get it from the car, you stay here princess," Louis nodded with a smile.
After a minute, Harry came back with his medication and a glass of water, he handed the cup to Louis as well as his medicine. "Baby, are you hungry?" Louis nodded, "Yeah, can you make our meal? I really miss your cooking," Harry chuckled softly, "Of course, now let me carry you to the couch," Louis nodded with a small giggle.
Harry carefully picked the smaller up in his arms, and Harry kissed his cheek, "I love you, Hazza" Louis smiled, "I love you so, so much more, my beautiful princess," Louis blushed.
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8 months later...
"Are you excited baby? you're getting your cast off!" Louis bit his lip, "I am but what if something goes wrong when they're taking the rod out?" Harry kissed his forehead. "I promise you're going to be okay. I'm going to be right here when you wake up, alright sweetheart," Louis nodded. Harry took his peace ring off his finger and grabbed Louis' hand and slid the ring on his pointer finger, "Keep this on, alright? It'll be like I'm right there with you," Louis nodded with a soft smile. "I love you, boobear," the green-eyed man whispered as he kissed the smaller's forehead, "I love you too, Haribo,"
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It's been a week since Louis got his cast off, and today was his first day of physical therapy. Louis was sitting in a chair in front of a pair of bars that sort of looked like ballet bars. "Are you ready baby?" Louis shrugged, "I don't know, Haz. What if I can't do it?" Harry kneeled beside him, "Don't think like that, love. If you don't get it on the first try, that's okay, I'm going to help you all the way through,"
"You mean it this time, right? You're going to be with me through all of this?" Louis asked him with sadness in his eyes, Harry kissed his forehead, "Yes, baby, I'm never leaving you ever again. I'm staying right here with you, till the day I die, I'll be here with you," Louis' eyes welled with tears, "You promise?" Harry kissed his cheek, "I promise,"
Harry wiped the older's tears, "You can do this baby, I believe in you," Louis smiled and grabbed onto both of the bars before trying to pull himself up. Louis lifted off the seat slightly before falling back down into it, "It's okay, baby, don't give up, keep trying," Louis nodded and tried again.
He fell back onto the chair multiple times, "I-I can't do it, Haz," Louis pouted as a tear slipped down his cheek, "Yes, you can baby. Do you want to try and hold my hands as you stand up?" Louis shook his head. "Come on baby, just try one more time and then we can go home and watch a movie, eat cookies and ice cream, and cuddle,"
"Okay," Harry stood in front of the smaller and held out his hands, "You can do it, baby," Louis smiled softly as he grabbed the younger's hands. Louis pulled up lifting off of the chair, "Come on, baby, you're almost there, keep going," Louis pushed up harder, finally standing as he held Harry's hands.
"You did it, baby! I knew you could do it," Louis cried tears of joy as he held on to Harry tightly, "I couldn't do this without you, Haribo," Harry wrapped his arms around Louis' waist, supporting him so that he didn't fall back down. The taller picked Louis up helping him wrap his legs around his waist, "I'm so proud of you," the younger whispered. "Really? You're proud of me?" Harry nodded, "Yes, baby. So, so proud,"
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They were now at home, Harry sat the smaller on the couch, "I have something for you, wait here, princess," Louis nodded with pink cheeks and a smile. Harry went to his car, grabbed a small box that was under his seat, and walked back into the house after putting the box in his back pocket. "Baby, can you pause the show for a moment?" he asked as he walked back into the living room, Louis paused the TV before putting the remote down and giving his full attention to Harry.
Harry stood in front of him, "Lou, I've loved you since we met on the x-factor, I just knew you were the one for me. I know it was hard for you when your sister died, and I know I should have been more patient with you and helped you through it, and I'm so, so sorry for everything. I want to make up all that time and help you now, with whatever you need, I'm never giving you up again," Harry held his hand in his slightly bigger one as Louis cried with a smile on his face.
"Louis, I know we've only been back together for eight months, but I can't see myself spending my life with anyone else but you..." Harry got down on one knee and grabbed the small box out of his pocket, and opened it. "I've honestly, been thinking about this moment for years, even when we were separated... Louis William Tomlinson, will you marry me?"
Louis' hand was trembling in Harry's as he let out a sob, "Yes, yes I'll marry you," he cried out. Harry connected their lips as he grabbed the ring out of the box, he pulled away for a moment before sliding the ring onto his wedding finger. Harry reconnected their lips, "I love you," he murmured against Louis' lips, "I love you too," Louis mumbled back.
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Author's Note: I hope you liked this one-shot, I'm thinking about maybe making a part two with the wedding and maybe a few other surprises, let me know if you think I should or not. Please comment and vote if you want to -S💙💚
(Word Count: 3300)