I'm gonna start therapy soon so I'm writing this shit
Billie has blue hair in this one. Also Can we also address the fact Q is a actual fucking prick??
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Y/n pov:
So today I start therapy for the first time in like 4 years, it's at 12:30 so I go to the front room where Billie is sat. I walk downstairs and tell Billie "baby can u drive me to my therapy session today pls?" I ask bil "Ofc princess" I smile and get my shoes on "thank u babe". We walk to our garage and I get in the passenger seat of her car and she gets in to and starts driving to the place, bil places her hand on my thigh and turns to me whilst we are at a red light "u ok baby?" She asks worried "I'm scared" I say looking at her "it's ok love, I'll be waiting for u dw. I won't leave u" Billie says reassuring me
I put my hand on top of her's and hold it "Billie. When I get out and I'm moody or don't wanna talk. Pls just give me my AirPods and put me in a dark room bc that's what will make me most happy" I ask staring out the window and she said she understands
*time skip we arrive at the place*
I walk into the building shaking and Billie holds my hand, we sit down and Billie whispers in my ear "ur gonna be ok. I promise, I'm not gonna leave u. And if u do good I'll let u smoke" I turn my head to Billie "rlly?" I ask and she nods. The ppl call my name and I get up and walk with them whilst billies in the waiting room
*1 hour goes by*
"Ok that's all the time we have today y/n it was lovely meeting u" my therapist says and shows me out to the door I see Billie look up and stand up, when I get closer to her I hug her and she hugs me tighter "told u I wouldn't leave baby" bil says in my ear and I hug her tighter. After we are done hugging each other we walk out and get in her car, "how was it my love?" Bil asks me "it was ok. I feel a little bit depressed after it tho" I say pulling my phone out my back pocket bc it's nearly up my ass. "U can still smoke if u want baby" I smile at her and connect my phone to her car and put on my chill playlist and the first song that plays is 'tek it sped up version by cafuné' (it's a good song I recommend) and stare out the window whilst it rains before I know it we are already home.
We get out the car as bil locks it and starts walking to our door and unlock the door and we are greeted by shark barking at us and running around us "hi baby. You missed us didn't you?" Billie says in her baby voice she has for him, I take my shoes off and walk to the kitchen and grab my stash and Billie comes up behind me and wraps her arms around me kissing my neck "I love u too babygirl" I say whilst rolling a blunt "also thank u for the money for me getting weed I appreciate it tbh" I say smiling knowing how much of a good girlfriend she is "no problem beautiful" once I'm finished I put it back and grab my lighter and sit in the basement room we have but before I reach the door Billie turns me around "can I come?" She asks "yes u can. This is ur house remember I'm just living in it bc I'm dating u babe" I say and reach the doorknob to open the door and walk down I lay down on the sofa bed we have and put some music on not loud tho bc I wanna hear bil speak. I light it up and just start smoking it until Billie takes it from me and starts smoking it too. After she gives me back I lay down and she lays her head in between my legs. After I finish smoking the rest and is so fucked up "babe can I be honest" I ask Billie whilst I'm staring at the ceiling "Ofc baby" she says moving her back to look at me "Yk I only get high to numb my feelings. I mean it don't do anything much cause I still feel my feelings but they are just so much stronger" I admit and Billie sits up, I look down bc I don't feel a pressure on my stomach where her head was "and Ik I'm gonna die young so don't wait for me k?" I say and sit forward "don't talk like that baby pls. It hurts me hearing u say that" bil says crawling closer to me, I look down and say sorry but she lifts my chin up with one finger "don't be sorry baby. I love u and if u did die before me I'll wait for u" she says and pulls me in closer to kiss me, our lips touch and I start pulling her in more by her body, she lays her body on top of mine and I hold her by her hips and we start making out, I run my hand up her back and tangling my fingers in her hair, we both pull away and we stare into each other's eyes "ocean eyes" I say smiling moving a strand of hair away from her face bil smiles at me and blushes "Yk I heard a saying. Some eyes are to blue to be human, they might be angels be careful who u trust. And I've stuck by that saying ur eyes are like the ocean so I believe ur an angel. My angel" I say, Billie kisses me and lays her head on my chest, I start playing with her hair "I'm proud of u" Billie says whilst playing with my shirt "I'm proud of u to baby" I say back and smile
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Gonna cry brb