Audio recording 7/31/2788
Initializing
Program running
Time: 9:00 AM
Detected Voices: Gibson, Callie. Hancock, John. Valentine, Nick
John: Got your recorder going?
Callie: What? You need to SPEAK UP!
John: I said do YOU have your RECORDER GOING!?!
Callie: Oh! Yes, sorry
John: Good
Nick: why are these things so loud?
Callie: you get used to it
John: wearing that hazmat suit?
Callie: Yes, honey, I am. It has a few rips in it but should be fine
John: and you feel okay?
Callie: sure do. I feel great, John
John: okay
Error: Knight Gibson, arrival time in 10 minutes
Callie: thank you
Time Update: 10:15 AM
Valentine: Uh, Callie? Are these synth bodies?
Callie: Looks like it
John: I suddenly have a terrible feeling about this
Callie: Too late now
John: What is that your motto or something? It's always "too late now."
Callie: Hush, you love me, Initiate, we won't be long, maybe 15 minutes max
Error: Okay, I'll wait here then
Nick: Looks like this was done by a turret
Callie: Good means it was just Virgils defenses. Oh, and just a heads up... The guy is a supermutant
Callie: get your guns out
Nick: What's wrong?
Callie: get your guns out now and stay behind me... Look...
John: Told you bad feeling
Callie: Vergil?... shit
John: Princess, I think we should go. It's too quiet
Callie: if he's hurt, we have to help, just... we'll take it slow
Time Update: 11:00 AM
Error: Hands up, ma'am. Do not move, or we will be forced to shoot you
Nick: God Damn it
Error: the director is most disappointed with you and is almost out of time. We can no longer afford to wait for you, ma'am. You need to come with us.
Callie: Fat fucking chance you chrome dome
John: you guys are fucking with the wrong people
Detected Sound "gunshot."
Callie: JOHN!
Error: he will live. It was not a fatal shot. However, I regret to inform you the next one will be if you do not comply.
Callie: you can't seriously expect me to after you shot him
Error: we can, and we do. The creature will be fine if he just takes a stim and stands outside for a few moments
Callie: that isn't the fucking point
Error: I will not ask you again, ma'am. Comply, or we will use deadly force.
Nick: We can't take on five coursers alone, Callie
Callie: Nick comes with me
Error: Negative. I was instructed to bring you alone
Callie: you want me to come? Then I'm not going alone, and I get to see John safely on the virtibird outside
Error: If that is what it takes, but the director will not be happy. You have four minutes to return.
Time Update: 11:20 AM
John: Callie, come on, just get on the bird
Callie: I can't, if they are doing this...
John: I don't like it... Just keep that pipboy recording. And Nicky? Keep her alive at all costs, understand?
Nick: Always
John: The Brotherhood won't like it, but... I'm going there to let them know what happened. Then I'll let our friends know as well. Do whatever you have to, but get out of there as soon as possible.
Callie: I will; I love you
John: I love you too, princess
Error: Clock is ticking, Ma'am. Are you ready?
Callie: yea, sure, chrome dome, let's go
Time Update...error...error time 11:23 AM
Callie: oh my head
Valentine: my eyes
Error: have fun, ma'am. Just follow the steps they will lead you to the director. We have other work to attend to
Detected sound "static," "zap."
Callie: well... Aren't they rude.
Nick: that big of a fuss, and they just left us here
Callie: fine by me. I have a blank holotape on me. I've picked up a bit of programming from Sturges, and... there let's scan their network and take anything that loads up
Nick: Nicely done...wait, the terminal isn't locked?
Callie: nope, their loss....One full holotape. I hope it's something worthwhile.
Nick: Are you sure you're ready? We could just leave; the relay is right there.
Callie: hell no, I'm not ready, but what choice do we have? And we don't know how to work that thing.
Nick: Fair point...After you
Callie: Jesus, look at this place
Nick: Pretty snazzy
Callie: Not the word I would use, but okay
Audio Input Error
Callie: who the hell is that?
Nick: It's coming from the PA system
Error: but you left us no choice, Ms. Gibson. Your actions above ground are very... Concerning
Error: I'm sure you have many questions, but look out through the glass. This is the institute.
