NAPAUNGOL SI Lorch hindi lang dahil masakit ang likod niya, pati rin ang ulo niya ay masakit dahil sa paglalasing niya
"Fuck..." he cussed, gripping his pillow when one short move was enough for the excruciating pain to assault his back.
Bumilis ang paghinga niya para tiisin ang sakit saka inalala ang mukha ni Saskia at ang pagbubuntis nito. She's his way to divert his mind away from the pain he is in right now. Napanaginipan niya rin ito.
"Sober?"
Natigilan siya ng marinig ang boses ng dalaga. Ilang sandali pa ay nasa tabi niya na ito.
"Ayos ka lang, baby?"
Napalunok siya. Fuck! She's here!
"W-what are you doing here?"
"I'll be looking after you." Bumuntong-hininga ito. "I cooked food for you. Mamaya lang ay pupunta dito si Unx para bigyan ka ng IV bag at painkiller—"
"No! I don't want any of it!" Sinubukan niyang gumalaw para maupo pero pinigilan siya nito.
"You have to. That's an order."
Lumamig ang tingin niya kay Saskia. He loves her, there's no question about that but she can't just force him to take some things that bring enormous fear to him.
"Get out," he coldly told her.
Natigilan ito at tumitig sa kanya. But Lorch saw the hurt in her eyes and it was a painful sight to see. Pero dapat magtanong rin ito kung gusto niya.
"Sure..." anito saka tumayo. "Though keep in mind the moment I get out of your room you are not going to see me again."
Natulala siya at parang may dumagan sa dibdib niya. Mariing naglapat ang ngipin niya.
Pinulot nito ang bag nito saka naglakad papuntang pintuan at kahit na kapalit ng pananatili nito ang posibilidad na pwede siyang maturukan ay tinawag niya parin ito.
"Saskia, stay," he said, calling her by her name because he can't bring himself to call her luv when she's giving him no option at all.
"Okay." Bumalik ito saka malawak na ngumiti. "Gusto mong kumain, baby?"
Umiling siya dahil nakakawalang gana ang ginagawa nito.
Binaling niya ang mukha sa kabila para hindi nito makita ang dilim ng mukha niya. He's hating the fact that Saskia is not asking him if he wants those damn injections or not. And she seems not interested at all if he wants it or not.
"Baby, galit ka ba?" Tanong nito.
Pinikit niya ang mata at napipilitang sumagot.
"Yes," he answered honestly.
"Ako rin galit," anito. "I'm mad at how you keep on hiding things away from me. From your connection to my dad to Youri's status, the bodyguards, and now this. Gusto mo dagdagan ko pa ang sugat mo, baby?"
"You can't do that."
"Sugat na hindi mo makikita baby pero mararamdaman mo."
Gumalaw ang panga niya sa narinig. "Are you threatening me of you leaving me for good?"
"Hmm—"
"That is way more painful than my wounds, Saskia. You are my lifeline now. Losing you is a death sentence." Malamig niyang saad.
"Wala naman akong sinabing iiwan kita. Pero syempre dahil sa dami na ng nakalista mong kasalanan sa akin bibigyan na kita ng matagal na punishment," anito sa kalmadong boses. Well, she has been calm and composed since she popped up. She doesn't look mad or worried.
Binaling niya ang mukha kung saan ito nakaupo at pilit na tinignan ang mukha nito.
"What's with you?" he asked. "My Saskia was sweet and caring, why are you fucking opposite?"
Ngumuso ito saka gumalaw para mahiga sa tabi niya.
"I was sweet and caring when you were sleeping but when you woke up and I saw your eyes it evaporated and I'm annoyed right now," anito.
Lorch huffed, gritting his teeth when he moves his arm to pull her closer to him. Napapikit siya dahil sa sumigid na sakit sa likod niya ng pinilit niyang gumalaw para bahagyang mahiga sa gilid niya.
Breathless from the pain, he whispered, "Please luv don't be a bitch now, I'm in so much pain I can't deal with your fucking tantrums."
Pinitik nito ang tenga niya. "Wala akong tantrums, Lorch. Tch."
Nagmulat siya ng mata ng maramdaman ang labi nitong lumapat sa dibdib niya. His heartbeat quickened and his chest felt the overwhelming warmth as the gesture made him feel the love he will always treasure in his heart.
"I love you, luv," wika niya na nagpataas ng mukha nito.
