Hi umm. I'm having a moment atm so big TW - SH
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Y/n pov:
I think billies noticed that I've been wearing hoodies a lot and hiding my body but that's only bc I've got cuts and scares everywhere on me, like I've been attacked by a lion. I'm led down in our basement place thing and my earphones are in and I'm listening to 'slow dancing in the dark' by joji, and Billie walks in tapping me on the shoulder. I take out my right airpod and listen to her "u ok baby?" I nod my head and Billie lifts her arm up to hug me but I flinch hard "are u having a moment my love?" I nod my head and my eyes start tearing up Billie moves closer to me holding me in her arms, I try speaking but before there's a lump in my throat and I can't "Ik ur scared baby Ik u are. But I got u ok? No one will hurt u" I hold onto Billie tighter she kisses the top of my head and holds me closer to "I'm so tired" I whisper knowing Billie would hear me "Ik u are mama trust me Ik. But if I made it this far, so can u and I'm still here I'm not gonna leave" I pull away from her and look up at her "can I show u smth?" Billie nods her head, I stand up and pull my joggers down and take my hoodie off and show her all the cuts and scares on my body billies face softens and stares at me "oh babygirl. Why didn't u talk to me?" I shrug my shoulders and start putting my cloths back on before Billie stops me, she stands in front of me and lifts my arm up and starts kissing every single scare she moves to my thighs and starts kissing them. I put my arms over my stomach "I'm sorry" bil gets up off her knees and takes my hands into her's "don't be sorry my love. I'm proud of u for telling me" she says calmly, her voice soft she gives me a kiss. But it wasn't like the other ones we've had, this one was soft and gentle and it just felt like a hug. I pull back and put my joggers and hoodie back on "just hold me" I say staring into her eyes she holds my hand and intertwines our fingers together she leads me to the bed and lays down with me. Me in her arms and her stroking my hair I fell asleep soon after that bc crying mentally drains u
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God how I wanna fucking die. There's literally only one person who's been sweet to me and that's it
Also if ur my ex reading this. Hi whore how are u