Callie: Oh yeah, I have questions. Questions and a bullet with your name on it
Error: We have spent the last 100 years building this. Doing our best to save mankind.
Callie: do they know what the definition of saving is?
Nick: it doesn't sound like it.
Error: But I'm sure the view topside has poisoned your opinion of us. I've brought you here for a few reasons, mainly to show you... you have the wrong impression of us
Callie: Jesus, four... five... 8... how many floors are there?
Error: It has never been easy, but this is the true INSTITUTE. Our entire existence is based on saving, improving, and preserving humanity. All we do and have done has been for the greater good. Our actions are often misunderstood by those above ground.
Nick: replacing people, stopping the formation of a commonwealth government
Callie: kidnapping, wiping out entire towns and settlements
Error: we remain underground because of this as... well, you know how things are above ground... They are unstable, to say the least, so we remain here
Callie: pussies
Error: I'd like to talk to you face to face about what we could do for everyone, together, but... that can wait. I'm sure you are eager to see... your son.
Nick: end of the line. You got this, Callie
Callie: I-i don't think I do
Audio detected "loud footsteps."
Callie: is that...
Nick: Go on
Callie: um... hello... are y-you Shawn?
Error: hello, yes, I am Shawn; who are you?
Voice Registered "Shawn."
Callie: I'm...crying...why am I crying... Um, I'm... my name is Callie
Shawn: Nice to meet you, Callie. Can I ask why you are in fathers office?
Callie: who's..father?
Shawn: everyone knows father
Callie: I don't...um...Shawn... you look just like him
Shawn: him who
Callie: this might be hard, but um... Shawn. I'm your birth mother
Shawn: huh? No, you're not. FATHER, some crazy stranger is in your lab!
Callie: WHAT? No! I'm... I'm telling the truth I
Shawn: FATHER HELP
Nick: come here, Callie; I got you
Detected Audio "pressurized door."
Error: Shawn s9-23 recall code CIRCUS. I'm sorry, I guess I didn't program how you looked correctly... you're so pretty.
Callie: what... the fuck...he's
Nick: a synth; damn, I'm so sorry
Error: ah, Mr. Valentine, we've never had a synth we've thrown away come back before
Nick: I'm only here because your people tried to take Callie
Error: Yes, as I said, I'm sorry for that, but you left us no choice. Based on your actions topside, the board acted independently and was trying to kill you. I could not allow that
Callie: The board...what...who are you?
Error: Callie... Mother... I am Shawn, your son...or father, the institute's acting director.
Nick: Hey, hey, easy Callie. Here sit down
Error: I know this must be a lot, just try to relax,please
Voice registered "father."
Callie: y-your talking nonsense... if that-that is a synth, clearly m-my son is dead
Father: is it really that hard to believe? You were frozen for over 210 years. You had no concept of time while frozen and you had no trouble believing I was 10. Is another 50 years such a stretch?
Callie: This...this is a joke, a really fucked up joke. I must be high
Father: Ah so our reports of you still using chems, even more so than what you did prewar is true. That is unfortunate, though I am proud of how well you handled it when you learned he...I was still alive
Callie: Handled it well? You call stomping across the glowing sea for 5 days, well? And for what? To find a son I never sure I even wanted? What did that get me? Nothing but constant harassment from you people, and I'm now possibly turning into a fucking ghoul because of it
Father: Oh you are and it's rather sad, but such is the way of the surface world. And I know you at least wanted to try a relationship or you wouldn't have done that.
Callie: And how do YOU know for sure I am? And how do you know about the prewar drug use?
Father: We are the most advanced group in the commonwealth, probably the world at large, through our testing we've developed scans that can detect the change. That reason, Mother, is one of the many, why we are the best hope for humanity, through our work, no one else will have to face your fate again. Don't you understand that? My people are even working on a way to stop the process in its tracks. Everlasting life without the negatives that come with being a ghoul, a better deal than what we have with our synths I must say.
Nick: You make it sound as if it's a fate worse than death. If you survive the process it's not that bad. The end goal does not justify the means to get there. You kidnap and experiment on people when you please as you please, not caring what it does to families.
