My life was over , Everyone in the entire town could've known by now . I had gotten too comfortable and It backfired immensely .
After I left school I texted both Kile and Maleek , I wanted to explain ... I didn't know how , I would figure it out, but neither of them had even read any of my messages .
So here I was , back in the only place I felt somewhat peace , my room . I didn't even dare to leave , even going to the kitchen for something to eat, I was too afraid , afraid by some chance my mom knew , my sister knew or even worst my father .
" Josh , mom said you have to help me with my homework! " Jada yelled from behind my doors .
" Is it due tomorrow? " I slightly yelled back and I could feel my anger slowly climbing it's way up .
" No ! But I have a club meeting tomorrow so I won't be able to finish it in time "
" Oh my God " I said burying my head in my hands frustratingly ...
" Not right now Jada " I growled underneath my breath .
" It's important, Josh! " she whined
" Come in " I breathed out .
" Huh?!"
" I SAID COME IN ....Jesus christ "
" Jeez no need to yell " she walked in , holding her textbooks .
" It's kinda alot so we might be here for a while, I'll go get some snacks" she spoke placing them down on the floor in front of me .
I started reading the first question and let out a frustrated growl . I just couldn't do this right now .
" I'll do these for you and give you back by tomorrow ok? I'm just not in the mood right now ...sorry but can you leave? "
I could literally see the hurt in her eyes as she suddenly stopped at the doorway, and I felt even worse, but I knew I would just end up lashing out on her if she stayed any longer .
" Come here " I sighed .
She slowly made her way over to me , a look of disappointment still on her face .
" It's not you ok?, I'm just having some friend problems.....Here" I said shuffling some spare change I had from today, " Go buy Starbucks with your friends tomorrow k? "
She smiled and patted my head " If any of them trouble you , just give me their numbers and I'll have them leave town by next week ok? "
" I'll keep that in mind " I half smiled and she left .
Not long after she left, I heard a ding vibrate from my phone . I've never been more anxious opening a message before , It was from Kile .
The message read Lets meet up , attached with a location .
But it was a bar?
As if reading my mind, he added, don't worry, my dad owns the place .
I quickly gave him a confirmation, saying I would be there in about thirty minutes and I was already sneaking out through the door .
6: 47 p.m
When I arrived it was already, late because I forgot I didn't own a car, and turns out buses were a lot slower when you really needed to be somewhere .
I texted Kile I was outside and It wasn't long before he came out to meet me .
" Hey " I hesitated, to which he just simply noded .
" Let's go inside , I'm cold " he suggested , I was a bit still confused but followed anyways .. After all he was the only one to contact me and I desperately needed to explain .
The place looked so sketchy. It was located at the end of the road, where the only source of light was the faint flashing lights peaking through the club doors . Not to mention it was heavily guarded by security ,they didn't even bat an eye when Kile led me inside .
Entering was like walking unto a set of a Hollywood movie .
It looked straight out of a movie.
Booths, flashing lights , high tables and stools, long bar racks lined with hundreds of different alcohol bottles , people yelling , talking , dancing , all obviously wasted and the obnoxiously loud music playing in the background .
Why would he choose here of all places? .
Following Kile , I hesitantly took the seat next to him and shivered as I made eye contact with a rich looking granny, who was obviously unaware of her age and winked at me .
Ew
Turning to Kile , he was already looking at me , his gaze sharp .
" What do you think? " he suddenly asked .
" I want to go home , but we need to talk " I declared honestly .
He laughed " Oh yeah , you mean about you locking tongues with that little fag earlier? "
I winced at his words " Kile Look- "
" He forced himself on you didn't he?"
" Huh? "
How could I be so heedless? , he was obviously drunk .
" Kile , maybe we should- "
" No don't worry Josh , I won't let some demon from hell lay his paws on my best friend and get away with it " He spat and snapped his fingers at the same time as if signaling someone .
Before I could reply , I was suddenly surrounded by a group of skimply dressed women who all looked in their mid-twenties .
As I nervously tried to get up , one aggressively pushed me back down while the other made residence on my lap .
I felt so uncomfortable , I moved to push her off but two other women were now holding each ends of my hand down, stopping me from doing so .
" Kile what the fuck is this?, tell them to stop " I demanded, struggling to keep my voice from shaking .
" Stop?, The show just started " he laughed calmly .
As if on que , the same woman that pushed me down grabbed my jaw and started kissing me whilst the one on my lap started slowly swaying her hips back and forth .
I was gonna be sick , I felt sick and I could feel the tears stinging at my eyes but I wasn't going to cry .
Immediately feeling trapped, like I was stuck inside some sort of nightmare, I mustered all my strength and started kicking and wiggling my way out of their grasps as much as I could.
But my movements were halted when I heard a camera click and a flash go off .
" Rory's gonna love this one " Kile revealed as he turned his phone to me . It was a picture of the women holding me and it had already been sent to Rory with the caption reading My friend likes pussy not dick ok fag?
" Tell them to let me go , now, Kile " I growled, yanking my head as hard as possible from the woman in front of me
" Oh, sure, my work is done anyways " and with a snap, the two girls released their grip on me .