"Mahal rin kita at binibiro lang kita nung sinabi kong pupunta si Unx para bigyan ka ng gamot." Saskia grinned. "You look really handsome when you're serious and mad."
Napabuntong-hininga na lang siya sa narinig. Ang sabi ng doctor magkakaroon si Saskia ng mood swings at cravings dala ng pagbubuntis nito, dapat sinabi na rin ng doctor na character shift ang mangyayari. Tch.
"You ain't mad?" he asked while playing with her hair.
Saskia hummed. "I was worried but your parents assured me you'll be fine."
"Sorry." He offered a hallow smile.
"I understand, baby. Tita Aleandra told me everything."
Nagsalubong ang kilay niya. "Everything?"
"Yep! Everything I should know from your past and present. And about the organization."
Lorch stared at her with worries. "You know the consequences if you tell anybody about it, yes?"
"Yes. I signed the contract."
Lorch sighed. "So you know what I did?"
"Mm-hmm. It shocked me but I realized some people deserve death. And some anger or pain can only be erased by the death of someone. So yeah..." Hinaplos nito ang labi niya. "But I hope you send his body to his family for proper burial."
"Yeah, I did."
"Good. Anyway, let's forget about that man though I would love for both of us to offer a mass for him, you know, maybe he still has a chance in heaven despite what he did." Pilit itong ngumiti.
"If that's what you want."
"How are you feeling?" Pinaglaruan nito ang buhok niya.
"Better that you're here beside me and that you are not mad."
"Ayaw mo ba talagang magpainject para mabawasan ang sakit? I'll be here with you," anito.
"I'm afraid, luv. I'm not being a baby but needles remind me of my horrible past." Pumikit siya para hindi nito makita ang ano mang masakit na emosyong dadaan sa mata niya. "I'm afraid too that it'll trigger something inside me and I end up rigid, unresponsive, and immobile again."
"But baby, I can not stay here watching you in pain. I can't bring myself to leave you either."
Lorch clenched his jaw. He's stressing her which is not good. She's not yet fully healed from the stab wounds, and she's pregnant yet here she is, stressing herself because of him.
"At hindi ka maglalasing para lang hindi mo maramdaman ang sakit dahil ihahampas ko sayo ang bote ng alak." Dagdag nito na bahagya niyang ikinangiwi.
Lorch took a deep breath. "Fine, I will try but you promise me you will stay here with me the whole time."
"Oo naman."
Napapikit siya ng gumalaw ito para halikan siya.
"Your brothers will be here too. So don't worry, you got a bunch of people to baby you after the injection."
Hindi niya makuhang tumango dahil sa nag-uumpisang kainin ng kaba ang dibdib niya. But he has to suck his fears for Saskia and their baby.
"When will it be?" Mahina niyang tanong.
"Very soon." Hinaplos nito ang noo niya. "May lagnat ka na, Lorch."
Lorch stared into her eyes, seeing the worries she has for him.
"I'll be fine," he assured. "Si Youri at Venice?" Pag-iiba niya ng usapan.
"Ayos lang. Hindi parin nagigising si Youri. Si Venice naman ay kasama ni mom sa hospital. Tumawag siya kanina para kumustahin ka." Saskia smiled softly at him.
Lorch blinked his eyes, his lips parted.
"R-really?" Naninigurong tanong niya.
"Oo. She asked why she haven't seen you in the hospital, so I told her you're gravely ill—"
"Gravely ill?" Lorch frowned and then glared when Saskia giggled.
"Kidding," she said, chuckling. "Pero tumawag nga siya sabi ko may sakit ka kaya hindi ka dumadalaw."
"And?"
"And?" Sakia arched her brow.
"That was it?"
"Mm-hmm."
Lorch sighed, disappointed. "Didn't she wish me well?"
"No, but she asked if you're going to be fine."
Hearing that, he smiled a bit. "That was enough."
"Huwag kang mag-alala mapapalapit din ang loob ni Venice sayo."
Lorch hummed and then looked at the door when someone knocked.
"Can we come in?!" Sigaw ng kaibigan niyang si Unx.
Nanlamig siya at hindi nakuhang sumagot kaya't si Saskia ang nagpapasok dito. At kasama nito ang ilan sa mga kapatid niya.
"Baby, it'll be fine, okay? We'll be here for you," ani Saskia na tumayo para bigyan ng espasyo ang dalawang kapatid niya.
"Lorch, you can be a baby today, we will not gonna bully you," Dusk jested.