Father: Do not force me to use your recall code synth. That would not make mother happy, and she's under a lot of stress all ready.
Callie: BECAUSE OF YOU. How can you defend this place? They kidnapped you... Killed your father, left me for dead. The institute rips people's lives apart, blow up settlements that get too strong, experiment on people....Hell harassed me at every turn, because? What? I did what I had to survive in a world that isn't mine or yours?
Father: My father was collateral damage, rather unfortunate but it had to be done. They needed my DNA, DNA that had not been exposed to radiation to make the gen 3 synths. My board, mother, harassed you because you were interfering with our work because you were acting like the rest of the commonwealth monsters.
Callie: Excuse me? A monster? I am not a monster. I have sacrificed so much for the Commonwealth. My time, my sanity, everything.
Father: Mother, not to be rude, but you are just a prewar lawyer and housewife. Your "rebuilding the commonwealth" proves that. You always have been and always will be nothing but a good homemaker and diplomat. If you join us we could combine our skills with yours and finally make some real changes, you could be our face topside.
Callie: You think you fucking know me? That is not who I am, not anymore. And-And be the face of the Institute? To make changes? I already do, my men do. Hell with all I have done I was finally starting to be happy again...And I haven't been truly happy in a long time, thanks to your father.
Father: Oh yes, I did hear you were playing pretend with the last remaining Minuetment, I'm sorry Mother but I do not believe that little group of riff-raff could make any real changes. I do you know Mother, I know all about your's and fathers life prewar, we have collected as many documents as we could find. I am sorry father was abusive, but it worked out did it not? And I would hardly call fighting for every scrap of food happy.
Callie: Of course you did, is hoarding all records from the prewar another means to "preserve humanity?" Look I don't know what your "scans" say or what "info" you have but clearly you guys don't leave here often if you did you'd see 9 out of 10 settlements have running water, a stable food supply and electricity, the streets are...
Father: All a joke compared to what we have here.
Callie: Do not interrupt me...SON... The streets are much safer than they've ever been...And I have 2...3 people who love me for me. So yes, I was almost happy again.
Father: Mother, you really think those people love you? A synth, a creature, and a man who was at first just using you to find his daughter? The synths are tools nothing else, there is a bug that makes them think they feel but we are working on it...
Nick: Free will is not a bug
Father: I was SAYING and the ghoul... All eventually become feral, at the end of their process their humanity is not worth saving at that point.
Callie: For someone so smart with all of...this behind him...All of the human experiments. You really don't know anything do you? Free will, like Nick, said is not a bug, Ghouls, if they don't become feral right off the bat the chance is nearly non-existant in the commonwealth now because it's hard to be isolated thanks to so many settlements and the solution for FEV is sorely lacking
Father: If FEV solution was lacking we wouldn't be able to make supermutants Mother. It's why we are trying to halt the ghoulafication process, thanks to Vergil and his work with FEV turning feral, later on, is still a risk.
Callie: I'm sorry, YOU'RE the reason there are an endless stream of supermutants??
Father: Again rather unfortunate so many need to be tossed out after turning out defective.
Callie: Oh my god... I can't this is a nightmare
Nick: Come on, Callie, let's find a way out of here.
Father: Be quiet and sit down synth the adults are talking
Callie: He. has. a NAME...You're-you're worse than your father, jesus
Father: Mother, please listen to reason. Join me, join your son, we can halt the process so you can stay mostly human. We can do so much more if you'd only help us
Callie: I-I can't do that, the kidnapping, the experimentation, treating synths as slaves, now the fucking supermutants. There is no good reason for any of it and yet...you stand there happily defending it because you're brainwashed beyond repair...
Father: Your answer is firm then? You'd rather suffer becoming a creature like the rest of the people topside, rather keep playing "hero of the commonwealth" than join me...Your only living flesh and blood, because you don't agree with our methods?
Callie: Yes...there is no good reason for what you have done
Father: Then I am sorry. I had hoped the old director's notes he gathered on our family, about you being stubborn and unreasonable were incorrect, it seems they were not. The Institute raising me was the best decision they have ever made for humanity as if they had left me with you... Well... I must ask you to leave then. Once you do I can no longer protect you from my board
Callie: Oh yes, because you've done such a great job of that so far.