As soon as I felt free , I pushed the woman that was in my lap as hard as possible, watching as she stumbled to the ground, and started whining about her broken nail .
He was gonna regret this.
I stepped over and landed a punch straight to Kile's face, taking his phone and smashing it on his head in the process .
" What the actual FUCK is wrong with you! " I was fuming but before I could go back in for another punch, I was being held down by multiple security guards .
" Get him out of my sight " Kile fanned us off while tending the blood that was now dripping from his forehead .
" YOU'R GOING TO FUCKING REGRET THIS KILE " I barked as I was being dragged to the exits .
Without saying a word, I was thrown out and was now blocked by six security guards from trying to enter again, but that didn't stop me from trying . Each time I was pushed down, I got up and tried again , I tried until I could no longer feel any pain when I hit the concrete floor .
I wanted to go home ....I want Rory .
Oh shit
Getting up , I started sprinting down the road as I took out my phone and started typing .
Josh : Rory I swear It's not what It looked like , I can explain , pls just let mr explaon, Please Rory can we talk? ( Location share activated )
Read : 7: 34 p.m
He had been online and read it immediately, but there was no response . I called him but got no response , I called him over and over, knowing that even if he answered I would be too out of breath to even answer .
Of course, my battery chose this very moment to die As it powered off ,I lost all motivation to even move . Staggering against the side-walk my feet gave in as I slid down the cold wall .
Here I was on a deserted street in the middle of the night, I don't even know where I am .
I was so tired ....tired of life .....tired of myself .
To make it worst, the images of what happened earlier slowly started resurfacing and I hated it .
I could feel myself trembling , I felt so disgusted with myself I wanted to to just tear off all the skin that was touched .
My vision was now blurry and breathing became difficult . I didn't know what to do so I just cried . I pressed my nail so tight against my skin I was pretty sure If I could feel anything I would realize my skin was tearing . I tilted my head upwards in hope that the tears would atleast stop falling but it wasn't helping and my breathing wasn't getting any easier either.
I could hear Rory calling my name but I'm pretty sure that was just mind.
" Josh?! " I could feel Rory's hand on me .
Finally mustering up the strength to look at him I started bawling even more .
" I-I didn't mean to " I croacked out " I really didn't mean t-to "
He sat down beside me and rested my head on his shoulder " It's alright , you don't have to talk " he whispered stroking my head gently .
" It was Kile he f-forced- " I sniffled trying to explain .
" It's ok Josh , when you calm down we can talk , I'm not going anywhere so just relax first " he calmly reassured me and I listened .
It felt like ages before I stopped crying and finally was back to my usual self ... well partially .
We headed to his car and I realised there was no one in the drivers seat .
" Did you drive here by yourself? " I finally questioned breaking the akward silence .
" Well yeah , I should be legal by now "
He looked down on his phone " Yup I'm officially 18 "
" It's your birthday today? "
" I guess ,It's a bit early considering it just turned midnight but yeah, It's my birthday " he replied.
I smiled " Happy birthday Rory "
" Thanks Josh... " I could see the hesitation in his face before he spoke again " do you still want to talk ? "
" I don't- "
" And before you say you don't want to ruin my birthday by stressing me out , your stressing me out more by not telling me "
" Ok , Ok you win " I half smiled before starting .
" One , I'm sorry about today- I mean yesterday sorry... What happened when Kile caught us .
" I didn't mean to push you I seriously panicked and didn't even process what was going on around me " I paused before continuing again
" And two , about that picture Kile sent I swear I didn't do it willingly "
I could see the hurt in his eyes at the mention of the picture ,but he didn't say anything, and that made me feel worse all over again .
" He invited me to meet, saying we should talk and that it was his dad's bar, but when we reached in, I realized he didn't want to just talk , he was drunk .... and he ... he had some women f-force themselves on me, saying it was good for me or something like that " I confessed, playing with the strings of my pants as a sort of distraction .
I looked up and he was already staring at me , his eyes drowning with concern .
" Josh " he breathed out before stretching over and pulling me into hug .
I melted at the touch of his hands arounds me . I wanted to cry again but resisted it as much as I could this time .
" I knew Kile was bad, but not this bad .....I'm sorry "
" It's not your fault, besides, I guess It's Karma for pushing you over " I let out a dry chuckle, pulling back .
" Don't say tha,t and don't joke about it either , you were literally assaulted "
I went silent at that , I knew it was what happened but I just didn't want to believe it .
" Look at me " he said cupping my face and bringing it close to his and I had to ignore the sudden rapid banging of my heart inside my chest.
" Forget about calling them your friends ok? no friend would ever do that no matter how much they felt betrayed, and If they can't see the same annoyingly cute , funny and smart Josh that I see, then they don't deserve you "
I didn't know what to say , for once I was the one tongue tied .
" I'll always be here even if they aren't , I know you can do some pretty dumb shit sometimes but as long you realize where you went wrong I'll always be here for you ... I promise to cheer you up or whatever "
" Thanks Rory " I spoke burying my head in the crook of his neck not wanting him to see me cry again " I don't want to ever want to leave your side either "