"Whatever." Yamot niyang sagot saka inabot ang kamay ng kuya niya at ni Mir para tulungan siyang umupo.
Gritting his teeth from the pain, Lorch forced himself to sit on his bed.
"Fuck..." Mariin niyang mura dahil sa sumigid na sakit sa likod niya.
"You got a fever," kuya commented, checking his forehead.
Humihingal siyang tumango at ininat ang braso para abutin si Saskia. Mabilis nitong hinawakan ang kamay niya at naupo sa tabi niya.
"Ayos ka lang?" Nag-aalala nitong tanong.
"I'll be..." He whispered, hugging her waist and resting his aching head on her shoulder.
"Okay," Unx spoke. "You ready, Lorch?"
Hindi siya sumagot dahil nag-uumpisa ng bumalik ang mga alaala niya noong nasa pasilidad pa siya at kung ano-anong droga ang tinuturok sa kanya. He could feel he is sweating and his hand trembling just the thought of the needle piercing his body again.
"Baby, we're here for you. Remember the good memories and not the ones that doesn't worth it. Our baby too is here with us..." Saskia whispered, hugging his head and kissing his temple.
Lorch hummed, gulping. Sinubsob niya ang mukha sa leeg ni Saskia. Nakayakap naman ang isa niyang braso sa bewang nito. While his other hand is gripping his older brother's hand.
"Andito lang kami Lorch," Rage assured, gently holding his arm.
Hindi niya makuhang sumagot dahil abala siyang isipin ang bukas kasama ang pamilya niya at hindi ang madilim na nakaraan niya. But his body and mind have a hard time focusing on the beautiful thoughts because when he felt Unx hand with those latex gloves he jerked and his mind almost blacked out and wanted to fight to get away like he always does every time that damn doctor tries to inject something.
Natigil lang siya sa paggalaw dahil sa sakit na sumigid sa likod niya at sa boses ng mga kapatid niya at Saskia na pinapakalma siya. But it was Saskia's voice that mostly helps.
"L-luv keep t-talking," he said, his voice trembling as he breathes heavily.
"Andito lang kami, baby. 'Wag ka matakot, okay?" Saskia told him and continued to soothe him as he tries his best not to fight back.
Humigpit ang hawak niya sa kamay ng kuya niya at sa bewang ni Saskia at mariing pumikit ang mata niya ng maramdaman ang malamig na dulo ng karayom.
And he could feel his brain going blank as he tries hard to listen to Saskia's voice. But his fear of needles is just great that when it pierced his skin he passed out.
Though he remembers Saskia's words begging him to be fine for their baby. He also catches the break in her voice, a sign that she's crying silently.
KABADO SI Saskia habang hinihintay na magising si Lorch. Nabawasan narin kahit papaano ang pag-aalala niya ng bumaba ang lagnat nito at napalitan na ni Unx ang gaza sa mga sugat nito.
Hindi na rin ito nanginginig. Sobrang pag-alala ang naramdaman niya nang magising ito at mataas ang lagnat nito. Nanginginig rin ito habang umuungol dahil masakit ang likod nito.
Unx told her that Lorch needs the sedative and IV drip with added healing medicine. Labag man sa kalooban niya na pilitin itong magpa-inject ay ginawa niya para mas mapadali ang paghilom ng sugat nito. Nakakakaba panoorin na nasasaktan ito at mataas ang lagnat.
She stayed when Unx changed Lorch's gauze and his wounds are deeper than she expected. Kaya siguro ganon na lang ang sakit na nararamdaman ng binata.
They could have injected him when he was passed out but his brothers opposed the idea. Ayaw ng mga kapatid nito gumawa ng bagay na alam nilang malaki ang epekto kay Lorch. They didn't want to break Lorch's trust which she understood.
Habang yakap niya ang binata ay ramdam niya kung gaano kalaking bagay para dito ang tusok ng karayom. He was trembling and passed out when Unx finally inserted the needle for an IV drip. Kung ginawa nila iyon habang mataas ang lagnat nito at wala masyadong malay siguradong hindi matutuwa ang binata pagnagising ito. His trust in everyone will certainly shatter.
Napalingon si Saskia sa may pintuan ng makarinig ng katok. Dahil iniwan niya iyong bukas ay agad niyang nakita si Grant na siyang nagpaiwan sa magkakapatid para makausap si Lorch oras na magising na ito.
"Tulog parin?" Tanong nito.