Father: I have done my best given what I had at my disposal, given that my mother, it seems, is a lost cause as my board warned me you would be, maybe I've just grown too sentimental in my old age...The relay will be set to return you to the topside, simply step on it. But...My last gift to you mother, be warned once you leave you will be our enemy
Callie: As if I wasn't before...Shawn
Father: Yes mother? Reconsidering?
Callie: No, Thank you for the warning but...my warning to you...If you hurt my people...my friends...my FAMILY...I-I will come back and burn this place down
Father: I have no doubt mother, I would be a fool to not expect it from...A murderous drugged-up monster. Goodbye
Time Update: Error...Error Time Update 1:00 AM 8/1/2788
Nick: Callie? Are you in there?
Nick: let's get you home; I'm sure everyone is worried
Callie: Just...just go, nick. I-i need to think...alone
Nick: Are you going to be okay?
Callie: mhm sure Nick, I will
Recording process terminated
Ending log
Audio Recording 8/2/2788
Initializing
Program running
Time: 9:35 AM
Detected Voices: Gibson, Callie
Callie: Come on, you stupid piece of junk work
Callie: Fucking relay fucking up my pipboy
Callie: wait, is it finally recording? Good
Callie: Nickey boy finally left yesterday not sure where he ran off to, but I don't care
Callie: how am I going to get up there? I want a nice view of the Commonwealth.
Callie: Damn out of rum
Callie: useless Shawn...almost
Callie: Calling me a monster. I've done some horrible things but...finally...I'm not a monster.
Callie: You're the god damn monster...SHAWN, I KNOW YOU AND YOUR SYNTH FUCKS ARE LISTENING
Callie: oph higher up than I remember...that hurt... any more booze in my bag...has to be here somewhere.
Callie: Shawn doesn't know what he's talking about. The world is rebuilding.
Callie: What good has he done? Not a damn thing
Detected Audio "Glass breaking."
Callie: Awww damn it, not the vintage wine
Callie: John, I love you so much...I just need a break
Callie: I love you too, Jake, even if trying would be hard. And I don't care if you're a synth Mags. I know the feelings are real
Callie: I just...need a break...YEOW...uh fuck think I hit bone...just a little...break from everything
Time Update 10:30 AM
Time Update 11:00 AM
Time Update 11:30 AM
Detected Audio "Virtibird" "yelling."
Time Update 11:35 AM
Detected Voice Paladin, Danse. Error, Error. Valentine, Nick
Danse: Knight! Knight! WAKE UP
Error: She still has a pulse; get out of the way so we can get her on the bird
Nick: Thank you, vault tec, for making these trackable. You actually saved someone.
Recording process terminated
Ending log
Journal Title: Deja Vu
Urgh, my side is killing me...and my head its um, the 4th?
Fuckers
Apparently, the Brotherhood can track my pipboy...and when Nick ran off, he didn't just go off somewhere random. He ran until he found a small attachment of brotherhood men.
I am officially on "suicide watch" and am not allowed to leave my room until the good dr clears me...freaking bullshit, that's what it is. I woke up in my room on the prydwen...again...talk about deja vu. This time, the only difference was I was handcuffed to my bed, and the room was 100% empty. Danse and Piper told me everyone tried coming to the ship, but because suicide watch is such a big deal, they were turned away and only told I tried that I was being taken care of. Oh, that's not going to end well. I guess Danse and Piper are under orders to keep their mouths shut till I am cleared...wonderful.
I really fucked up, didn't I? I know I sound pissed off, but I'm not. The doc said I was lucky I was so drunk and that I never took my pipboy off. He said where I hit, I went in at an angle and missed the major arteries, only nicking my large intestine as the tip dug into my hip bone.
Either Dance and Piper read the log, or Valentine told them because they only had one question "why" when I have...everything. And I don't really know why. I just wanted a little break. I was expected to just deal with it when Kent died when old paul and dogmeat were killed. Shit after shit just kept getting piled onto my plate, and then I met Shawn , and he's a damn monster. Then there is the here and now... I have to deal with the realization that one day I might have to kill Shawn...that there is no hope for him.