Tumango siya. Mahigit limang oras na rin itong walang malay.
"How's your wound?" Tanong sa kanya ni Grant.
"Ayos naman. Hindi na masakit dahil siguro sa uminom ako nung gamot," sagot niya at bahagyang ngumiti.
Her wound lightly bleed when Lorch gripped her waist hard. Malapit sa sugat niya ang hawak nito kanina. It was painful but she sucked the pain because she know Lorch's has it worse.
"It'll be good if you go to sleep. I can stay here while you sleep," anito.
Saskia shook her head. "Ako na, Grant. Ayos lang ako. Dito narin ako matutulog sa tabi ni Lorch. Hindi rin naman ako makakatulog kung sa ibang silid ako."
Bumuntong-hininga ito. "Okay. Gisingin mo ako pagnagising siya at may napansin kang kakaiba. Talk to him when he wakes up and looks at his eyes if they respond to your voice. And if he doesn't and you think he's not being himself, don't hesitate to call me. Sa living room ng floor na ito ako matutulog para madali mo akong matawag."
Tumango siya. "Salamat, Grant. Good night."
"Night too," Grant replied, waving his hand.
Pagkasara ng pinto ay naghanda siya para matulog. Wearing a shirt from Lorch, Saskia first locked the door before she laid down beside her man.
Saskia fall asleep but woke up in the middle of the night when she felt movement and hears a groan.
Kahit na inaantok ay naupo siya at binuksan ang ilaw na nasa panig niya para makita si Lorch.
"Lorch?" she called, seeing him awake and sitting in his place. "May masakit ba sayo?"
Nagtaas ito ng tingin at tulad ng bilin sa kanya ni Grant ay pinakatitigan niya ang mata nito
"Ayos ka lang ba? May gusto ka ba?" Sunod sunod na tanong niya at hinaplos ang panga nito.
Nakahinga naman siya ng maluwag ng makitang nagrereact naman ito. Lorch close his eyes the moment her hand caress his jaw and then his hand caught her wrist to kiss her palm.
"You should sleep, luv, you need a lot of it." Mahinang saad nito.
"Ayos lang ako, baby." Ngumiti siya. "Hindi rin naman ako makakabalik sa pagtulog ngayong gising ka na. May gusto ka ba?"
Tumango ito. "Bathroom."
Hearing that Saskia quickly stands up to open the light on the ceiling. Tapos ay inalalayan niya ang binata na tumayo sa kama at papunta sa banyo.
Lorch was doing his business while she waited by the door, back turns to him, staring at the bed.
"May masakit ba sayo, Lorch?" Ulit niya sa tanong niya kanina.
Lorch just hummed while she sighed because she wanted a solid answer to assure her worried heart but it seems like he's still not completely himself. Kaya naman ay tahimik niya na lang itong hinintay pero halos mapatalon siya sa bigla nga yumakap sa bewang niya ang dalawang braso nito.
"I'm fine, luv." Bulong nito. "Wash my hand, luv." Lambing nito at ilang ulit na hinalikan ang leeg niya.
Napangiti siya. "Still want to be a big baby?"
"Hmm..."
"Okay." Hinawakan niya ang kamay nito saka kinalas ang yakap nito sa kanya.
Walang ingay niyang hinugasan ang kamay nito habang panay ang ngiti dito habang nakatitig ito sa mukha niya. Nang tinutuyo niya na ang kamay nito ay tinaasan niya ng isang kilay ang binata.
"What with the stares?" she asked.
"Nothing." Bahagya itong nagkibit-balikat. "I just find you beautiful."
Nakagat niya ang labi saka pinisil ang isang pisngi nito. "And you're handsome."
Hinapit nito ang bewang niya at hinila palapit sa katawan nito bago bumaba ang tinging sa suot niya. One look and Saskia knew Lorch is horny. The way his eyes darken with lust and how he moistens his lips says everything.
"I was awake roughly ten minutes before you did," he informed.
"Anong ginawa mo?"
Ngumisi ito. "Perving on my beautiful wife who got no underwear."
Malalim at kagyat na huminga si Saskia ng bumaba ang isang kamay nito at pumasok sa loob ng damit niya. Mabilis nitong hinimas ang pagkababae niya.
"I was in pain when I woke up but when I saw you, I just forget about it," he chuckles.
Umingos siya saka inalis ang kamay nito at maingat sinaklay ang dalawang braso sa balikat nito.
"I'm relieved you look perfectly fine. Though, that doesn't mean we're going to make love because that's not happening. No rigorous work for both of us."
"Didn't know making love is rigorous work."
"Lorch!" She protested when he forced her to turn around to face the sink.
Hindi ito tumugon at pinasok lang ang dalawang kamay sa suot niyang damit. One hand on her breast the other one on her center.
"L-Lorch... you shouldn't be— oohh..." Napaungol siya ang mariing kinagat ang labi ng mariin nitong minasahe ang klirotis niya kasabay ng pagkuyumos nito sa isang dibdib niya.
Mariin siyang napahawak sa counter dahil sa pagbalot ng init sa katawan niya. Wala rin sa sarili na ginalaw niya ang balakang para idiin ang pang-upo niya sa naninigas nitong pagkalalaki. Lorch then pressed himself harder to her back.
Sumandal siya sa katawan ni Lorch ng hinimas nito ang lagusan niya gamit ang isang daliri hanggang sa basang-basa na iyon.
"Aahh... Lorch, baby..." Saskia's lips parted when Lorch inserted two of his fingers. "Hmmm... Aah! Lorch..."
Ginalaw niya ang balakang para salubungin ang ulos ng daliri nito.
"Take off your shirt, luv." Utos nito sa malalim na boses.
Sinunod niya ito. At sa sandaling hubad na siya ay agad siya nitong pinatagilid upang sakupin ang isang tuktok ng dibdib niya. Kasabay rin niyon ang ang pagbilis ng galaw ng daliri nito sa pagkababae niya.
"Aah! Lorch! Faster! Aaahh... Faster, baby..." Hiling niya at hindi siya nito binigo.
Salitan itong sumuso sa dibdib niya habang walang habas na pinaglalabas masok ang dalawang daliri nito.
"Ooh! Lorch! Baby! Aahh... that's it... more, baby." Sunod sunod na ungol niya habang lubog sa nakakabaliw na sarap. "More, baby! I want more— uhmp! Oooh..."
Umawang ang labi niya ng saglit tumigil ang kamay nito para dagdagan ang daliri nitong lumulusob sa pagkababae niyang basang-basa na.
Saskia gripped Lorch's shoulder when he started pounding her with his three long and thick fingers.
"Ahh! Damn, it feels good, baby... Oh! Hmm..."
Kinagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi ng maramdaman na malapit na siya. At ilang ulos nga lang ay malakas siyang umungol at nanginig habang nilalabasan. Ni hindi niya alintana ang sakit ng medyo kinagat ni Lorch ang nipple niya. Her being was just overwhelmed by the orgasm.
Saskia moistened her lips when Lorch suck his middle finger while looking at her, eyes hooded with lust as he take a ragged breath.
"Darn sweet," he commented, after.
Saskia sneered, shaking her head. "You horny arse."
Umangat lang ang isang labi nito.
"Kasalanan mo. Matulog ka ba naman sa tabi ko ng t-shirt ko lang ang suot." Paninisi nito.
Umikot na lang ang mata niya saka hinawakan ang kamay nito para hugasan ulit iyon.
"Wala bang masakit sayo?" Tanong niya.
"Wala na."
Saskia frowned. "What do you mean?"
"My cock was hurting before."
Natigilan siya saka tumingin sa hinaharap at walang anong sinapo iyon para tignan kung naninigas pa rin ba iyon. And wasn't. It has calmed down.
"Did you cum?" she asked, frowning in disbelief.
"Yep, your moan, touching your body, and finger fucking your pussy was enough," he grinned.
Bumagsak ang balikat niya. "Ugh, mess!"
Natawa ito at niyakap siya. "You'll clean me, right?"
Inirapan niya ito. "Malamang."
"Thanks, luv."
Shaking her head, Saskia kissed his jaw and then lips. Malamlam ang mata na tinignan niya ang mata ng binata.
"I'm glad you are okay..." she whispered with a glad smile.
Lorch offered a tender smile as he looked at her with eyes filled with love.
"With you beside me and loving me is enough for me to hold on to my sanity." Naramdaman niya ang kamay nito sa tiyan niya. "And our baby was my strength too. He or she will not have a father that tumbled just because of his dark past. I want him or her to look up to me and teach him many things."
Saskia lovingly stared at him. "I love you."
"Mas mahal kita." Malawak ang ngiti na wika nito.
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Clfern
📪22.09.27